PoisonThere’s ice in my blood, in the blue veins,
and Pain whips its scorching-hot reigns,
yanking and tightening its cruel hold
until my whole body grows very cold…
Licking crimson fire and creeping cobalt ice –
they clasp my limp body in an iron vice
so steel-strong and diamond-hard
that the black cords leave me scarred…
The fire drags me into the deep black,
the ice shows me memories of way back.
Colors dance before my feverish eyes
and images roam with deafening cries…
Voices softly whisper and gently plead,
but I can’t hear that they and their words bleed.
They don’t realize that this mortal disease
isn’t visible, nor recognized with ease…
Painful? Certainly. Serious? Yes. Deadly? Aye.
But completely hidden from the human eye.
Outside I’m calm, composed, but fake,
the true illness lying buried but awake…
A toxic poison slowly spreading to its goal,
eating, chipping away at my blackening soul,
and my weak, fluttering
Stories Never ToldIn darkness whisper secrets,Stories Never Told2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of stories never told.
Share your hopes and share your dreams,
Until your blood runs cold.
In the light I’ll keep them,
In an illusion that is real.
I will mould the world around you,
To erase everything you feel.
Trust me or deceive me,
Either will be my due.
In the end I will be victorious,
In the end I’m you.
The never ending youWhat can I write, what can I say,The never ending you3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
that hasn't already been expressed every way?
All the facets and fine lines and feelings you are,
have been carefully scribed in great detail so far.
From the simplest of words that have slipped from your soul,
to the intricate parts that keep you humble and whole.
From the thoughts that have moved you and others so grand,
to the aura of passion when one takes your hand.
I have written and spoken and filled up my days,
with detailed descriptions of all of your ways.
Yet for the thousands of words that profess you so true,
I can honestly say I am nowhere closer to through.
Broken And AbusedTurn your face, my friend, and look at me.Broken And Abused2 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
You'll see that I'm turned against you
You wonder why, but can't you see?
My dear friend, you are one of the few
The few that decide to use me for yourself and your pleads.
But no, if you look again,
You'll see that I'm not there anymore for your stupid needs.
But this isn't your bargain.
You think that you can use me whenever you want to.
No. Not anymore.
I've finally come through.
Even though I'm broken and sore.
I guess this is who I am and will be.
The person to be used.
But I opened the cage, and set myself free.
I was used to comfort you, used to make you feel better, but you still made me feel weak, abused.
When will it be my chance to be used, but for the better, and not the worse?
I don't know when, but I hope my chance will come.
Maybe this won't get better for me, and just be my curse.
So when you use me again, and you see that I won't reply, it'll be you this time that'll look dumb.
11. WelcomeWelcome into my home11. Welcome2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Welcome into my heart
Welcome into my life
Watch it fall apart
Welcome into my zone
Welcome into my light
Welcome into my darkness
Watch it ignite
Welcome into my garden
Welcome to my path
Welcome to the gates of hell
Welcome to my blood bath
Welcome to the aisle of lost souls
Where the paper gods do see
Welcome to the gallows
Readying the guillotine
Welcome to the paper church
To the melting pot of doom
Welcome to the justification
Welcome to the interrogation room
Welcome to the battle field
The gladiator ring
Where you are my slave
Where you dance and sing
Welcome to the never ending brick road
Welcome to the trap door floors
Welcome to the death traps set
Say hello to the paper whores
There is a place I want you to come
A place I welcome you to
Welcome to never after
The place you were never you
Welcome to the black and white
The twisty dark stairs
The evil hallways of laughter
And the cries of "Its not fair"
Welcome to my mind
A place unfit for design
InsanityFrom the suffering I comeInsanity2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Bleeding through the eyes,
The hope is now gone
Drowned in your cries.
A sudden scream, the agonys so loud,
You drop to your knees,
Pray to God to help you out,
But once again, He has let you down.
Not able to move,
Not able to speak,
Life is so cruel,
And always was, it seems.
Youve lost your will,
Youre getting weak,
Your body has collapsed
And so have your dreams.
Your mind gives up,
But you still want to fight,
Strength seeps out through your wrists
So you just fall down.
Then comes the peace,
So desired and calm.
Your head is now empty
And so is your heart.
Theres no more pain,
No memories, nor hopes.
Sweet and bright,
Settling down in your mind.
Your new I
Three in Five MinutesDream one was a bright white flashThree in Five Minutes2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
and sounds of things breaking
I opened my eyes and saw it all.
Now I think that it was me.
Dream two was my child yelling
"Where are you? Where are you?"
I opened my ears and heard it all.
Now I think that it was me.
Dream three was a sudden knocking
on the door in deepest dark.
I opened the door and saw nothing.
Now I think that it was me.
Keep FightingKeep fighting,Keep Fighting2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And never let go.
Just hold on a little longer.
The time has come to prove what your worth.
It's time to show them how much you care.
For what you want,
You might just get it.
Even when you feel like giving up.
Never let go, never give up,
Just keep fighting.
It's time to take control,
It's time to make it right.
Come on we can do it,
Let's do this together,
And fight for what is right.
And never let go.
Just hold on a little longer.
Love is blind... but oh the things we seeWe see the things we want to see.Love is blind... but oh the things we see2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
We become the things we long to be.
We hear the things that make us tear.
We forget the things we used to fear.
We think what's right can do no wrong.
We brand the moments with a song.
We listen with escaping sighs.
We see the soul behind the eyes.
Love may be blind but I can see
when you can feel those things from me.
So lets go blind with feelings now
and if you get lost I'll show you how
to enjoy that blinding feeling too
just as I've felt it true with you.
My SanityThe matter of my sanityMy Sanity2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is nothing for you to yearn.
Just something for me to know,
And for you to learn.
My mind is cracking,
The flaws becoming apparent.
My soul is shattering...
Splitting me into nothing.
But my bonds...
They hold me together.
They keep me stable...
Like a light
In the darkest night,
They lead me to where
I should take residence.
Sheltering my soul,
My mind and my heart
From the evils forces at work...
Saving me from utter destruction.
My twin and my love,
The strongest of them all.
Holding me up
While I don't let them fall.
The matter of my sanity
Is nothing for you to yearn...
Just something for me to know,
And for you to learn.
Even though sometimes
I don't know where I stand...
I can always look around,
And see the ones I love.
With a smile on my face
And a passion in my heart...
The strength in my spirit
Even when I'm falling apart...
I can always be with them,
No matter where our shells lie.
So whatever happens,
Whenever time stops...
We never h
MuchI must admit,Much2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am so scared.
Through all of it,
I've been so prepared
to find one final reason to let everything slip
to realize why, officially,
it isn't worth it to equip
myself with battle armor
when the war's already spent
to see I'm stuck where things are harder,
where I'm bad and should repent
give my life to either side,
evil lust or loving guide...
the ones who have been dealt the worst
fall onto either end
becoming uncannily amazing, always the first
to love someone to mend.
Or they let it in and fall so hard
that they never felt the hit
only let themselves be forever scarred
an unavoidable prerequisite
to the desire for pain they now could feel
where before there was nothing else
And with their blood they sign a seal
that would forever keep them real.
Like I said, I waited
for the darker end to call
because the thought I always hated
was being left alone and small.
but there was an life-altering twist,
one I did not expect...
There was someone the dark had missed
when it lef
Lonely CriesDon't look at meLonely Cries2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When I fall apart
I don't want you
To hear my cries
I will always push away
The ones who say they care
It's just sorrow and shame
They care only about themselves
It's just their morality
That makes them pretend
They never look in my eyes
Too afraid of what they might see
Of the empty stare
That won't go away
Scared of the darkness
Of the soulless face
And the hint of a murder
That is always there
Dreams DreamsDreams3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The legendary land
My thoughts are not real
They are lies, I'm living a lie
I dream that we would exist... together
Last PagesIn my manuscript where I wrote my pieces,Last Pages2 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Its final pages to my pen releases.
With lies about love it is full,
Reading it sometimes gets dull.
Her name all over the pages is scattered,
I remember the time when my heart it flattered,
Now I look at it and burn from despair,
I am hopeless, I am not treated fair.
In times of darkness she shed light,
But now again I am struck by the night.
What means to smile I forgot,
By a bullet called reality I was shot.
JeffxFangirl 3Your Point of ViewJeffxFangirl 32 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"What's going on up here?" my mom asks.
"I was on Youtube," I lie smoothly. "But I'm going to bed now. G'night."
And with that she leaves. Man, that was a close one. At least Jeff remembered to close my
The next day is Saturday, so there's no school for me. I decide to clear my mind by taking
a walk in the park close to my house because my mother is being mean to me again today. She
even punched me once, claiming I was being rude. It left me with a black eye. (abusive
mother IT HAD TO HAPPEN PEOPLE!)
As I walk, I begin to notice the trees rustling beside me slightly. I quickly dismiss it
as a small animal in the bushes.
But, as soon as I do, a white hand comes out and yanks me through the bushes and past
the trees into the woods. Jeff pulls me close to him.
He takes both of my hands and puts them in his grip, trapping me there. I squirm to no
"Your name," Jeff demands. "What's your name?"
excuse my addictionlittle words upon a screenexcuse my addiction2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
dark circles forming
the addiction is growing
the hours are late
almost four in the morning
across your glazed eyes
what is reality?
beyond this screen
i've forgotten how to communicate
with the others beyond
this digital world
tap tap tap
fingers pressed against keys
meaningless little letters
across my screen
will the people even remember me
if i suddenly left?
meaningless little screen names
and non existent relationships.
add an update
tweet a pointless tweet
who really cares on facebook
about the things you eat?
sleep would be an good option
resistance is futile
I keep on typing
there's no enjoyment
it's simply a routine now
stay on for hours
staring at my screen
what's the point anymore?
Train to NowhereI'm on a train,Train to Nowhere2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Can't see through the rain,
I try not to care.
It's moving too fast,
but how do i slow?
Am I running from my past,
or just eager to go?
I know I should stop,
try to get a grip,
but this train is on lock,
and my sanity begins to slip.
Would it be so bad to ride,
to let this train go on?
We all know that I lied,
that I'm too far gone.
I can never be me,
no matter how I try.
Can't you see?
This has all been a lie.
So I'll sit and relax,
let the train run.
Maybe the train will crash.
Wouldn't that be fun?
Love curseMy love curse.Love curse3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I love you
I really do
But when I die
I do not want you to cry.
I want you to know,
I want you to see
That you have caged me
And i regret my vow
I never should have said
"Love is a mistake"
When you told me your heart I should take.
And make you think your love was fake.
I want to tell you
From the love I had
But then you would die
And leave me sad.
It is my curse from my red eye
I want you so much.
It makes me cry
I want to be able to love you as such
Member of the WeekRandom Member of the WeekMember of the Week2 years ago in Personal More Like This
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DrowningDrowning in misery,Drowning2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm suddenly struck by depression
down in the depths of sorrow and guilt,
unable to forget or let go.
falling, groping into the darkness,
a demon waiting at the bottom
Unable to breathe, I can only die.
Drowning without you,
so far gone I can't remember your voice
It hurts, damnit, it hurts!
I can't see, but I can hear your laugh
Drowning, I reach out,
but you're too far away
No longer in contact, I feel it's been forever.
Unable to talk will we ever again?
Drowning, the fear choking me
you are my air, my dear.
Don't forget me, don't let go,
my eyes strain to see your face.
Drowning, I'm so cold
bones and blood tingling,
ice shimmering over my eyes
You're the only one who can warm my heart.
The PainThe Pain is to much.The Pain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Only a blade can cure it.
I sink it into my skin.
But it is just a num feeling.
So i sink it deeper until it feels good.
I fall into darkness.
I move the razer up-to my throat.
But move it away not daring of what would be next.
The demons in my lie haunt me and tell me to do it.
Move the Razer to your throat they say.
But i cant .... I wont let them control me.
I claw my way out of darkness and scream onto the top of my lungs.
But no one comes.
Ink GravesLetterless words and pageless books-Ink Graves3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and ink blots on the flowers;
Ghosts scratch their heads and tap their pens,
all across the hours.
Winds can howl and cease to be,
by one twitch of my pen;
I spoke of writing a poem tonight,
and by dawn I've written ten.
Emily sits aside nobody,
the Raven, above, waits;
Frost dances in a yellow wood,
among the long lost dates.
A tall, well spoken willow,
looms over the grave;
Protecting every dated word,
and every thought they gave.
I crumple another masterpiece,
with thoughts I'd thought to save;
and as it strikes the baset bottom,
it rests in its ink grave.
The DancerNo sound do her feet makeThe Dancer3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Nor are her hands empty
As she treads on the polished, springy floor.
Ever her toes and ankles ache,
And her knees hurt already –
They pay the price for her dreams to soar.
She turns the music on,
The piano plays with emotion,
And she becomes like a river's cold, clear water:
Fluidity, her slender arms don,
Her eyes blue as the ocean,
She begins her dance without a single totter.
Limbs begin to move in time,
Feet start their soft thumping,
Her whole body writhes in molten movement,
Her weaving and winding, sublime.
On each crescendo jumping,
And every moment whirling, she embodies lament.
She reaches out to an unknown,
But pulls back and crumbles.
From the motionless heap comes a little cry –
Up looks a teary face of stone,
A mix of genuine and scumble;
For she dances to escape, to run away, to fly.
Spins, twists and she's off balance,
But still moving, so painfully.
Aches in her hard muscles and willowy limbs
Make her wince in her stance,
And dance all the mo
Stay tonightDon't leave meStay tonight3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't leave me here tonight
Alone with my treacherous mind
This room of mirrors
I can see me
I can see all of me
But I can't see who's my enemy
I need you tonight
I need you here with me
Someone real, I can see and hold
Someone to bring me back
Someone to remind me of what I have
So will you stay tonight,
And help me through this darkness?