Memories I remember being very small while growing up in a large house that seemed to get bigger with each passing day. I would explore as much of the house as I could in one day, climbing over mountainous furniture to see out a high window or stalking monstrous tabby cats in an attempt to play with them.
However, my adventures usually came to an end when I reached the darkest and most disturbing part of the building: the stairs. Those stairs in our house, carpeted in a dirty brown material, always startled me for some reason or another. I'm not sure if it was because there was no source of light along the stairwell, making the hike up to the next level unbearable; or if it was the paintings that hung on the walls, the horrific pictures frightening me in every way possible; or perhaps it was because of the mountain-like trudge to the second floor, something that just very intimidating to a small toddler such as myself at the time.
SolitudeThe world that I live in is nothing too greatSolitude3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I honestly hate living in this unconscionable state
Of mind where nothing seems to goes right
Where the flicker of hope goes out like a light
I feel like reality is slipping away from me
And I can no longer reach the door I must see
So I reside myself to my darkened thoughts
And remind myself that I don't need to be taught
I sit in a corner in my brain
Trying so hard to keep myself sane
From the chaos that surrounds me so
Ignoring the people that seem to know
More about life than they let on to
Too bad nobody believes it's true
I cover my ears to block out the lies
I can't stand the sight, so I cover my eyes
I envelope myself in the blacked room
Hoping that darkness will take me soon
In my world, stars do not shine
And little babies don't dare to whine
The birds here do not whistle or sing
And marriage is not focused on one puny ring
Love is nonexistent, as it always has been
And the planet seemed to make peace again
There also seems to be
She's DeadRemembering her day,She's Dead3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And all the words they said.
The images kept taunting her,
Never leaving her alone.
She bawled her eyes out.
Never wanting to let go.
She fought the empty air.
Hiding her emotions,
Showing no despair.
But she finally broke,
She let it all out,
Her screams, her shouts,
And tainted red eyes
She finally gave in.
With a pen and knife,
She told her story that night,
And when she was done,
She took her own life.
Circumlocution"I am such an idiot."Circumlocution3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Aelita buried her face against her hands, grumbling. "Stupid, stupid-"
"Princess, you okay?"
Aelita looked up, still frowning, and looked over at Yumi, who was sitting across from her at the table. She opened her mouth to reply, then shut it again, and shrugged. How could she talk to Yumi or the others if she couldn't make sense to the one who knew her best? Aelita sighed again, and Yumi raised her eyebrows.
"Something's got your back up. What's wrong?" Her dark eyes flashed. "Did Sissy pull something?"
Aelita shook her head, choking out a humorless laugh. "Ha. I wish." She sighed. "I don't know...Yumi...have ever had the feeling when you're talking to..to..."despite her efforts to hide it, a blush started to creep up her cheeks- "someone you like, do you ever find you can't speak properly?"
Yumi smiled slowly, and nodded. "Maybe. Why?"
Aelita shrugged. "It's all circumlocution."
Yumi blinked at her. "It's...what?"
"Oh sorry." Annoyed at herself, Aelita flipped a
Little Black BirdThe little black bird sits in her cageLittle Black Bird4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lonely, afraid of the outside world
Or, more precisely, afraid of the people in the outside world
She sings her songs from the bars of her cage
But nobody ever listens
They just nod and move on to continue with their daily lives
Not even bothering to see that the poor bird is dying
Dying from lack of love
Lack of heart
Lack of life
And just when she thought she was going to have her chance to fly free
It was taken from her
Taken away from her like a piece of candy, as if it was no big deal
She never talks, never says a word
The little black bird just keeps singing about a new day
But how can she have a new day when the current day is still passing on?
How can she sing when her eyes are filled with tears?
How will she move on from being deprived of the outside world?
Or should she really be asking
How will she, herself, the little black bird,
Die peacefully one day?
Insufferable PainJust one slit...Insufferable Pain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Nobody has to know.
I'll make it small
and hide it somewhere well.
Please, just let me cut.
I feel like I am drowning,
And me stopping isn't helping.
I feel worse by the second.
Please just let me do it,
Just give me the razor,
And I'll give it right back.
Please I just can't stand it anymore,
I feel like my skin is burning,
All I do is claw at my wrists,
And just wish it would bleed.
I can't handle this anymore,
Please someone help me...
The TruthThe people who you see,The Truth3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That act the craziest,
And make everyone laugh.
Those are the ones,
That are hiding pain,
And all of their emotions.
They cry themselves to sleep,
Waking up with dried tears.
They make everyone smile,
Because they don't want anyone upset.
They try to fix others,
When their own lives are falling apart.
They are the ones all around you,
With fake smiles on their faces.
The one's who say "I'm fine."
Through gritted teeth,
And faces full of shame.
They hide their scars,
Their ugly bruises.
Their battle against daily life.
If you were to look beyond,
You'd see what I'm talking about.
Just take a look at my life.
All I WantAll I want are some handsAll I Want4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Broad and strong
Yet gentle enough
to entwine their fingers with mine.
All I want are some arms
Wrapped around my shoulders
Keeping me safe and warm
An embrace big enough to hold the world
All I want is a heart
A puzzle with missing pieces
Pieces that my heart could fill
Together, completing the puzzle.
All I want is a voice
Speaking in the softest whisper
The words I've most longed to hear
"I love you."
Laced In MiseryAnother mark I've sewn, I cross my heart and hope to dieLaced In Misery3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Behind these scarlet walls, and blood shot eyes
Is a girl who's struggling to survive
Black chains to help me sallow my pain
Blood seeks to leave from out of my veins
Fading in the night, lost without a guide
Leave me here in the cold night to die
Wounded by hatred my heart disintegrates into ashes
Just barely holding on as the world around me crashes
Paralyzed from all the pain, look behind these scarlet walls
And blood shot eyes to see the girl who's struggling to survive
Chained inside with an insanity is not a prize
Breaking down, from being despised
By the ones who would help me to survive
But leave me here in the cold night to die
Doubled knotted in this life
Nothing to stop this strife
No escaping, I'm laced in misery
No one cares to set me free
Tighten it up until it rips it's seams
Escaping to prefect dreams
Where a girl isn't struggling to survive
Who's eyes are clear from stone hard lies
An angel's voice sings deep wit