SorryI'm sorry for letting
You get under my skin
I'm sorry for forgetting
You didn't want in
I'm sorry for being
A leech on your skin
I'm sorry for not seeing
You weren't letting me in
I'm sorry for crying
My tears stained your skin
I'm sorry for dying
When you finally let me in
I'm sorry for living
And for breathing on your skin
I'm sorry for sinning
The lie I was living in
I'm sorry for hurting
Each time you felt my skin
I'm sorry for flirting
After the danger set in
I'm sorry for carving
Lines into my skin
And I'm sorry for starving
I thought you wanted me thin
But most of all I'm sorry
For stealing from your life
For deluding that maybe one day
I would be your wife
The day we failed
Was the day I died
EscapeI'm trying to escape,Escape10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
'Best Friend'You left me here,'Best Friend'9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
alone in the cold.
I can almost see the wind blow.
It brings back memories,
memories of you.
The way you used to smile,
you know, back we were two.
three musketeers minus one, "best friends".
The warth of your hug,
and those silly jokes you told,
while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.
I opened up to you, telling you everything.
& now thinking back I realize...
you told me nothing.
Nothing worth knowing, anyway.
Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?
I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,
but I thought best friends was more than that.
Maybe I was too eager,
eager to believe I finally had someone,
some to call my best friend.
you were the closest to it,
almost the closest I'd ever had.
now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
-she seeks solace-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
from the crevices of her mind
because it's the only place
where innocence still remains;
and it is the only place
where she can think
without the corruption of the world plaguing her mind.
Let Me DieLet me dieLet Me Die15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Let me die,
It hurts to live,
Let me die,
My soul to give.
I want to die,
Give me rest,
I don't want to try,
Just a bullet in the chest.
Every acrid breath makes sweet death,
Like the gentle touch of a lovers caress.
Let me die,
I beg you please,
Pain and disease
Are only a tease.
Give me a place,
Where I can be free,
Where demons wont chase,
And torture me
-you sometimes f o r g e t-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
who you really are
beneath the facade
— — because it is too painful
to acknowledge your sins.
-i. the world would be a better place if-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
no longer existed
there is far too little time
to hold such bitterness in our hearts.
ii. the world would be a better place if
we found homes
in each other
home is where the heart is,
and my heart lies with you.
iii. the world would be a better place if
to believe in ourselves
it’s okay to fall
when you will rise once more.
iv. the world would be a better place if
the scars that adorn our bodies
in our flaws.
v. the world is a better place
because of your kindness
and everything you do.
FlawedInsecurities.Flawed6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Screaming at me,
clawing at every inch
of my body.
That little voice inside my head
sounding strangely like my own,
tearing me down,
from the inside.
Each hate-filled blow,
hits harder than the last.
Each self-inflicted cut,
hidden in shame,
nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,
visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.
little dotted lines drawn
over every flawed bit of me.
Not pretty enough,
There is not a perfect inch
within my being.
Why can't I be beautiful?
Just YesterdayJust Yesterday15 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just yesterday you were holding my hand,
Just yesterday you gave me a wedding band,
Just yesterday you said I do and,
Just yesterday you said you loved me too.
Just yesterday you told me you cared,
Just yesterday you told me about the love we shared,
Just yesterday you said you'd never leave and,
Just yesterday that was all I needed to believe.
Just yesterday you were near,
Just yesterday they told me something I did'nt want to hear,
Just yesterday they buried you deep and,
Just yesterday thoughts of you kept me from sleep.
Just yesterday I finally came to see you,
Just yesterday I missed you more than I usually do and,
Just yesterday I remembered again how much I need you.
Just yesterday has come and gone and,
Just yesterday is just a memory of all that went wrong.
-she hides skeletons-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
in her closet;
she hears the monsters
that lurk under her bed
and the demons
trapped in her head.
No EscapeTaking small pieces from me,No Escape5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I lay fragmented and broken
He destroyed what was left of my heart
Casting me into eternal darkness,
For so long I've searched for a way to escape,
Only to be surrounded by this inky blackness
Everything was dismal, nothing made sense
Everywhere I turned, I was surrounded by pain
And all of it came from making a deal with him,
The beautiful devil with the cold, wicked eyes
Same dark smile that haunts me still
Out of nowhere, you appeared to me,
Sent from beyond the realm of dreams
And I was the one who cast you away.
But you hunted me, tracked me down
Using our hearts as a guide
To find your way back to me
It is indescribable, but I will try.
Your scent sends chills through me,
With a voice that breathes life into
My abused, broken soul;
Your touch amazes me with every breath
And when you look at me with those eyes,
My entire world stops
Only for you.
I want to share this feeling with the world,
Yet I do not know how to name
HistoryThere are momentsHistory4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that you wish never end
Then there are moments
that couldn't go by fast enough.
Through at the times we have seen
and all the lives we have lived.
Time seems to be
the one thing that never changes.
Time likes to repeat itself
going hour by hour, second by second.
They say, today is history
but tomorrow is a mystery.
History likes to repeat itself,
so maybe tomorrow isn't such a mystery.
-you do not know of the burden-1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
that lies upon my shoulders
nor the pain
that i carry in my heart.
RunBeneath the cadence of your call,Run4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hear the wolves as they echo through
Darkest hour of the brightest light of night,
Nothing could ever be as dark as you
And what you are to me
What are you to me?
I merely blinked,
As I was eaten alive
Consumed by your hatred
And bled out of such rage.
I've only a single word for you:
Run as far from me,
And as fast as you can;
Else I should catch you
And devour all that is
A thousand ways to fight this feeling,
I shouldn't feel it.
I've never felt that I was human
Surely I must be a monster,
Fighting this monstrous voice inside,
The sound of instinct;
What the hell am I?
I catch your scent on the wind
And know only one thing:
That I must go to you.
Clawing my way past,
Nothing will stand in my way.
OverTell me,Over4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Are you lonely ?
Lost within such a Labyrinthine heart,
Ruling from somewhere up so high,
Glaring down at me with those eyes
There you stand,
So opaque and obscure
With all the little pieces of us,
Twinkling in the distance,
Cannot fill the spaces between
Those that separate our hearts.
And I can't even say your name,
I wish I could just tell you
Someday I will find the strength
To say these words to you
What are you really playing at?
L' HirondelleQuand il regarde le ciel au-delà des nuages,L' Hirondelle5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Je suis une hirondelle lovée dans le mirage
De ses yeux éclairés par les brumes océanes,
Déposant sur mes ailes une lueur diaphane.
Lorsque la nuit s'éveille, ses prunelles s'agrandissent
Vers un profond silence dans lequel je m'immisce,
Pour écouter son cur plus grand que l'univers
M'offrir sans restriction les clés de son mystère.
© Deedrane 2010
Cruel NovemberToday I picked a bunch of daisies...Cruel November4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And they've got malice in their eyes,
Wanton coming on
Like forbidden decadent chocolate again.
For all the lands that have been stolen
As each of the meadowlarks decide to sing,
This was not meant to be a forever song.
Cast from the fires that burn throughout the abyss,
It is our greatest challenge;
Overcoming the white maiden martyr
She comes to us each night and cries,
Reaching out for the one that her heart still longs for...
And it covers me in coveted waves of silk,
Etched from such tears...
His crystalline presence blanketing the earth,
Sewing his seeds of sorrow and hate...
But they were not the ones to blame.
You've no one but yourself left,
Hiding emotion inside this cruel November...
It is a place of enormous sadness.
Like daisies, in the storm.
One by OneThe human soulOne by One4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is a thing so hollow
Not even time can fathom
The end to it's fathomless depths
Just like the hole in your heart.
No one wants a broken toy,
That is all that I can ever be
Shameful to burden society
With my petty useless nonsense.
Your eyes betray
So much more than you allow them,
And you are so much more
Than you give yourself credit for.
Haunting melody that calls to me in silence,
As we're gazing at the stars together
Everything goes by,
And we're counting all the scars
One by one
And the hidden meaning behind
The look in your eyes
Says it all.
Dragonfly's SymphonyI will forever be bound in this way,Dragonfly's Symphony4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Caught in a spider's web.
A thousand drops of dew
Lying cemented to the floor,
Stretched right across the ceiling
And I am waiting here
I don't flutter like the butterfly,
Hovering around the prettiest flower,
Waiting forever for it to be mine.
Not quite foolish enough
To be the moth anymore,
Always flying into the flame.
I fly instead in straight directions,
Not caring about anything,
Except for getting somewhere;
Zipping past on a whim.
You are like the caterpillar
Waiting in the garden
Spiders weave their webs
Trying to cage me,
When my heart is set in illusion
And I just want to reach the end.
Flawless BelovedSo many people, swimming in a sea of facesFlawless Beloved4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And you were once lost to me...
Though I'd searched, the place was never right
Timing was off just by a few minutes,
Moments slip like grains of sand
Falling down the hourglass of my heart...
From the moment I first saw you,
I know it sounds much too bold
But I knew you'd follow me home
From there, knew one day you'd be mine
To have and to hold,
Someone who compliments me perfectly,
Going hand in hand with my own ways
And so flawlessly intuned with my soul...
For so long I had wondered
Why there was so much darkness within me,
Why I was surrounded by it
Why it consumed me so completely...
But most of all, I wondered why...
It felt like I was missing half of myself,
Like I was incomplete
And without you, I am.
Without you, there can only be dark
There is no light,
And I know it's cliche' but...
You will always be my light
Even in all of this darkness.
Two halves of one shell
Drawn to one another
From across vast distances,
deeplike the people shapeddeep8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
holes I make
unfulfilled & fleeting
everyone I love
loves to be alone
an exit wound
(I) always leave 'em
always leaves me
curled up in bed
last words will make lies
out of everything else said
distance got the best of me
PrisonerLiving in such a worldPrisoner4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Where every day is the same,
Everyone looks at you
With those accusing eyes
Saying you're ugly and filled with hatred.
I look at you
With eyes made only
For the one they see
In a dead, cold, blind world
Where claws sink into light,
Waves consume the drowning itself,
Love doesn't know it's own name,
And dreams are impossible.
The soul sings it's own dream;
Something most of us could never do
I am in a better place now,
One without cold steel bars
I am not meant to be caged.
That is what I am.
Imprisoned by the very thought
Of being free.
I HideAll that I am and all that I doI Hide4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is riddled with pure destruction,
Laced with toxic cyanide;
Never to be touched by mortal hands.
Can you buy a simple soul from me?
No, what I know is not for sale,
And even in your dreams
You could never see anything so pure.
Always saying things like
No, never, broken, so damaged;
Eternal, forever, always, so permanent,
And nothing can ever repair it.
You've stolen such things from me
That cannot be spoken of,
And yet I still must go on knowing
The true source of all this despair
My entire world is dying all around me,
And all I can do is watch the embers burn;
White hot, like the deadly pure magic
Which I am no longer to use.
Addicted to you and all of your charm
Not because of who you are
Or because you treat me well,
But because you cause me pain.
I've always been in love with pain,
Ashen cinders burning to a black death
Always wanting, but never feeling more;
At least I can feel you now
You're the only one in all the world
Who has the p
Cast OutI will forever be known asCast Out5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The girl with the poisoned heart
No one could touch me
Surrounded by an invisible maze of thorns,
Unreachable, untouchable, undesirable.
And you are made of poison
Deadly, killing me
Weeding you out from my garden
You're not welcome in this Eden,
Cursed with the pain
Of a thousand eyes
Yet why is it none of them can see
All the things you do to me?
Moonlit promises only turn
Into halogen lies,
No such thing as safety
Your eyes burning away at my soul,
Where only darkness goes,
There is a hatred that festers and grows.
In a scream-filled fantasy cosmos,
You are dead to me.
This monster that you made me
Tried so hard to make you see
You are a lost soul,
Who can never be complete.
Dragonfly's DemiseButterflies get caught in your eye,Dragonfly's Demise4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Fluttering like wings
Throughout all the lashes
It's a scary feeling.
Dancing in the sky,
It's a revolution
Of the highest evolution
From the caterpillar,
Into the worm
Meanwhile, you were eating
All of the rotten apples
Straight through their core.
And the rattlesnake devoured the dragonfly
Swallowing all of the dragonfly's lie;
It was stricken with no real warning
From out of the blue
Going that much deeper
Just to get away
He chewed her up and spit her out,
Not caring to be poisoned.
And she crawled away
In futile, hopeless despair
She never saw it coming;
This rattlesnake had no tail.
Her wings were ripped away,
Torn down by the power
Of all the victims that came first.
He licked his lips,
With fangs still gleaming in the night.