Hope and a Fighting Chance, Chap. 1Hope and a Fighting Chance, Chap. 13 years ago in Drama More Like This
Let him go!
Hold on, Kaidan...
Don't give up... saved my life, and I can't... Oh Goddess... Please pull through, Kaidan... We all need you, but Shepard... I'll go see how he's doing... be right back... better not go anywhere...
Hey Kaidan... Don't know if you can hear me... take my chances... Don't die, Kaidan... You've got to fight... need you in this... I could use you... Come on Kaidan, fight... that's an order...
Back when... fought Saren... glimpse of Shepard's mind... just the way he looks at you... seen you look back... Shepard... his main reason to fight... lost so much already... Please live, Kaidan, for his sake as much as yours... You're a good friend... care for yo
Worth Living For, Act I, Chap 1Worth Living For, Act I, Chap 13 years ago in Drama More Like This
The Commander was crazy - completely, utterly crazy. He'd trained and fought alongside vanguards before, but this Could this even be called fighting?
It was more like watching a giant freight train striking down everything in its path! To tell the truth, Kaidan had no idea that biotics could even be used in such a way.
One second, the Commander was standing right next to them, giving his orders and assessing the situation - the next, he was gone! Vanished! All he could see was their enemies in the distance flying all over the place as a result of his ridiculously powerful biotic charge, followed by a full blown nova knocking back attackers in a massive arc of biotic energy.
And then, there Marco Shepard was knee deep in geth and husks, shields depleted, shooting them at close range with his shotgun or delivering a few well placed punches if they ever got too close.
Kaidan had tried to assist
DinnerDinner2 years ago in Romance More Like This
Commander Shepard looked out the window of the apartment at the Armax Arsenal Combat Arena just across the strip, although not really seeing it. While his eyes scoped the holographic lettering of the building, his mind was combing the bulge of the right pocket of his favorite jacket: an N7-themed black cotton hooded jacket that harkened back to 20th and 21st century fashion. Reaching his callused hand into the pocket, he pulled out what it so contained: a black velvet case that contained one of the most special purchases he hoped he would ever make.
As his fingers unconsciously stroked the soft velvet, Shepard thought about the man the contained was intended for. He had known the man for a few years now, but only recently did he realize he had deep feelings for him. A few weeks ago, Shepard got to sit down with him at Apollo Café on the Presidium so they could relax and talk over lunch and drinks. Before they gave themselves the chance to order, his love said something that made
It Takes Time: Part IShepard is signing books when the assassin hits.It Takes Time: Part I2 years ago in Romance More Like This
He sees it out of the corner of his eye-
the flash of a gun,
the curl of fingers.
He's out of practice.
Slower than usual.
But he's been Alliance for longer than he's been retired,
and his reflexes kick in anyway,
turning over the table,
pushing the woman in front of him down,
dropping to the floor himself.
He hears the gun fire.
He rolls, using the table for cover.
Rattled thoughts ram through his brain.
What the fuck-
Who the hell-
Are you kidding me?
He wishes he had his gun,
and as he glances around for something useful,
his thoughts become more orderly.
There's only one exit.
If I can find a way to move the civilians out-
no, not enough time.
Gotta take him down.
Fuck, I need backup!
As if in answer to a prayer-
not that Shepard believes in those,
he hears a familiar voice.
His hand snaps
What you need"Kaidan,"What you need3 years ago in Romance More Like This
staticky over the intercom,
and in that one word,
I know something's wrong.
"Kaidan, can you...
can you come down here?"
His voice is quiet.
Breathed into the comlink.
And pleading with me.
"I'm coming, Shepard."
I'm already moving,
taking the turns through the hallways towards his quarters.
I don't ask what it is.
I already know.
Everyone on the ship knows.
Shepard's locked himself in his room a grand total of one time,
and that was after the destruction of Earth.
this is Earth all over again.
I tried to go to him before.
In the hours after we'd boarded, I'd went to his room,
only to find it locked tight and refusing to budge.
I'd called his name,
banging on the metal with my fist.
and when that didn't work,
I resorted to
He still didn't answer.
I was worried,
but I stopped trying after a few days.
I knew he'd come around eventually.
And I guess I was right.
Flashes - Part IFlashes - Part I3 years ago in Drama More Like This
Warning, it's a M/M (Kaidan Alenko/M!Shep) FanFic, turn around if you don't like such pairings.
This is the fourth part of my ME fanfic series, the first can be found in the description. Enjoy!
They say your life flashes in front of your eyes before you die.
I always wondered if that was true. And what would I see, what scenes would Kaidan Alenko The Highlights be made of? I don't know if there would be much personal stuff, like spending evenings with my parents in Vancouver, looking at the sun setting and painting the sky in all possible shades of red, a cool Canadian lager in one hand. Maybe I would live through my first kiss again, my first time having sex although these two might not be considered highlights.
Or maybe there would be my time in the Brain Camp. Rahna and the other kids. Making out hidden in secret spots to avoid the teachers, throwing each
In the end: Part II“Careful with that,”In the end: Part II2 years ago in Romance More Like This
and sets the glass down,
too far for Kaidan to get at it again.
His hand is still on Kaidan’s shoulder
and Kaidan is deathly white
and about to faint.
His lips part,
“I must be really drunk,”
and Shepard’s amusement morphs into something close to guilt.
“Sorry about that.
I probably could’ve handled this better.
Garrus told me where he thought you’d be, and…
I just thought I’d stop in.
Kaidan’s still trying to breathe.
He wants to reach out and touch him.
To assure himself that he’s real,
that he’s here.
But he can’t be.
It’s just not possible,
because he’d heard the news,
straight from Anderson’s lips,
the Normandy’s gone
so is the Commander.
Shepard’s fingers are firm and steady on his arm,
his eyes are the gray that Kaidan remembers so well,
Heal My Wounds--Chapter 1"Joker, I don't care what you have to do, get us back to Earth," Kaidan's voice was sharp and demanding as he ran into the cockpit. The thought of his commander gone was just too much for him to accept. There were too many words that still needed to be shared, so much more to be done between them. He couldn't face the highly probable chance that his lover -after years of feeling betrayed and loving him regardless of that- was gone. He ran a hand through his thick black hair. There was no way that he was losing John.Heal My Wounds--Chapter 13 years ago in Romance More Like This
The flight lieutenant nodded, having suffered a loss of his own, finding Shepard would have been a welcomed distraction. Even though that Shepard had told he and EDI not to get together, he still felt the impact of her loss.
John had never been a proper gentleman, hell he was never proper at all. He would kill someone without a second thought, but no matter what he did, he had a reason. Joker growled as he stood, finding that he had broken a rib. "Get Adams, we're goin
It Takes Time: Part IIIThey tell him that his name is Spectre Major Kaidan Alenko.It Takes Time: Part III2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
That he served the Alliance for a good portion of his life.
That he teaches biotics down at the Alliance headquarters in Canada.
That he's been shot in the head.
A few days ago.
Maybe a week.
"At least I'm up and kicking, yeah?"
He always was positive.
They tell him that, too.
He hasn't forgotten everything.
He remembers the Normandy.
It's not those things that he's confused over.
It's the people.
for the most part-
and the aliens.
she introduces herself.
"Dr. Liara T'soni.
You were a part of the team that rescued me-"
He breaks in eagerly.
"-on Therum, right?
You were on Therum."
She looks surprised,
"You remember me?"
remember saving you.
He doesn't know how to explain it.
He remembers saving her.
He remembers the assets she brought to the team.
But he can't,
for the life of
Meet the Parents: Part IISHEPARDMeet the Parents: Part II3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
It's a hell of a first impression
when the people you most want to impress
come home to find you making out with their son pinned against the wall.
It doesn't help that Kaidan's blushing.
This is the most awkward silence
I have ever experienced.
Kaidan's mom's face is unreadable.
Kaidan's dad's face is thunderstruck.
Kaidan gestures to me.
He clears his throat.
"This is Commander Shepard,"
and his blush deepens even further.
Something kicks in.
I don't know if it's from years of defying others,
or just another one of my act-fast, think-later instincts.
But I yank Kaidan closer to me
and slide an arm around his waist.
"Kaidan and I are getting married,"
I say unabashedly,
like it's no big deal,
and Kaidan's mom's eyes get so big
I think they might burst.
"We stopped by and you weren't here,"
I tell them.
says Kaidan's mom faintly.
Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 1Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 13 years ago in Romance More Like This
Avert your eyes.
Avert your eyes.
Look away now; before he catches you staring!
You're such an idiot Markus. Such an... damn it.
"I, uh..." Want you. I want you to press me up against the wall, kiss me violently, confess to me that you've always known how I felt, that you've always felt the same way, confess that you've always wanted me the way I want you, as much as I want you. I want to marry you, settle down somewhere and adopt a bunch of kids and love happily ever after. I want- "Could you go up to the bridge and ask Joker how we're doing? I'll get up there in a minute."
Kaidan looked confused at him for a moment before nodding, "Yeah, sure."
It took all of Markus' willpower not to grab the lieutenant and pull him against himself as he left to take to elevator up from the cargo bay.
Eventually you'll have to get over him, Markus. He's not gay. It'll never happen, no matter how much you wish for it.
Even though he'd known thi
It Takes Time: Part V"He's gonna go insane,"It Takes Time: Part V2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
setting down a plate of huevos in front of Cortez
and wiping his hands off on his pants.
"Man, and I already thought he was loco."
Cortez watches as Vega turns back to the stove,
dumping the still-warm pan into the sink.
"You gonna do anything about it, Esteban?"
speaking around a forkful of eggs.
"Don't know what to do, James.
I can't tell Shepard to tell Kaidan,
because he won't.
And I can't tell Kaidan,
because Shepard'll kill me.
I'm not really seeing a third option here."
Vega turns on the sink,
hot water on full blast and soap pooling on the sponge as he scrubs at the pan.
"Maybe you don't need to...tell him,"
"Not straight out, at least.
hint at the facts.
Be the cricket on his shoulder, or whatever."
Cortez stabs at another chunk of egg.
"What, you mean...
Vega glances at him from over his big shoulders,
throwing a wink his way.
"I didn't say that.
ReceptionI'm only going because Shepard doesn't know how to put on a tie,Reception3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
and because Shepard insists on going.
To Spectres Commander Shepard and Major Alenko,
is how the letter began.
You are hereby invited to a celebratory dinner
honoring your services in the Galactic War.
That's what they're calling it.
There's no mention of the Reapers in that name.
Or of Saren,
or of Sovereign,
or of anything that associates with the suffering we've endured.
Their focus is on hope,
so the war's title was based off of the fact that the galaxy united.
they're romanticizing it.
I don't approve,
but there's nothing much to be done.
The media is already eating it up.
I don't want to go to the dinner.
Neither does Shepard.
But he pretends he does.
He jokes about how
it's another boost to my bloated ego.
Then he rubs the back of his neck and glances at the suit in the closet
when he thinks I'm not looking.
I remember how his face fell when he read the letter.
They did t
Meet the Parents: Part IKAIDANMeet the Parents: Part I3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I think so."
"Good. Let's go."
We're in Vancouver.
Shepard didn't want to go.
He really loves London.
He loves the air,
the feel of it.
He loves our apartment.
but not cramped.
In a noisy part of town,
but he doesn't care.
It's just me and him,
and that's how he likes it.
it's not gonna be just me and him.
and my parents.
He's eager to meet my mom.
He really is.
But my dad...
"So what happens if we don't get along?"
glowering as he tugs his luggage along behind him.
if he doesn't
of his son's fiancee?"
"It'll be fine, Shepard,"
trying to keep him calm.
Dad will, uh...
He'll like you.
Shepard looks skeptical.
for good reason.
Dad and I...
our relationship is kind of...
Shepard hates him.
He's never met him-
hell, he's never even seen him-
and he hates his guts.
All based off of a conversation we
One of those thingsIt’s one of those things where it hits Kaidan full on, right over the head.One of those things2 years ago in Romance More Like This
One of those things where he doesn’t even see it coming,
but then it’s there,
and it’s so sudden that he’s taking a step back to steady his wobbling.
out of all the things they could be doing when it happens.
Shepard’s at the stove,
with the steak,
and Kaidan’s chopping onions,
one eye on the knife
and the other eye on Shepard
because knowing him,
the whole thing could go up in flames right under his nose
and he still wouldn’t notice.
They’ve started cooking together, recently.
Shepard asked him if he would mind giving a few lessons,
and Kaidan couldn’t say no-
Shepard’s abilities in the kitchen are horrific, to say the least,
and so his willingness to learn is welcome.
it’s been teaching them to relax.
To kick off their shoes and do something normal, for once.
The first few lessons didn’t actually go anyw
In the end: Part IKaidan isn't sure how many drinks he's had.In the end: Part I2 years ago in Romance More Like This
The bartender is looking wary
and his tongue feels heavy in his mouth,
so he assumes he can down a few more before he's completely wasted.
He's been drinking heavily all week.
It always happens this time of year.
a quick-witted turian-
has become something of a sympathetic voice in his life,
nodding to him when he comes through the door
and mixing up the shard wine before Kaidan even asks.
The drink is batarian in nature and origin.
He hates it.
the eye-watering repercussions
when he finally chokes it all down.
He remembers going out to the Citadel,
looking for something good for poker night,
because Joker decided that he'd want to try his hand at cards, for once,
and Liara said she might play,
And he'd look through the menu and there it would be,
and white-hot in your throat,
and he'd whip out his credits and buy the whole damned cask,
because it was all wor
Darkest Before The Dawn (MShepxKaidan Aftermath) It was hard to wake up, to pull himself from the darkness. It was the best rest he had been graced with in a long while. But Commander Shepard's still body eventually drew in a sharp breath, and shortly after, his eyes fluttered open. Though he was greeted with complete darkness. Rubble was packed all around him, casting him in the darkest of shadows. He couldn't even see his leg which he realized was in more pain than the rest of his broken body. He wondered how long he had been out. He tried to activate his omni-tool, but it only blipped on and off. He was shaking he realized as he toyed with the settings. He could hardly press the buttons, yet he wasn't cold. Or at least he didn't think he was. He managed to stabilize the omni-tool enough to work with, but the image was almost as unstable as his hands were. He discovered he had been unconscious for three days. Three days seemed like a long time. In three days the council would have begun making plans to clean up and repairDarkest Before The Dawn (MShepxKaidan Aftermath)2 years ago in Romance More Like This
Confessions"Major?"Confessions3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Liara's voice on my comlink.
I sit up straight,
shake my head.
Trying to clear my mind.
Too many thoughts.
Too many worries.
(About one person,
"What is it?"
Her voice is heavy with irritation
but there's a bit of hesitation there,
I'm sorry to bother you, but...
Shepard isn't answering any of the crew's radio transmissions.
He's ignoring mine,
Do you think you could check on him
I just want to make sure
that he's all right."
"It's no problem,
I'll report back to you
as soon as I find him."
"He's probably in his apartment,"
she says gratefully.
"I've checked nearly everywhere else
on the ship."
"I'm on my way,"
I assure her.
I stand, and stretch.
Wondering what the hell Shepard would abandon his crew for.
He's not known for dismissing calls.
I've never heard of him ignoring anyone.
Not even m...
Not even those who deserve it most.
Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 8Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 82 years ago in Romance More Like This
How many months had it been since Horizon? How many months had it been since he sent that voice mail, when he desperately had tried to find some way to apologize to his former commander for what he said? And he had never gotten a reply.
Shepard must hate him now.
Kaidan knew about the mission through the Omega-4 relay, the whole galaxy did by now. The first ship to ever pass through the relay and then come back. They’d destroyed the Collectors. And if he was going to believe the rumors spreading through Alliance soldiers, Markus was no longer with Cerberus.
He left them as soon as his mission to defeat the Collectors was over, just like he said he would on Horizon.
Kaidan hadn’t believed him back then, and now he was paying the price. His friendship with Shepard was ruined because he wouldn’t listen to him. Because he had been stubborn and refused to believe that Markus wasn’t with Cerberus, not really.
He rubbed his forehead, trying to get rid of the migraine h
I'll be waitingShepard.I'll be waiting3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Come on, Shepard.
Open your eyes.
I know you can hear me.
It's time to get up.
Open your eyes.
He's dead, Kaidan.
I don't think so.
That's not possible.
He's just sleeping.
Come on, Shepard.
Look at him, Kaidan.
He's just tired.
There's blood all over him.
That's not blood. That can't be blood.
Shut up, why don't you?
Open your eyes.
He's just sleeping-
Why won't you wake up?
Don't do this to me,
not after all this time,
not after what you promised me-
you said we'd be together,
you said you would be waiting-
And I wake up.
Covered in icy cold sweat,
Shepard's arm is draped over me.
He mumbles something as I pull myself up;
his hand slides off of my chest and falls
FallingThere's this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach,Falling3 years ago in Romance More Like This
watching Kaidan dance.
A light-headed feeling.
When he dances.
When he laughs.
When he looks at me.
it's making me feel like-
like I've been shoved out of the airlock.
That sort of thing.
Makes me feel strange, and-
Isn't that what people say?
God dammit, that sounds so fucking
It's been one of those odd days:
the ones where we sudddenly find that we have time on our hands.
Unsure of what exactly normal people do with time,
and I are spending it at the Purgatory.
Just us guys.
The music is good
the drinks are good
and Kaidan is...
A great dancer.
Which is just weird,
because before I could never picture him dancing.
It's been years since I've danced.
Garrus forced me out on the floor.
Laughed as I flailed around.
I've given up.
I'm standing here,
Time capsuleWe sit in his roomTime capsule2 years ago in Romance More Like This
with the black box in front of us.
“I got the idea from Liara,”
shifting forward to type something into the keypad.
“Thought it would be best to be prepared.”
I move forward too
as his hands cradle the device
and a blue beam projects up towards the ceiling.
“What is it, Shepard?”
“A time capsule.
Liara made one to preserve the history of the Reapers.
this is to preserve a different history.”
The beam radiating from the capsule’s surface flickers,
morphing into a tiny
If I look hard enough,
I can make out the tiny scatter of freckles across the bridge of its nose
that no one else ever notices Shepard has.
Miniscule scar at its temple.
Wearing Alliance blues.
The tiny Shepard raises a hand and salutes.
Then grins at me
sitting back and folding my arms across my chest.
It could have been so easy - Part IIIIt could have been so easy - Part III3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Other parts can be found in the description
The voices were incomprehensible through the veil of black around me. It had thinned over the time, allowing me to catch a glimpse of the world behind it, only once. I had bathed in light that time, so bright it had blinded me. Something had covered my eyes, a gentle hand and something had stung in my neck.
"Not yet, Lieutenant."
And I had fallen back into familiar darkness.
But now it was fading, growing weaker with every heartbeat, until it felt like I only had to reach out and brush it away to see the light again. Nevertheless I could not move, so I tried to listen to the voices, tried to understand what they were saying. The effort made my brain feel like it was crushed between the hands of a Krogan, but I ignored the pain and the dizziness, longing for something of the world around me.
"Getting better by
What if This Storm EndsGarrus ran into the hospital, quick on his feet. He had to get to Jane, regardless of who tried to stop him. He darted around several people, ignoring the medical staff and others that were shouting at him. He had to see Shepard, even if she was already gone, he needed to be able to see her, to hold her, just one last time. That was all he needed. The turian had heard the news of her survival, but her unlikely odds of recovery.What if This Storm Ends3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Her words rang like a bell in his mind;
'There's only so much fight in a person...only so much death you can take before...' No, he couldn't think about that. Garrus knew that Shepard was strong and he knew that she would at least try to fight against it. She was the owner of her life and her death. However, from what he had heard, this time it was different.
He wasn't ready to accept that she wasn't going to make. Jane was a fighter, it's what she lived for. She laughed at death; the Sole Survivor of Akuze, destroyer of the Collectors. She