nineteen, five five, one twentyandrogynous, though still cat-called from beardednineteen, five five, one twenty2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
men in pickup trucks - wandering eyes ride me at work.
the only thing i have in common with disney's painted
version of a chinese war hero is my 'masculine' hairdo -
an ocean wave peaks above a fat, concealer smeared forehead.
i like to put on eyeliner blacker than my heart,
i like to put on lipstick redder than the blood of my enemies.
bracket shaped collar bones punctuate the start of my chest,
choppy ribs that have seen more fat sink and tuck into my hips.
these days i am shaped like a pear, held up with knobby knees,
skin paled, purpled with stretchmarks and self harm scars.
my body has grown on me,
nearly the same way that i have grown into it.
Treacherous SpiderMy lips are glued togetherTreacherous Spider2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A smile I attempt
But a frown is all I could get
Broke your heart
Like a clever spider
I got you tangled in my web
Ripped you apart
Deep from the inside
Apologies were made
Forgiveness I received
Yet my venomous mind
Won't leave me at peace
about facehis voice is caught betweenabout face2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
my ear and my shoulder,
atlantic tears scaling
along my cheek,
salt drying in my hair.
we are both
weakened with sleep,
caught in the cradle
of exhaustion when he says -
"your feelings are
valid and important."
a beat later,
my heart bobs into my throat,
an apple hardened with
the cider of tough love -
comfort glazes my chest,
warm, white static shushing over
wailing radio scars of my abuse.
an hour or so later,
our conversation still
lines my eardrum,
much louder than
the crickets humming
the autumn one hit wonder
they've been singing
below my window for centuries.
if only for tonight,
I am not mentally ill.
Our Broken HumanityBorn at dawn with a soul that's split in halfOur Broken Humanity2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
One was sullen and the other you can't hear its laugh
Roses and rainbows and everything that's nice
It rips them apart with a heart that's made of ice
Don't be deceived from the other side of the mirror
It's a raging demon with a mind that'll never be clearer
Echos of my screaming voice fills the land
Everyone turned deaf not a soul reaching their hand
The wrath of my demon goes beyond
For every soul that haven't respond
The weeping of my wounded angel is ignored
They sealed its weary vocal cord
They question my insanity
But i'm damned because of their humanity
They are greedy selfish creatures
That haven't learned anything from their teachers
Social AnxietyI was sitting in my room againSocial Anxiety8 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The lights were off and the curtains closed
But the moon still hadn't shown up yet
Just sitting in my underwear
My head against the radiator
Thinking about those "friends" of mine
What were they doing and were they thinking of me?
Didn't matter, it's not like I'll have the confidence to go out again
It's only the alcohol that made me smile and say small quiet words
Only the alcohol that stopped me crumbling
My ability to socially interact with others
Relies solely on rum and vodka
I said I'd never drink
Doesn't matter, it'll only be a few more weeks, or was it months?
Until I could even think of going out again
I enjoyed the dark
I didn't have to look at myself
Or should I say, what others had to look at
I turn to peek out of the window
Moving the curtain ever so slightly,
Desperate not to make eye contact with anyone
But then, there's the problem
Of people thinking that you have a sexuality
When you don't have one at all
And when you are e
ForeverFor eternityForever3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Our destiny is determined
Reliving the past
Enduring the suffering
Visions of the future
Endeavours to come
Representing life as a whole
october bluesi'll have you knowoctober blues2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
that i burnt both of my
to light a lighter
so i could smoke you
out of my lungs.
Ocean 2A Cradle of LifeOcean 24 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Embracing a rocky world.
Deep, salty ocean.
Ocean. Foamy swells curlingOcean.8 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
to release a wet cascade.
The restless ocean.