ControlControl is everything. Self-control, that is. Control how you act, what you say, what goes into your body, and maybe — just maybe — you'll be able to control you are. Power is addictive; my drug of choice, but it comes at a cost. You see, what you don't learn until it's too late? Sooner or later, the need for control — controls you.
Generally, I’m a good kid. I pay attention in school, earning the high grades that decorate my report cards. I may not be especially popular, but I certainly have friends. I usually do as I’m told, don’t flagrantly disobey rules, and I try hard to please people. I retrace my steps in my mind, searching for the slip — the fall — that landed me here, on this cool, clammy table, wearing not much more than a requisite thin gown.
A crisp knock on the heavy wooden door to the exam room startles me, bringing my attention back to my predicament at hand. After
Wistful WishingWrite me a story, construe words into magnificent sentences that set my mind aflame. Take me to enchanted forests, bustling cities, serene beaches. Set my senses reeling with description, leaving me yearning for more. Capture my heart and mind and set it free with your mastery of the thing I love yet fear the most. Break me down and build me up with your vibrant thoughts. Challenge my knowledge, then when I'm flustered and confused calm me with a soft whisper in my ear of the truth and the things I failed to comprehend and understand. Caress my emotions with soothing words and dreams, enrapture me in them. Make me feel insubordinate, helpless, small yet undoubtedly safe. I'm sick of the monotony of always leading, knowing, being independent and fearing from those around me. Prove me wrong.Wistful Wishing4 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
Prove me wrong and let your actions match your words so I'm not lost and heartbroken, wandering life day by day alone and unsure.
False laborI cannot remember the beginning of the labor and I find it hard to believe that I will ever see the end. The contractions are ruthless and turn me inside out against my will. My plea for an epidural goes unanswered, and after a few hours, I'm so exhausted that I find it hard to care anymore.False labor3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
I have never known this kind of pain before, this agony deep inside of me, tearing at my belly, sinking its claws into my spine. It tries to crawl up my throat, but I choke back the scream.
Nine months of waiting, nine months of anxiety, culminating in a few hours of sheer terror. I am clenching someone's hand tightly, too tightly, but this transference of pain does nothing to lessen my own.
I do not cry until they lay her on my chest. Looking at her, I forget to breathe. Destructive as I am, it seems highly implausible that I made this mewling scrap of life. I can't believe she's here.
And then, just when I reach for her, my baby dissolves like smoke on the wind, and I am left with empty hands and
Asperger'sAsperger's, Autism, High-functioning Autism, or anything elseAsperger's4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It isn't easy to deal with
Not a disease, you don't catch it
Just a condition people hardly understand
There is no basic definition, but includes
From my experience?
Regretting what I did
Withdrawn from the world
What a freak
Do something else for a change
She keeps to herself
Do you ever talk?
You should try to make friends
Why are you so clumsy?
You feel lonely
Desperate to make friends
Yet you're knocked down
Make one mistake
You're a freak
And you start to think
What's the point?
You can't live without eatingI don't know why it happened to me really. I don't know how many times I've asked myself that question. Why me? I remember how it all started. It was long before I got diagnosed actually. I had been depressed for a long time already. Then it just hit me. What if I'd try to change something with myself to get rid of this misery? I pretty much wanted to die anyway.You can't live without eating3 years ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
That's when I first started exercising. I've always loved dancing and I could do that simple math they've all told us, the medias, school, parents If you burn more than you take in you'll lose weight. I had plenty of time at first since it was summer after all. I danced and danced and started to say no to sweets once in a while. I still ate them though, to reward myself. I didn't have any problems with food yet. But the dancing I used to love so much became a torture. At least 30 minutes a day I worked out. I had no interest in breakfast and had a fruit instead.
My hard work paid of though. People told me I looked good a
Facepalm-Worthy Series 1Ok, when I was young, in my 3rd university year, I remember I was going out a saturday night with my friends and we randomly met other group of people (they were like 15 or so...).Facepalm-Worthy Series 14 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
We were talking about funny uni-related things and then I suddenly said:
- "Oh, did you know I've been said that in "Child Education" there are 149 girls and only one boy? And the best of all is they told me that boy is gay, so imagine, I guess he's not interested in any of those 149 girls at all :iconforeveraloneplz:"
Then a boy from that group we recently met replied to me in a really camp way:
- "Oh well, I'm studying Child Education and I'm the only boy in my class"
*COLLECTIVE FACE-PALMING MOMENT*
1,000 POINT GIVEAWAY!!HEY EVERYONE!1,000 POINT GIVEAWAY!!4 years ago in Personal More Like This
I've decided to start a 1,000 giveaway!!
Once I reach 1,000 , I will choose a random deviant who comments on here to win 1,000 !!
To participate, just comment, simple as that!~
To help me get there faster and to get a better chance of winning, please donate to my donation pool!!
Be a good Muppet todayGo ahead, be a good muppet. Do and think EXACTLY what the media wants you to. Thou shalt feel sorry for the three people who were murdered in Boston today. The next month shall be spent talking about the evils of terrorism again and discussing the stripping away of further liberties from law abiding citizens.Be a good Muppet today3 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
25,000 die from hunger every day, a million is withering away in prisons due to the war on drugs for victimless crimes, human rights violations abound, preventable disease and lack of clean water is killing millions per year, banking cartels immune from prosecution are stealing trillions, drones are blowing up children in half, etc, etc..
Fuck all that, right? The media didn't tell you to care. Take the red pill, friends, and walk away. Keep your mind under your own control. This is not a lack of compassion the three fellow human beings who tragically lost their lives today. It's a lack of respect for those who use every marketable tragedy to further their ends and profits. I
Poster Designing Contest - CLOSED.Hellooooo everyone!Poster Designing Contest - CLOSED.3 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
UPDATE THE THIRD:
This contest is now CLOSED. That's it! All finished!
New entries can no longer be accepted.
Thank you so much to everyone who pimped this, donated prizes - and of course everyone who made an entry. I appreciate it so much!
Watch this space for the results.
So. I'm redecorating my room.
I only have one nice poster and a couple of prints to put up on my wall, so I decided that I'd really like a new poster... but not just any ol' poster. ;D And this is where you guys come in!
This contest is to design a poster of A3 size and using any medium which I can get printed and framed in order to put up on my wall.
The initial deadline will be July 24th. This may be extended, depending on how things are looking at that time.
Listen up! Important things for you to consider...
Your entry MUST:
Be an image of some description (hopefully that goes without saying).
Be at least
Twelve years of Deviousness. Art at its bestMy beautiful friendsTwelve years of Deviousness. Art at its best3 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
As we all know, we are celebrating twelve years anniversary of DeviantArt, and arent we all grateful this awesome website was created I’m so happy and so proud to be a Deviant as everyone of you is
I have put together this special feature to honor the Art in DeviantArt, the life changing Art, and I want to say that my life would never be the same without DeviantArt.
Thank you so much for the people who have started the awesomeness twelve years ago, thank you for every awesome Deviant who put their heart and soul in their Art, thank you for the love and support that makes this wonderful community way too special.
Ubisoft: From Dust - Journal Skins Pack TweetUbisoft: From Dust - Journal Skins Pack4 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
Journal Skins Pack
View Journal Skins
DeviantART and Ubisoft's new video game title,
From Dust, have teamed up to give all deviants Premium
Member access to Journal Skins! With just a few clicks,
deviants can easily customize, organize, and maximize
their journal experience.
During this special From Dust promotion, which runs through
October 31st, deviants can install the Journal Skins of their choice
in just a few easy steps. Using a Journal Skin is a way for deviants
to personalize their Profile Page for the entire community to see.
It's a fancy method for deviants t
INTO MY THOUGHTSINTO MY THOUGHTSINTO MY THOUGHTS4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
These voices, a thousand different voices in my head,
An agonizing attempt to get me to do what they've said,
They are the scars on what once was a brilliant mind,
But time and trauma have long since left the genius behind,
They are incessant verbalizations that taunt me,
As well as the unrelenting mistakes that haunt me,
I am mentally beaten and broken down,
Forever shackled to the sins I must lug around,
Trust me for it is the truth when I say,
You don't want to see through my mind's eye in any way,
It's a sickness, a life sucking disease you'll see,
The continuous circle of viciousness that surrounds me,
If only there was a forgivable way out,
I would take it with no hesitation or doubt,
I am lucky if you will, in some respects,
For my mind slips into the void each day allowing me to forget,
This is my response to you, who choose to criticize,
Step into my world, dive into my thoughts and perhaps you'll realize,
We all have different ways, some by choice others by c
APN Daily Deviations - November 2011This is the eighteenth, and for now my last, edition of a monthly news article to show the Daily Deviations from Photography > Animals, Plants & Nature (APN) of the previous month that I gave a DD, in case you missed some, or just want to see them again!APN Daily Deviations - November 20114 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
My term as the Animals, Plants & Nature Photography Community Volunteers has almost ended, so this will - for now - be my last edition of the monthly DD summary. You've been introduced to your new APN CV a few weeks ago, so you should send all of your suggestions to trevg from now on. I won't be able to feature any more DD's.
You've been awesome, I've received so many wonderful suggestions and I really couldn't have done all these magnificent features without the help of you awesome deviants!
I'm sorry I couldn't reply to all of your suggestions, but really, it were way too many to reply to. Some days I've received hundreds of notes and it's been hard to keep up with. There were man
DONT FORGET OUR CONTEST! - WIN PREMIUM 1 year!:iconrainbow-cplz: :iconrainbow-oplz: :iconrainbow-nplz: :iconrainbow-tplz: :iconrainbow-eplz: :iconrainbow-splz: :iconrainbow-tplz:DONT FORGET OUR CONTEST! - WIN PREMIUM 1 year!4 years ago in Personal More Like This
We in :iconlovefantasycreatures: Have decided to make a new contest!
This time, we want you to make our new mascot!
What you have to do:
Make a mascot reference sheet for this group.
It can be a griffin, phoenix, dragon, hippocampus, unicorn, pegasus, ... or your own fantasy creature as long as it is a fantasycreature!
When done, submit it to our new Mascot contest folder!
You can submit as many entries as you´d like.
Who will win:
We will have three or more judgers. We will choose the ten we like best, and than we will make a poll asking you which of the 10 mascots you liked best.
The creature with the most votes will win.
requires to win:
You have to be a member of the group.
The entry will have to be a reference sheet, with information about the creature.
Contest Time!! (WINNERS ANNOUNCED)PLEASE READ EVERYTHING BEFORE COMMENTING!Contest Time!! (WINNERS ANNOUNCED)3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Its finally time! Oh man I had the hardest time judging this. >< Cuz I honestly felt that everyone deserved something and I felt really bad when I didn't choose someone. ;_; Cuz I know how hard you all worked on them and I really enjoyed looking at all of your creative designs. *going off topic for a sec* Btw I am REALLY REALLY sorry that I haven't posted anything for the last 2 weeks. I'm still waiting on a commission approval and everything new that I've started on has been taking forever to finish. But I've started to get back to drawing again so please bear with me for a while till I get everything up to speed.
ANYWAYS BACK TO THE CONTEST...
Remember how I said that I felt like everyone should deserve something, WELL I decided that everyone that didn't get a place or an honorable mention will get a free headshot sketch! Just for participating and taking the time to enter in my first contest. <3 Its not mu
DeviantART's 12th Birthday Hat Contest! About The ContestDeviantART's 12th Birthday Hat Contest!3 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
Ended! hosted by KovoWolf
Thank You Everyone!
The contest is currently being judged!! Thank you everyone who participated! They all where amazing and creative!!
In preparation for the Birthday Shinanigans about to unfold here at DeviantART, we want to ask you, the community to get your crafty scissors, gear up your imagination, and all the materials you can for this contest in preparation for celebrating DeviantART's 12th birthday! What we're asking of you is to make your OWN birthday hat to wear for DeviantART's birthday!
Here are some ideas for you to get started on a birthday hat!
:iconastralseed: :icon3wyl: :iconlyricanna: :iconSanguineVamp:
Below you will find the rules for the Hat contest!
Please do not submit something you have already created
That Flying DreamThere is something about that dream. Everyone seems to have it at some point the dream where one's soul breaks with gravity and lets loose into the sky. Fears are forgotten; heights are ignored. Of all the limitless combinations possible in the human mind, this is the most desired outcome in the dream realm. It was this desire that leaked from my subconscious and took root in my heart. The motivation to fly came effortlessly; the challenge was finding a way to make it happen.That Flying Dream4 years ago in Academic Essays More Like This
As a middle school student with no concept of impossibility, my first choice was to build my means of flight. I did not want a plane; I wanted to rely only on my own strength to rise into the air. Hours of time that should have been devoted to homework were spent in front of the computer, watching slow-motion videos of birds in flight and reading articles on aerodynamics. I studied hydraulics, Leonardo da Vinci's flying machine, and the birds overhead without cease. Countless failed designs and technical im
Let The Light In: Art Features:icongood-intention:Let The Light In: Art Features3 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
'Let The Light In (LTLI) is a new tutorial series from the group Good-Intention that will focus on the hows and whys of committing good deeds around the deviantART community.
The first edition of this series will focus on how to create an art feature in order to help fellow friends and artists gain some exposure for their work, regardless of the media. This is a fantastic way to brighten someone's day, and promote some positivity.
What Is An Art Feature?
An Art Feature is a journal (blog / article) that showcases deviations from one, or multiple artists. You may peruse the Art Feature Folder for some examples. Users choose to create art features for a number of reasons, from showcasing artwork they admire, to helping under-appreciated artists gain more views, to promoting art from their friends or watchers. No matter what the motivation, art features are a great way t
Contest for 1000+ DA points! LAST 12 HOURS!28/01/2012: Sorry i didn't state the ending time exactlyContest for 1000+ DA points! LAST 12 HOURS!4 years ago in Personal More Like This
coz i was lazy to check the time zone differencewhich resulted in some people rushing a lot in the last minute not knowing whether they'll make it in...orz||| my bad >.-
The Unexpected Love ContestHas someone special that you love surprised, delighted, or changed your life in an unexpected, but joyful way? I want to hear your stories.The Unexpected Love Contest3 years ago in Deviant Events More Like This
One of the best things about finding new love is the excitement and anticipation of the unknown. All of us at one time have felt that exhilarating feeling of unforeseen passion. I want for you to express to me in a poem or short story this unexpected feeling, and what it ultimately means to you. Be as vividly original as you can to make your deviation stand out, but do keep our key elements of what you feel the aspects of “unexpected love” entails as your primary motivation while writing.
Your Submission Guidelines:
Your submissions must be new deviations entered after today. Please <a wytiwyg="1" href="http://my.deviantart.com/notes/#tk=dgUMWxYIWApzVU1cR2h8BFBPfAwNVFpfXw%3D%3D">
Stop RAPE!I have always been a proud Indian coz I felt it is one country which has unity in diversity. But today I feel ashamed when a "girl" feels utterly unsafe and unprotected to even go out of their house in my country.Stop RAPE!3 years ago in Personal More Like This
A nation-wide news of a 23yr paramedical student getting brutally gang-raped in a moving bus in the capital city of India, Delhi shook the nation and every heart of a girl in India. This is not what I wanted to see when I was a child. India is so full with talented individuals and great minds but still they run a dreadful society by infusing fear to a girl's or a woman's mind?
Please stop this right now. A girl has an equal right to breath, talk, walk and have every possible freedom as the other gender has.
Being a guy, I know that we are attracted to females more than they do. But personally I never have the feeling or even have the guts to think of "raping" someone. How can you do something like that to a human being? A guy must understand that raping a girl is not
Mini Contest -Ended-ContestMini Contest -Ended-4 years ago in Personal More Like This
The results will be posted on July 21st
About Malina: She is an energetic and eccentric girl that loves theatrics, although she doesn't have the confidence to become a performer she uses her plushie dolls to act out the stories in her head.
Likes: Stars, yellow ribbons, plushies (her plushies are of my other OCs)
Deadline: July 13th
Prize: First and Second Place Prizes
- First Place: 600 points
- Second Place: 300 points
Rules: Must be Traditional or Digital.
- Character must be "Chibi"/Mini
- Art must be your own. (No using bases)
- Art must be coloured.
- Only two entries allowed per person.
- You cannot change her outfit.
To submit your artwork to the contest just send me a note with the link to your deviation. If you are thinking of entering just leave a little comment =]
Simple Design Contest- Judging!Right so I was pretty inspired by silly-boat's contest in how they used minimalistic colourations (black and white) as the subject. I tend to have some pretty somewhat complicated/complex designs so hey maybe it'll be pretty cool to have a simple design contest.Simple Design Contest- Judging!3 years ago in Personal More Like This
Rules are very simple: The character/creature must be completely monotone (gradients accepted) save for a single off colour (preferably a neon one or something that stands out) that can be used in only ONE area. (except for eyes)
For example say I have a wolf. That wolf is black with white socks and a stomach and has red eyes however the off colour could be two simple dashes below its eye but that colour can't be used anywhere else on the creature. Pretty simple huh?
-Only monotone colours can be used, save for that single off colour [Monotone pertaining to black, white, grey gradients]
-You can use bases but it's discouraged, I want