SugarA young girl of the age of fourSugar9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Sat silently on the kitchen floor
Eating cookies to her hearts content.
Unaware of any ill intent.
She ate until she could no more,
And quickly moved up off the floor,
She put her vice back in its stash
For her room she quickly dashed.
As she walked through the room,
She heard a voice mutter "doom"
Unsure of it she couldn't see,
What in this world could it be?
But the darkness made her blind,
No trace was there for her to find
So warily she kept on walking,
And silently it continued stalking,
Her heart raced as she peered,
Pace quickened as she steered.
Not stopping for any hesitation,
Kept heading for her destination.
In her room, door slammed shut,
Her imagination cought in a rut,
Of horrors recently conceived,
Monsters so vivid she believed,
Then as the floor boards creeked.
Overcome she quickly peeked.
Nothing seen, nothing moving,
but the danger was ever looming.
But she kept staring,
Struck down by fear,
Horrible images did appea
I WonderI wonder if you care for meI Wonder5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As much as you say you do
I wonder if you think of me
As much as I do you
I wonder what you really think
And how you truly feel
I wonder about our friendship
Is it a lie or is it real?
I wonder if you'd miss me
If I were to disappear
I wonder what your reaction'd be
If you'd shed a single tear
I wonder if it pains you
To see me in despair
I wonder if you meant it
When you said you'd always be there
I wonder if you love me
As much as I love you
I wonder if you'd stay
If everything about me, you knew
I wonder if you're tired
Of my insecurity
I wonder if I mean to you
As much as you mean to me.
Why Can't I Be Normal?Sometimes I wonder,Why Can't I Be Normal?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why I am the way I am;
Why can't I be normal?
Why must I worry,
About every little thing
That may affect the way
People respond to me?
Why must I overanalyze
The way people react
To things I say or do?
Why can't I just accept
That the reactions of others
Have nothing to do with me?
Why can't I be happy
With the way I live my life
And just not care about
What other people think?
Why can't I just accept myself
And stand up straight and tall
With a smile on my face,
And no fear at all?
I really wish I could
Be confident and strong
But I don't know how
And even if I did
I probably wouldn't
Be able to do it.
Exactly the SameI wanted to be confidentExactly the Same2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I wanted to be strong
I thought I was almost there
But I guess I was wrong
I am just as pathetic
As I was back then
Those thoughts and feelings
They're all here again
I failed my mission
I'm still so weak
I still haven't found
What it is that I seek
I can't believe it
I thought I changed a lot
I guess it was dumb to think
All those optimistic thoughts
"Look at me now!" I thought,
"Look at what I overcame!"
But I was just fooling myself
I am exactly the same.
Showing YourselfShowing yourself doesn't make you weak.Showing Yourself1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'll give you exactly what you seek.
This vulnerability is a part of you.
There isn't anything you can do.
I'm only here to give you help.
Don't have to do it by yourself.
It doesn't matter what you say.
I promise that I'm here to stay.
When you find it's hard to breathe,
Let me be there to relieve.
Want you to know I don't think less.
Only you think that you're a mess.
Please, I just want to be here.
I really do love you, dear.
Social AnxietyI quiver violentlySocial Anxiety3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Too many people
Take it easy
Control the impulse
I'm sure they notice
They stare into
That lies within
Beneath my skin
It runs through
My scarlet veins
Cell by cell
Vein by vein
Killing my sanity
As I walk through
Step by step
Demons in disguise
Ready to pounce
Grab hold of my soul
Until I collapse
Drop to my knees
I need pills
Some way to
Cope with this
Not good EnoughI've tried my whole lifeNot good Enough2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but I am not good enough
Nothing but a failure
Nothing but a mistake in this life
No matter what happens
No matter what I do
Nothing is ever good enough
and all i feel is tears in my eyes
Why bother trying?
when you know your not good enough
No matter what anybody says
It will never be the same in my eyes
The tears that fall
the cuts that don't heal
all the pain I feel inside
I never wanted to live
There is no point
there is no other feeling
but this pain deep within me
a pain that nobody knows...
I will never be good enough
I will never be the best
Cause I'm worthless to this world
and that is what I think of Myself
Social AnxietyIt’s hard to explain, but I’ll give it a trySocial Anxiety2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It’s being afraid of people
Please don’t ask, I don’t know why
I am the quiet one,
The lonely shy girl who sits by herself
A girl without many friends
Cause I can’t seem to speak to anyone else
My throat gets tight
And my heart starts to pound
I try to talk
But I can’t make a sound
I hate this horrible self conscious fear
That’s always around
I always feel lonely
When I sit by myself
Tucked away from the world
Like a book on a shelf
There’s nothing I hate more
Than when people ask me “why are you so quiet”
Because they don’t see
This hurting pain inside me
I have this fear that never goes away
Muting my voice each and every day
It’s constantly controlling me
Locking me inside like a prison warder
It’s my Social Anxiety Disorder
Being BraveSo you think you know meBeing Brave4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You think you've got me all figured out
But you don't know what it's like
To have all this insecurity and doubt.
So you want to know what's wrong
When tears are streaming down my face
You say you want to help me
But some scars you can't erase.
You plead for me to explain
As you squeeze my trembling hand
But I don't know what to say
That will make you understand.
These fears that haunt me daily
May seem small and dumb to you
But they control my mind
And there's nothing I can do.
You tell me to get over it
To step outside my cave
But you see, I cannot comprehend
This concept of being brave.
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 16The night slowly turned into morning. The sun rose over the hotel and the first one who woke up was the bassist. Murdoc hadn't got much sleep at all. He hadn't got any damn sleep at all since he came here! Murdoc groaned and rubbed his black messy hair. He rose from the bed and stretched a little. He could hear some small creaking sounds from his neck and he groaned deeply. Today it was only packing and driving on the bands list. Murdoc didn't bother to get dress or brush his teeth. He walked around in the room and started to collect his things that lay all over the floor. The room looked like a bomb had exploded in there. The bassist chuckled when he imaged the cleaner's expression when he or she saw the mess the bassist had left after him. Murdoc didn't have to bother so much about his clothes since he didn't changed clothes that often. And he now realized that he had felled asleep in his black jeans. He didn't care if he had worn them for almost three days in row now. It was how heMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 164 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
BedriddenBedridden:Bedridden2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Here I lie, motionless,
A prisoner within my own body.
Yet there lies a subtle clarity;
A moment of understanding, achieved by infirmity.
And though my body is racked with pain,
My conscious mind delves ever deeper into the pool of the soul.
My mind is flooded with a racket of noise.
I am cast into the swirling rip-tide of forbidden knowledge,
Clinging to the flotsam of sanity as a Leviathan roars below.
It swallows me into an acidic whirlpool.
Drowning me deep beneath the bubbling surface of the past.
And there, in the murky depths where my very self begins to rot,
A grinning maw of tongues and fangs, bids me a cold "hello!".
-Chen Yuan Wen, 26th June 2013
Partner in PainI can't escape.Partner in Pain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've ran till my feet have bled,
The trail left in the wake,
A gushing river of red.
The blood from years of fear,
Mixing with tears
From all those years
Of not knowing who I am.
The tide is rising,
And I am failing at disguising
The gurgles from my throat
Refusing to scream for a boat
Stubborn and broken
My cries for help go unspoken.
Will you watch as I drown?
Scream as I go down?
You can't pull me out,
So don't give in to doubt
That there was more to be done
To take bullets out of this gun.
Locked and loaded
I aim at the past
Shooting at nothing
But the pain that has amassed.
No this gun is shooting blanks
The water I am drowning in
Is no deeper than my shins
And the sound you hear is me choking on my sins.
I have no words strong enough for my thanks
To always have you sitting beside me on this bloody bank.
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 15The morning after was horrible. It was like everyone had a hangover. Well at least Murdoc had a real hang over. He always drank so much. The others wondered if he's organs had started to rot by this time. Russel had spent the whole last day on his room talking to Del. His best friend could always help him with problems and cheer him up. Russel missed the time when his friend still lived. Noodle had sleep so bad that she almost couldn't keep her eyes open. 2D had lots of problem with keeping himself calm. He had spent the half night to clean up the blood after Murdoc's and Therese's fight. (Little too dramatic eh?). None of them said anything at the breakfast table. They didn't even say good morning to each other. The band had their last concert tonight on this place before they would keep going. The four band members sat all quiet and ate their breakfast slowly. Suddenly the silence broke when Noodle noticed a scratch on Murdoc's cheek. It was from where Therese had hit him. She askedMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 154 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Gorillaz - The pocky gameNoodle: HURRY UP 2D-KUN!Gorillaz - The pocky game4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Noodle yelled out the words high as she dragged 2D after her. 2D and Noodle had been out for shopping during the afternoon. 2D had been looking for a new zombie movie but he almost already had everyone and he thought that the new one's sucked. Noodle had been looking for clothes that would fit her taste but she hadn't found anything either. After awhile they still hadn't found anything at all. 2D suggested that they should go back to the jeep and go back home. Noodle agreed and followed him. When they were halfway back to the car they passed an Asian shop. Noodle's eyes widen and she quickly grabbed 2D's hand and dragged him towards the store. She told him to hurry up so they could get in faster. 2D flinched in shock as Noodle dragged him into the shop and ran through the shelves in high speed. He didn't even have the chance to ask her what she would buy before she let go of his hand. He yelped as he accidently flew into a shelf nearby. He shook his
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 21Back at the car park at Kong studios Russel had just helped Murdoc to get up on his legs and dragged him to the car. They needed to get to the airport and get Noodle back. Russel had even tried to make Murdoc drop the damn frying pan he had swing around with after poor Cortez. Russel was so damn tired of this all. He gave the bassist a slap across the face to make him stop acting like a moron. Murdoc had just shook his head a little before he started chuckle and talk a lot of crap again. Russel sighed and grabbed the car keys from Murdoc's Winnebago and unlocked the bassist's new car. Russel blinked at the bassist who only chuckled.MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 214 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Russel: Who will drive?
Russel: Stupid question Get in!
Murdoc: Just make sure to kill us on the way Russ.
Russel: Shut up! Just get into the damn car!
Murdoc and Russel got into the car and put on the safety belt. Murdoc had brought a can of beer with him and opened it while Russel drove away from Kong studios. Russel glared at M
HopeHope is just the liesHope2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I tell myself
Hope tells me tomorrow
Will be better then today
So I don't cry myself to sleep
Hope whispers that next time
I'll do things right
When I only make it worse
Hope says that everything will be alright
When I know it won't be
Hope promises that there is a perfect
Person for me and that one day
I'll find that person
Hope shouts that one day
I'll do great things
And will always be rememebered
So that I'll never truely die
Hope sings of a better place
When there isn't one
Hope mocks that it could be worse
But most of the time
I'd do anything to not be me
Hope is merely a lie
But that's okay
Because a lot of things are lies
Imagine: Social PhobiaImagine being afraidImagine: Social Phobia6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Imagine being afraid every time you have to talk to people
Imagine being afraid every time you have to call someone
Imagine being afraid every time you have to answer the door
Imagine being afraid every time you have to meet new people
Imagine having to isolate yourself just to feel safe
Imagine getting sick of the thought of going to the cinema
Imagine the loneliness
Imagine getting afraid every time a stranger asks you about something
Imagine the urge to change
Imagine the fear
Imagine thinking about what others think of you
Imagine wanting to run
Imagine almost throwing up of the thought of a new school
Imagine the others misunderstandings
Imagine their angry and disappointed faces
Imagine having to say no, even if you know that is the wrong answer
Imagine having the choice between pain and fear
Imagine the darkness
Imagine having to put yourself through fear
Imagine the questions
Imagine the weird glances
Imagine leaving your 'friends' behind
Imagine the fear o
Depressing AnxietyI live in the future,Depressing Anxiety2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and the future is bleak;
I fear coming hardships,
knowing I'm weak.
It's too hard even
to live day by day
When every hour alone
brings a price I must pay.
still feel fresh,
While Tomorrow already
cuts into my flesh.
I don't have time
to think of Today;
I must prepare for Tomorrow,
I cannot delay!
My thoughts rush by,
my mind never rests,
new trials and tests.
Social AnxietyThe sudden urgeSocial Anxiety3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To hurl your phone at the floor
The moment it rings
Just to avoid any type of confrontation
That aching inside your stomach
When you know the clear answer to the question
And something inside is screaming to raise your hand
But it's gone limp at your side
The moment someone asks a common question
But it strikes a nerve
And you feel a flush crawl up your face
They weren't supposed to know about that.
When something unrelated sneaks up in your mind
And fighting back the tears seems so impossible
While a war rages on in your head
Just bite your tongue and show nothing
Nothing brings more dread than that horrible word
When your words fumble out of your mouth
And desperately try to find the right order
Your palms will sweat
And you'll pick at your nails
Just keep your head low
And hope no one will notice you
Sometimes silence will be worst
And so you'll stutter and ramble about nothing at all
Until you bite down as hard as you can
In hopes of keeping your nervou
MurdocX2D - A big tour ch 192D woke up early the next morning all tired without any sleep at all. He hadn't got much sleep at all since he read the message he got from Noodle the last night. He groaned as he rubbed his hair and forced himself out of the bed. He was going to take photos for the new collection today. The blue haired singer didn't felt for it at all. 2D went to the bathroom and brushed his teeth. After that he watched himself in the mirror for a while. He didn't bother that much of his reflection like the girls always did. They went crazy if they discovery a pimple or that their makeup were messed up. 2D shrugged and then got dressed. He didn't care about eating breakfast and instead walked out on the balcony. He stared out over the town and sighed. He thought about Noodle's message again. She seemed to miss him very much. 2D felt bad for leaving her without even say good bye. Noodle was like his little sister after all. But yet the singer couldn't go back. He had been gone for a long while and if hMurdocX2D - A big tour ch 194 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Social AnxietyI'm phobic of people,Social Anxiety2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The world's scary to me;
I never know what's going on,
So just please leave me be.
I can't meet your eyes,
I'm far too meek.
It's only a whisper
When I try to speak.
I don't want to seem rude,
I'm really polite,
But I'm too afraid
And my throat's now too tight.
I wish I could do better
And socialize with you.
But how to do it?
I don't have a clue.
The CageIn a darkened room, surrounded by iron bars, I feel trapped, but don't know why. I can't seem to see anyone else, and I know that I'm all alone. My heart begins to sink from some sort of foreboding feeling, and suddenly I hear a sharp, metallic screech. The ground beneath me begins to shake, and as I look at the iron bars around me, they start to close in ever so slightly and suddenly STOP. My eyes gape open as I realise I need to get out, but I don't know how. There's no door, no lock, no key, no way out. I grab one bar with both of my hands and then prop one leg against an opposite bar and push! Despite my greatest efforts, the bars remain unmoved.The Cage2 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Sweating now, my heart begins to flutter as I start to realise my impending doom. A clock somewhere lost in the darkness goes tick-tock-tick-tock and I can't help but start to count the seconds in my mind, "1, 2, 3, 4... 117, 118, 119, 120." Suddenly, the bars start to move again! I try to push and resist all I can, but they oppose
Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 25Artist Comment: Urgh...Stupid computer is stupid...Murdocx2D Yaoi Story pt. 254 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
2D awoke from the sound of Lucinda whimper. "Hm? Wot? Wot's wrong?" His voice came out raspy and hard to understand.
He looked down at the infant and smiled softly. "Ya 'ungry?" Lucinda didn't answer, but she did thrash her arms about, requesting something. 2D sighed and sat up, wincing from the newly opened wound. "Ow...Okay 'old on, little luv." The singer picked up the child and delicately lifted her head up to his right nipple. "Go on..."
She looked at it and then up to 2D's face, moving her mouth onto the bare nipple. Small suckling sounds were made as she heartily drank, her eyes closing. Her hunger pains disappeared quickly as she got a good amount of breast milk. "Mhaah." Lucinda pulled away and started whining quickly. 2D grimaced. "Now now, Jus' wait a minute.." He picked her up and burped her, making the whining stop.
BreatheBreathe in, breathe outBreathe4 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Slow and deep
Breathe in, breathe out
You need to sleep.
Breathe in, breathe out
Nothing is wrong
Breathe in, breathe out
You need to stay calm.
Breathe in, breathe out
Anxiety, go away
Breathe in, breathe out
It'll all be okay.
Breathe in, breathe out
Just clear your mind
Breathe in, breathe out
You'll be fine.
Breathe in, breathe out
Just a few more times
Breathe in, breathe out
Just close your eyes.