The Unread Letter
If I could go back in time
I would, and say what I really wanted to say
Then maybe, just maybe you would still be mine
And I never would have had to go through all of this pain
I yearn to take it all back
To cast away every word that was said
I want you to know I didn't mean any of that
Because I knew you were the one when we first met
You're the one that let go
I was the one to get left behind
You're the one that took my soul
I was the one that had a break down that night
You said nothing
And left me waiting
I needed you to say something
I silently pleaded for you to say anything
Maybe I thought it was a hollow threat
But I knew it was a damaging move you meant
If I only had one wish
I would ask to see you once again
And then I would beg for forgiveness
Just to try and undo all of my unjustified destruction
Every mistake made
All of the tears that were shed
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)
Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking
Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental
My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me
Far too long have I been on my life's edge
Looking down, and backing out of my own hollow threats
But I swear that one of these days I won't wait to die from old age
I will skip to the last chapter, and write the ending in blood, soaking the page
All it takes is this lowl
OceanfallOceanfall3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
One final leap into the depths below is all it really takes
Open my lungs up, and let freezing freedom take my breath away
I did my time here on Earth, I served my time in life
So now I'm done, it's over, I no longer need to be alive
I've seen what cannot be unseen, I've done what I cannot undo
I cannot change the past, and the future is what I cannot live through
A watery grave is what I have dreamed of, it's all I have ever really wanted
A slow, and silent decent, it's an honor to finally become one of the departed
My eyes unknowingly darken, as I instantly try to grasp onto the last of the light
Realizing this is the last time I'll see through my human body, it's such a beautiful sight
But crying underwater seems like it's impossible to do, so I'll still try my best to defy the odds
Because I know I've felt all of the different kinds of pain, so this is me letting go of what I've got
Words To AshWords To Ash3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Words To Ash
My embers burn / A dark fire roars
My suicidal war / A blaze of words
I wrote this for you...
The old me really wanted you to read it
To tell you the truth...
Of how I came to be beyond broken
But I had to keep it
Because I'll never see you again
So my wounds remain hidden
A letter deprived of hate, I forgave us in vain
I'm trying to undo what you have done
Even if its just a placebo effect
This is me trying to “move on”
From this smothering resentment
Confessions turn into infernos
You crushed my faith
A villain disguised as a hero
My lungs starts to shake
The sinner is attending church tomorrow
While this saint is endlessly praying for strength
My soul surges / A red sky clears
My resolve emerges / A cure for tears
I've journeyed through the flames...
The new me knows the reasons for your trespasses
Wings Of DarknessWings Of Darkness3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wings Of Darkness
Bind me within your embrace
Bestow me with your grace
I seek your help to obtain the unseen
I need you to blind me from the light
Never let me see my weakness again
Blanket my fears so I won't cry
Cease the false hope from shining in vain
Ward away the lies that hide behind my eyes
Morph this disaster into a calm night
Burn the dying sun out
Darken the nightmarish sky
Let the ominous clouds melt
Lock away this cursed gift of sight
I no longer desire it
Shut out the world from you and I
I yearn for the abyss
Rip away my self-hatred
Bring back my innocence
Obliterate the life I created
And color this reality obsidian
Let the void consume
Paint my essence black
Devour what was once called truth
My faith is in your hands
I profess it all unto you
I am under your command
Cover up my exiled heart
Wrap my soul i
I Am A...I am a survivorI Am A...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because I wish to survive.
I am a dreamer
Because dreams are my break from reality.
I am a lover
Because I yearn to love.
I am a seeker
Because I will seek for my joy.
I am an observer
Because I can observe my enemies,
and know the score.
I am a killer
Because I kill to save others.
I am a hunter
Because I will hunt for truth and lies.
I am a decider
Because I can decide if I can trust you.
I am a teacher
Because I teach the future.
I am a student
Because I still learn.
I am a fighter
Because I do not believe in surrender.
I am a hater
Because the world dispises my spirit
and wants to bring me down.
I am a rebel
Because when the world spits in my face,
I will spit back.
I am a leader
Because I refuse to break down.
I am a wise one
Because wise one's understand lies.
I am a child
Because I can still laugh at other's stupidity.
I am an adult
Because I can put up with you.
I am innocent
Because my heart throbs with ignorance.
I am robbed
Because I still feel the pain.
Wish for PrivacyI live behind a locked door,Wish for Privacy3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And no one has the key.
It has been years, maybe more
Since someone talked to me.
The solitude was nice at first,
The quiet let me think.
But soon it took a turn for worse
Now all I do is blink.
So be careful, my dear friends,
When you wish for privacy.
Count to 5 when patience bends
Or you'll end up just like me.
Aura: The RadianceAura: The Radiance3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Aura: The Radiance
I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering
I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall
I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone
I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death
To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope
Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me high, hold me high, hold me high, and give me hope!
Revive the light
Inside the dark
Given a second life
Resurrecting my heart
Cascade of colors
Fade away the gray
Open up a new world
Where shame has no place
Standing up to society's face's
Takes every ounce of courage
Never damaged or discriminated against
Because we're all going throug
A Sleepless NightA Sleepless Night3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Sleepless Night
(That Will Never Alight)
This same old nightmare that I grimly fear
An image of my life haunted by your shadows
I'm frozen in place, waiting for daylight to soon appear
But I don't know if I'm ready to take on another loveless tomorrow
Why am I the one who suffers when you're not even really here?
I should not have to be the one inflicted by your falsely bestowed sorrow
You made and broke every one of those promises
You left even though you knew that you'd be greatly missed
You were not the one saying that you're so sorry
You were not the one who was left crying uncontrollably
You didn't feel your heart being ripped away
You never considered the other side of the pain
For you I completely broke down
For you I remain in countless pieces now
But I vow to never go through that again
Because I will never give my heart to someone in vain
I want you to know that this is the cost
For I am the outcome of when you throw away your love
This cage named my he
Someone Like YouI can't stay away from youSomeone Like You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
We can't fight this
There' something more...just under your skin
The traces of your fingertips across my shoulders
My neck, my mouth
A thumb pushing away the saltwater on my cheeks
Your mouth turned down in frustration, and telling me you don't understand
But you don't say a word
You see the scratches on my arms
And you do speak now, and you ask me why I would do this
You pull the words out of me with no effort
My heartbroken story
How he left me
The first time I tried to end myself
The day I met you
The second time I tried
How you saved me
You manage to glue this broken girl together
Just a brush of your hands unravels her
You don't care
Because you love me
In My MemoriesIn My Memories3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
In My Memories
My love for you felt like frost-bitten pins
My heart, body, mind, and soul were numbing
This double-edged conscience~
No hands were lent / No hands to take
Abandonment Abandonment Abandonment
Countless tears to shed / Countless tears to make
Abolishment Abolishment Abolishment
The thoughts of you are like venomous-needles
After the emotions are injected the end seems less beautiful
Pain is unforgettable~
This unrequited suffering is self-made
No affection No affection No affection
I hoped you were the one but I fell for you too late
Bad medicine Bad medicine Bad medicine
The lights that instantly caught my eyes
Were too promising to believe it was just another lie
Cruel by design~
Anxiety enters my already-damaged bloodstream
It's coursing It's coursing It's coursing
I destroy myself little by little with every silent scream
It's unnerving It's unnerving It's unnerving
The dreams of the past keep
UndeceasedUndeceased3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind
I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else
I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire
I quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt
This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun
I could be so more much than this
I do have a purpose, yet I still resist
I yearn to have it all but I don't even wish to exist
So let the day of the rapture come
But leave me be, the lone soul who is numb
I contain my own apocalypse in my palms
But I will never release it, I
Wishes and HopesI hope one dayWishes and Hopes3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All the ignorant folk out there
Realize that it isn't just about
It's about an addiction
It's about pain and emotion
And the dark thoughts in your head
That make you hate yourself and want to die
I wish people could be educated
So they don't say stupid things
Like "You're not trying"
It's harder than they realize
And ignorance is bliss
But my biggest wish is for children
To NEVER be exposed to me and what I do
I can take the insults
The rude looks, the stupid remarks
I can take adults stares and ignorance
But I never want to show a child
What you can do when you hurt.
I never want to be the reason
Some one considers self destruction
I had someone like that for me
And every time a child asks about my cat
I pray that I am not that person for them
They SayThey Say.They Say3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They say there is always a silver lining.
But right now my future looks bleak.
They say the sky is the limit.
But my vision is blocked by a mountain peak
They say life is a game.
But I was never any good at hide and seek.
They say were all different.
But does that mean that were all unique.
They say everyone wants to win.
But I have no desire to compete.
They say there are plenty more fish in the sea.
But they didn't say whether the water's shallow or deep.
They say everyone is searching for the same answer.
But I have'nt got it in me to cheat.
They say I'm too negative.
But I know this also comes hand in hand with defeat.
They say a healthy mind is a healthy body.
But I'm not to obsessed with my physique.
They say some situations you must face, face to face.
But sometimes I am not willing to turn the other cheek.
They told me some day I'd be someone great.
But I know that's a promise they cant keep.
They say sometimes shit just happens.
But I've recently discovere
A Dying RainbowA Dying Rainbow3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Dying Rainbow
I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened
My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break
I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
Surrounded by fear is where I don't belong
I just want this lucid nightmare to be over and done
Society these days
Teaching children the old prejudice ways
And that's why certain individuals grow up so afraid
In the end, a premature death is the price loved ones pay
I'm one of those
Dwelling in fear at the end of my rope
Trying to conceal agony tha
I'm Falling DownI'm Falling Down3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm Falling Down
Tears just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky
Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire
I let out a destructive sigh
Triggering the nightmares I kept inside
The memories that I don't want to remember
I deceived myself whenever I tried to keep it together
Images of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine
Despair wrapped around my heart
And it wouldn't let me go
Peace was just too far
I can't take this anymore
I redefined self-hatred
I somehow cornered myself
I always existed in darkness
I was my own martyr who fell
I had to rip all the paths away
I have to force myself astray
So abandonment won't know where I am
The questions of being alone will become transparent
Condemning one another was just
Tap Tap Tap on the DoorA car pulls up to house 54,Tap Tap Tap on the Door3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Flashing lights and noise ignored.
Tires skid to a stop in the slippery rain,
A moment passes, a breath of fake regret and pain.
The car's door opens with a POP.
One boot, two boot, his last breath: stop.
The door closes as he makes to the wooden door.
One step, two step, three step, feeling soar.
Three knocks, left hand, tap tap tap.
Inside kids yell, playing with a foolish game map.
Their mother answers the door.
Messy and tired, she needed to rest more.
Her ringed hand turns the door knob,
A look of confusion flashes.. his job.
Beat beat, the heart of the police officer faints.
Guilty and still the hero of today awaits.
The man takes a exaggerated breath and almost chokes.
Then slowly places his hat on his heart where it smokes.
The woman screams tears of acknowledgement, terrified.
Holding back tears from the children who now won't stand aside.
The police officer slowly walks away, not forcing a grin.
His mind preoccupied from his sec
Dreaming Of RageDreaming Of Rage3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dreaming Of Rage
I don't want to give into the maddening thoughts
I don't want to become what I am not
My clenched hands start to bleed
Because I despise falling asleep
Knuckles harden as I delve into unconsciousness
My bad blood boils away the sense of innocence
Inner wars are fought / Faces yearn to be tarnished
All of my battles are lost / I put every bad memory into my fists
I don't want to know my true self / Different sides of the same coin
My reflection is altered by the pain I felt / We both will reach the breaking point
The forgotten fury yells to be freed
The hidden hatred screams to be unleashed
The rioting rage roars to be challenged
The warmongering wrath growls to be unchained
As I dive into my pool of anger
I let go of my guilt and descend deeper
Shaking, trembling, quaking / To strike freely is my only wish
Breaking, tearing, rampaging / As my sanity slowly diminishes
I could ne
Drive"Are we nearly there yet?" Michael asksDrive3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
His head pounding
His eyes closing
The parents sigh
Their minds on the map,
The road ahead
The pressure to reach home before nightfall.
His eyes rest on the falling droplets on the window where he rests his head.
The cars behind
Blow their horns
Preventing Michael from falling into the
In which he is so familiar.
The cars beside theirs,
Identically stranded on the motorway
Each provide a different story,
A different life
A different past and future.
Michael's eyes wander into each of the square windows
Drinking in the wonders
Of Human Life.
A young woman,
Rests her eyes in the daily jam
On her way home from work.
A teenage girl
Her father at the wheel
Listens to her white Ipod classic
Her arm against the window
A man laughs on his headset
An old woman
With the bags under her eyes.
So many lives
So many stories
He rubs his eyes
HeartsbaneHeartsbane3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Being around you like I am
It's a sensation I can hardly stand
Passed the point of torture, which I can barely pretend
So I have you show you I'm okay, and that I'm doing the best I can
This weight of my heart's world
Harboring all of these scars, new and old
And it contains countless secrets that I try and hold
Which I continue to endure alone, because I sold my soul
This pain is my peace
That's why I need you, please
Your hope divides the fear
So I will always depend on you being here
But I'm so afraid
To let myself love someone again
Because my hands are still stained
From all of those heavy tears that rained
I want to forbid myself from becoming lost in your eyes
While I'm desperately trying to not release everything that's bottled up inside
Every second, I'm an inch away from revealing all of these feelings that I try to hide
I'd give you it all, and deny you nothing, for I know your happiness will also become mine
I don't want another day to be lovele
I'm Here for YouWhat do you expect me to sayI'm Here for You3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
When you keep pushing me away?
RememberI can't read your mind,
And time cannot rewind.
Regret will only make it worse
Like a bad omen from a curse.
This will surely make you stronger;
Please just hold on longer.
I'll be here, right by your side;
You don't have to run and hide.
Just try to find the silver lining
The sun will keep on shining.
Never forget that this is true:
I am here for you.
I want to end it all.Wouldn't it be niceI want to end it all.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To do all those things
That you could only dream of doing
Slicing open your wrists
To watch the life slowly bleed out of you
Hanging off that end of the rope
To feel the breath slowly squeezed out of you
Getting that gun, and taking the shot
To feel your brains blown out of your head
You want to do it
But you're a coward
Just do it already
And save the world
A whole lotta trouble.
BornIn the beginning,Born3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Where do we begin?
In our minds, we progress
In our bodes, we digress
In our heart, to learn
What is right, we discern.
But what of it, forewarned,
In its nascent form
The inability to infer
Just why it differs?
No one can comprehend
Or pay with amends;
The prize of destiny-
A life of bigotry
A hateful word to confess
And they couldn't care less
For the reason it was condemned
For there was no one to defend
That it was just created that way,
But that's not what they say
They knew when it was born,
And adorned it with scorn,
Momma Said 'Stop Being Gay'Momma said "stop being gay,"Momma Said 'Stop Being Gay'3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
As night, to morning, faded;
Its beauty was not made to stay,
But hoary grew, and jaded.
I watched as day, with fractured light,
My every fear, rekindled,
And passion fell away to plight,
And hope but further dwindled.
Momma said "stop being gay,"
With hatred, and distress:
My tender love where sin held sway...
"Impure, and meaningless."
Within my heart and soul, I lived,
For all else had bereft me,
And nothing more could be perceived
Than how her words had left me.
Momma said "stop being gay."
For years, I never fought her,
But silently, and hopeless, lay,
The Lord's forgotten daughter.
I've sacrificed a waking dream:
My truest love, to merit
A heaven, and, in death, to seem
Not evil, but imperfect.