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No More TherapyNo More Therapy10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
No More Therapy
Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here
Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done
Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision
Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
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I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything
Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind
Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
A Sleepless NightA Sleepless Night10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Sleepless Night
(That Will Never Alight)
This same old nightmare that I grimly fear
An image of my life haunted by your shadows
I'm frozen in place, waiting for daylight to soon appear
But I don't know if I'm ready to take on another loveless tomorrow
Why am I the one who suffers when you're not even really here?
I should not have to be the one inflicted by your falsely bestowed sorrow
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You made and broke every one of those promises
You left even though you knew that you'd be greatly missed
You were not the one saying that you're so sorry
You were not the one who was left crying uncontrollably
You didn't feel your heart being
Aura: The RadianceAura: The Radiance11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Aura: The Radiance
I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering
I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall
I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone
I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death
To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope
Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig
Wings Of FireWings Of Fire11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wings Of Fire
Damages have been reversed
I have many flaws to be purged
Tempted for the gift of death to end this living curse
I plead for you to pass the torch
Hand over the destiny I've been waiting for
I can no longer endure this unbearable dirge
My pyre-
Send me off to the fiery abyss
My ignitor-
Free me from life's grip
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Weep not for past sins
Leave behind those memories
Weep not for scarred skin
Forgive those memorable tragedies
Let go of that darkness within
Grasp onto serenity
Lift up the veil for the ending
Hold onto clarity
There's peace within pain
Calm can engulf the chaos
There's love behind the hate
Freedom can mask the gr
A Loveless DayA Loveless Day11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)
This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray
As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay
In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the liquid-silver droplets of rain
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You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done
You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you
You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you ha
My Unblind SinsMy Unblind Sins11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Unblind Sins
In the beginning I was emotionally blind
So I always pushed the guilt to the back of my mind
Even though I saw all of my lies with these heartless eyes
I'm the one at fault
For all of the wrong I've done
And I can't live with what my decisions have brought
I'm my own prisoner of these memories
Unforgettable stains of my grief
I'm also the warden, and I can't leave
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Shackled by my mistakes
Wrapped in a chain of lies
I deserve the past I made
For the future won't be mine
Bound by the pain I gave
Locked in a cage of my conscience
I'm serving my time until the end of days
For this is my own form of self-vengean
I'm Falling DownI'm Falling Down10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm Falling Down
Pain just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky
Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire
I closed my sorrowful eyes
As if it was going to be the last time
And sparked images of my past that I don't want to remember
I was deceived every time I was told that it was going to get better
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Flashes of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine
Breathe/Breathe/Breathe
While despair wraps around my heart
I want to let it all go
This life was just too hard
I don't want it anymore
Please/Please/Please
There was no way out of this
I so
In The DistanceIn The Distance10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
In The Distance
I've realized that nothing never really ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
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I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons
I said all of the words I've needed
To you
And to the mirror
I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened
I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
For you
Beneath my surface
They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you I'm nothing
I meant every single tear I cried
With you
My one true purpose
I'm feeling so forsaken and faithless / To my world you're everything
I couldn't hold on as I slowly let go of my grip
Of
A Voice In The WindA Voice In The Wind10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Voice In The Wind
I can only think of how much I miss you
The pieces of me fall
The time without you stalls
On the inside I know it's wrong
But you're still with me as I carry on
As I try and search for where my heart belongs
I can only remember of how much I loved you
I don't know what I did wrong
I'm so sorry for whatever I've done
Not knowing if I remain unforgiven
I still whisper apologies to try and make a difference
Because I can't take anymore of this lovesick conscience
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I will always be lost in this storm
As it forever rages on inside of me
Because all I can do now is mourn
While this story becomes a tragedy
Winc
The Unseen LifeThe Unseen Life9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Unseen Life
I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes
I realize that I am brokenly made
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My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess
Even in death I will never rest
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All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline a
The Unread LetterThe Unread Letter1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Unread Letter
If I could go back in time
I would, and say what I really wanted to say
Then maybe, just maybe you would still be mine
And I never would have had to go through all of this pain
I yearn to take it all back
To cast away every word that was said
I want you to know I didn't mean any of that
Because I knew you were the one when we first met
You're the one that let go
I was the one to get left behind
You're the one that took my soul
I was the one that had a break down that night
-
You said nothing
And left me waiting
I needed you to say something
I silently pleaded for you to say anything
Maybe I thought it was a
Our Numb TearsOur Numb Tears9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Our Numb Tears
Something deep within me / Is longing for relief
A haunting aura around me / Reminding me of the grief
Scratching at the core of my soul / Hope is swallowed by a black hole
Locked in the center of my heart / All that is left is the traumatized part
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Laugh, smile, blink, and focus. You just need to act as normal as possible.
You cannot let this pain get the best of you. Don't do anything irresponsible.
The damage you do to yourself also effects everyone else, so don't let it become irreversible.
You'r
Wings Of DarknessWings Of Darkness1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wings Of Darkness
I seek your help to become the unseen
Guide all of this pain back into my lies
Please, never let me experience this again
I need you to blind me from the light
Cease the false hope from shining in vain
Push back the blood and tears so I won't cry
My warrior
Sheath me between your hollow feathers
My defender
Keep me in your tight embrace forever
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Turn every sad day into calm night
Burn the radiating sun out
Darken the dreaming sky
Let the fading clouds melt
Lock away this cruel gift of sight
I no longer want it
Shut out the world from you and I
I yearn for this
Take away this self-hatred
Bring back my in
Plead For ReleasePlead For Release10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Plead For Release
God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction
I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
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I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please
Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
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God, I was never really one for confrontatio
Shadow SunShadow Sun9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Shadow Sun
And in that very moment, I knew it was already too late
My vision has adjusted
The memories of my former life all just slipped away
My light has faded
The last of the fallen sparks fluttered in the distance
My hope has been obliterated
The shadows rose to claim their long awaited radiance
My destiny was always fated
-
In my heart, I lost it all
To this very second, it's still my fa
Somewhere in Between Everything10 months ago in Objects
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RiptideRiptide11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Riptide
This one is too important
So don't you dare wake me, please
I need to see it to the end, it's urgent
Because dreams like these mean the world to me
Frantically regretting real life
You should have never opened my eyes
You're a boulder, plunging into a still pond
Once so calm and peaceful
Your disturbing ripples seem to last eons
Now so rapid and unstable
Crashing into paradise
You wrecked it when you arrived
It's like a mystery that was almost solved
But the chance was taken away
It's like a happy memory turned to a loss
Because your presence got in the way
A perfect opportunity slipped
You're the one that ruined it
You're a tw
She had never thought of herself as brokenShe had never thought of herself as broken,She had never thought of herself as broken10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
as missing, as unfinished, as incomplete.
She used to think she was complete, accomplished;
her flaws hidden, her heart healed and soul varnished.
Her Creator had made her independent -
she did not need her "other half" to be whole.
However
When he left, a cold hand wrapped around her heart;
she ached, trapped under the weight of missing him.
She craved his presence, his arms around her waist,
his hands in her hair, his eyes locked on to hers.
She realized she'd simply been fooling herself -
He was her "other half", a 'yin' to her 'yang'.
She had never thought of herself as broken,
u
ScarmakerScarmaker11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Scarmaker
Your promises kept
Breaking Breaking Breaking
I tried to hold onto those hopeful words you said
But you've always managed to hurt the both of us in the end
These tears shed
Seething Seething Seething
Down and away like liquified memories of regret
While every stinging mistake rushes back and quickly spreads
My hands left
Trembling Trembling Trembling
I find myself feeling lost in this inner emptiness
As all of my love for you continually bleeds out of my chest
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This is our last resort / Please don't say it's so!
There's no trus
Rain Of DarknessRain Of Darkness11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Darkness
Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black
When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable
The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction
My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction
You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation
Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted
Rev
A Moment Of LoveA Moment Of Love11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Moment Of Love
This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much
I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does
I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
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I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark b
DependentDependent11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dependent
It's one of those days
When everything goes wrong
And it hurts you in ways
When it feels like you don't belong
Thinking of the choices you made
What you've done
Questioning if redemption is too late
Can this guilt be overcome?
-
I deserve to remain
Locked within the pain
As my tears are wrapped in chains
And it's all true
What we all go through
Take all of my problems and give 'em to you
Because I cannot
Win back the battles I lost
For I am unable to pay the courage it costs
For those who say
That the past can't be changed
They're right, but the memories won't go away
So lead me astray
Carry all of my burdens
Alcohol Fueled WordsAlcohol Fueled Words1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Alcohol Fueled Words
Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack
Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven
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You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me
You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but y
VictimVictim8 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Victim
A sigh
That could obliterate the indestructible
A tear
That can crush any emotional-barrier
A life
That seems beyond cruel
A fear
That is far out of control
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It's impossible almost every night / You're the one who left me traumatized
As my lungs become EVER-so numb / This damage can NEVER be undone
Then my wounded memory floods / You will always be a part of my blood
Gasping for air
Holding my head
Afflicted by despair
I will never be able to forget
Living like this
One can only pretend
There is no such thing as darkness
But I knew I could not prevent the end
A part of me
Has that one wish
There was no tragedy
Sta.sh
