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A Mother's HateWhat am I to do?A Mother's Hate10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Other than silently scream,
Crying tears poisoned by your hate,
And holding my hands so tight my fingers ache?
What am I to do?
When you twist my words to make them disrespectful,
When you claim I'm stupid and naïve, retarded and clueless,
And the only blood-sister I have spits out your own insults as she pleases?
What am I to do?
Other than hide online and secretly write my thoughts,
Shaking my head and staring off into space,
Standing there as you rant on and on….and on….?
What am I to do?
When you tell me you want me out,
And that you can't wait until the world ruins me?
Ruins me until I turn
Strong Enough...A shivering breath,Strong Enough...10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A chill on the skin,
The continuous twittering of the southern crickets,
And a little girl, curled in her bed.
Just a little brown-headed girl,
All tucked in without a care,
Her dreams take her across the world and under the sea,
With Disney-fied promises of true love and happy endings.
How simple it really was,
Back before that girl became me…
She used to fantasize and dream during both turns of the Sun,
And never feared anything or anyone.
She loved both her mother and her father,
Her little baby sister and her pups and kittens,
She loved everything.
She knew nothing.
That little brown-headed girl ne
The Clockwork Doll's ReflectionThe clockwork doll stumbles home,The Clockwork Doll's Reflection10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
She cries oil on her bed,
Falling to the floor she splits her side,
And pulls out her broken heart.
It's large but rusted,
Hardened and dark,
Thorns have grown around it,
A weed with one red bud.
Gasping she fingers the bud,
Its beauty precious and young,
How can something so beautiful,
Bring so much torment and pain?
Placing her heart back in her chest,
She seals the seams and stands,
In the mirror, a human girl cries,
Her brown hair draping down across her arms.
Around her on the floor,
Are scattered papers and sketches.
Swinging from her hand,
Is a ring on a cord.
The clockwork doll ste
You'll Never Catch MeThere,You'll Never Catch Me10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
In the center of the prison,
Sways a starved young woman.
She drifts side to side,
Swinging from her rusted manacles.
"You'll never catch me, my dears," she sings,
"You'll never capture my soul,"
"As long as I still breathe, my dears,"
"My spirit will be whole!"
She chuckles and sighs,
Tears in her eyes,
Staining her irises red,
This acrobatic game she plays,
Fills her veins with lead.
"I will stay here, however long, and you will never see,"
"I can sing, here, in my cell,"
"But, my dears, you'll never catch me!"
Please....Just....Look At Me NowThis feeling in my heart thickens and festers,Please....Just....Look At Me Now9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
An old wound, aggravated by time and fear,
Doubt, and hopelessness…
All I need is to hear your words again,
They were once the only ones that could comfort me…
Now, it's like I'm the hopeful child waiting for a miracle…
Why have you abandoned me so…
What reason will you claim, if you ever take notice again…
But I am afraid.
I am afraid of myself…
Because I know the longer I am confused,
The longer I am lost, broken, abandoned, forgotten,
The more resentful my blood becomes….
And the wound becomes infected with all the doubts,
All the worrying, the
The Who's Not Mad? GameTime to play "Who's Not Mad?"The Who's Not Mad? Game10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
And put on my happy face,
Dress happy,
Put on makeup happy,
Fix my hair happy,
Do favors happy,
Talk happy,
Work happy,
Smile happy...
happy, happy, happy.....
You lose if you try to show what you're really feeling.
If you really want to scream in her face,
Pull her hair,
Curse at her,
yell at her, Get...away...from...her....
Or just want her to stop and voice your opinion on ANY matter,
You lose, understand?
You have to be happy,
And pretend.
That everythings fine...
So let's play a game,
of "Who's Not Mad?"
Doesn't it sound fun?
I Won't Exist...I sit here on a sunken bed,I Won't Exist...9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Surrounded by bright, meaningless colors,
The room itself numbed by patterns and details,
So many treasures,
So many "important" awards, trophies,
So many perfectly stacked books,
So many perfectly arranged pictures of a perfectly posing girl,
All of it means nothing, NOTHING!!!
And yet everything…
Every little freaking thing in this little freaking room,
Is a part, a piece, a puzzle,
Of my existence…All of this is me as I exist in their eyes….
Sometimes I just want to sweep my arm across the dresser,
Throw everything to the floor,
Watch the cheap perfume bottles shatter, sending hazy
Stand up, Now!Out the window,Stand up, Now!10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Through the sky,
The dawn ignites my way,
I see across the world's rounded skin,
And cry tears of rain,
For all the pain.
I am trying to call out to you,
"Breathe, Live, Remember!"
But not a single soul is listening,
We are all bound by our own chains of self-disgust and anger.
I will run to you,
Across the lands,
Swim,
Across the seas.
Raise you up by your shoulders,
"Stand, Now."
"Stand up, Now!"
Wipe your tears,
Shed your skin,
Break your chains,
Let your life begin.
"Stand, Now."
"Now! Stand up, Now!"
Screaming in frustration,
I drain my blood and give a little to you all,
In hopes that you will b
Life is Short, Love is QuickWhat usually happens when one finds a true love? And I don't mean a soul-mate, twin-flame kind of love, I mean that kind of love that ignites your skin and makes your blood rush with excitement at his/her name? What usually happens? The girl most likely falls for the guy first, in most occasions. Thus, she hides her feelings because it would be considered "improper" or for some other reason. Or perhaps the young man falls for the lass quicker? And he doesn't whisper a word to her in fear of rejection or something else…something deeper. Either way, the genders hide their true thoughts of the other because of uncertainty on a matter. And ILife is Short, Love is Quick10 months ago in Emotional More Like This
Whisper to MeWhisper to me in my hair,Whisper to Me10 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Tell me if you're real,
Tell me all the sacred things,
I never thought I'd feel.
Whisper to me in my neck,
Tell me if I'm sane,
Tell me that you miss me,
And you'll hold my hand again.
Whisper to me in my back,
Tell me our love remained,
Tell me that you still care,
And your heart, my words have stained.
True Love: A Painted Myth?Forgive me if I intrude,True Love: A Painted Myth?9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I'm a little bold,
I've always been a little odd,
From all that I've been told…
But something about the way you smile,
Something about the way you trust,
Good Lord, send me a soul to love,
And forget this useless lust…
So many tiring hours spent,
Looking for his name…
Trying to find a hint,
If he's still the same…
I could have been the secret girl,
Chosen at a whim,
I threw my heart at his chest,
But still, I did choose him…
I don't know what is real anymore,
My mind does war against me,
Somehow I must get the patience,
To tame the visions that taint me.
So please forg
The Bitter Nightmare/Too Heavy A BurdenRusted daggers flung from their tongues,The Bitter Nightmare/Too Heavy A Burden9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Deep, infected scars reopened,
Tear away the skin above my breast,
And witness my heart's weak thrum.
You, you have made it so,
You poisoned it with your truthful tonic,
Your tampered quotes and encrypted sneers,
Do not twine the needle deeper,
Fling your hair through the seeping blood,
Paint the canvas of my years,
Falling from the chasm's edge,
Releasing my mind from the bitter nightmare,
I watch the sun comb its way through the trees,
And struggle to stand against the bars of home,
My hands and feet chained, a dusty cloth between my teeth,
I wait for the warden's glance,
That moment
If You Want WarIf you want a war,If You Want War10 months ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Then you're gonna get it,
I can play your game,
Stop messing with my head,
Making me think you mean it,
If you'll never change.
I don't want to scream and cry,
And I really don't want to lie:
If you want a war,
Then you're gonna get it,
Just don't waste my time.
If you say you'll never trust me,
If you say our love has changed,
If you say you'll never see me,
As a daughter in your mind,
Then fine:
If you want a war,
Then you're gonna get it,
Just don't waste my time.
If you walk by me,
And I by you,
And we never speak,
The tension in the air is static,
And you know what that means?
I don't think I c
Two SidesI'm strongTwo Sides10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
but I break
I'm true
but I fake
The ShameDo you want to look inside,The Shame10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
This tortured teenage mind.
View the fragments of a broken childhood,
That she can't leave behind.
Note the twisted torment,
That snakes across her skin,
And know that it exposes,
the pain she hides within.
Watch her try to hide,
The Scars, The burns, the Shame!
the web of self destruction,
She uses to mask her pain.
This girl is damaged goods,
That's what they always say,
Someone they would rather tease and jest,
Than help her find another way.
I'm Sorry, In AdvanceIs it my fault that I feel like a fool?I'm Sorry, In Advance10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Handing out my heart to any who'll take it?
Is it my fault that I care for any pain, rather than my own?
Is it my fault for making mistakes and worrying about all opinions?
That I'm worried for your criticism…
and that I care what everyone thinks, too much?
I'm not vain or naïve, I'm stressed and insecure….right?
Is there something wrong with me,
That makes me care even if it's not my concern…
That makes me feel like I need approval…
I crave it…I love it….I need it.
And I don't know if it's because there is something wrong with my heart,
Or if I'm just ins
My Knights of SpiritI smile at the thought that I have knights,My Knights of Spirit10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The men in my life that care for my being and soul,
One is hot-tempered but gently protective,
Promising a day when he'll cross the oceans to protect me and guide me.
I smile at the thought that I have knights,
The men in my life who have heard my spirit sing,
One is kind, and swore to trials of measure for the sake of my injury,
Always coaxing a laugh from every riddle and answer.
I smile at the thought that I have knights,
The men in my life who worry for me,
It seems that often they become knighted without knowing,
And care about me, despite the distance separating us.
So raise a glas
Hanging by a MomentI will always wonder what she was thinking that day.Hanging by a Moment9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Though I wasn't the kindest or bravest,
Nor was I the smartest or most charming,
For some reason, on that day, she chose me.
I was plenty surprised to say the least;
Certainly with her charm, beauty and wits,
She could have had anyone in the world,
And yet she choose me, a spoony poet.
It was as if an occult hand swooped from
The heavens and turned her gaze towards me,
For it could have only been divine work,
To make me worth an angel's attention.
Here I am, clutching to that memory,
Hanging by a moment.
DystopiaDirty water,Dystopia10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
corrupted laughter,
cracked dreams,
and broken seams.
Cries in the night
as life becomes a fight
there's just no more light.
Men are trying,
women are running
children are crying
people are dying.
Let's go, he whispered.
I-It's dangerous, she stuttered.
But we can't just stay, they uttered.
Chaos roams the streets
and blood's on the ground like treats.
Dystopia never ends
as society bends.
Life shall be dystopia
and never a utopia.
InvincibleThey say that I can't last much longer,Invincible10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Grinning as I scream in pain
And laughing as I gasp for air.
But they won't reach their goal.
"Daddy, you'll be back, won't you?"
Her words still echo in my head,
A piece of happiness I keep within.
"Of course, my angel. Sooner than you'd think."
Darkness embraces my consciousness,
And every breath becomes a struggle,
But still I hear her worried voice.
"Promise?" she asks. "Promise." I answer.
And as I lie here on the floor,
Beaten, bloody, and alone,
I feel my heart beating in my chest,
Fighting to fulfill my promise.
"But how can you know?" she calls
As I'm halfway out the door.
I
The Siren's ShadowAn Invisible Shadow…The Siren's Shadow10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
An Invisible Shadow….
Just twisting and gliding through your thoughts,
As comfortable as the sirens in the sea,
Smiling as someone thinks of me, speaks to me,
What is my story,
What is my life,
An Invisible Shadow…
An Invisible Shadow…
Too true, too often.
But if you happen to catch a siren,
And get her to sing her secret tune,
She will no longer be invisible,
Or a shadow of her sea.
She will be free.
I….will be free…
Pressure to ChangeIt frightens me truly,Pressure to Change10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
That one last step…
It's like leaning toward a chasm,
So deep you can smell the smoke from hell.
"You have to do this, and this, and that"
"You must apply for this, pass this, buy that"
So much pressure,
So little time,
So much expected of me…of my talents… my mind.
Hold my hand, so that when I jump into the darkness,
I know that you will be there….
Whisper my name, so that when I forget who I am in fear,
I will remember my true spirit's flame.
I do not want to fail,
I cannot disappoint you,
I have to win,
I have to make this look good,
I have to make you proud.
Where does this stre
The Heart's RibbonThere once was a girl, who stood on the cliffs,The Heart's Ribbon10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sea rumbling below her.
She held her hands to her chest,
And flung her heart into the air.
Her heart soared and stretched into a thin, red ribbon,
And it wrapped around the skies.
She stretched it so thin, until it was weak,
And she fell to the ground,
Holding her knees.
The heart-ribbon was too thin,
The winds of life, too cold,
She shivered as some edges froze.
But she could feel,
From an ocean away,
A truthful man kindling a fire.
He had built it under the ribbon's path,
Trying to heal her pain.
She smiled as she slept that night,
His voice ringing through the skies,
T
Uncertainty and DoubtDoes anyone else stand at the edge of the stair and look down,Uncertainty and Doubt9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
wondering what it would feel like to never know how far the next step is?
As if you could walk blindly, and fall, sink, down into an un-foretold reality,
Lose yourself in chaos, the bitter chilled unknown…
I stand here now on the edge of porcelain stairs,
Peeking downward through my ebony lashes,
I feel a grip in my spirit,
A sickening wave of dizziness rolls over me,
Knocking me back, nudging doubt deeper into my skin like a poisonous shard.
"Do I step forward? Or do I wait in this haunting pain…"
Biting my lip, wringing my hands, my blood dancing loudly,
Sta.sh
