Nightmare: The Secret Keeper
Nightmare: The Secret Keeper
I know, I know; I've asked too much of you already
Up until today I've asked for what I don't deserve
I hope, I hope; you will always be able to put up with me
Because everyone else chooses to ignore my words
So please, please; I want you to take me, and hide me far away
I need you to do this for me; I never, ever want to be found again
Take my will, take my heart, take my tears, take my name
Take my life, take my soul, take my fear, take my pain
Pull me into you, and keep me close to your void of a heart, so I can lose myself
Hold me in your arms, and keep everything in your palms, I yearn to be held
I can no longer stay
So please take me, and hide me before it's too late
I never wanted you to know that I don't care about myself anymore
You need to know up until this day I still feel so, so hollow
It's okay, it's okay, feel my peace, I'm giving it to you, so don't worry
Because you need it more
A Loveless DayA Loveless Day3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)
This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray
As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay
In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the liquid-silver droplets of rain
You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done
You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you
You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you had fed
For you I had damaged myself
For you I put myself through hell
But I swear it was worth it
Because now I know how hard life can get
I want you to realize that you aren't a loss
For you will always be known as my first love
This same old reality that I can't let go
A nightmare of a person who is so far away
As I try to run from the world
I'm Here for YouWhat do you expect me to sayI'm Here for You3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When you keep pushing me away?
RememberI can't read your mind,
And time cannot rewind.
Regret will only make it worse
Like a bad omen from a curse.
This will surely make you stronger;
Please just hold on longer.
I'll be here, right by your side;
You don't have to run and hide.
Just try to find the silver lining
The sun will keep on shining.
Never forget that this is true:
I am here for you.
I long to set this world aflame.I once dreamt of ashes and dragons,I long to set this world aflame.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
as dark ravens loomed over my sleeping form,
planting cadaver kisses along my neck.
Stepping into a river of colors, I contemplated
smoke halos and the unlit cigarette between my teeth.
I asked myself if all of this was worth it-
gasoline rainbows painting landscapes along my thighs.
I'd never smoked a day in my life, but I liked to play with fire.
[Light a match and watch me burn. ]
Should Have Cared LessWhen did I turn from "the most amazing woman you have ever known" into something completely meaningless?Should Have Cared Less3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
The later tonight gets, the less sleepy I become and the more my thoughts turn to memories that I want to cling to with every ounce of strength I possess so they do not slip away. I press my hand to my chest in the spot where my heart is aching and I sigh, then bite my lip and try to hold back the tears.
Your eyes, the bluest eyes I have ever found myself lost inside, I loved the way they always looked at me. You devoured every inch of my body with those eyes, and although I acted bashful, I adored your attention. There is nobody else I would rather have stood before naked and exposed, because I trusted that you saw the me beneath my flaws.
Now, you are letting go. Lately I have felt myself slipping away from you and back into the skin of the reckless girl I used to be. The girl who would build something beautiful ju
Caffe LatteThe paleness of the blackening day,Caffe Latte3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Has left its mark upon my person once again.
An emptiness seeping from the bosom of painful reality,
Into the very fabric of a sheltered being,
A droplet of burning scarlet spreading upon white linen sheets,
Insatiable malignancy, forced upon by the subtly of viscous silence,
And the harshness of unwelcomed examination.
A gaze lifted once more from rotting lines,
Meets in final discourse with the monstrosity that sweeps through the air,
In hopes of quelling ravenous hunger with jagged fantasy.
Unnoticed by surroundings of a more refined nature,
It frolics through the ether of the day,
As if riding on the wings of the promises,
That tether lovers' hearts to each other,
To peer through the dusty window panes,
Of lives left hallowed and undressed,
Drowning now and again in the exotic flavors,
Of long lost lattes and split cigarettes,
Only to putrefy in the humidity accompanying the death of the day,
And the birth of abysmal night.
Sweeping once more bet
My Selfish RebellionMy Selfish Rebellion3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Selfish Rebellion
My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds
We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you
Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven
I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen
So try to tear me down
I dare you to smite me now
I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found
I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this false grace to be devoured
Let me fall for my desires
While I set my own wings on fire
This bestowed belief is so, so controlling, I've seen it with my own eyes
Following some footprints while not making your own, staying within the lines
This is why I need to go my own way, and you all will see the footprints are mine
I've only ever seen the ligh
She had dark cloudsShe had dark clouds in her eyes' skiesShe had dark clouds3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Things weren't going well
She had that sadness in her face that I couldn't comprehend
Things were bad, and I could tell
Her hands were shaking
She had a smile on her face
But her tears were breaking
It wasn't something I could deal with
It was something really big
I couldn't do anything to heal it
"What's wrong, sweetheart?" I asked her
And with her left thumb wiping her tears
She said "Don't worry, it's just a twig."
I think when life takes the ones we love
And I think that if things were easy and simple
We might try
To live on and be happy again
But not her. She is not the same
ScarmakerScarmaker3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your promises kept~
Breaking Breaking Breaking
I tried to hold those hopeful words you said
But you've always managed to hurt the both of us in the end
Our tears shed~
Seething Seething Seething
Down and away like liquified memories of regret
While every stinging mistake rushes back and quickly spreads
My hands left~
Trembling Trembling Trembling
I find myself feeling lost in this inner emptiness
As all my love for you continually escapes from my chest
This is our last resort / Please, don't say it's so
There's no trusting me anymore / Please, you don't have to go
We tried, but it just can't work / Then I swear that I will change
I lied, and made everything worse / Then give us more time, and just wait
I don't want to make you cry ever again / I'd rather have you than nothing
I can't stand being the source of your pain / I want you to know that you're my everything
I know you're better off without me / But I will
The Firefly and The Nightlight"Moi je connais seulement celui qui s'emballe.The Firefly and The Nightlight4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Me, I only know the one who gets carried away." -Mathias Malzieu
I want to exist with you: no words and no ambiguity.
I want to touch you: to stroke your face, to kiss those lips and hold those lovely hands.
I want to sink with you: to drown in those eyes and lose ourselves with ourselves.
I want to be yours as you are mine.
To lay in the warmth and when soaking up the sun to feel
A finger trace my chin softly and along my rosy cheeks.
To feel the blood wash over them as your smile settles with the sun,
The grass to tickle our arms and wrap itself around our legs as
You shut my eyelids and kiss me gently.
Our sighs serenading the summer breeze.
Our love unfolding with flawless ease.
We tilt our heads and sigh, harmonising
As the heat simmers on the hair we caress and the clothes that splay on the grass.
The emerald glitters as your hazel eyes compete: they twinkle and widen as you observe my lazy blink.
just because i smilejust because i smilejust because i smile6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it doesnt mean im alright
and how do you know
that i wont cry myself to sleep tonight?
ive got everybody fooled
into thinking that im strong
so nobody will realise
that there might be something wrong
you will never know
the emotions i feel inside
i bottle them up quickly
and keep pushing them aside
all of the expectations
all the pressure and stress
i strive to be perfection
but there are no points for second best
would you notice if i was hurt?
would anybody really care?
i sit there on the side-lines
wishing life wasnt so unfair
nobody ever notices
that my world is slowly breaking
but i will always put on
these smiles that im faking
In SilenceIt's dark by eight now.In Silence2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
These days are not like our days before.
Do you think that if you stay silent,
I won't exist.
If so, I can stay silent too.
Sometimes I still check to see if you've called
or left a message or something, anything.
You haven't yet.
I know you won't.
You said you'd never hurt me
and when you left, I told Mom you hadn't,
not really,you wouldn't, not forever.
She smiled sadly.
She knew you would.
She knew you had.
Goodbye lullabyWith our heart in a fierce beat ,Goodbye lullaby3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We'll dance together on the empty street.
With your shallow breathing against my head,
We'll sway along to words unsaid.
When you look in my eye,
I know, it's time to say goodbye,
But will you grant me one last wish?
To Hold me in your arms,
And Sing me a sweet lullaby,
To let me drown in your melodic voice for one last time,
And Let me dream of a place where you are mine.
To let the tune wash away my pain,
For I want to relive that moment once again,
When you and I first met each other
And to prove to myself, that there can be no another,
Who could ever take your place.
And our moments spent together,
I'd do anything to retrace.
BurialThe mud caked my fingernails.Burial2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My hair slipped from inside my hood,
blowing across my face.
The wind shifted the leaves on the ground
a collage of yellow, red, and brown
and the earth crawled around me.
The rain fell hard
and the wet grass grabbed at my ankles.
The hole I dug with my own two hands
was between two trees where you and I
used to sit and talk about superheroes,
videogames and high school bullies.
I thought the location fit.
I pulled from my coat pocket
the heart necklace you gave me
the year before you said goodbye
and drove off, leaving skid marks
on the vacant street.
I dropped my heart into the hole
and buried it.
As I walked away,
the rain still pouring,
I picked the mud from inside my fingernails.
I'm Falling DownI'm Falling Down3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm Falling Down
Tears just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky
Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire
I let out a destructive sigh
Triggering the nightmares I kept inside
The memories that I don't want to remember
I deceived myself whenever I tried to keep it together
Images of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine
Despair wrapped around my heart
And it wouldn't let me go
Peace was just too far
I can't take this anymore
I redefined self-hatred
I somehow cornered myself
I always existed in darkness
I was my own martyr who fell
I had to rip all the paths away
I have to force myself astray
So abandonment won't know where I am
The questions of being alone will become transparent
Condemning one another was just
Painting ThunderstormsI will remember you in flowers, dead and never given.Painting Thunderstorms3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We are broken promises and shattered glass.
In your traitorous arms,
I wish I'd never closed my eyes,
You are like all good headaches
in that, you will fade away,
In painkillers and flowers on a grave.
A Moment Of LoveA Moment Of Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Moment Of Love
This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much
I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does
I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark brighter
And you're always there no matter what
Every time you smile at me, it makes my day
Every time you laugh with me, it completes my night
Every time you speak to me, my problems fade away
Every time you're with me, it betters this hopeless life
You've done a lot for me that you don't even know about
Like when you told me that I was never alone
Be Mine ForeverHold me tight; stroke my hair,Be Mine Forever3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Kiss my lips and twirl me in mid air.
Call me Luv; watch me pray,
Lock me in your arms and caress away.
Sing me songs; brush my tears,
Just let me clutch and my fears shall disappear.
Recite my jokes; and the silly bed-time stories,
Make me accept and bring back the glory.
Be my hope; the one who always inspires,
As you are the one who my heart desires.
Be my strength; show me light,
Watch the stars be aligned tonight.
Show me reality; make me believe.
Else love is the last thing I shall ever perceive.
Tired Of This PlaceEach scar is because of you.Tired Of This Place3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You're the one to make my blood bloom.
The empty pain I feel inside,
foreshadows my deep demise.
I'm sick of crying,
I'm sorry for trying.
I should have ended when I was born,
then maybe no heart would be torn.
I wish my breath did not start,
and maybe even my heart.
Growing up is the hard part,
I really didn't want to start.
I wish it was easy to say goodbye,
so then maybe I could die.
Carry OnI like sharp things;Carry On2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The way they shine
The way they hurt
The way they leave a red line.
I like to bleed;
The way it's red
They way it hurts
The way it washes out what they said.
I like to live;
The way it's wrong
The way it hurts
The way it tells me that I am strong.