We live in two different worlds of grey.
I tried to combind them and let the colours run
I seek; succumb; become numb.
Salty water swells; you cry, tears of diamonds
I can blow them away, warmly,
from your flushed cheek.
So here we are,
staring at our feet.
I know she will always be the centre of your universe.
Her smile will always be so much more beautiful than mine,
Her soul will always vibrate brighter.
Thoughts twisting around in your mind
can you predict the next moment?
Imagine, lying beneath the blue sky,
embraced by sunshine
Wishing our lives away
Leaving traces of diamonds on my fingertips.
Perfect imperfectionBeauty is in the eye of the beholderPerfect imperfection7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And you said I was beautiful to you
But you never said when it would be over
Or how soon we would be through
Perfection is what youre looking for
And of course its plain to see
Perfection is what you want and more
And that just cant be me
You should take a look in the mirror
And get a good look at yourself
Maybe that will make things clearer
Maybe youll see how I felt
When you told me I wasnt the one for you
I wasnt the perfection that you sought
I prayed for days that it wasnt true
And I wished on every star that we hadnt fought
But I guess my efforts were in vain
Perfection is too important to you
Though you still care for me you claim
I guess its just not enough for you
You know youre not perfect
I dont know why you want that from me
In my eyes you were as close to perfect
As anyone could ever be
But now Ill be waiting for the day
When Im good enough to be your selectio
I'm Only HumanI'm only human.I'm Only Human8 years ago in Open More Like This
I can't read your mind and know your thoughts.
I can't know what you are feeling truly on the inside.
I can't do everything that you want me too do.
I cannot, not make a mistake with you.
I cannot understand you always.
I cannot please you always.
I cannot always be happy.
I'm only human.
I can read the between the lines and know your thoughts as my own.
I can feel your emotions as long as you let me be near to do so.
I can do what you want to the best of my ability.
I can learn from my mistakes and grow.
I can try to understand you.
I can try to please you.
I can try to be happy.
I can try…
I'm only human.
Don't expect me to be more then me for you.
I will disappoint you.
Don't expect me to do more than I can for you.
I will disappoint you.
Don't expect me to understand you all the time.
I will disappoint you.
Don't expect me to stop loving you.
I WILL disappoint you.
When you lose it allI must have done wrong somewhere in my lifeWhen you lose it all8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have tried to make things work
I have tried to save you from this pain
I have failed to protect you
I have lots hope over the years
I have gained only more despair
I have only my love for you left
I have you which keeps me going
I dont know what to do anymore
I am stuck between worlds
I see only darkness which surrounds me
I have been seeking out your light ever since I can remember
I want to steal your pain away and keep you all to myself
I want to save you
I want to be the one
I want to feel your touch forever
I want to hold you close to never let go
I want to cry in your arms and see you smile back at me
I want to be strong and have hope to go on
I want to be happy and live my life with you
I want to feel free of this darkness inside me
I want your love and your friendship
I cant lose you ever too a thing or anyone
I dont know anymore
I cant go on knowing that you feel pain
I cant go on knowing that you w
WordsLying in your armsWords7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The dawn breaking just out the window
I want to hear it
I need to feel it
I am strong
I am capable
I want it
I am independent
I am self-made.
I need it
Those famous three little words
Dont mean so much
I need the four
I am always asking for more.
My guard has always been up
A steel box for skin
I need those four little words
So that I may start to live.
To relax, for the first time
To be vulnerable
To open myself
I need the words.
I am tired of being steel
I wish for the flesh
Just a whisper
Is that too much to ask?
I promise to repay you
More than you can imagine
I will show you me.
You will see what no one else can
You could be the key to my steel box
But you dont know
That I want them
That I need them
You may even believe
That they are the antithesis of me
Just say them soft and slow
Make them true
Through and through
I will protect you.
Letting GoFates entangled work at play;Letting Go7 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
he knew hed come to rue this day,
he knew hed have to give away
the child hed hoped would never stray.
He raised his weary, troubled head,
the face oer which time had spread
its fingers and had slowly bled
his joys away for tears instead.
Poised beneath the moments knife-
the memories of a much-loved wife,
the product of his years of strife,
the little girl who was his life.
With grieving thoughts to reprimand
he watched another by her stand,
brand her with the wedding band
and forever steal away her hand.
Forgive me for I can'tForgive me my loveForgive me for I can't7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've done so many things
I've yet to forgive myself
Forgive me for dreaming
Of things that will never be
I wish things were different
Forgive me for not seeing
What you saw in me
I've caused you so much pain
Forgive me for my folly's
The things I've done so wrong
I wish I could be different
Forgive me for my weakness's
I know I try but its never enough
I wish so much that I could
Forgive me for the lies
I tell when I hide myself
The things that tear me up
Forgive me for the truth
The things I see and speak
The things I wish I could speak
Finally love forgive me
For being unable to do it myself
For being incapable of loving me
this has to be a dreamI wish I could push you awaythis has to be a dream7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
just so I could be safe
I'm so scared of getting hurt
you're the one I want to hate
I hate feeling this way
being vulnerable and weak
feeling so stupid
as I give in to your love-speak
cant I just get over you?
go back to dating guys I only like
that way I'd never get hurt
by going on a love strike
I just wanna be independent
I just wanna be alright
I don't want you to have power
But I'm losing this fight
I know I don't love you
well not yet
but love is something that takes time
and its something I don't forget
you said you wanted me to fall
you wanted me to love you
then you just suddenly left
and I knew your words weren't true
I cried when you left
feeling empty and confused
I'd lost feeling so great
I lost the feelings from you
I started to go crazy
I just wanted you back
I didn't care that you cheated
or that there's qualities you lack
suddenly I remembered
how it felt with your arms around me
I felt like things were perfect
for once I had security
Unrequited DeathI'm slowly falling apartUnrequited Death8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
From a hurt and broken heart
I take my place behind the hall
I grab the handle of my blade
And slit my wrists and watch the blood cascade.
I slip down to sit on the cold land,
Headphones on, listening to my favorite band.
As the music becomes my gall,
I watch the sun as it fell,
Silently I gave up my soul to sell
I remember words that were so tart
I think this action to be my final art.
One who drowned in angst and her best friend, her fall
This world starts to fade
And in the darkness I see Death bade
With the picture of my love in hand
This life I just could not stand
I uncurl from my shivering ball
I bid thee all bittersweet farwell
As my soul travels to hell.
(Dying on the her birthday
The 23rd of May)
8:37 am 2-17-04
EscapeI am aloneEscape8 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
In the dark of the night
And even though I'm alone
It feels so right
Thoughts twist and turn
Inside my head
As I lay
Upon my bed
I cannot sleep
As much as I try
And as my thoughts become haunting
I begin to cry
These thoughts become menacing
As the night goes on
By now, I am asleep
And it is now dawn
As I lay in the state
Of an uneasy sleep
And as the hole I'm in
I am awakened
By the morning breeze
Coming through my window
Putting me at ease
I get up, get dressed
And walk out the door
Still feeling the haunting
Feelings in my core
I walk into the grass
And collapse on the blades
As I look into the sky
I start to fade
Into a world of my own creation
Where everything is on my side
And where there'd be no desire
To run and hide
I can feel the summer breeze
Going through my hair
And as I'm gazing at what's around me
I have not one care
As dandelions float amongst the wind
My cares have gone with them
I start looking around
And pick up, by the stem
A flower whose col
A Man's PerfectionPull me inA Man's Perfection8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Capture me with your eyes
Hold me close
With nothing else I'll comply
Press lips against mine with craft
To the ground and make me laugh
Tell me I'm perfect for you
Let me know
You've never had love so true