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No More TherapyNo More Therapy10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
No More Therapy
Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here
Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done
Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision
Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
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I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything
Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind
Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
Aura: The RadianceAura: The Radiance11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Aura: The Radiance
I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering
I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall
I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone
I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death
To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope
Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig
The Unseen LifeThe Unseen Life9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Unseen Life
I thought pain was created to fade
But it seems like my life was crafted to break
So I apologize to the mirror and say "I'm sorry, it's too late."
I can't even look at my own face, as I can never accept my mistakes
I realize that I am brokenly made
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My mind bleeds away the memories I've wasted
Remorse begins to slowly fill in the gaps that are left
This stained razor blade leaves every dark moment perfectly divided
I try not to indulge in act of prayer, because I refuse to ever confess
Even in death I will never rest
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All visible colors descend into the ground
And time drifts off to sleep
Every sharp outline a
Breaking Out TonightBreaking Out Tonight10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Breaking Out Tonight
Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear
I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back
Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath
Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know
Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow
I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,
Rain Of DarknessRain Of Darkness11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Darkness
Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black
When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable
The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
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Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction
My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction
You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation
Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted
Rev
Embers In The RainEmbers In The Rain3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Embers In The Rain
My blood contains the power of the sun
Instigation becomes dangerous
And when control is reduced to none
My rage is monstrous
There's no turning back when it begins
I will be searching for a source to blame
I will unleash a torrent of hell from within
For I am known as the bearer of the flame
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I loath crossing that line
Being locked behind blind eyes
But I won't regret the ruins that I will create
As I leave supernova footprints in my wake
I destroy everything more than once! / My limits are undone!
Infinite ashes haunt darkening lungs! / My heart becomes numb!
Consuming infernos help me cope
As I bathe in the smother
Dreaming Of RageDreaming Of Rage1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dreaming Of Rage
I don't want to give into the maddening thoughts
I don't want to become what I am not
My clenched hands start to bleed
Because I despise falling asleep
Knuckles harden as I delve into unconsciousness
My bad blood boils away the sense of innocence
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Inner wars are fought / Faces yearn to be tarnished
All of my battles are lost / I put every bad memory into my fists
I don't want to know my true self / Different sides of the same coin
My reflection is altered by the pain I felt / We both will reach the breaking point
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The forgotten fury yells to be freed
The hidden hatred screams to be unleashed
The rioting rage roars to
The Road Of YesterdayThe Road Of Yesterday1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Road Of Yesterday
These closed eyes have wept
Over all of the pain I've kept
Knowing I will always be far from perfect
I don't know why I was abandoned or where my hope went
I'm tired, I'm just too tired
A moment of peace is what I now desire
Too long have I searched, too long have I suffered
I'm so ready to collapse
These feel
Rain Of ThunderRain Of Thunder3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Thunder
I took the gift of light for granted-
Assuming I would always see
But when my world darkened-
My fears took the best of me
And I would give anything
Just to see a spark or a glow
But my faith was also fading
Withering away like my hope
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The only sight I had
Was beyond the walls in my mind
But they were just figments from the past
A false savior that I could only hide behind
The shadows were becoming my mask
It was shielding me from living my life
The skies rumbled ominously / Like cries echoing sorrowfully
I felt rain falling endlessly / Like infinite liquid apologies
Reality shed the blackness / The roars fiercely pier
DependentDependent11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dependent
It's one of those days
When everything goes wrong
And it hurts you in ways
When it feels like you don't belong
Thinking of the choices you made
What you've done
Questioning if redemption is too late
Can this guilt be overcome?
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I deserve to remain
Locked within the pain
As my tears are wrapped in chains
And it's all true
What we all go through
Take all of my problems and give 'em to you
Because I cannot
Win back the battles I lost
For I am unable to pay the courage it costs
For those who say
That the past can't be changed
They're right, but the memories won't go away
So lead me astray
Carry all of my burdens
Plead For ReleasePlead For Release10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Plead For Release
God, I hope I'm doing this right
I was never really one for praying
God, Please look at me in my eyes
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry for everything
Even though I'm just another one of your creations
I wonder why I was born surrounded by destruction
I know nothing of your pity
But I still want to try and believe in thee
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I crumble down to my knees
And I beg of you, please
Destroy every nightmare that I have ever slept
Break and shatter every mirror in existence
So I don't have to dream of what I've become to be
So I don't have to see what has finally become of me
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God, I was never really one for confrontatio
My Selfish RebellionMy Selfish Rebellion1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Selfish Rebellion
My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds
We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you
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Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven
I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen
So try to tear me down
I dare you to smite me now
I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found
I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this f
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)
Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking
Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental
My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me
Far too long have I been on my life's edge
L
Silent FaithSilent Faith7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Silent Faith
My trembling hands
Don't want to come together
I refuse to feel weakness
Oppress the confessor
I will defy the defeat
Of my body and mind
And my tears will freeze
So I...will never cry
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I was once told
That I have to be strong
But a child can never grow old
When reminded that every action is wrong
I didn't need to know
That strength was everything
I would have given up a long time ago
Because that is my hollowed instinct
Take back every single breath / Take back those moments I lived
I am not some stepping stone / I am not meant to have a torn soul
You can only push so much / I can choose to give up
You're the only one w
The Peace SeekerThe Peace Seeker7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Peace Seeker
Whispers that no one hears
The world is deaf from despair
The sun becomes my throne
As I watch reality become undone
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Someone can be another person's hero
If only love existed
Dusk will break with a darker tomorrow
Another day of being two-faced
Every second- a promise is broken
Every minute- a tear is taken
Every hour- a smile is forced
Every day- a child is born
I stitch my mouth shut / I finally had enough
Silence is my sin / Truth is my friend
Seal my eyes wide / Lies can finally hide
I will witness no evil / I will force another smile
Anyone can be someone's demon
Because greed insists it
Peace is no
Drowning Out The WorldDrowning Out The World4 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Drowning Out The World
I find myself in the sounds
I release my pain in the lyrics
Enveloping peace is found
The vibes calm my spirit
But when silence falls
Reality and time stop
And then my mind floods
With ever-consuming thoughts
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The walls in my head break down
The serenity within goes silent
And every regret cries out
My memories become violent
I get this sensation
That my soul is too damaged
A dreadful realization
There's nothing left of me to salvage
Music is just a distraction
To blind myself from the carnage
I remain behind the destruction
Where darkness has the advantage
Remnants of rhyme hinder
Calling out to me once more
Ne
I'm So Far Away From HopeI'm So Far Away From Hope9 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm So Far Away From Hope
Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different
Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing
I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
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I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew
UndeceasedUndeceased1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Undeceased
It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind
I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else
I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire
I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt
This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun
I could be so more much than t
A Dying RainbowA Dying Rainbow10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Dying Rainbow
I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened
My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break
I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S
My Unblind SinsMy Unblind Sins11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Unblind Sins
In the beginning I was emotionally blind
So I always pushed the guilt to the back of my mind
Even though I saw all of my lies with these heartless eyes
I'm the one at fault
For all of the wrong I've done
And I can't live with what my decisions have brought
I'm my own prisoner of these memories
Unforgettable stains of my grief
I'm also the warden, and I can't leave
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Shackled by my mistakes
Wrapped in a chain of lies
I deserve the past I made
For the future won't be mine
Bound by the pain I gave
Locked in a cage of my conscience
I'm serving my time until the end of days
For this is my own form of self-vengean
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Sobriety's RiseSobriety's Rise7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sobriety's Rise
I exiled you from my veins
You will never affect me again
Take with you the very worst of me
I will no longer be a part of thee!
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Too long have my eyes been closed
So many years have passed in vain
I couldn't let the road ahead get any worse
I'm no longer a victim of your taint
I dwell no more- in those old woes
Though I regret the pain I allowed myself to sustain
Mirrors don't snare / Family doesn't glare
This hope I bear / I've made it here
Cleansed my spirit away / Allowed scars to fade
Embraced the change / Unlocked the cage
My dreams no longer weep
The nightmares refuse to reimmerse
I can move forward if I really
A Loveless DayA Loveless Day1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)
This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray
As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay
In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the liquid-silver droplets of rain
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You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done
You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you
You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you ha
ScarmakerScarmaker11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Scarmaker
Your promises kept
Breaking Breaking Breaking
I tried to hold onto those hopeful words you said
But you've always managed to hurt the both of us in the end
These tears shed
Seething Seething Seething
Down and away like liquified memories of regret
While every stinging mistake rushes back and quickly spreads
My hands left
Trembling Trembling Trembling
I find myself feeling lost in this inner emptiness
As all of my love for you continually bleeds out of my chest
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This is our last resort / Please don't say it's so!
There's no trus
Sta.sh
