Our Razorblade Symphony - Chapter 4Chapter 4 - We got our nicknames.
It was raining like crazy by the time I had left Ashley's house, making my still-warm shirt cold and wet again. I turned down Ashley's offer for an umbrella since Pete would probably break it if he decides to have a rage fit again.
I kept my head down and my bag over my neck and head as I ran up the winding street. I stepped nimbly over all the dents and cracks in the sidewalk, since more then once I've mapped them out in my head when trying to run away. I was always caught though.
So many times had Pete pissed me off to the point of packing what few valuables I had and climbing out during the night, running down the street in almost complete darkness and trying to find the shelter. In the process, usually the police found me or my mom did. I could never tell the police why I'd run away, my mom knew right away and just told me to get in the car. She'd sneak me in.
My house was just in sight when I tripped on my shoelace and dived head-first into a pudd
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I had ot spend the night in the hospital. Not sleep, you're not SUPPOSED to sleep with a concussion. Oh well, I'm not tired anyway.
I sat alone in the dim-lit hospital room, decorated with bright colored roses and some "get well soon, motherfucker." cards from my cousins that my mom had brought in. I had my eyes glued to the TV screen and my hands clutching the game controller as i played Battlestar Galactia. My 8-bit space jet shooting missiles at the 8-bit alien bug things. I never knew what they were, they look like wasps from Mars to me.
I heard footsteps from the hallway. Even though visiting hours ended a while ago, 5 hours to be exact, people still came in and wandered in on the people they knew seeing as this was considered the "ghetto hospital" and the doctors didn't care if people came in to see us or not. They just wanted their shift over.
I groaned angrily as I lost another life. Damn space wasps kept hitting me! The footsteps from the ha
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A couple months later.
"Get back here!"
I ran blindly through my house, stumbling over rugs and other shit thrown throughout my house. Pete chased me, waving his belt over his head and screaming at me. Among the footsteps I could hear my mom screaming at Pete to leave me alone.
I knocked over the kitchen chairs, blocking his path, only to be cornered between the table and the kitchen sink. I hopped from foot to foot, going one way then the other, trying to confuse him.
In the back of my mind I remembered Ashley telling me to "haul ass" over to his house if Pete went after me again. I planned on doing that, I knew this neighborhood inside and out. Every crack in the sidewalk every path behind the houses every tree was carved into my memory like hieroglyphs. As I swayed I maped what passage I'd take to Ashley's.
I dove sideways and Pete ran at me. I dropped under the table, crawling as fast as I can and ran to the door, unlatching it and swinging it open;
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When I got back to school I was glad to see that Andy was there, still freakish and not a jock yet. He was sitting on the stairs outside the school, his head buried in his backpack as he sat against the redbrick school building, the wind blowing his hair slightly.
I was nervous weather or not to go get him, but he looked cold. Everyone had sweat shirts or jackets or long sleeves on while the poor kid only had a black tank and elbow-length gloves, white ripped up jeans too. I took a deep breath and started towards him, unzipping my over-sized jacket to give to him. As I got closer I saw a bruise on his shoulder, dark purple with some yellow around the edges.
"Hey Andy." I said quickly.
His head snapped up, his blue eyes looked fearfully up at me for a split second before relaxing. His ruby-red lips pulled into a smile. Even in cloudy weather his pale face lit up like an angel.
"You're back!" he said happily.
"Yeah." I put my bag down and rested my jacke
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I was laying on top of Andy, our hips pressed together and I had one knee on each side of his body, crouched slightly over his slim figure. His slid his hands over the small lump of my ass, warmly trainilg them down to my thighs and the inside of my legs. I reached down and took his hands and gently pinning them above his head, leaning forward and kissing his neck, sucking a loose patch of skin till it left a small pink hickey then drew my tongue up from the spot and up to his plump, light pink lips. He kissed back in ecstasy, letting out a soft moan before slipping his tongue between my teeth. In return I opened my mouth further, letting him in.
"I love you so much." he murmured against my lips.
"I love you more." I replied...
Suddenly I was just back to laying on my side, facing the wall. Next to me I felt Andy shift, he was still sound asleep. I sighed softly, rolling over and looking longingly at him.
"Why did I have to wake u
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I didn't want to go to school. I didn't want to wake up. I didn't want to move.
I lay in my bed, wrapped up in my blanket and staring at the wall. The little bumps and ridges stared back at me. I cocooned myself in my blanket all night, wrapped around my skinny frame. It was hotter then hell but I didn't care. I was numb anyway, only the cuts on my arm provided feeling.
I didn't sleep. I would close my eyes for a few minuets and see him again, then jerk awake screaming. I'll never forget that wicked smile he gave me, causing me to shudder or cry every time it flashed in my head. Luckily my blanket cocoon muffled it from anyone being woken up and questioning me...especially him.
My blanket was one of those really fluffy ones, long enough to wrap around me twice but still hung over my bed slightly. It had a soft texture and was plaid black and grey, about 1 inches thick when ironed. I've had it since I was little.
When the sun started rising I hid even deeper
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Ashley and I turned around, fear jerking through me and I felt like my life was flashing right before my eyes, just as it had done many times before. The jock boy, needless to say was a whole lot taller then the both of us combined bore his weight down on our shoulders, he was one of those overly-muscular guys who was probably on steroids. Stubble covered his face, an evil grin on his lips. His buddies cornered us against the wall, all wearing the same clothes: jock jackets and blue jeans. Ashley cowered into my side.
The jocks crossed their arms, laughing at us. Huddled together and freaked the fuck out. One of them spit on the ground in front of us and laughed when I jumped out of the way.
"Not so tough now, are yah?" he gruffed, looking happily at me.
"What?" I've never been tough...
"He doesn't remember! I'll be damned." one of the others said.
"What are oyu guys talking about?" Ashley demanded.
"Little dark-n-pale here tried to be
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I looked over at the door to see mom standing there, a shotgun perched on her thin shoulder, the barrel aimed directly at Pete's balding head. He pulled out of me and yanked up his pants, raising his hands in the air in surrender. "Sweetheart you don't have to..."
"Shut up!" she yelled.
"Don't 'baby' me you sick bastard!" she screeched.
Pete stepped back farther, almost to the wall. The plastic beer bottle clattered under his fet, tripping him and making him fall. She bent slightly to aim at his forehead.
"Give me one reason why I shouldn't blow your brains out." she growled.
"I didn't do NUTHIN'!" he yelled.
"Bullshit!" she said "You were raping my son! He's bleeding Peter!"
Too weak and scared to move, the best I could do is roll onto my side and watch the action. My ass still stung from him, as well as my back.
"You beat us every day, Peter. You call that nothing? I'l fucking show you nothing!"
She raised her foot and kicked him in the head, a clacking
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In a large middle school cafeteria many students chattered and laughed, being gleeful as any regular group of 12 and 13 year olds would be. On the far side of the room sat the sportsy boys, heavy built with red and white jock jackets, even through most of them were one the soccer team and their short hair was spiked up, giving a headgehog type look. Near them were the cheerleaders, which also mixed with the popular girl and girly-girl groups. They giggled and gossiped, occasionally gasping and play-hitting eachother, putting on more bubble gum pink lipstick every 10 minuets. There was the averages, who sat in the middle more part of the room. Some talked about TV, video games, their boyfriends or girlfriends. The nerds sat in a small table within the averages.
Then there was the "Freak corner"; for the "freaks."
Multi-colored hair, dark and/or black clothing, bandanas around their necks or sliced up gloves on their hands with rings in their lips.
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You're sure about this?"
Andy and I stood in front of the mirror in my tiny bathroom area, his hair completely clean and surprisingly waver then the ocean. A box of black hair dye sat on the sink, its contents out and in Andy's gloved hands. He ran a free hand through his dirty blonde hair. He turned his head left then right, studying his natural color as he'd been doing for the past 5 minuets.
"Yeah..." he said, poking at the jawline-long blonde hair.
I was only here to help him with the back of his head. Otherwise he could do this all himself.
In the few months we'd known eachother Andy and I had become best friends. We liked the same music, style, our sense of humor clashed but we still laughed our asses off at eachother. Andy still had that sad puppy twinge to him, just as he had when I first met him. I've been trying my best to make him happy.
Once when I found him crying near the Git-N-Go gas station. He just sat at the back of the building
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I gave the remains of my pizza slice to Ashley. I couldn't choak down anymore.
Night had fallen and the moon was high up, full and streaming through the windows in Ashley's room where we sat, playing Uno and eating.
"Andy you need to eat it." he said "You didn't eat at all today."
Yes kiddies. On top of everything else that was screwed up with me, I'm anorexic. Plus I just hated pizza. The texture didn't feel right, all slimey and soft, the taste was weird and it just didn't feel right. I shook my head and pushed the half eaten slice back at him. "I don't want it."
Ashley sighed and put it on the bedside table, having to reach around me to get there. His elbow brushed against my thighs, making me jump inside.
"Color change blue." he said, laying down a Wild card.
"You suck." I said, grabbing a card out of the pile. "Pass."
He grinned and put down a switch card. It seems pretty pointless when you only have two people but that gives you a
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Loud screeching noises woke me from my nap, making me fall out of my bed. Nice.
When Andy left, looking like a puppy on his way to the vet to be put down I had sunk into my room and laid down on my bed, trying not to think of what would happen to him when he got home. Andy didn't deserve any of the things he got from that evil man, if I could stop it I would. But for now, I couldn't. He'd get taken away. My eyes evantually drooped lower and lower untill I fell asleep.
I pulled myself off the ground and looked out my window. 1, 2, 3 cop cars and an ambulance rushed down the small urban street and came to a halt just a few houses away. One more cop car parked right outside my house, blocking off the road. The others pulled into a house driveway...
My heart literally stopped, as did my breathing. Andy!
I pulled on my shirt and shoes then rushed down the stairs, pulling the door open and not bothering to close it. I rushed to the cop car, my feet moving
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I woke up that morning, if you count 12:30 as morning still lightly gripping Andy's soft hand, his pale white fingers twined with my tan ones, the red nail polish he wore on one finger standing out against the rest of them. I always wondered why he did that, maybe it symbolized something. I'm not sure.
The sun lit up the walls of my room, making it seem bigger then it actually was. It also shone down gently onto Andy's sleeping figure, causing him to glow like an angel.
He was an angel.
I remembered what we did last night, my belly churned and I blushed inside. Andy's moans still echoed in my head like a song on loop, a good song, not a bad song. Then pushing him away after he had come. Next time. I thought. Yeah, next time.
When was next time? I never wanted to force him to do anything, even if he was my "bitch for the night" last night. Andy was so sweet, and sex does some pretty weird changes to people. I would know, since I ha
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At school the next day all sympathy for me was gone, and the bullying was worse than yesterday. Since Andy wasn't around like I had mentioned so many god damn times I decided to hang around Jake, Jinxx, CC and Sandra more.
We sat around one of the picnic tables outside, not a single fucking being given that it was colder then hell out there. CC was trying to make a joke but I wasn't listening.
"So her boyfriend says 'where'd it go?' And she said 'my vagina ate it!' Wait thats right.."
Jake laughed anyway when nobody else did, probably just trying to save him the humiliation of getting it wrong. Jinxx rolled his eyes and elbowed me. "Your turn, Purdy."
"I didn't know we were taking turns." I said, closing shut my notebook I took everywhere.
"Just do a knock-knock joke or something." Sandra said. "Better than CC's mouse tattoo joke."
I shook my head. "I'm not good with jokes."
"Bullshit. Come on!" CC said and tapped me with his wrist. I shook my head
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The next few days were horrible for me. Andy hadn't come to school after he was shoved in the police car, I hadn't seen Mrs. Biersack anywhere and I had no one to really talk closely to other than CC, Jake, Jinxx and Sandra. They were cool, but they weren't Andy.
Did I mention I had gone into some kind of depression cocoon? After school I went right up stairs and locked myself in my bedroom and either slept or drew pictures. By wednesday I had filled half my journal with drawings and poems, Auntie was getting worried...so were the other four.
"Since Andy left you've become some kind of angry hermit crab that writes all day." CC said.
I was quiet and kept scribbling in notebook.
"Denying our help isn't going to do anything either." Sandra said.
"I'm not denying anything, I just don't accept it." I grumbled, erasing a stray line.
"Why can't you?" Jake demanded.
I slammed down my pencil, causing the tip to fly off and roll onto the table. I glared at Jake, his expre
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Seated in the large, government-looking courtroom was nerve wrecking. I waited patiently in a chair just a few feet away from Andy, still dressed in the orange prison uniform while everyone else (including me) wore suits or else the nicest clothing possible. To my right was an older lady, her white hair short and expertly curled and she wore a dull colored pinkish-grey dress with her handbag clutched in her wrinkled hand. Taking a guess, I'd imagine this was Andy's neighbor. On my left Mrs. Biersack sat, a black long-sleeved dress fell past her knees and a white plastic clamp held back her golden hair. She held my hand comfortingly, almost like I was her son too.
I could see the side of Andy's face, serious and somewhat depressed looking. Waves of anxiety flowed from all of us like river water, making the room feel hot.
"We got this." I said softly. He looked at me from the corner of his eye and nodded, leaning forward on his elbow.
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I laid on my bed, face down and sobbing my eyes out. It'd been about a month since Andy was convicted and put in prison. Every day since then I had come home feeling cold and empty and miserable. At least they had the hearts not to bully me...
I kept my head down and my hands shoved in my pockets, my backpack bumping softly against my back. CC, who was becoming closer to me walked silently next to me. He was comforting but not anything like Andy.
"Do you need some water?" he asked as we walked by the fountain.
I shook my head, looking at it out of my side vision, only remembering the scene from a few months ago when Andy was shoved into it before turning around and socking the Jock who did it. My stomach twisted in sadness and I kept walking.
CC split ways with me at the back stairwell, leaving me to walk down by myself. Causally I wandered down the white winding steps, not expecting what would happen next.
Oh god, no
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I haven't rode in a car in years. An actual car, not a bus or an off roader. As I walked outside with Mrs. Biersack I stopped beside it, unsure which one I should sit in.
"Passenger side is on the other end, Ash." Mrs. Biersack said, coming up to me and opening the driver's side door. I walked around the other side and tugged open the door. The seat was way too low but still comfy once you got settled. She stuck the keys in the ignition and started the car, it was a lot quieter then Auntie's bike. It barely shook, which I wasn't used to.
I raced up the steps in front of the jailhouse, pushing off the concrete quickly amd making loud tapping sounds with my foot. At the top I realized Mrs. Biersack was still a ways away, so I held the door for everyone. An older woman smiled greatfully at me.
"Thank you, young one." She said, hesitating in the middle of the sentance.
It was a force of habit for me to hold doors for pe
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"The house is a bit different since when you left, Andy." Mom pressed, turning onto out street. Not much was different from the last time I was here, the trees got a little bigger and a couple houses had been re-painted. Some cars had changed or else the owners had moved out and some of the old bumps in the sidewalk were paved and fixed. Ashley smiled and took my hand as we pulled up to my house, the car squeeking as mom turned horizontally in front of what I presumed to be my house.
I felt my eyebrows fly to my hairline and shock run through me. The house actually looked...nice. The evergreen tree green color replaced with a lime-like green color, the windows were uncracked and the yard was neat looking with only a few dead patches here and there, and around the tree roots that stuck through the earth in some spots. The hedges that usually grew over the front step were trimmed into small bushes and the house numbers went from a rusted
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"Ashley your friends are here!"
I was desperately trying to make my hair stand on end to look like the band. The hairspray kept making me cough and I looked like a Mexican Einstein with too much eyeliner. I swore softly to myself and grabbed my brush, yanking it through my hair and using hair jel to make it sit flat. Great, now I look like a hobo.
"Just a sec!" I called, pulling on a plain white t-shirt. I knew by the end of the concert it'd either be stained or torn, so I decided not to wear any band shirts. I thumped down the stairs and swung out the door, just as Sandra's brother blew the horn at me. I covered my ears and got in.
"Took you long enough, Fonzie." he said, revving the engine and pulling ahead. Sandra punched him in the arm before securing her seat belt.
"We gotta get C and Ashley's lady friend." she said, looking over his shoulder. He swung the car around a corner, nearly missing another car and screeched to a halt infront of wha
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I swore softly as I slowly peeled off the multiple bandaids I had stuck to my leg. The tan tape like material ripping at the hair under the sticky part. Luckily, it didn't peel off any of the giant scab that had formed over the cut.
I watched as blood began to swell around the cut and run down the side of my thigh. After the blood came the sting, like millions of tiny needles were being pushed into my skin and moved around in agonizing circles inside of it. I swore again and quickly rushed to the bathroom, grabbing a black washcloth and pressing it against my thigh.
"Ashley you fucking idiot!" I screamed at myself as I felt the small towel sink under the wetness of blood. I kicked off my underwear and climbed into the bathtub, trying to find a good tempature. I knew warm water killed bacteria but cool water felt better on it I bet. I chose lukewarm water and sat next to the tap, letting the water pour onto it and wash the still flowing blood away.
I turned o
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I dropped him on one of the sofas in his house. Mrs. Coma giggled at the two of us.
"I havn't seen him that tierd since he was a toddler." she said, taking a sip of her coffee.
"He could barely walk. I carried him like a good boyfriend." said, brushing the hair out of his face.
"Boyfriend? Heh. My vibes were right for once." She sat down on the couch parallel from us.
"He didn't tell you? I think thats one of the reasons why he got upset when dad hurt me..." I sat down beside him. "He was crying."
Mrs. Coma nodded. "He always...cries...over people he loves. When I broke my leg at a Breaking Benjamin concert he was so upset, he looked like he was going to kill Mr. Pitts when he was bragging..." she sighed. "ONe of his old friends was shot, he didn't come out of his room for days. I h
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It had been forever since I had seen Andy or visited him. I was only allowed to write him letters from now on because I had snuck out of school another 3 or 4 times to go see him. I was only caught twice but fessed up to my "crimes" when the giant police officers questioned me. Ashley Purdy wasn't scared of anybody...unless they were 5 feet taller than me and had a belt full of weapons that could blow me into next week. At first I was upset but I really didn't want to deal with the police anymore. Instead we wrote letters to eachother, the first letter almost wrecked my heart.
I still have yet to reply to his last letter from last week. Even though Andy had the worst handwriting ever, I could still read it.
The letter wasn't very long or even interesting, he talked about how shitty the prison was and how much he wanted to be out. I was hoping it would be soon, so I could show him around the new highschool. He hasn't be
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Not clubbing clubbing but going to clubs, night or dance.
The black-lighted dance area was filled with sweaty people dancing to remixed pop music made by a DJ. We basically all split apart as soon as we reached the dance area.
CC dragged me to the bar which was right next to the dance area, ordering out drinks.
"CC I don't think you should drink if you're driving..." I said.
"Fuck that!" he grabbed his drink and chugged half of it, handing me the other one. "Get Jinxx to drive."
I thought about Jinxx driving and shuddered, taking a sip of my drink.
"Hurry up so we can dance, Mr. Tour Man." he said, putting down his now empty glass.
I drank as fast as I could then slid the cup toward the barmaid. CC grabbed my hand again and led me to the dance floor.
I did what I considered dancing, trying not to be touched by anyone excpt CC
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Mom was helping me get dressed, since she decided I was shaking too much to do it myself. We decided to go with normal wedding colors, only no dress. No matter how much Jinxx tried to convince me I stuck with a suit.
Mom held the white jacket against my back,checking for the thousandth time that it would be the right size. I held my arms out so she could check the sleeve length.
"Is your shirt buttoned right? No poping your collar either!" she fretted, making sure my buttons were right and fixed the collar again. I couldn't help but smile at her. She was crying with joy when I showed up at her house with the ring on my finger. He ran her hands over my cheeks, making sure no stubble came up.
"Mom I shaved half an hour ago." I said.
"I'm making sure." she replied. "I still don't see why you have to keep your god damn hair down."
"He likes my hair down."
Mom shook her head, still smiling. "I can barely remember when your hair was short."
"It was never sho