RestrictedRestricted2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Hours. Its been hours that I've been doing this. Days that I've been here. I can barely breath, think, see, hear. I can barely move. That's the worst thing about this place. Maybe. How I can't move. Sure I can pad aimlessly around this cushioned white room but that's the end of it. Sit, stand, laydown. That's it. Well, besides hammering my face against the soft walls. I guess you can call that a hobby anymore.
God, and these headaches. Nausea at every turn. This pressure that hangs in the air is atrocious, its absolutely crushing. The air is so heavy that I was given a mask to breath better, well, not so much given as had it forced onto me like a struggling dog against a muzzle. It helps my lungs, but the mask is heavier than the air. A full-face mask that's heavy and uncomfortable, not to mention impossible to see through. It filters pure, freezing oxygen in my face and forces choki
The Monster In My HeadEvery moment it sits thereThe Monster In My Head2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Watching me, taunting me
I can’t see it
But I know it’s there
It tears us apart
I can feel you getting further away
Every word between us is strained
Every thought fearful and wary
When I hold you tight
I feel you shaking with sobs
I can see the pain and distress in your eyes
Every moment is one less together
All because of the monster in my head
I Want Walls To BreakI want walls to break for youI Want Walls To Break3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Want them to crumble like sand castles under toddler feet
Splinter and take down the door frames
All of those that ever closed to you.
I want to trick Time to run slow,
Train all of his circles to stop their spinning
And spread a blanket in the silence
Of a minute that lasts two lives.
I want to give you that
And a path all green and narrow,
With reeds waving up the mountainside
And I will pack your bag
A compass, a map
Water and me
And all of the little things that mean the most to you.
And forever we'll sit
Mounted in your arms and caught up in your hair
Just watching the sawdust
And the wind.
I want walls to break for you.
Zachary Boyle - Begotten P1Zachary Boyle - Begotten P17 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
The Movie in mind is Begotten.
The Scene is the First
God Committing Suicide
The greatest of all entities has been driven into madness. He is masked. He has gagged himself, tied himself down to a chair of a blood-stained room and is slowly disemboweling himself using a straight razor.
The questions in mind
If God himself has been driven to commit suicide, what does that say for the rest of us?
What is left for the rest of us, once god is gone?
If gods sanity is depleted then, isnt ours?
The Straight Razor.
Mans instrument used in his suicide.
According to the Catholic Church, the creations that man bestows upon the world of subjective reality are the gifts of god. This is ironic on its own. Abortion was mans
creation, so was cloning. Are we not therefore contradicting the sacred rules placed upon us by these religious beliefs? Or is this was caused God to go crazy? He could not possibly comprehend the paradox of his own being, so willingly painted as a judicator for the hom
Aren Bestiary: Of The GlatisantAren Bestiary: Of The Glatisant1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
While most bestiaries built upon the work of Erdasian and Ardasean scholars of old, not every creature in them originated from such sources. As bestiaries rose into popularity in Ordosia, their writers and compilers would sometimes try to out-do each other by including animals no-one else had yet described. This lead to some creatures of highly questionable veracity appearing in the later bestiaries and - in part - contributed to the desire and need to start appyling skepticism to these works, one of the early steps in the Ordosian scientific renessaince.
While many of the creatures inserted in the later bestiary era were from local legends or misunderstood versions of previously known and described species, one had very peculiar roots indeed, going deep into ancient Velanneic literature. This was the barking beast, or as it became known in Middle Ordosia after several translations, the glatisant. First included in the Tulsanne Bestiary, believed to be written by Nowertes of Velogne, t
Aren Bestiary: Of The OulurseAren Bestiary: Of The Oulurse1 year ago in Settings More Like This
"There is also an animal that the natives of the southern lands call an owl-bear or bear-owl, for its appearance resembles both while being neither. Unlike the owl it does not avoid the light of day, nor does it hide during the winter like the bear. It is described as ugly and ill-natured with a rapacious beak and grasping claws, and there is a foul stench about it. Like a bear it's strength is in the forelimbs which it uses to crush its prey. The owl-bear feeds on carrion but kills without intention to eat. It moves about on four legs but rears up on two, thus growing taller than a man."
This paragraph written by Sardun of Fahistar in "Of Animals" was for long presumed to be the oldest description of the animal that became known as oulurse in Ordosia. He mentions it while describing animals from Erdasia, but no works of Erdasian scholars translated to Debarian mention it at all. For this reason it was assumed that he had a separate source of information. Some even assumed that the oul
Aren Bestiary: Of The WargAren Bestiary: Of The Warg3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"In the north there is a beast called the whyrg that feeds solely on human flesh. It is the size of a bear but shaped like a wolf with the chest of a lion and the maned neck of a horse. It is said to have a human voice, and often it imitates the cry of a child to lure the mother into the woods, where it will kill her. It is said that this beast is born of human parents but changes its shape from human to whyrg and devours its mother."
-- Deirhestres of Alzarath, The Nature of Beasts
Numerous sources dating back to the Second Dazmar Empire mention a great wolf-like predator living in the northern lands that is associated with humans either by being born in the shape of a human or being able to imitate the voice of a human. They were also known as man-eaters. While such creatures must have appeared mythical to Erdasian scholars, Ordosians and Noderlenners were more than familiar with the beasts. While sightings were sporadic, King Valdarik of Isernalt had a cloak made of the skin of a wa
MirrorEver thereMirror2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sees your flaws
Can’t take it
And at the end of it
Everything’s just the same
Aren Bestiary: Of The SimurghAren Bestiary: Of The Simurgh1 year ago in Settings More Like This
Azaios is the first to mention the mighty simurgh in his writings detailing his ideas of evolution and his classification system: "The zhyammarugh, which the natives of South Erdasia call camictlahaw, is a most unusual beast. Like the ostrich and the griffon-kin, it is one of the few creatures that have feathers though they do not fly. Indeed it seems most like the latter. If reports of its size are true, it must be the only feathered creature too heavy to fly, and thus its plumage must have another meaning."
These musings eventually lead Azaios to the theory explaining bird flight and the evolution of gryphids. It is worth noting that Azaios mentions the Ataluc name for the animal, which translates to 'the lord of death', which is reflected in the Madjastian name 'Zhyammarugh', which cannot be understood unless one knows that the supreme judge, the Master of Justice, next in power to the Dazmar Emperor himself, was known as 'Zhyammarandji', while 'rugh' means murder or manslaugh
Aren Bestiary: Goblin Races - An IntroductionAren Bestiary: Goblin Races - An Introduction3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"To the northwest of Sal-Asrin, it is told, dwells a race of savage beast-men. They grow not larger than children but have the fierce strength of grown men. Their skin is a shade of grey with a hint of yellow or even a sickly green. Terrible fangs or tusks like those of a boar grow out their mouth, and they feed on all kinds of flesh, eating it raw like beasts of prey. Their ways are uncivilized and crude, and their tools and weapons are made of stone or wood. Their stench is said to be nigh unbearable."
-- Izmar Ban-Sadarin on goblins in Of People and Beasts of the Land.
Goblins are species of primitive sapients counted among the human genus, although they were originally thought more close to the wudas. Cases of interbreeding between human and goblin races prove the validity of this classification beyond any doubt, even though such "goblin-men" are always sterile. The history of goblins is poorly known and sketchy at best. The earliest accounts of goblins come from Velaneic ch
Aren Bestiary: Of The CatoblepasAren Bestiary: Of The Catoblepas3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"In Southeast Erdasia lives an animal the size of a cow covered in hard scales, with a head and wide horns disproportionate to it's body. It always walks looking down, but those that meet it's gaze it will kill. Those that dare to hunt it by ambush claim that its spit is a potent poison, for it eats poisonous plants."
-- Deirhestres of Alzarath, The Nature of Beasts
The concise description above appears in the only complete copy of "The Nature of Beasts" that survived both the persecution of Madjasti scholars during the Khadon dynasty and the burning of Dar-Isnar by invading Debarians. Unfortunately the name of the animal was never mentioned, perhaps due to an error made by the scribe, and as Erdasia grew increasingly isolated, the beast became obscure. We know that Azaios knew of it, mentioning it in his "The Classification of Animals" as the Erdasian scaly bull, which he classed within Ktorgaisha or 'scaly beast kin' (not to be confused with Azaios' reptiles, which
Aren Bestiary: Of The TarasqueAren Bestiary: Of The Tarasque3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
"The beast Tlalascua is found in South Erdasia. It is said to be as tall as a man and just as wide, thirty feet long in all. From head to tail it is covered with scaly armor that no spear can pierce, and its rotund body is covered with sharp spikes which are longest on its flanks. Two horns grow out of its head and at the tip of its tail it has two spikes, longer than those on its body, which are curved like the horns of a bull. Its legs are short and wide, and whatever it tramples underfoot is crushed."
-- Deirhestres of Alzarath, The Nature of Beasts
It is remarkable that Deirhestres in the above text uses a word that is evidently lifted straight out of Ataluc, without the attempt to translate it to Madjastian. This could be because he, as most North Erdasians at the time, considered everything pertaining to the Atal people of the south as primitive and unworthy of study, and thus was unable to provide a translation. This is supported by the fact that he used a Madjastian name
Aren Bestiary: Of The MammothAren Bestiary: Of The Mammoth1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
The oldest surviving description of a mammoth that directly influenced later bestiary authors can be found in "The Nature of Animals" written by the ancient Madjasti scholar Deirhestres:
Besides the bison, the lands of Urusea north of Alaam produces mahammodhs, that are like the oliphammodh but covered in dark wool that grows very long in the winter. The mahammodh is very large, second in size only to the behammodh. Its tusks are greater than those of oliphammodhs of any land, and they curve upwards until they begin to coil; the male mahammodh has greater tusks than the female. Because it is so large, only the dragon and the khargadan can harm a mahammodh when it is adult, but the young may be killed by the king bear or the lynghez or the Urusean lewon that hunts in packs. The female mahammodh can only give birth to one child and the period of gestation is two years[...]
This text reveals that the Madjasti of the Second Dazmar Empire were surprisingly knowledgeable about the mammoths o
Aren Bestiary: Of The Big CatsAren Bestiary: Of The Big Cats1 year ago in Settings More Like This
Deirhestres of Alzarath is the first author to mention big cats in "The Nature of Beasts", which he collectively calls by the word 'daigor' which appears to be a loan from Qwaraanmian in which it means 'tiger'. He also describes specifically the tiger, although the animal did not have an established name in Madjastian: "The daigor is a beast shaped like a cat, but many times larger and very fierce. It can run at a very high speed. It has stripes in its fur like the cat, but never spots like some cats may have." From this description it is very clear that tigers were probably known to the Madjasti a lot better than other big cats, which Deirhestres also describes:
"There are also other kinds of daigor. One of them is called the pard, which has a mottled fur. It is the fastest of all beasts in the land, even faster than the common daigor; it can outrun a flying swallow. Another is the lewon, which has a golden fur and the male has a great mane on its neck. It is the greatest of the hunti
Aren Bestiary: Of The BehemothAren Bestiary: Of The Behemoth1 year ago in Settings More Like This
The first mention of the animal called behemoth in the Erdasian writings is by Deirhestres of Alzarath: "The behammodh is the mightiest among beasts, and its bellow strikes fear in all the animals. It walks proudly, for it fears no living thing but the dragon, which is its mortal enemy. When it walks the land trembles and all things break under its feet. It lives in the shades of cedars, which it leaves only to drink; so great is the bahammodh that it must kneel to drink. Only in this position it is possible to slay a behemoth, for the longest spear cannot reach its snout if it lifts its head aloft. The behammodh can swim great distances, and it is said that it carries oxen on its back over the raging stream."
Azaios obviously knew things Deirhestres does not mention about the behemoth, because he writes in "The Classification of Animals": "The behammodh is unlike any other plant-eating beast, except for its feet that are cloven in three, like those of the khargadan. [...] Therefore th
Aren Bestiary: Of Goblins and OrcsAren Bestiary: Of Goblins and Orcs3 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Although often separated into two races, goblins and orcs, also known as huorcs or hijashi, belong to the same race, and are so close they can't even be considered subraces. Urusean orcs are considerably more robust, somewhat taller and appear to be more intelligent than their Thalannean and Ordosian relatives, known as goblins, but most differences are negligible and seem to be due to culture, lifestyle and diet. Common to them all is a varying level of animosity towards human races, which they simultaneously fear and consider inferior.
At least on the surface goblin culture reveres raw physical strength above other qualities, although it is rarely those merely strongest in body that end up having most influence in the goblin tribe. Similarily the goblins may dismiss the use of magic as something for the weak and lame, but at the same time fear and revere the powers of their shamans, who tend to be among the most intelligent of goblinkind.
Ever since the appearance of humans in northe
Aren Bestiary: Of The LeviathanAren Bestiary: Of The Leviathan1 year ago in Settings More Like This
The waters boil and churn,
Hell's horns roar their call,
And up rises Leviathan.
-- An Arbaysian sailor song (excerpt)
"You should know, that there are things in the sea that grow as long as they live, and some things in the deep will not die of old age."
-- The Spider (Xiphean) in Kherastenai.
In the ancient days, before the lands of Khai turned into desert, when Dazmar cities there were still full of life, the Dazmar mythology included three primordial beasts, each of which ruled over one element. Bahammodh ruled the land, Zhimmodh ruled the sky and Dhiammodh the sea. This myth became obscured and intertwined with the Madjasti mythology by the end of the First Dazmar Empire in Erdasia. The Dazmar cities of Ardasea were now gone, but some of the names of mythical beasts survived in the languages of neighboring peoples, such as the Masharans, and later evolved into the forms "behemoth", "simurgh" and "tiamat". What is remarkable though, is that based on ancient Dazmar art
Aren Bestiary: Of HobgoblinsAren Bestiary: Of Hobgoblins3 years ago in Settings More Like This
The western lands of Baernil and Tarasia, as well as southwestern Ordosia, are home to a race known as hobgoblins. They are considered the most advanced of all goblin races by those that subscribe to the notion of Azaian evolution. This is based on both their appearance and culture. Unlike the savage northwestern goblins, the hobgoblins live in permanent settlements farming land and keeping domesticated animals such as pigs and sheep. It is believed by many that they learned these practices from humans, but there is no real reason to doubt that they could have developed either by themselves. Their ways are considered more civilized and amicable than those of other goblins, although they have warred with Ordosian peoples several times in the past. Hobgoblins are not known to eat the flesh of other humanoid races, even wudas or ogres, considering it taboo. They also trade with baenrians in goods as well as magics. Hobgoblins are considered the most accomplished magic users among all gobl
A Man's HandA Man's Hand Must Excel At Two Things Over-All:A Man's Hand2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They Must Show Fiery Passion To His Woman,
Like There Will Not Be A Tomorrow,
And They Must Show His Opposition,
The Meaning Of Swift And Unmerciful Violence.
The Deepest Seaside
Cove Of Love For His Woman.
The Darkest Pit Of Hell,
Through Death, For His Enemy.
Both Delivered Upon, By A Real Man's Hand.
Aren Bestiary Appendix: Oulurse FolkloreAren Bestiary Appendix: Oulurse Folklore1 year ago in Settings More Like This
Due to lack of direct observations from encounters with living or even dead oulurses, Arenian naturalists have had to seek information through less direct means. Mostly this has meant gathering local legends and accounts from supposed eyewitnesses from areas where the oulurse is supposed to still live, in order to build a more complete image of the mysterious beast that still avoids capture. While its existence continues to be a subject of debate, the information available thusfar seems to support the existence of one or more species of oulurse in Erdasia.
According to some tribes living in the Great Middle Erdasian Rainforest or Dardjagul the bear-owl or jugumarutuqua is a very large animal that can be up to 8 feet tall when it stands fully upright. Usually it walks in a horizontal pose with its long arms almost touching the forest floor, and it never uses them to walk. The feathered arms end in three large curved claws that are dull ivory in colour, as is the beak of th
Aren Bestiary: Of The SalamanderAren Bestiary: Of The Salamander1 year ago in Settings More Like This
From ancient times the people of Erdasia were familiar with a small animal they called the stylio. Deirhestres of Alzarath writes about it thus: "The stylio is an animal the size of an ichneumon that walks like a lizard but has dark fur that is brightly spotted. It can be found in the hot barren lands of Erdasia, because its coat of fur does not let heat onto its skin. Therefore it is always cold, and will seek all sources of heat, sometimes sleeping so close to a fire that it should catch fire itself, but the fire does not harm it, for its fur is such that it protects it from burning. From its mouth it expels a milky liquid that is a fatal poison; should any of it touch the human body it will cause hair to fall off and skin to break in a rash. Alicorn cannot be used to neutralise such a poison."
The barren lands Deirhestres mentions are a volcanic region in northeastern Erdasia, known as Gahaggan or "ashlands", where much of the land is covered in volcanic ash, and there are several a