One YearThat nameOne Year3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lingers at the back of my mind
A year has passed
Ever so fast
Yet i'm still sad
I feel too bad
I need to stop
And move on
So why cant i?
First Girl too
I'm so confused
Am i this am i that
I've told people now
I cant go back
I'm hoping that special person
Will walk into my life
And stay this time
Because i want someone to hold me into the night..
Survival of the FittestHear me read itSurvival of the Fittest2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am crack'd. Open to the pit
with the nub and root exposed.
I am silver pierced and punctured
with holes and protruding pieces
of rocked raw wounds rubbed open.
I am barely shattering my lungs
by inhaling the same air as you
even long after your departure.
With a bile-laced smile I pave
and fill in crack and crevices
I am more than disfigured limbs
and disillusioned heart muscle,
scraping a breath down my trachea.
More than the mess you have made.
I hold in my innards, and survive.
SeaSea2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her love was bone white,
[ but never like diamonds. ]
Truth then became water to
pruning fingers and splitting lips,
while she drowned
in the mouth
of a liar like me.
No Strings Attached.And then you pulled that stringNo Strings Attached.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
which had been holding me together.
I laughed when you began to unravel me
a maniacal sound, disgusting and horrid in your eyes.
You released me then, and ran away,
leaving me broken, yet imperfectly perfect.
You hid, but I stayed and marveled
at the beauty underneath.
My Sleepless NightI couldn't sleep last nightMy Sleepless Night3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because I had you by my side
In the dark I could see your gorgeous brown eyes
And in my heart I could feel your tender love
Even when I could feel my whole body freezing
I would look at you, awake or simply sleeping
You, just being by my side breathing
I would get a warm cozy feeling
It wouldn't bother me that you would take most of the quilt
You yourself were my own comforter
Like laying down in the grass looking at the moon
I got lost admiring the sleeping beauty of you
(I won't need you)The last time I saw you, frost(I won't need you)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
was lingering on the windowsill, penetrating
through a layer of glass and
attaching itself to the
walls of my bedroom.
I’ve packed and unpacked my
bags, told myself I would
told myself that I would let
I haven’t forgotten the way your
eyes looked on the day
we said our
Or the way that your lip curled
up into a forced smile
as tears pooled in the corners
of your eyes.
One day, I will finally pack my bags
and forget how sad we were
when you boarded that
plane and never called again.
One day, I won’t need to remember
what color your eyes were just
to make myself happy.
One day, I won’t need
True RomanceDo you know how much it hurts...to picture you with someone elseTrue Romance3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To only have your best friend...and have to believe the stories that she tells
And just hate it when she tells me...that you've forgotten about me
That for the first time you feel....that you're actually happy.
Her words hurt like daggers.. draining all the blood from my veins.
It hurts to know you'll never say my name again. How can you pretend I never mattered.
I treated you like you were my king....I thought I was your queen.
Hearing you were never happy with us is just obscene.
And its mean...to have your friend keep posting those pictures on my screen
But what hurts most is seeing you have a smile...better than any I had ever seen
You never smiled that way with me...I've never seen you so serene
And just...seeing your eyes gleam..still the perfect blend of blue and green
Makes me fall back on old routines...thinking back on memories...
The memorys play in my head like a favorite song
sheepskinYour love smells like snowsheepskin1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
in the deep of August, sucking
me like mosquitoes and you.
damn, you always had a talented
tongue, knowing just what to say
to roll me between your teeth and
keep me there; and I was hoping—
no, trusting— I’d not be crushed.
I should have known when
you raised your bones against me,
when you clattered your molars
together but never bothered hiding
the truth below your belt.
And a part of me says
I was in love with you.
early mornings break my heartDear xx,early mornings break my heart2 years ago in Letters More Like This
It's 4:30 in the morning and your lights are on. I know why I'm awake, plagued by sleepless nights and too much coffee and too little time. Plagued by loneliness; the kind that, ironically, refuses to leave me alone. What I'm curious about, though, is what you're doing up. Are you in love? Are you lonely? Do you get nightmares, too? I wonder what you think about, when the quiet of the world sits like a blanket of stillness over our bodies. It tucks us in but doesn't wish us sweet dreams, because it's afraid to jinx it. As if wishing us good dreams is going to give us bad ones. Maybe we've been doing it all wrong--maybe that's why I'm wrapped up in darkness every time I close my eyes. I'd like to think you'd laugh at that, call me silly, because of course it gets dark when your eyelids flutter shut. I wonder if you're actually asleep, and just too scared to close the lights. Perhaps you're dreaming, the light from your lamp guiding you to some place happy and beautiful a
resonanceiresonance2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
does she know the astrological significance
of the bruises starring along
your wrists? if I could, I’d
run away somewhere where
the sky is silent and the people
hate honest eyes. here’s my problem,
I’ve wasted all my time daydreaming
in the universe of your scars. I wonder
if substantiality is lethal.
[when will you move on
like you know what
you’re doing with your life,
like this tiny existential
failure is only a hazard sign
on the roadmap of your journey,
like the world weighing down
upon your shoulders is an
exercise in vanity and quietude
instead of someone
lists of necessities: methods of
starvation, hours to fall asleep by, sharp
objects, words that mean nothing.
I’m sorry this isn’t better. I’m sorry
I’m not better and I’m sorry
nothing is bright anymore.
things you remind me of:
the november sky
right before it rains.
Falling apartI want to vomit,Falling apart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All the unhappiness I feel,
I want to escape,
From this empty void,
I want to get rid of,
All the despair I feel,
I want someone to help me.
Help me enjoy life.
Why can't a dream become reality?
Must I always suffer?
Is there a generous God in heaven?
Put me back together?
Where Have All the Flowers Gone?A devilish smile, an angelic grin,Where Have All the Flowers Gone?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
a sure fire way to send you further into sin.
That corruptible gaze, those precious eyes.
You're sinking further into your demise.
'Round and round this merry-go-round goes,
where she stops, nobody knows.
You'll almost definitely end up crashing to you knees
as I stop and listen to that delectable scream.
A perfect ballet is about to start,
faster and faster goes your speeding heart.
Make sure to capture the pieces before they fall.
We wouldn't want our Belle to crumble before the ball.
Straighten those shoulders, expose those thighs,
just don't let them catch you before the morning dies.
Try to hold the sobs at bay,
It'll be fun soon, isn't that what they say?
So crumpled and damaged as you struggle on the floor,
just move a little closer to the shattered glass door.
Tired and broken, you stand alone,
suddenly remembering no one's taking you home.
Tears echo as they hit the ground
as you finally noticed what's really going on.
A lovely smile, those g
Something MoreI sit here in my room,Something More3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
my little corner of the world.
I think about all the sleepless nights,
all the lonely days.
all i can say is,
there must be more.
How can there not be more?
more than just sitting here,
more than being trapped in this repetitiveness.
is this all i'm destined for?
Am i to remain here forever,
and never get away?
I try to reach out,
just to be pushed back in.
This life is suffocating me.
There must be something more.
So, where is it?
I Don't Love YouI don’t love you.I Don't Love You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don’t care about you.
I don’t think that you’re beautiful.
I don’t envy the hand that you hold.
I don’t admire you from afar when you’re not looking.
I don’t die inside when you look straight through me.
I don’t stay up late at night thinking about you.
I don’t touch myself to the thought of you making love to me.
I don’t cry myself to sleep knowing that I mean nothing to you.
I don’t dream about you when I fall asleep and wish to wake up next to you.
I don’t write melodramatic poetry about you.
I don’t even tell you the truth.
Wait For MeDo you see the world in different colours ? Or do you see the world in black and grey?Wait For Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Alone in your thoughts
How many others have stand where you are today?
Just wait for me now
A safe return is all I want
Break from all these chains
All these roads that I have taken led me to nowhere
Left me here standing at life's edge
There is just one thing left to ask, just wait for me
Broken mirrors can't hide from my shame
It has been years
Shattered into a million pieces
Wait for me there is still time
I haven't gotten back on my feet
I have hit rock bottom
The only way now is to go up
Please wait for me
But I will ask you once more,
Will you wait for me?
Only time could tell
Down into a deep spiral
There is no turning back
Just driving myself into a grave
Won't you wait for me?
Will there be a hand to save?
Or just turn a blind eye to my call?
And I shall wait for your answer
The FuneralHolding hands,The Funeral3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
throwing roses over a pearlescent casket
bathed in baby pink,
who knew death could be so feminine,
but funeral hymns plague the fragile air
while the graveyard is soaking up mournful stares,
maybe a few glances of relief are exchanged like drug money,
I look around and realize how everyone looks so alive
when we are surrounded by fatality,
translucent tears spill over flushed faces,
sunken eyes mirror hollow smiles
as the reapers cling to our backs like sloths
and everything feels slow,
everything falls stagnant,
then we drink from the goblet of faith and hope
and we get drunk off the elixir of life,
the fog clears
and our skin burns gold as the sun rises against our withered hides,
we can still feel the warmth which means we must still be alive,
so we don't move on but we do move forward
with our ancestors ghosts living within our hearts,
whispering in our ears,
and guiding us into the light.
Introduction"Hey"Introduction4 years ago in Emotional More Like This
"Do I know you?"
"No, but I know you."
"Yea, you're the girl whose boyfriend cheated on her"
"And he tore you into pieces and broke your heart and you've never been able to trust
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"You're the girl whose parents got separated living in one house and then the other."
"How do you..."
"You're the girl whose friends betrayed her. They just toyed around with you until they found out you were no use for them anymore and let you hanging"
"STOP IT!" Her eyes stinging with tears
"You're the girl who lied to her mom to go to parties."
"That is not true." Her voice wobbly
"You're the girl who cried herself to sleep at nights when she lost all faith."
"I did not cry alright"
"You changed yourself to fit in but still no one accepted you."
"You're the girl who hides the scars under her sleeves so no one will call her names."
"It helps ease the pain." The tears threatening to escape
"You're the one who took th
DreamI had a dream of you.Dream2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I think that's where you live.
Your terrible actions,
I said I would forgive.
Things seemed so normal.
They seemed like before.
My love for you was true,
And my heart did soar.
You said you didn't want me.
Just like when I'm awake.
You said it would be better.
You did it for my sake.
So now I'm left empty.
My heart broken twice.
Why do you do this,
With a gaze made of ice?
Dreams should be happy,
Where you can do what you want,
But instead my dreams,
You continue to haunt.
I just want to be happy,
And not think of you.
Why is that so difficult,
For me to do?
dowryi wonder sometimes if i shoulddowry3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
just get high and let myself crush
beneath the opening of a womb
not found in my body, but the clouds
he wants me to sing virgin songs, keep
clorox clean eyes with a chlorinated
he wants me shredded
sheep skin for only him, the caul
of my children slipping at my feet
with sin and holy ghost.
his evenings are spent in the
church, in the coronation
of a god i did not ask for
but was given,
dressed like an alter boy
on his knees.
i wonder if i mark myself
with placebo hands of another man
i would not be so desirable for him
(i could lip the lines of fabric contorted
round a carousel of flesh in shades
of white and black/
become tarnished in inky
pnumonic at the rings of my fingers, spindling
moth webs with the hands of lucifer to fit in his
but i am in white linen, taught with
dowry, womanly as
woman be, free
love habiti started takinglove habit3 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
painkillers when i saw you
so i'd be smiling
RelapseI'm weak...yeah been this way for weeksRelapse3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every night I quietly weep...and been getting no sleep
And I reek...Of the blood that from these wrist always leak
The cuts always hurt..but only you could hurt me this deep
I try to cover this pain with an act..
A fake smile.. A laugh..
But every time I see you.. It feels like I have been smacked
And I hate..just seeing you..happy..unfazed
When I'm here hurting.. just..dying...and hiding the tears from my face
And you act..like what we had was nothing to you
Am I the only one who remembers.. everything we have been through
The pain constantly haunts my mind...
Its always followed by the image of your crying face...
Then I feel a guilty pleaure inside.. And I feel disgraced
I want you to be happy...I do...because I really do love you
But deep inside I just want you...to suffer like I do
I'm horrible perhaps.....Want you to be suffering..until both our hearts collapse
Because Love is just a painful drug...and I hope that for me you'll soon relapse
If We Had...Dear Henry,If We Had...6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
If things had worked out this is where we would be. You would be an Army officer and the word "Hooah" would be our household motto. You would leave for a twelve-month tour two weeks after I made a special dinner to tell you what I great father you were going to get the chance to be. When you left I would hold back the tears because I'm supposed to be proud but really I'm just scared. I would find support groups to get me through the lonely months of cleaning and re-cleaning already spotless rooms praying that the phone won't ring. I would call up your twin brother to hold my hand while I give birth to your first child and if I"m lucky you will be there via satellite hookup with a smile and a promise to be home soon. Our baby girls one and only look at her father would take place through a television screen and invisible wires. By the time she takes her first step all that is left of her brave daddy is a crisply folded flag. This is how it all worked out in my head so you ca