One ThoughtYou know that one thought,
That makes you squirm inside?
Maybe it makes you giggle,
Like your stomach is bringing in the tide?
That one thought,
That makes you double take,
Maybe makes you feel fake?
It could be a loving thought,
Maybe "I love you"?
But maybe it makes you stomach feel taught,
Like another friend gone.
That one thought always in the back of your mind,
But when you dig to find it,
Sometimes it's hard to find.
'Cause you push it to the back.
That thought that maybe makes you hate
Of maybe makes you believe in fate.
Or inquires who you really are.
It gives you feelings that you didn't know you had.
Gives you maybe hatred, love, anger
Remember that you shouldn't feel bad.
Remember that it's only one thought.
Make it rainFeel the hurt,Make it rain3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Feel the pain.
Let it go,
And make it rain.
Caressed by subtle lips,
And liquid finger tips.
Our cheeks brush,
Its more than enough.
But then she's lost.
Consumed by the now,
Restrained by the then
And overwhelmed by what's to come.
Sleeping fear and waking dread.
Monsters hiding under your bed.
Twisting turns, squirming threads,
Dancing lights throughout your head.
You must be willing to risk it all,
Standing strong to watch it fall.
I'll grab your hand through all the pain,
And pull you out as I make it rain.
Dear Jennifer."Do you believe me when I say I love you?" He forgets...Dear Jennifer.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"Yes, of course." Not when you're not saying it he doesn't.
"You know I love you right Jennifer?" He does.
"Yeah, of course." But he doesn't believe you.
Dear Jennifer, it's not your fault he has trust issues.
It's just all the pain and the hurt that has made him like this.
Jennifer, if you have a choice then choose.
Choose him, tell him you love him, give him a kiss.
Because he forgets, he really does, he begins to doubt.
When you haven't said it for a while, he starts to wonder.
Whether you ever really wanted you two to go out.
Whether he forced you into it, it makes him ponder.
Whether you really love him, even if he believes so.
Jennifer, he loves you, but he forgets...
He loves you so much, this you already know.
You Captivate MeHonestly,You Captivate Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know how to tell you this...
But you constantly enter my thoughts
A smile crosses my lips
When I see your name light up my phone
Butterflies invade my stomach
Whenever I see you smile
A smile so powerful
That I can't help but smile back
I reach for you in my sleep
Desperately wishing to find you
Hold onto you
Be safe and comfortable
In a way only you can make me feel
Not being able to adequately
Explain my feelings for you
Tells me that this sort of thing
Doesn't happen every day
Frankly, love, you captivate me
Walk Away, Im doneWalk awayWalk Away, Im done3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The lies, deceit
You've pushed me
Leave me here
I was fine
Til you opened your fucking mouth
I dont need it
I dont need you.
Just walk away.
GoLeave your jacketGo3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
on the front porch steps.
Slip off your shoes
leave them where you stood
and go barefoot
into the forest before you.
It's only fitting.
The blackberry brambles
will cut at your ankles
you may shed blood along the way
but never be afraid.
Scars are stories who have yet to grow up.
The branches that cut you may hold fruit that will feed you.
This forest is past-present-future possibilities;
This is the place
where your parents found each other
and found the place
where you planted your shoes.
Everything you have and the clothes on your back
came from this place.
Don't be afraid
to offer it all back;
This forest is your mother
and here you can grow.
So when you lose your path,
when you can see nothing beyond brambles
and stinging nettles,
storm clouds have conquered the sky
and lightning is striking your horizons
Do not be afraid.
Never be afraid.
Go barefoot into the forest before you
and greet your past-present-futu
It Isn't MutualI think this is moreIt Isn't Mutual3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Than just a crush.
More than just one reason that every time
I see you, I blush.
I don't want to call it 'love'
'Cause I think that might be rushing.
I don't want to sound like a fangirl,
With all this mushy gushing.
The only thing is-
You don't feel the same.
You don't have the fireworks or fiz,
When you hear my name.
This like isn't mutual.
And it breaks my heart to know,
That you have eyes for another.
It takes my heart to a new low.
I know I must take a leave, go.
But since all the words out of your mouth keep me hanging,
Since you've had me at the first "hello."
I'm afraid of what I'll be left with, once I move on.
Sorry.So yes I am sorrySorry.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But know that I care,
I know that you worry
I know you despair-
I wish that you wouldn't
But I guess you can't stop,
I know that you didn't
Feel like you could help.
I know that feeling
And I know that it kills,
To be truly helpless
When your lover hurts.
I know that I shouldn't
But yes I still cut,
And I wish that you wouldn't
But how can you not?
So yes I am sorry.
And I promise I'll stop
Because I know that you worry,
For the one that you love.
Up All NightI've been up all night,Up All Night3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Fighting a war I can't win,
This theological fight,
That I'm having with no one but me.
My blankets twist and wrinkle
Thinking of my flaws,
My shallow thoughts, my heart so fickle.
Crying so much that I make my throat raw.
I don't know if I can trust
Myself for all that I've done
My voice turned to rust
As I cry out for someone, anyone.
I need someone to hold me.
To tell me it's all okay.
Holding me, but still setting me free.
I need to be loved.
HeartbrokenI loved, I cared, I gave you all that I could,Heartbroken3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
My misfortune; I couldn't be all that you wanted.
I hoped, I wished, and I thought you understood,
My misfortune; my heart felt taunted.
I wondered, I asked, and I prayed for your own good.
My misfortune; I felt so unwanted,
I pleaded, I begged, all to share thoughts I could,
My misfortune; I neglected the hurt you had planted.
I was stupid, I was blind, I was unable to read your mind,
My misfortune; I still messaged you.
I learnt my lesson, I felt the world, I now think I know it,
Dont worry, you shall never feel so lacerated.
I promise, I swear, I shall never speak to you again,
For I deserved it all to have fallen for you.
I was silly, I was weird, and I was dumb to think --
How could I been the one you cherished?
But may you answer if you could -- how could someone be so indecisively cruel?
A cold-heart with its own blood, uncaring with bleeding hearts
I question if you care truly for my well being,
Or if it is just an illusion to fill
Good Bye FriendGood ByeGood Bye Friend3 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
Bags packed hastily on an un made bed.
Inactive blue tack firmly attached to the walls.
Earthly possessions compiled regrettably.
Unfortunate circumstances have been confirmed.
Your chariot has arrived to take you away.
The hardest part is yet to come.
I know our connection will weaken.
No matter how hard we try to cling on.
Change is something we cannot avoid.
Memories are all we have to hold on to.
Realities rewind button has been disabled.
This game can never be won.
Humour temporarily dilutes the situation.
Silence is the only language spoken.
Eyes exchange compromising glances.
Half hearted commitments announced.
Things will never be the same.
This equations amounts to a complicated sum.
As you stand In the door way about to exit.
Life's bank has withdrawn all the quality time we invested.
Hopeful plans for the future proclaimed.
Of which a fixed date can never be named.
I will miss you more than you ever know.
I've finally accepted the fact that you must go.
There Goes (That Feeling Again)It happens in a blinkThere Goes (That Feeling Again)3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
sending your mind
into a deep abyss.
It's the feeling that eats at you,
slow and deep; painful and empty.
I'm feeling that feeling again
and it's bringing me down,
deeper and lower.
Will I ever come out?
There goes that feeling again
and its bring me down quick.
I'm trying to find the strength to surface
but I'm being eaten alive.
As your heart pounds through your skin
the rush of blood
causes explosions everywhere.
I feared it would end this way.
I'm losing this game.
When I open my eyes
will I be living?
Just for a SecondMaybe I can pretendJust for a Second3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Pretend just for a minute
That everything is okay
That you're still with me
That you never hurt me
Pretend that you still think of me
Just for a second
Just one fucking second
I want to hear you
I want to hear your voice
That one voice telling me it'll be okay
The voice that calmed me down
Every time I lost control
The voice that once told me I was beautiful...
I miss it, I miss you
I just want to pretend
That you never called me that night
That you never lied
That we still mean the world to eachother...
Just let me think that
Please, tell me that you still love me
Just for a second.
Second star to the rightThere are days where sheSecond star to the right2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
forgets how to fly;
wings all tangled up in
"There is nothing wrong with me,"
"Nothing at all.
I just can't seem to
The clock strikes
she's nothing but
and withering pixie dust.
Too IndifferentHate me, I don't careToo Indifferent3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Hate me, if you dare
I am who I am and I won't change
I won't take back a word I meant
Despise me, say I am deranged
Since to your world order I never bent
Mock me, I don't care
Mock me, if you dare
Your words mean nothing to me at all
Soon your wrath will fall back on you
Insult me and yell at me and squall
Smoke and mirrors, in the end, off they blew
Charge me, I don't care
Charge me, if you dare
Blame me for all things I committed
And for all I have not done
Are you better if I admitted
Them? Too bad, but you still have not won
Bark, little dog, bark
Bite, little dog, bite
Try, little dog. I won't fight with you
You're too indifferent to me
You're not the first, not the last one, too
Who can't (under)stand the way I chose to be
And I will Always be the MoonWe have gotten so attached to these days and these months,And I will Always be the Moon3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
but a deer doesn't know a Tuesday from a Thursday
and a caribou can't comprehend that it was born on a September afternoon,
but they can understand this instant, this moment, this breath,
only now, no longer the past, and only the future when they get there,
there's a healthy lack of awareness in that,
escaping the fear of death but thriving off the instinct to live,
everything so primal and based off gut reactions,
I guess you could say ignorance is bliss,
but ignorance only actually applies when it comes to humanity,
oh I would like a life like that,
one that is organic, tangible, and ripe with bloody berries,
one where carnal creatures run rampant,
one where we rise from the dirt with muddy thighs
because we were bred into these earthly bodies
to hold seconds in our palms like newborn children,
and to throw our heads back and howl against the awareness that we are dying,
for oh this skin is only our host,
For My Future GirlfriendThe tears I haven't yet spilledFor My Future Girlfriend3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
are breaking through this night air
their tiny fingers overwhelming the silence
only this thin windowpane
prevents me from joining them
on the wet grass.
Because I am one of them
every one of a million raindrops
eyes not yet met.
Streams choosing directions
and racing each other
as they stain glass.
Anything but effortless,
I am lists and hypotheses.
I am hair curling out of order
fraying cloth flowers
waiting for someone to kiss
so soft petals can link us together
wrapped in warmth
as we fly between birds
there where a feather lands before a rock.
Because we don't need to obey
the laws of physics
I'm tired of predictable.
I want horizons
to rewrite nature
in the palm of your hand.
maybe somedayI want to be your temptress.maybe someday3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to look, to touch,
to explore you, to take you in
with all my senses.
I want to feel your heartbeat,
to taste your lips,
to see the look in your eyes
as we make love,
to hear your beautiful moans.
I want to make you feel good,
better than you ever have.
I want you to hold me,
wrap your arms around me.
I want to feel that you
want me, too.
As I stare at you from across
the room, I know it won't happen,
but I'll never stop wanting
to show you how I feel.
Whispered wordsJust a few words whispered to youWhispered words3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
In your ear is what I want to do
Words you have heard often now
and you keep hearing if you allow
Words I will repeat and repeat
Every one for you a treat
You know what you will again hear
The words I whisper in your ear
Spoken soft and slow
My voice creaking low
They are only a few
I whisper: "I love you"
Don't Let GoRestrained by insecurity, she is hard to love.Don't Let Go3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her heart however, hides a passion unknown.
An unforeseen utopia, and still so much more.
The problem, huge hearts make easy targets.
The strategy is simple though, easy to learn.
Follow this formula and you'll find your forever.
Hold her tight through all of the happy times,
and the fighting and the anger, don't let go.
If you feel her falling take her hand in yours.
When you feel like she is letting go, catch her.
Protect her with your arms when she is scared.
When she is sad, especially then, don't let go.
Don't let her walk away, even if she wants to.
Bravery is an act, nobody wants to be alone.
It will take work, but the reward is her heart.
And she will treasure you, but don't ever let go.
I am the wayward childI wish I had something more to offerI am the wayward child2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
when your joints ached and your bones creaked
and you wept dust; (the cobwebs around
your tongue were a comfort once)
but I am three times screwed
over backwards and turned right around,
breathing in gravel and praying on
the only consistencies I know like
on Sun-day we are in the house of God
and it won’t rain and dad won’t speak
and mom will sit with pursed lips counting
all the times we didn’t kiss her goodbye
and everyone will call it normal,
everyone will look at the way I write words
on cracked pavement and get glassy-eyed
when they speak softly and forget the sound
of my own voice when I’m afraid; all those times I
tripped over my own feet and walked away
with wounded knees, and they will call me normal.
I’m at it again, building barricades
from ashes and calling them friends
(this here is fear, he visits me nightly;
and that stale stain in the corner
is actually anxiety, recuperating
from the moment it caught a
(almost) like being in loveby the time you begin to miss her,(almost) like being in love3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
she'll already be lost.
she is breathing like woodwind,
plucking stray hairs like harp-strings-
but no melody is sung; and no melody is heard.
you played hard-to-get with the porcelain girl,
as wisps of her neglected words haemorrhage,
swallowed down by deaf ears.
you wanted a chase;
but she's been caught before you've begun,
and now she's choking back her tears to know she's not alone,
as you bite through the ribbons and lick the innocence away
from the girl that's just pretty enough,
before she's forgotten, completely.
Incapable of LoveWhisper to me softly,Incapable of Love3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Tell me that you need me,
Make me feel like I'm wanted.
I'm tired of feeling empty,
Somebody, give me something.
Someone, make my heart beat,
& Make me feel like I'm on fire when you kiss me,
Don't let me be able to forget you.
I want someone to unlock my heart,
I'm sick of not being able to let anyone in,
I want to fall in love again.
I'm so sick of this,
I need to feel something,
I haven't felt in love in so long.
I promise, every time I smile and say, "I love you, baby" it's a lie.
'Cause darling, I'm incapable of that kind of love.
I only say what you really wanna hear,
But it's not all a lie,
I do care, I do adore talking with you,
I CriedI Cried3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The first time you ran away
Because it happened before
And I wasn't there
At your side
The first time I remembered my past
Because you hadn't been there
Through all the pain and tears
I was alone...
The first time they told me
Because the future was mine
With everything I would become
I thought I couldn't ask for anything more
The first time I held your hand
For your suffering
And your strength
The strength I'd need to live
The first time I kissed you
Because it hit me
The long road ahead
How everything would change
The first time you hugged me
My tears fell on your shoulder
Because you cared
And I didn't believe you
The first time you said you loved me
Because I couldn't believe it
That someone so perfect
Could love me back
The first time I saw you smile
Because it overwhelmed me
Then I blushed
And turned away
The first time I looked into your eyes
Because they were so amazing
So deep and incredible
And they melte
For YouListen:For You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I would be lying if I said that I didn't
Think of you every time I close my eyes,
That my mind doesn't wander to thoughts
Of you whenever I'm lonely,
That I don't whisper your name
While I sleep.
Truth be told, I am inevitably in love with you.
In a way that makes my heart skip a beat every time
I see you smile, every time I hear you laugh.
It's the fact that I still get butterflies whenever
You lightly whisper my name in my ear
That lets me know we are something more.
Nothing has ever seemed so comforting than
The feeling of your arms wrapped around my waist.
I smile up to you as we share a brief connection of
Soft lips and grazing teeth that makes me swoon.
Believe me when I say that I think of you
Every time I close my eyes,
That my mind always wanders to thoughts
Of you when I'm lonely,
That I whisper your name while I sleep.
Believe me when I say that I love you,
That there's nowhere I'd rather be
Than with you.