No Longer SilentI will no longer remain silentNo Longer Silent7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No longer will I hide my tears
With all you ever did to me
I am left behind with too many fears
You forced me down
And silenced my screams
You left me with no voice
And nothing but broken, shattered dreams
I begged you not to
I screamed you had no right
But you looked me in the eye
An filled my soul with fright
Without stopping you continued
As I tried to fight
But you stole my innocence
To which you had no right
The only pain ever expressed
Comes through open wounds and tainting scars
But despite how much I try
The memory of you is never far
Of which till this day
I dare not speak
Always there to torture me
To remind me
I am nothing more but weak
My WingsThe wings I've always wantedMy Wings7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The wings for which I long
Have broken once more
As if they were never mine to belong
Am I just as broken as my wings?
Am I just as doomed to fail?
To forever fall
And drown in my pain?
For I see no end
To all my screams and tears
I'm afraid it will keep on living
And manifest forever in my fears
The wings I've always wanted
The wings I once thought were my own
Again have failed me
Only finding myself
Once again on my own
The End?Has it really ended?The End?7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All we ever had
Is it truly over?
Am I really left this sad?
I think of all we had
All the precious moments we shared
Our hearts we have let open
And our souls we have bared
You know me like no other
And forever will I be grateful
For having you in my life
The time we shared was so beautiful
It's so sad that it had to end
But had I have to go back
I would do it...
All over again.
JackJack11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The saddest eyes look back at me
The tears welled up
The pain inside
Change the color
Change the form
You cant hide the meaning in your eyes
You feel this pain
No one else carries the burden you do
The bringer of death
Hider of secrets
But your punishment is your pain
Your gift is your memory
Or lack there of
You did many bad things
But you pay for it time again
The love you lost
The heavy heart you carry
You are punished with these feelings of grief
They blame you for their lose
You're the first they see
They are angry
Its not your fault
Don't be afraid
Im sorry this happened to you
Im sorry no prevented you from the things you did
Told you of what lied ahead
But you did the crime
The time is yours for the doing
Your eternal tears
Your eternal pain
I see it in your eyes
My dearest friend
Take it away Jack……
I don't belongI cannot thinkI don't belong7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I cannot speak
Too many emotions
God, I am so weak
I don't belong
Can't you see?
A burden, a bother
A failure, it is all I will ever be
So let me go
Give me wings
Though it may hurt
I can't mean anything
I don't belong
You can't love me
For I'm like poison
Your death alone I will be
So let me go
Don't hold on
To this fading dream
Just carry on
I don't belong
This world is vain
A world of illusions
A worl of pain
So let me go
Let me say goodbye
Though your heart may ache
Even I wonder why
I don't belong
I see it in the mirror
That painful face
I could never be her
So I have to go
Let me escape
Though I still love you
It is better to burn out
Than to fade away....
GoneGone....Gone5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the single word whispered over and over, tormenting her
she couldn't follow, no matter how much she wanted this
nothing she can do anymore
noone left to save.
none left to care...
She stumbles, falls.
'i HAVE to... i have to..'
more whispering to herself; noone else around to hear, anyway
all she knows is gone; all she loves, all she cared for
she finally reaches the clearing, finally there, finally..
the searching begins.
she won't - can't - give up.
has to find it
'i have to find her.. have to have to have to.. can't not... need her.. got to..'
her thinking distorts itself, nothing to do with whats going on around her
the fighting is over; the battlefield of broken lay, untouched, unclean, unwanted.
only she remains. only she still cares, still wants ...
still fights for the lost.
VirginityYours was gone a long time ago, mine still remains.Virginity7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I let you take it, what would I gain?
Would your feelings be true, would it be missed?
Would I just be another on your list?
Would I see myself the same? Would you?
There are so many things I want to do.
We share a love, but will it last?
If I give it away, will it be over too fast?
As much as we want it, I dont want to be someone I hate.
The only choice, is mine, to wait.
Emergency Exit Hallway SexMe and her in the room that's shaped like a shoebox,Emergency Exit Hallway Sex4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
dark as oil normally.
But this night particularly the emergency exit sign with the man shuffling
urinated a diluted yellow glow up and down the walls
of our dirty, silent, secret hideaway.
Trapped by will in the sleepy locked hallway
Filled in like a pillow with stillness and the buzz
Buzz so calm of the shuffling man on the sign
in the corner of the mouldy white ceiling
while I smelt the grey carpeted floor.
The xanthous buzz was broken softly
by the fabric scuffle and occasional stifled moan:
the sound of rhythmic osculating.
She and I kissed in secret.
Chit-chats and loud flirts strolled passed the fire-exit that night.
Some hung about and played dares.
But behind the green eye of the emergency exodus at the top of the staircase
she and I lay,
on the floor.
Padded from reality. Panned out in
that little clandestine hall that hides behind the fire exit
on the other side.
This was not a romantic time however.
The flush from the sign
NIGHTThe sun starts to fade as the day passes byNIGHT5 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Wanting this never ending day to finally say goodbye
So we can finally see the dark, beautiful night
When the moon and stars are in sight
And all shining so bright
Close to Youi'll tell you that i love you anytime you want to hear it.. because i'll always love youClose to You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but i need you to tell me you love me.. because sometimes i forget..
i need to feel your arms around me every time i see you.. because nothing compares to your warmth
i need you to tell me how much you care for me, and how worth it i am to you.. because i feel worthless
i need you to sit close to me, and whisper in my ear because i love the feel of your breath on my face..
and i need you to lean in close and look in my eyes and kiss me like it's the only thing you care about..
i need you to take me where we can be alone, and walk side by side, hand in hand, close enough to feel your warmth..
i need you here every second of every day because i love nothing more than your presence..
i need you to make me feel okay.. when nothing else can
i need you to tell me that i'm the only thing you're living for.. the only thing you need
i need you to tell me just exactly what you need so i can give you all that
A Complete DistractionA Complete Distraction5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I was upset when you kissed me,
And suddenly I couldn't remember why.
It was like nothing else mattered,
Nothing but this feeling in its place.
I sometimes reread all the love notes you gave me when I feel this way,
Count all the times you could've missed me.
Day dream of all the times I dreamed about you,
And I've never dreamed about anyone as much as you.
So sometime I want to touch you in a small way every time I see you during the day,
Just to tease you, and know you'll think of me all the same.
But for now I only wish to savor your lips,
And this feeling surging unexpectedly from my chest.
Heart-Aches FormYou've told me to hide,Heart-Aches Form5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Oh, but you're not aware.
That part of me died,
The part where I care.
I'm not ashamed,
This is my life story.
How am I to be blamed
When you lost the glory?
It's summertime now,
But you don't like the warm.
And I don't wonder how..
Your heart-aches form.
dragdrag11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of anathematized eggheads, dead poets, uprooted saddle-tramps -
an eclectic shangri-la that impales itself upon her sensibilities
like a beached whale on her shore
And this cold, small man-
call him Animus Annihilated-
"You wanna see Heaven baby?, Here's your chance." -
An open invitation to cool her heels in
the shadow of his soul.
Hoodwinked by her own loathsome ideal
she ogles the out-side,
staring through the cigarette that drips from her mouth,
into her love's eye
WhiteDeath is usually associated with blackWhite4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But all I can remember is white.
White walls, white floors, white coats.
White blood cell counts.
The lights washed out stone faces
Turning the impassive into uncaring.
My hands matched the white bars on your bed
As I gripped them.
The sheets on the bed where I slept that night
Like the bleak tundra
The pillow where my eyes refused to shut
The plastic cup I drank from with shaking fingers.
Your pasty skin that paled further
as your strength left you
As you melted away into tubes and masks.
The white noise in my ears when they told us the worst.
The white veil of anger that clouds my eyes
when I remember how they let you down.
Black may be the darkest colour, but not to me.
031. Jewelry - Zutara031. Jewelry - Zutara7 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
Another day in the Northern Water Tribe, Zuko thought as he grimaced, and the cold. A cloud of steam escaped his clenched jaw with a hiss. Both hands were wrapped around him to preserve every little bit of heath his body was radiating. Even with all these Water Tribe clothes on and a few layers not to forget didnt seem to help much, if even at all. The ex-prince was still feeling cold as he paced besides a lone stream of crystal clear water, eyes wandering over the place as he sought for Katara. Every time he would pass a habitant, Zuko would ask if they had seen the young waterbending master, but all responded by telling him they didnt knew where she was. And finally, after half an hour of walking and searching, he had found himself before a dead end.
With an agitated sigh, Zuko turned around and strolled back the way he came in. Where could she be? The question kept ringing in his mind as his golden eyes scanned every passing hallway. All these
To Relieve Stress:-Write to relieve stress (Then flush down the toilet if necessary!)To Relieve Stress:7 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
-Read a book you like
-Play video games (Guitar Hero) (DDR) (Other stuff) (!!!Do not play a game youll get angry at!!!)
-Call a friend who can help
-Try to sleep
-Stay away from the stress-causing problems for a while
-Watch a sweet movie, (Or SAW, if you prefer. 83)
-Take a walk
-Play with your dogs/cats
-Listen to Music
-Make up new ways to do old things
-Take a shower (And sing if you want while youre in there. 83)
-Get a medicine ball and squeeze its insides out. 8D (J/k. But getting a medicine ball and squeezing it may help.)
-Breathe deeply whatever youre doing
-Spend time with friends/family (Unless they are the cause of stress)
-Build something with scraps (Then demolish it if you want to!)
-Bake (But dont burn your house down!)
-Create a new Game
-Create a Dictionary
-Learn a new language
-Rearrange clothes in your drawers/closets
AkhenatenThe pharaoh who preachedAkhenaten5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the oneness of God
in imperfect bodies
was posthumously punished
for his lies
something unglorious.you look away and whisper: deny it and deny itsomething unglorious.6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
until you feel all at once that your words
of comfort are the rain against your skin and there
is nothing left to fight against but
the gaping hole in your chest where something once
beat and beat and beat and
you curl your body up against the ache and rasp
stop it please stop it I don't want to
miss you anymore and love shouldn't go like this
but it does
and that's just it,
emptydrowning in lossempty5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in tears, in pain, in want
you built me up
why did you let me fall?
how could you laugh?
told me youd always be here
i didnt realise you meant youd always be watching
i didnt understand that when you said you wouldnt leave me
you didnt mean that youd stay forever in my arms
i didnt understand
to patch the hole in my heart that you left
not to cry not to wish for you back not to want to run away and kill
why do you have to hurt me
and make it so that i need you
make it so that i cant help but come back, and be cut open again?
why hurt me
what did i do this time
the thoughtful modern judasthe thoughtful modern judas10 years ago in Typographical More Like This
I am writing to s
ell you the Chris
t. I have discov
ered him, living
in my room, and I
could use the mon
ey. Thirty sheck
les. Thirty shec
kles for the Chri
st, and not too m
uch to ask for th
e S a v i o r of
the whole World.
You might ask me how I knew him, and it's really quite
simple you see. His mother came to visit last week an
d she kissed him on the cheek. I know there are a few
indiscrepancies, but I'm sure you can make up the diff
erence and fill in the details. After all, I'm only a
sking thirty sheckles. I'm not even bothering with th
e pesky affair of inflation. The whole world is small
er and Rome isn't
too far away thes
e days, I hear, a
nd I imagine that
as an empire you
To arrange a pick
-up for the Savio
r of the World, y
ou can come to vi
sit at medication
time when the nu
rses are all busy
with their little
paper cups and I
will tie him to t
he likes to go to
baptise the sinner
i would smile if you did.i could write you a song about raindrops and rubies, but i don't think you'd want to listen. i could hold you close and tell you love stories, but i think you would just fall asleep. and i could play with your fingers and tap out a rhythm on your collar bone, but you'd just pull away and turn on the radio so you could listen to something better.i would smile if you did.6 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
you always pull away. why do you always pull away?
you got mad when you saw the papers. you said you hated that everything i write is sad, that every paper you found in my desk was about heartbreak or death or insanity or hopelessness. you said you wanted me to be happy. but if you really did, you would try to understand that heartbreak isn't always bad and death isn't always ugly; that insanity is relative and hopelessness can be beautiful.
your understanding is what would really make me happy.
today i decided something: i am going to stop trying.
i am going to lay on my bed today. i am going to stare at the ceiling. i am not going to p
13 Haikus13 Haikus10 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
Haikus are very weird
What were the damn Japs thinking?
I just ate Twizzlers.
When the cops showed up,
I had to hide all the drugs
Deep in my rectum.
Thor's a very cool god.
His hammer is fucking cool!
I'd be his best friend.
I'm happy, but why,
Why does it hurt when I pee?
No doctors can help.
Sometimes my balls itch
I cannot scratch them because
Kids will laugh at me.
My friend is so hot!
Dylan has such a nice butt!
I touch it whenever.
I've never had shrooms
But I think they might be cool
Maybe I'll try them.
I don't like zombies.
They smell like dirt and semen.
But Dave Chase will help.
I have lots of hair
Male pattern baldness sucks ass
I'm a sex machine.
It's so tiny and so sweet
I might eat it.
Today I shampooed.
My hair smells like a fresh rose
My haikus are best
Get me a fucking trophy
I want a kitten
Because they are so fucking cute
I'd touch it everyday.
If you dareIf you dare to say the magic words,If you dare6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll lay the world towards your feet,
I'll do everything for you,
unconditionally, just for you
If you dare to embrace me,
I'll do all to keep a smile on your face,
to let you show your entire grace
If you dare to reply my love,
you'll earn a kiss,
you must be this tall to love:i've grown tiredyou must be this tall to love:5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
of waiting for you
to come over here
and kiss me like
i've never been kissed before
because, in all honesty,
i've never been kissed before
i've grown plants
weeds and sunflowers,
(though, there's no difference)
gardens you trespass through,
gardens the size of Pluto,
and i know Pluto isn't a planet,
but, in all honesty, neither are you
i've grown feet
three miles wide
on each tarsus,
(that's 4.8 kilometers to you)
each one tripping on your ego
because, in all honesty,
it's so hard to maintain balance
when you keep kicking my Achilles Heel
i've grown up
and down, and right,
and even backwards,
(this is called withering)
but i don't see the point
in maturing normally
when, in all honesty,
my head is on crooked
i've grown attached to you,
but i've gained so much wait
weighting for you to kiss me
that i've grown out of you
and into my newest clothes