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Todayi look in the MirrorToday5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
and this is what i See
all my Insecurities
Staring back at me.
nothing will ever be good enough
nothing will ever work out
because even if i know
there is always all this Doubt.
i see Desperation
i see Panic
i see Loneliness
i see Doubt
i see me.
Swear?Ever want to die?Swear?5 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
To stick that needle in your eye?
Wish apon a lie?
I've been there.
It's hard to bear.
That she doesn't even care.
So I just sit and stare.
As it all turns grey.
And I wither away.
There's no such thing as a good day.
When you're made fun of for being gay.
The CutCutting deep.The Cut7 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As I weep.
I can't even sleep.
Without her there.
She's like my air.
I long for her care.
I'm so hurt.
I feel like dirt.
Especially when you flirt.
Hours of you being silent.
Caused me to be violent.
A WindowA Window7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wish I could just climb out my window and sit on the roof.
Just so I can see the stars at night when I can't sleep.
I would do my best not to make a peep.
Thats what the night does to me.
Seeing the stars in the velvet sky, it sets me free.
I wish I could just climb out my window and sit on the roof.
All of my anxieties would be gone with the touch of the crisp cool wind.
All of my problems, the stars would mend.
I could learn wisdom from the owls.
Who reside in barn gallows.
I wish I could just climb out my window and sit on the roof.
Watch the bats fly by, with out a care.
And shiver as the wind hits my arms that are bare
You.YouYou.7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Oblivious, Brainless
Annoying, Despised, Crazy
Hated, Hurtful, Rude, Ridiculous
Disrespectful, Heartless, Selfish, Reckless, Liar
Mean, Lowlife, Burden, Immature
Twofaced, Deceiver, Sinful
Vulgar, Catastrophic
Monster
At PeaceI'm under the water againAt Peace7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
it's dark and silent,
except for the humming in my ears.
My legs are crossed
and I'm sitting on the soft clay at the bottom of the sea.
There's no one around
There's nothing to do
I sit and breath and relax my muscles
My hair is light and soft and floats around my head
It is relaxing
and calming and
safe.
No one is near me
nothing is bothering me
The water moves around me softly
but that could be my imagination
There are no fish
no sea monsters
I am not afraid.
I am not stressed
or sad
or happy
or angry
or anything but
at peace.
My heart beats steadily
and somehow I can breath
There is no one around me
SplittingIt's a breaking feelingSplitting8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
But the pieces don't shatter
It's an amoeba splitting
Natural as can be
Given all they can give to each other
And moving forward
SecretsShe's walking aloneSecrets9 months ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
With her head hung low
Avoiding the stares
Of the passing by
Never looking up
To see anyone's eyes
People that see her
Think she's shy
But no one knows
The secrets she hides
Never letting anyone
Dare to see her cry
Tough on the outside
Hiding behind her lies
But deep inside
She slowly dies
NamesakeI know what Julius Caesar had in mindNamesake10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
When he made his namesake July
He pictured late nights that bleed
Into sepia toned mornings
Ending with the turn of a key
A stumble to a home
Make up drippings run to the floor
Melting off of you like a Dali clock
Sandals hang from tight fists
Dirty feet tiptoe into bed
Greasy hair tangles
And a grin brighter than the sun rise
broken girlbroken as can bebroken girl10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
the pain grows
as the tears flow
down my cheek
as i think
whats wrong with me
why is he hurting me
these scars
tell the stories
why did he leave these bruses
why he take something he could not have
why he do another girl
why was that person more important then me
why were you to busy for me
all i want to be first
why hurt me
then walk away
as if you never did anything
i can show you the scars
i can tell you
what youve done
if you can not remember
ill remind you
for these tears are from you
so dont say its me
because you knew
iv been hurt
and all iv ever wanted
was to be loved
but the words to you
endingsyou walked awayendings10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
my heart ripped and broken
lying on the floor
as i bleed out
the pain bringing tears
you left
as i tryed to get better
you did not believe me
because of your past
but i did not lie
i am not perfect
but i was willing to become
perfect for you
i tryed
but fell again
where is the love
that can see past my flaws
so he will see
that im willing to work
to become the best
for him
Miss youI miss youMiss you11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I miss everything about
The way you would care for me,
The way you would get worried if I fell
The way you made sure I was alright
I miss the way you would protect me
The way you would punch people,
The way you would hurt them for me
It made me smile
I miss the way I played with your hair,
Your o so fluffy hair
I miss the way it swirled in one direction
The way your friends would question it
I miss the sound of your voice
The warmth of your body
I miss your laughter,
Your smile
I miss everything about you,
You make me smile
I miss you
I LOVE YOU!
waiting for the princeTime ticks awaywaiting for the prince11 months ago in Settings More Like This
As the tears hit the floor
The pain of waiting seeps in
A sigh escapes
From lips that held back words
She denies what people say
But does not know why she must wait
If his heart beats for her
Wouldn't he be with her?
Instead of her waiting
As her life passes by
Time goes as the tears slide
The thoughts take over
The pain settles in
As the wrinkles shows through the skin
As she coughs from illness
For her prince
Made he wait
A thousand years
Just for a hello…
Then a goodbye
Unheard WordsIm not going to have another one way fight with you tonightUnheard Words11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because you just can't hear my tear filled screams
Or maybe its because you don't want to take notice to me
Im guaranteed to choke on my own anger and pain
Before you ever realize anything is out of the ordinary
Or could me suffering for loving you the new "Normal"?
I couldn't hate you even after a million fights
Ive shed tears and blood all the same for you
Your etched into my skin, your part of me
Scars yell out your name in hope for an answer
I just wished that someday you might listen
smoke- a letter.No matter how much I brush my teeth, my breath still smells like smoke. No matter how much perfume I spray on, the scent still lingers in the air around me. No matter what I do, this habit is affecting my body. And to be honest, I don't mind. I'm dying young anyway, and I love the smell of smoke. It reminds me of you, and it reminds me of how we met. You knew I smoked since the beginning, and you do it too. When my hands smell like smoke, I feel like I've been holding yours. When my breath smells like smoke, I feel like I've been kissing you. When my body smells like smoke, I feel like you've been close to me. But you don't love me like you dsmoke- a letter.1 year ago in Letters More Like This
Her.I love her.Her.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She is my life,
She is my reason,
She is my motivation,
Even though this feeling is not shared.
I will stay by her side,
Through every problem she may face.
She has broken my heart,
But I will live on.
Now she dislikes me,
While I try to stay with her,
And she wishes for me to leave.
I want to stay,
But I don't want her to hate me.
So many problems I face,
So little time to deal with them.
Yet, I live on.
~By me. A letter to my friend that I love.
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In My Life, Who the Hell am I? -- Ch. #14.In My Life, Who the Hell am I? -- Ch. #14.1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
I felt a cold finger poking my cheeks and nose, along with a distant mumbling from Ringo, and when I blinked my eyes open, it was George poking me as I lay on his chest. There was a cold breeze and I could see there were a few more jackets placed on top of me, making me feel feel very warm everywhere except for my face and hands.
I could finally make out what Ringo was saying, "Maybe we could just walk down the street the way we were heading and hope to find something over there." I quickly pulled myself up, shaking my head.
"No no," I started, sitting up and pulling my sleeve up to reveal the watch on my wrist. "I can find our way with thi
A love letterA love letter was sent to me.A love letter10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Traveled over mountains and across the sea.
With a whisper and a thoughtful seal,
Her emotions captured for me to feel.
I was captivated, it smelled of her.
And in the dark, it felt like her.
Each word there was written for me,
Every line placed for me to see
So with a whimper and an un-felt kiss,
I held the letter in bittersweet bliss.
I was paralyzed, left needing her.
And in the dark, I dreamt of her.
A love letter was sent to me,
A love letter which I did read.
A love letter I never gave,
To the person which the letter named.
A lonely soul suffersBeing surrounded by people,A lonely soul suffers8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Never made feeling alone so easy.
And feeling alone is like a disease.
It's degenerating, and invasive.
It penetrates even your most secret of places
and leaves them hollow and dull.
You get buried in your self pity,
you gasp for air that doesn't taste like sorrow,
and in the night you claw open your ugly thoughts.
Each and every one bleeding with such regret.
If only you could scream.
You could scream if only you had it in you.
Then when you've lost your fight,
a broken more passive you is left shaking,
in the corner of your mind.
Who will save you?
If only there was a single soul reaching out to
Beauties and BuzzardsHer mouth was like a hummingbird's wingsBeauties and Buzzards7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Constant motion, searching for something sweet
And each time she talked her whole body vibrates
Hands shaking, limbs full of quake
She could find nectar in the wilting plants
Sitcky sweet, dripping through her hands
It was perpetual palpitation
A swirling natural syncopation
Her life moving faster than a metronome swings
Balancing it all on little bird wings
Smolder's Arrival. Falling....falling....falling through time and space.Smolder's Arrival.10 months ago in Profiles More Like This
The world tilting and spinning in all directions.
The sky, the water, the ground a hazy, colourful blur.
Shadows and sunlight, warmth and ice, stinging rain and blasting heat.
A piercing bolt of agonizing force, shaking and smothering her mind.
Striking solid ground - rock - and greeting pitch black.
.......for himThe pain.......for him10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't breathe
I have to be honest
When I say it
I mean it
Those words
Are my life
I'm sorry
That I cannot be with you
Id fight for you
But the right is gone
I said I loved you
But I'm broken
And I can't hurt you
So I'll have to hurt myself
So I could be better
For you
I would not ask
For you to wait
But I'll come for you
When you need me
for now
These tears are for you
Because my heart will love you
But my mind will push me away from you
memories starts a warMemoriesmemories starts a war10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Flooding my head
Hear break
Taken over my tears
I cant live without you
But cant be with you
I must run away
Wishing your hand to grab mine
Pull me back
Embrace me
Ill push
You pull
My heart explodes
As my mind implodes
I cant
But I want
Take me back
Push me away
No longer love me
Love me till you die
My mind
Fights
My heart
These memories
Starts a war
Fairy TalesOne day I woke upFairy Tales10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
And stopped believing in fairy tales.
Mother?
Why did you lie?
Father?
Why didn't you tell me?
Fairy tales aren't real.
Even if they were real
I'm not the princess.
I'm not even the prince.
I'm the old woman who wants
To be beautiful.
When did I stop believing?
Sta.sh
