This story is co-authored with . Please follow the links at the end of the description to get to the next chapters.
SPOILERS: Everything up to and including Mass Effect 3's ending.
SUMMARY: After the tragic events of Mindoir and Akuze, Marco Shepard has grown so accustomed to the abyss that the idea of falling into it doesn’t scare him anymore. And when someone no longer fears death, being ‘willing to die for someone’ becomes hollow words… But this time, he may just have found someone to live for...
DISCLAIMERS: All the characters in the story belong to Bioware, and whoever else has the rights on Mass Effect. Some quotes will directly be borrowed from the games.
Anything about Marco Shepard that isn't already part of the default character, including his personality and elements of his back story, was created by Cygnonymous.
Oh! And so is that gorgeous cover picture that she drew for our story. That's totally Cygnonymous' artwork. One of the perks for collaborating with a writing partner that has all the talents. ; b
WARNING: Certain chapters may contain more mature situations such as thoughts related to depression and suicidal intent, descriptions of violence, and sex between two loving and consenting adults.
Well, it finally happened. After playing the Citadel DLC for Mass Effect 3--specifically after watching the scenes between Kaidan and Shepard--I felt that I needed to write an adaptation. One of these days, I may write a full-fledged adapt of the Mass Effect Trilogy, but I have other more pressing projects to worry about. Anyway, this was written so I could say thank you to BioWare for allowing me five years to play with Commander Shepard and help save the galaxy from the Reapers. Thank you, BioWare!
We'll both break free if we make it on top If one should fall, we both will drop We move together from here on out What you need is what I'm about
We're tied together Now and forever.
Some love for the contest at
Ready for the rant? I hope so, cuz here goes.
The theme for this contest was blissfully vague, which I loved. It was basically asking its participants to write/draw their ME couple. Period. Go. Run with it. And I was super excited to start.
So I sat down with my trusty laptop and turned on Les Friction and the ME3 soundtrack and started writing. And basically whatever came out turned into sappy shit.
Everything I was writing about was happy. Poker night, Shepard's birthday, blah, blah, blah. It was easy to write and terrible to read and I deleted them all and felt very good about shoving them in the trash because I felt like I was starting to write those stupid fics where everything is great and lovely and adorable.
Which is complete bull, because
KAIDAN AND JOHN ARE NOT A HAPPY-EVER-AFTER.
Their relationship could never have been a happy-ever-after, and that's one of the things that drew me to them in the first place. I hadn't even played the game when I fell in love with them: I was home alone, surfing Youtube, stumbled across the ME3 soundtrack, started watching the ME3 playthrough, and from there I was hooked. Mom came home a couple of hours later to find me sitting on the floor crying my heart out because if there's anything that's ever broken my heart, it was the way that Shepard told Kaidan that he'd be waiting for him and then went and fucking sacrificed killed himself.
Of course once the extended cut came out and Bioware confirmed that Shepard could indeed survive the Destroy option, things got better. But up until that point, the ending was so unfair and horrible and a total shock that Shepard died while Kaidan lived and I hated it so much that I couldn't get it out of my head and couldn't erase them from my mind and one day I just started puking up these poem-based stories. And to my surprise you guys actually liked them.
That means a lot. Like, a lot more than I could ever tell you. And a lot of days, your comments are the only things that get me through the day.
Anyway, back to the point: Kaidan and John's relationship is so much deeper than the shallow jokes and goofy, cross-eyed lover stuff that I was trying to make. And once I remembered that, everything came so much easier.
I sat in a room by myself and closed my eyes and played the ME3 love theme on repeat and thought about what I wanted to write for a long, long time and when I was done I went back to my computer and shat this out.
Part II of a two part series: what if Kaidan had left the Alliance after the Normandy's destruction at the hands of the Collectors, and Liara had been the one to oversee the reconstruction of Shepard instead of Cerberus?
AHHHH I JUST ABSOLUTELY LOVED WRITING THIS.
Did I say that before? I think I did...
I wish that Liara would've taken the project into her own hands. I'm sure she could've; she's a smart girl.
Pairing:MShenko (Commander John Shepard & Major Kaidan Alenko)
I burn to make you understand One wrong word and it all may come crashing down For the fates are devious by heart They envy you your dreams, so they'll let you drown
And there is no why, there is no how, it's like the sky, just one free flow But you're here right now, and this is your show, so take a bow, cause the show is on right...
Here and now with all dreams realized Would you choose still more time to do Don't fall down when it's time to arise No-one else can heal your wounds
Once again taboo becomes your law What you want seems taken by another tide turning Away from our flower field where we used to lay beneath the sky, riding dreams to some other side
I've been having a lot of MShenko feels lately and I'm really, really tired of not being able to express them. Ugh. So I decided to not give a hoot about what you say and write some sweet Shenko aftermath lovin. I know, I'm obsessed with reunions, but I went more in depth with this one, giving more a set up for John not to do so well in the Hospital.
My Male Shepard is renegade for the most part. He only does paragon where it would truly make sense (i.e; telling the Illusive Man to suck a dick, destroying the base, getting the Krogan on his side by not killing Mordin or Wrex, Saving both the Quarian and the Geth. But other than that, he fucks everyone's shit up. He saved the council, finding them to be useful assets. Oops. He killed the Batarian though. Because Fuck them.)
Oh and in later chapters there will be sweet, lusty, rough lovin'. I promise it will be good ;v; I can write gay smut. ;3; I have practice eh-heh
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