Not sorryI'm not sorry I left,
Not sorry I'm gone.
But it was you
Who left me alone.
I tried to find you,
When you turned away.
But you no longer saw me,
Said "It's better this way."
You used to love me,
And I still love you.
I thought we were perfect,
But never was that true.
So don't get me wrong,
I played my part.
My life was shattered,
But you don't have a heart
So I will say it again,
Like a practiced verse.
For your heart to be broken,
You need one first.
Ghost of YouDown on my knees for youGhost of You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Begging please stop
Picking the good out of me
Heaving on the floor
I need you
But you're killing me
I look in the mirror
My reflection beckons back
Who is she?
Someone falling through the cracks,
That you have made in her broken heart
Someone begging on her knees for you to shut up
Just a girl who wants to be beautiful
Just running from the edge
Into this world unknown
Finding nobody, but the ghost of you...
Deadi died long ago,Dead3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i may breathe
but i'm not
alive, no matter
how much my
or how much I breathe
i died long ago,
now i'm just
an empty shell,
of a former self.
living a life,
around me people
whisper of how
they never want
to lose me, for
me not to die
but they don't
realise that i
died a long time ago,
i'm not the same,
i'm dead but still living,
living in pain,
tears that never end,
i try and live, to
be happy for once,
but you can't bring
the dead back...
I Got A PastI got a pastI Got A Past3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But my scars don't write at all
They tell stories of my life
They remind me of my past
But they don't write at all
They do one thing
And they do it well
They mock me
And laugh at me
I got a past
And I don't know what to do with it
It breaks me and makes me lazy
And if I keep on dreaming I know
That I'm worthless, I don't deserve a home
SeptemberI don't know why,September3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I still break down and cry,
At times I find myself,
Wanting to shout out for help,
I want to tell you that I love you, but I don't know,
I just don't know if what we had before is possible,
I hope that you'll always remember me,
And the good times that came to be,
Forget the arguments and the fights,
Step out of the shadows and walk into the light,
Maybe one day we'll talk again,
Forgive each other for our sins,
Until then I'll hold it all in,
Because sometimes it takes two to begin,
Honestly, I just want this month to be over,
As days go by I can feel my heart grow colder,
This would've been two years together,
I really thought that it would go on forever,
My phone reminded me, said it would never end,
And when I read that, it dug deep under my skin,
But never is the longest 5 letter word,
Because now your voice may never be heard.
ForgetYou remember nothing,Forget3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
How my love for you in the end,
Was taken apart in front of my eyes.
I thought you were once my friend,
But now I understand the truth in your lies.
You think of me with such spite,
Why are you the one to tell me,
What is wrong and what is right?
Your passion was blind but I made you see,
I remember everything.
That Sickly FeelingThe mind refuses to forgetThat Sickly Feeling3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The heart orders "Feel"
The explosive emotions begin
I hear your voice
Remorse and questions devour me again
My chest tightens
A physical ache seizes me
Tears of "Whys"
Tears of "Maybes"
Tears of "Buts"
Tears of "Hows"
Pain is initiated
Thoughts of denial envelop
Dreams are dreamt
Reality is fated
Things are no longer the same
Loses its previous course
The tears stop
The impassive shell emerges
Its time to sleep
The chest pains seize again
Toss and spin
Bed is no longer
A place of comfort
No one to share this pain
No one to give
What was dearly lost
The sun rises
It's another day
Everyone sees everything is alright
But who are they to see that?
A fight bravest is fought unaccompanied
I Was WrongMaybe I was wrongI Was Wrong3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't need me
That's why you left
I'm the one that needs you
I don't feel the need to change myself to make you want me again
If who I am isn't good enough, then maybe I'm better off alone
I wish things could go back to being like they were
Me and you
Fitting perfectly together
Letting everything disappear
I know I'm young
People tell me I'll find someone else
That I'll love again
But I don't know if I can be that open with anyone other than you
I'm too guarded
I have trouble seeing myself with anyone but
I know how to be strong and that I shouldn't let one relationship ruin me
But in all honesty
I am lost without you
Could You?One smile was all it tookCould You?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who thought a heart could break this quickly?
One glance, one stare
Did you even remember that I was there?
Your eyes locked on her face
Who thought a heart could crumble into decay?
There are so many things I want to say
So many things I want to scream in your face
So many tears I tried to hide
When I said I felt better, could you tell that I lied?
Could you tell that this is eating away at me?
The image won't go away
I try to remind myself of happiness and glee
But I remember when you were with her, and not me
Now you tell me you love me, I trust you with that
And I want you to know that I love you too
But seriously, I'm starting to feel insecure
I want you to know that I love you, and only you
But, please tell me, could you tell me that too?
SorrowSorrow is lovingSorrow3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
someone so much,
But knowing you
can never have them.
Can't we just pretend?Can't we just pretend?Can't we just pretend?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That we're all just okay?
Can't we just pretend?
That we don't all just fake it?
Can't we act?
Like actresses on stage?
Or like this is all a dream?
And soon we'll wake up and it'll be okay?
Do we really have to talk about the bad?
I want to see the good...
Or just imagine it
I need a brand new world
A fresh start
Can't we just pretend?
That life never happened?
Can't we just pretend?
That this isn't the end
Lost Forever MoreI thought I had a friendLost Forever More3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A true friend
That would be there
Thick and thin
And ever then
Try to do all they could do
To make me smile again
But I was dead wrong
I felt like an ugly bull frog
I was sad
When I got wind
That my very best friend
Had left me
For a new best friend
I wasn't warned
I wasn't told
I felt the world around me
Just turn bitter cold
I was out of the picture
For ever more
I was a forgotten
That got left on the floor.
Still Fighting Back TearsA ball forms in my throatStill Fighting Back Tears3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And tears begin to form
So I begin to push them back
I mustn't let them show
I mustn't show you my pain
How much I'm suffering
For I feel that if I do-
It would show that I've given up
That after so long, I've given in
And I will not let that happen
Who do you think you are?Who do you think you are?Who do you think you are?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who are you to judge who I can and cannot be?
Who are you to decide what I should and should not see?
Who are you to say what I can and cannot do?
You're way too stuck up in your own selfish world to even tell that I love him and not you.
The pain you've caused me is sunk in way to deep
Too deep for me to even attempt to creep
Why won't you cease your endless attempts?
For you know very well that I cannot be content.
Why won't you leave me alone?
Why can't you leave my heart untorn?
Who are you?
Who are you to even dare to tell me what to do?
Reaching Out.I'm reaching out with my handsReaching Out.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Expecting you my love to embrace me,
But when I close my hand and see that you
Have not yet grasped on,
With every time I open my hand
To this painful empty feeling,
It tears this hole in my heart open
Letting it fill in with sadness,
And letting it become deeper.
So I let my nails grow out
Not expecting for anyone to latch on,
Continuing to grasp this desolate air
I find my self falling down in despair,
But then I see you reaching out
To grab my lonely hand out from the dark,
But alas I cut you,
I lost the sense of caring,
My nails and my heart,
Have become too sharp for this hand to hold on.
Nights RainWe're standing in the rainNights Rain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lips connected like this is our last night
Pain intermingled with hope
Love threaded in our grasp
Your voice is just a raspy whisper against my ear
"I love you" my dear,
I love you more than words can display
And yet - everyday
I love you more and more and I must say
"I love you too", my breath just a tickle against your neck
Our bodies pressed close, where the seams end, I dont know...
we're standing in the rain
Staring up into the sky
And I'm no longer asking why
Why must days come to an end
and in this my mind sends,
my heart the messege, and I am sending it right to you
my dreams have become my reality
And suddenly my fairy tales have come true
for I have found them all in you.
HomophobeWhat gives you the right? to tell them they can't love?Homophobe3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who are you ? to prance around? they're not blessed from above?
They must FIGHT, to love someone.
But for you it's not so big.
They're at WAR with who they are.
So YOU can justify the way YOU live.
What's it matter, what people do?
It's got nothing to do with you.
There's no such thing, as heterophobe.
So, why discriminate?
People are born the way they are
the world burns, with so much hate.
Live YOUR life, leave them alone.
You're in the wrong, homophobe..
Beat Me Til I See HellRepeating, repeating, of a carnival beating,Beat Me Til I See Hell3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There is no remorse, only laughter and cheating,
I've always loved all the people I've hated,
And always watching your heart become so berated,
Your filthy gods will spit in your throat,
Beg for forgiveness, so forgive you I won't,
Strangling, dangling,and asking for mercy,
Just beat me, just beat me, so that I may feel,
Reality is wrong, so show me what is for real,
Just beat me, and reap me,
Until I see hell..
Theres a, pretty little flower with your name on it,
In bloom and it's full of shit,
Forcefield is blocking,
And no one will stop me,
Before I push them all away...
Someone stop me,
Just drop me,
Theres a little, little, crack inside the window,
And it's my soul caught in a frame,
Something made me feel so black, this heart feels so gray,
Please just beat me, someone keep me,
Someone hate me, someone take me,
Just beat me,
Until I see hell...
You won't leave me alone,
Unless I leave you first, but I can't turn my back while
GhostNot a single fingerprint was left behind.Ghost3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
It was the perfect crime.
They never saw it coming; nor did they see me go.
fading segment of lifeIn memories of your lifefading segment of life3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you've died so many times.
Memories of distant days
memories of unseen dreams.
you've died inside.
Inside of your silence,
your voice screams with
Memories of your distant life
and you'll fade inside.
In search of light,
your eyes see nothing
but the agony of your screaming
tone that never stops biting you.
You're all alone
in this fog,
living of the memories
of the life that is distant
to your sight.
Crashed and bitter
you die along with
dreams that are never going
to be seen.
Broken TrustYou talk to me like you know whats wrong,Broken Trust3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like you haven't known it all along
This pain that I feel inside,
The one that slowly eats away at my pride
It's all because of you my dear,
This life that I live, the way that I fear
You say you won't leave,
You make me believe
But then you turn,
When will I ever learn?
I should never trust a word that you say.
Words Unspoken"Hey, what's the matter?"Words Unspoken3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everything is falling apart
And I know in my heart
Nothing is alright
I try and struggle and fight,
But nothing is as planned,
Like winds stealing sand,
It's all gone at the end of the day,
And I just need someone to tell me it's okay'