Typical DayStaring at the window or at the wallTypical Day4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not knowing what I’m becoming, just waiting to fall
Silence for hours talking in my mind
The fear of the answers I might just find
Laying here still not moving a bit
Seeing myself screaming, trashing not flinching a bit
My soul has wavered not sure if I am me
But rage and anger all I see inside of me
Destruction of all I have including me
I even question the reason why I should be
Crazy, screaming wanting to die so bad
But the fear of death now that I never have had
Makes me protect what I have to live for and what is left
Even though I just want to give in to that’s all I have left
Take me now and make me die
Otherwise leave me now because death is a lie
Living for others just exist to provide
What’s the reason I have come to this, I lost my pride
So see me here wasting my life
As many before I want no more strife
But I can’t go on thinking this way
I am tired to much to live this way every day
I like to think that I might
I'm TryingI'm Trying.I'm Trying3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What more do you want from me?
Can't you see I'm trying my hardest?
I'm trying to make something of myself.
I know nothing is promised and I may not be the fastest.
I know my attempts have not resulted in any form of wealth.
What more can I do to prove to you that this is what I want?
I can see you are finding it difficult to get past this.
You think there is more I can do to help myself.
You can see that I'm struggling; I never tried to mask this.
I want you to understand that this is something I must do for myself.
But all that I will ask for you is,
I hope that one day you will believe in me.
Believe in everything that I am trying to accomplish.
You don't have to necessarily agree with me.
But I promise that one day both you and the world will be astonished.
And on that day hopefully you will be able to see the drive in me.
Hopefully you will be able to see the fight in me.
Hopefully you will see the person that I am trying to be...come.
And all I will want you to say is
That NightYou took away my passionThat Night4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You kicked me to the ground
Like I had just gone out of fashion
You didn't want me around
I watched you while you were sleeping
And gave you all you desired
The greed just took you over
And the gesture got so tired
I fed you when you were hungry
I gave you a family and a home
But your patience just grew weary
So I spent my nights alone
You pushed me to the limit
When you had affairs so much
I should have really seen it
That I would shiver at your touch
The useless fool you made me
Messing with my life
I couldn't take the last affair
It drove me to the knife
I was going to make you pay
And the girls you had seduced
Pick you off one by one
This anger you produced
I crept into your bedroom
And stole your secret book
I had to find the number
I had to have a look
I found the girl you had last
The one from down the street
I crept in through her window
Now her makers she will meet
Sleeping like a princess
With a teddy on her bed
I pulled out a plastic bin bag
They SayThey Say.They Say3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They say there is always a silver lining.
But right now my future looks bleak.
They say the sky is the limit.
But my vision is blocked by a mountain peak
They say life is a game.
But I was never any good at hide and seek.
They say were all different.
But does that mean that were all unique.
They say everyone wants to win.
But I have no desire to compete.
They say there are plenty more fish in the sea.
But they didn't say whether the water's shallow or deep.
They say everyone is searching for the same answer.
But I have'nt got it in me to cheat.
They say I'm too negative.
But I know this also comes hand in hand with defeat.
They say a healthy mind is a healthy body.
But I'm not to obsessed with my physique.
They say some situations you must face, face to face.
But sometimes I am not willing to turn the other cheek.
They told me some day I'd be someone great.
But I know that's a promise they cant keep.
They say sometimes shit just happens.
But I've recently discovere
Our Gooey Heart Together ApartHolds hands on heart cuffed romantically.Our Gooey Heart Together Apart4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Fingers entwined with the pureness of love
Entranced skipping over every fingernail
Caught on every thought that comes to mind,
From the deepest sea to the heavens above
We swim in the vastest oceans and
Deepest skies and heaven's plains of love
Like a fairy’s breath settling
All around the whitest wings of the purest dove
Flying down to touch hands swallowed with one breath,
and I must say your love fits my heart like a glove.
I am not youWhen you look at me, what do you see?I am not you4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My long dark hair or my deep brown eyes
Can you really tell it's me?
Between the bleach and their lies,
Am I real or what you want me to be
How do you know what you really see is me?
Never knowing just clicking on a fav or a like
The war I go through just to see your spike,
The spike that gets me noticed to you and beyond
The artists that love me and so on so on
I'm fond of pleasing this will not last
See I have this time but not forgetting the past.
You weren't there when i needed you, you have no clue,
If I am meant to me or mirroring you
But I don't care for the people that let me slide
Just sitting on the fence, that I cannot abide
You give to me now, then on to the next
You have no life a bad wound left to be bled
I hate the one who says I'm not me
Because if you were me then you would truly see
I am not you and never would want to try
The thought of being you would make me cry
But one thing I know and this much is true
See in this life I am
A Broken SoulA Broken SoulA Broken Soul4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
One more broken soul
Laying shattered on the floor
Inside cut by cruel words.
Outside cut by the sweet blade.
A dream of a save world
In which can save me.
Reality hits me now and then
Because you can’t.
You would have to search
For every piece of my broken soul.
I can’t make you do that
All those shards could cut you
But we can’t both bleed.
What shall I do?
Wait until you can save me?
Save me and my soul?
I had that I can only deny this love to you
Because this love destroyed me
You broke me, you are the only one who can fix me.
The Real MeTo write like an angel with a dark sexy styleThe Real Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Touching your feelings with my mind all the while
Being gentle and pure to the ones that i love
Treating the broken and fragile with sensual silk gloves
A mind full of horror from all of the bad
Stories you hear so tragic so sad
Stories full of demons and anger and rage
Of innocent victims in their own life made cage
But the other side of me no one See's so much
So sexy and sensual makes your hands want to touch
Touch the place that's forbidden for women like me
Women controlled by religion; not meant to be free
Desire from my spirit lies out on a page
Through depression, to lust lovers at a young early age
If I could be me I would be this girl
In a dark sexy fairy tale my mind would unfurl
To be what I want and feel such passion
To have my mind set free, never going out of fashion
To live like a dark angel, sharing feelings within
Being free to be me without feeling the sin.
Love! Slow suicde..When you give someone your heartLove! Slow suicde..3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is meant forever
You follow the love
To always stay together
The years come and go
And you do your best
But you didn't know
This was loves cruel test
You sacrifice yourself
To be all for them
The UN touched stone
the UN touched gem
You give them your soul
and what do they do
They take away your love
No more I love you
You cry in your sleep
And they wonder why
You tell them the truth
Why you always cry
But expecting affection
Has now long past
They don't want to know
You feel so out cast
You try to tell them
That I still love you
To hear only words
Like they're only making do
To all those poor souls
who think about giving their heart
It's not worth the pain
To many souls torn apart.
meTrapped in my room going insaneme4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Living with physical and mental pain
Wanting to leave this damn world behind
Fighting the fear but doing it blind
My eyes have seen nothing
But my minds seen too much
Scared of my feelings
And the thought of your touch
Will it be like this always in my own mental prison?
Till the day I choose to let my blood run crimson
I know there is help for me i just need to find out where
To see if they can help me or even do care.
Winning isn't everythingCongratulations.Winning isn't everything3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why, congratulations...you win!
And this will be the ninth time,
the ninth time you've won.
Soon enough, it'll be the tenth
and it's what I hate most about you -
how you want to win, all the time.
A mere joke can be twisted into
an inevitable argument, where
hot tears are shed and
relationships are broken.
That's why you're always,
always, going to be alone...
because you can't bear to lose,
'cause you're only used to winning.
Congratulations... you win,
and your prize?
A lifetime of loneliness.
Love StoryThe love we have is like a storyLove Story4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of majestic dance on glittered seas
stars in the skies are shooting with passion
The song of our spirit heard in the wings of bees
The glimmer in the rain sweet drops
The colors in the sky
The smallest flower opening her petals
And the first sound of a baby's cry.
Gentle winds will carry our heart beats
With the whitest snow to decorate our souls
As together we are eternity
Together to half's bound to make a whole.
No matter its wrongSo UN confident I am, all a messNo matter its wrong3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
cant express my feelings I hate to confess
I want to be true, so the lesson that is learnt
To make sure no one else will ever get themselffs burnt.
I cry for a second I need the release
to give my soul comfort and give my mind peace
but as soon as I cry my emotions are incomplete
I want to be free of the painful life ,wounds so deep
To tell the lie that it is all god planned
but in doing so I would have to lie and be damned
Not to turn us free just into hot white salty sand
What faith do we have thats not second hand.
SilenceSilence.Silence3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
A language that everyone speaks.
But one that we are not able to hear.
A place where emotions and abandonment meet.
Of which we are forced to confront our buried fears.
There are no more lessons that the agents of society can teach.
An infinite amount of words expressed through a solitary tear.
People dish out advice but never practise what they preach.
A language with the same traits as a hopeful prayer.
A society where people judge others, as they sit back in their self proclaimed seats.
They can no longer understand you and they aware of the darkness that draws near.
Many lives led but we are all accompanied by the same drumbeat
Maybe you don't want to be heard but people will forcefully lend an ear.
Lips fused together, unint
No more being bulliedDon’t you get it, this is your warNo more being bullied4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have no beef with you I’m not counting the score
I just want to be me without playing this fight
But you can’t let it rest you have to be right
I just want to live without this time consuming game
But you turn this to shit again and again
Can’t you leave me be to live my own life
Without being a asshole and giving me strife
I have no quarrel with you or your group
Please take me out of this self-played loop
For fuck can’t you leave me to grow on my own?
Disown me then try to make me your own
To many games you play to make yourself real
How many hearts and minds will you steel?
It’s all for your games the people no care
Dear man when will you ever try to play this game fair?
FriendsPeople of substance are so very rareFriends3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Most of them are fake they don't really care
But some you can value as they have a heart
I find it hard to tell them apart
But when you find them, you will feel that they know
You don't pretend the feelings that you needed to show
Because you don't need to say in words how you are
No matter the distance a friend from a far
I thank you my friend for just being so true
So honest and worthy, thanks for really being you..
HAHAHAThe pain I took for to many yearsHAHAHA4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The mental violence throughout the beginning years
Suppression that no one could possibly bare
But did you know or did you care
I struggle to make my life worth living
I constantly try and am so so giving
But you take from me all I have to give
And take some more to see if I live
But life like this has got way too much
You had better look out as I have the clutch
On your mind your souls and who you are now
Is nothing to me as I see you're just foul
You try to be different not let them see
But inside I see you with the demon in me
I can relate to your anger and see through your lie
Its only you that retreats to the bedroom and cry
I know people like you who think this game is so fun
But seriously people I've already won
I let you think you're getting the highest score
But really lol you're just my stupid fat whore
You save the trouble of making myself heard
And you always say you're a person of your word
That is crap and you know that you foolish twit
DisconnectedDisconnectedDisconnected4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Vital ties are broken,
And she cannot
Renew or fix
What has fallen apart.
Her mind is slipping away
And she fears nothing more..
Then losing it for good.
Losing her flimsy grip..
What if it's all just..
Made to take away..
The impact, the pain.
is it all just built on lies?
Is she really loved,
Does anyone really even..
She feels isolated
But no one but herself.
She's lost control.
Now spiraling away
Her needs grow in intensity.
She desires blood
Just a reason,
She needs a reason.
To tear herself to ribbons.
To make scars that last forever.
She deserves it.
Such a horrible person,
That everything good
Built on insubstantial grounds.
That have the tendency to,
Who is this girl?
Consumed by the demons
That she tries so hard to fight.
Sharp metal in the battle against
She is losing.
I Walk Alone TonightI walk alone tonight, just meI Walk Alone Tonight4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Through this field of daisy's and despair
I'm all alone, like I thought I would be.
I move around the marble sea,
And the broken hearts that need repair.
I walk alone tonight, just me.
I pass a few figures draped in ebony,
Together in mourn they share.
I'm all alone, like I thought it would be.
Your name etched into the stone, I see.
The harsh pains and feeling come back in a blare.
I walk alone tonight, just me.
You're the only one that held the key.
No one else could care.
I'm alone like I thought I would be.
Now it's time for me to break free,
And come tomorrow to visit you there.
I walk alone tonight, just me.
I'm all alone, like I thought I would be.
Im so tiredIm tired.Im so tired3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Theres not much else to say but that
Im tired of crying
Im tired of feeling alone
Im tired of everyone being against me
Im tired of making mistakes
Im tired of wanting to start over
Im tired of wanting to die
Im tired of wanting to live
Im tired of being tired.
Everyday its the same routine, I smile
I smile not just because I cant show anybody what I really feel but also because I want to believe its real
Its better to be positive until it all comes crashing down
They got me this far, they are my savior
They make me want to live
They saved my life.
They are creatures in my head
They are only real to me
I want them
I want them to save me.
They make me want to live because I’m scared to lose them
I cant lose them.
Im so tired.
Your StoryI'd much rather cry for youYour Story3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
'Cause my story is too painful to share
I'd much rather smile for you
'Cause my story is too painful to bare
So come here and I'll wrap my arms around you
Come here and I'll let your story shine
But after you share your story
Please don't ask me about mine
If only I could play the violin
I'd share my past through sorrowful chords
Vibrato on strings would be my voice
Fighting my demons with imaginary swords
Although I'm limited to words on paper
And the words aren't sung by a beautiful voice
These words make my story into a song
And this song confronts you with a choice
You can close your eyes
And pretend this is a fairytale
Pretend it's a meaningless story
That was never once true
Or you can open your eyes
And realise deep down
That the story isn't just about me
That you're the main character too
If you don't want to tell your story
As it is, spoken word to word
Turn your art into your voice
And you will always be heard
A picture speaks a thousand words
Dying for SilenceAll I want is silenceDying for Silence4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just some peace and quiet
It's been too hectic lately
I'm afraid I'll go insane
Relief is foreign to me
Just the memories of all the times
The times silence came so easily
The times I dreamt so easily
There is never any time
For even one minute
Not even in the dead of night
Because my mind is screaming
For just a bit of silence.