helium balloon lungsi. You write me notes scribbled on sandpaperhelium balloon lungs3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and I run them across my face,
scraping away layers of saccharine skin,
ii. Your eyes, made of cookie crumbs,
I'd like to dip them in milk
and watch them melt,
smoking like dry ice,
iii. You churn my childish heart
in circles and in circles
till I slip into cardiac arrest,
iv. I just remembered that time you
wrapped your arms around me like vines
and held me until you couldn't,
v. Oh what I'd give for a pair of
fortune cookie lungs,
exhaling self-fulfilling prophecy,
vi. I've been fishing for horoscopes,
pasting them onto my bedroom walls
and on the backside of my skin,
hoping that they tell me that
today is the day you will be mine,
vii. But your soul is made up of sins
and I do believe in forgiveness,
but forgive me, for I cannot forget.
cadavershe was born with arctic lipscadaver3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and overcast skin.
her hair fell like fresh snow
and she was far too thin.
her bones in locked closets,
joints creaked and shrieked
like a rotten floorboard
under gossamer feet.
cobblestones.cobblestones3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i pulled a napkin from the silver tin,
wiped the table clear, drops of ketchup staining the center.
i crushed the paper in my palm, felt the dampness reach the edges.
hurt cloud, she said as i let it roll across the table.
shooting baskets as the day ended,
the ball went over the backboard, disappeared into the dark.
she shrugged, then bent low, picked up pebbles.
your poor hands, she said. you have so many scars,
and you're still so young. (she, younger than i, saying this)
she touched one hand, then after a pause she took the other
without looking at me.
some things take so much courage.
we sat like that for a long time,
i passed two old women by the river.
one stopped, pulled off her shoe
and shook a pebble out.
it dropped into the water
and she continued on,
from the absence dented into her foot.
the other had stopped a ways ahead.
she waited and said, a pebble?
the woman nodded. her whole life
biopsyput me under, cover my face, stuff my lungs with your chemical lies.biopsy3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
if they were to take me apart,
slice open my chest,
peel back the skin keeping me whole,
they would find:
a. one heart, slowly ticking.
(they would not find anything,
but they would have to say they did.
after all, girls can't live without a heart.
they forget that i'm not the first:
a score of girls walking even though
they should have faded long ago.)
b. each rib curved so perfectly,
a shield around my lungs.
(a cage, keeping my breath from bursting
out of my skin. know that this is just me,
held together by nature,
unable to lose control of myself.)
c. two sacs of cells, nestled beside each other.
(no first-hand smoke here, no sir.
only second-hand dust, only
things i could not get rid of,
only bits of places i've been,
caught in my body.
postcards of memories i can't see.)
d. a skeleton, still and alive.
(sleeping, with blood cells being produced
in the hollows of my curves.
the rattling of my bones cannot
MusingI'm too young to spend my lifeMusing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
running from the thunder,
staring at the kitchen walls wondering
how life would be different
if they weren't the same color.
how to pay the plumberthe sun is born of ink that leaks from dog-eared galaxieshow to pay the plumber3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and the night is made of copper eyes that pipe the constellations
but we are too polite to stare.
any hand that may brush my back must bleed the alphabet
from wearied fingertips, and this is why:
happiness is ice and crinkled bones all wrapped up warm in the
childless rings of saturn
and your smiling face-of-a-cliff that scorches pretty spring skin dry.
we will never say we will never love so
i will die beside,
you die below.
purgeheaving up a universepurge3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
is nothing on my stomach,
yet my scared molested heart
jumps out of the way.
the purge, a dark scent
weeping over the pointlessness
the ache and sorrow
the filling and emptying
of a creature so profoundly
ariseToday the raindrops taste spicyarise3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
how I've missed them.
I've a bad case of wanderlust
And a silver sonnet skyfever,
and I want to be spinning like a planet in orbit.
The blue winterblush tiptoes onto my cheekbones
and I realize:
unzippedi.unzipped3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it was all skinned knees
and stop signs between us.
we pushed too hard
or not hard enough.
the last star i wished upon
turned out to be a satellite,
and the last time i kissed you
really wasn't the last time.
the scent of romance- pine needles
and sawdust clung to my shoulders
where your fingers left goose flesh
when i least expected it.
i'd be tangled up in you and bed sheets
if i didn't know you better than that,
[sweetheart,] you're thunderstorms on
Saturday nights and "Why don't you stay
for awhile"'s and the infidelities
that line my cheeks.
The Death of You and II was born toThe Death of You and I1 month ago in Free Verse More Like This
and glassy eyes
(just one giant fucking inconvenience)
but you never seemed to mind.
He promised me for years
the bottles will disappear
and he'll be happy
but seeing is believing
and I never saw it.
I only saw more bottles and more depression.
But you never disrespected him.
She always told me
I'm just a fuck up,
born for disappointment,
a virtual copy of him,
a liar, liar, liar, LIAR!
But you proved her otherwise.
His words swim
through my bones
and his sick, twisted love
but you still see me as strong.
I'm made of syringes, empty bottles,
filthy bed sheets, and toxicity
a ticking time bomb,
yet you still fall asleep next to me.
You should run while you have the chance...
rotsunlight floods hallwaysrot1 month ago in Free Verse More Like This
but never ballrooms
and water fills caves
but never mouths
if you kissed me, the fire
in my throat would fuel my
hot air balloon brain and i
would snap your veins (the
ropes that keep me here)
i'd disappear between clouds
and you'd never see me again.
keep your serpent tongue
away from my
i would rather burn than starve;
i'll slit your throat, you slit mine
and we can dig our downward spiral together
while god watches.
Census of Ghostshe now resides in susurration:Census of Ghosts3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
shaken from our summer sheets,
flags drawn taut and shuddering,
and wispseeds rising into the light
with their dressing gowns unbuttoned,
planting onto my lips that name
i've tried to hang with himself;
on a late morning,
while folding your laundry,
i found him again and held his tongue
when he yearned to speak of love
that once transpired in his passion,
or maybe it was the infatuation
of surrealists: brown skin but touched
upon each other,
marking the insignificant with brands
of remembrance: like the crinkling of
tinfoil or the crisping of smokers' lungs
or the thought that cigarettes are only
romantic if you can witness their glow
or hear them faintly burning—
white ash rests on the dashboard
and his fingers are caked with rust
in my flashbulb drug collections:
the color of blood that's been drying
in my mouth while i try to recall how it felt
to hold someone who might have come
and remained forever breathing
if that letter had never reached my
NeedA kiss-Need3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Upon my breast
Finding sensitivity with urgency
Hands press into my hips
Passion flowing from eager fingertips
Pressing strong into my willing flesh
He whispers hotly into flushed skin
Words falling like a kiss upon my ear
I want you
I need you.
IcarusFledgling of theIcarus2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
(dawn is quiet
when the noose is
if wishes were pennies and promises made of glass.iv.if wishes were pennies and promises made of glass.4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
there's a wishing well inside my chest;
made to catch the stars shining in your eyes
waiting to be filled
with your jar of hearts.
grow up, dreamer girlwe can't all keep wishing and running on starlight.grow up, dreamer girl2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
sometimes, the magic runs out.
you may be made to run your fingers through silk petals and glossy hair,
but i am expected to be dark earth, a pillar of metal and rust,
an open wound
i want to run back to my dreams, but sometimes they are
no longer there, or their flights have been delayed again.
After The WarAfter blood is spiltAfter The War4 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
May pretty flowers grow
in their memory.
wake up, let goi used to conjure up promises from the ringing in my ears,wake up, let go3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
exchange your empty words for a sonnet.
it was less painful that way.
(your voice is only beautiful at 7am, all rusty
and torn up like a broken washing machine.
the honesty fades the minute you have coffee.)
we are only true to ourselves when we sleepwalk through wednesday mornings
with half-remembered dreams clogging our thoughts.
you dreamed of me standing on a barren field,
saying this is us, stripped bare
of the textbook truths, the pauses between
lies and heartbreak. this is us,
as we are becoming, only dead grass and
a drug or choosingYour oily prints upon my eyesa drug or choosing3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Blessed art thou
You bleed through the cracks in my walls
Eyes, pores in every centimeter of wallpaper
Watching me sleep, watching my night-mare
The horse running from the fire-like river
Pouring down the mountain to the plains below
Engulfing my atmosphere in golden red smoke
I am not addicted
It tastes like love.I could speak of her in riddles,It tastes like love.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in aged, anatomy textbook terminology-
but, I wont.
You see, I cuffed this angel to my bedpost.
I sank my teeth into feathers she wore like a cage
and asked if I was dreaming, because Love,
you're not holding me. If you only knew the you in my head,
every night--tearing with these heavenly fingers
at the cracks in my sanity- you would allow me this!
Her tongue tastes my tears; nails clawing, clawing, clawing-
she takes away my pain,
but she doesn't belong to me either.
"We are but wolves.
Tell me, what does my blood taste like?"
Nudemilk coats the insides of my lungs.Nude2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
your silence, it heaves in ways
each swell and thrust
of my windpipe. alveoli
punctured, white pelicans fly out
in guise of breath.
i watch blank clouds of condensation
coil and collapse like
steam stills in stopmotion
have no words, no bones
from beneath the skin
in your sleep.
teeth shred the shrouds of my scalp.
each strand curls inward, yanked
out fetal style. your hands,
they sewed white
orchids along my throat,
and i stood still.
A Child's/Idealist's FutureWe’d gaze up at the skyA Child's/Idealist's Future3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Each golden afternoon from
Atop our highest jungle gym tower,
Dreaming of promises-
Of clean air and windmills
Of flying cars and jet packs
Of robots to clean our bedrooms
Of brain chips to download class work straight into our heads
Of automail prosthetics and
Of a fridge that could create any candies we wanted.
I think we mostly dreamed of
Actually finding happiness.