What you need"Kaidan,"What you need3 years ago in Romance More Like This
staticky over the intercom,
and in that one word,
I know something's wrong.
"Kaidan, can you...
can you come down here?"
His voice is quiet.
Breathed into the comlink.
And pleading with me.
"I'm coming, Shepard."
I'm already moving,
taking the turns through the hallways towards his quarters.
I don't ask what it is.
I already know.
Everyone on the ship knows.
Shepard's locked himself in his room a grand total of one time,
and that was after the destruction of Earth.
this is Earth all over again.
I tried to go to him before.
In the hours after we'd boarded, I'd went to his room,
only to find it locked tight and refusing to budge.
I'd called his name,
banging on the metal with my fist.
and when that didn't work,
I resorted to
He still didn't answer.
I was worried,
but I stopped trying after a few days.
I knew he'd come around eventually.
And I guess I was right.
Meet the Parents: Part IKAIDANMeet the Parents: Part I3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I think so."
"Good. Let's go."
We're in Vancouver.
Shepard didn't want to go.
He really loves London.
He loves the air,
the feel of it.
He loves our apartment.
but not cramped.
In a noisy part of town,
but he doesn't care.
It's just me and him,
and that's how he likes it.
it's not gonna be just me and him.
and my parents.
He's eager to meet my mom.
He really is.
But my dad...
"So what happens if we don't get along?"
glowering as he tugs his luggage along behind him.
if he doesn't
of his son's fiancee?"
"It'll be fine, Shepard,"
trying to keep him calm.
Dad will, uh...
He'll like you.
Shepard looks skeptical.
for good reason.
Dad and I...
our relationship is kind of...
Shepard hates him.
He's never met him-
hell, he's never even seen him-
and he hates his guts.
All based off of a conversation we
Worth Living For, Act I, Chap 1Worth Living For, Act I, Chap 13 years ago in Drama More Like This
The Commander was crazy - completely, utterly crazy. He'd trained and fought alongside vanguards before, but this Could this even be called fighting?
It was more like watching a giant freight train striking down everything in its path! To tell the truth, Kaidan had no idea that biotics could even be used in such a way.
One second, the Commander was standing right next to them, giving his orders and assessing the situation - the next, he was gone! Vanished! All he could see was their enemies in the distance flying all over the place as a result of his ridiculously powerful biotic charge, followed by a full blown nova knocking back attackers in a massive arc of biotic energy.
And then, there Marco Shepard was knee deep in geth and husks, shields depleted, shooting them at close range with his shotgun or delivering a few well placed punches if they ever got too close.
Kaidan had tried to assist
Meet the Parents: Part IISHEPARDMeet the Parents: Part II3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
It's a hell of a first impression
when the people you most want to impress
come home to find you making out with their son pinned against the wall.
It doesn't help that Kaidan's blushing.
This is the most awkward silence
I have ever experienced.
Kaidan's mom's face is unreadable.
Kaidan's dad's face is thunderstruck.
Kaidan gestures to me.
He clears his throat.
"This is Commander Shepard,"
and his blush deepens even further.
Something kicks in.
I don't know if it's from years of defying others,
or just another one of my act-fast, think-later instincts.
But I yank Kaidan closer to me
and slide an arm around his waist.
"Kaidan and I are getting married,"
I say unabashedly,
like it's no big deal,
and Kaidan's mom's eyes get so big
I think they might burst.
"We stopped by and you weren't here,"
I tell them.
says Kaidan's mom faintly.
Never do that againHe doesn't give me warning.Never do that again3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Doesn't send a message.
Just walks right in.
Couldn't care less.
That's Shepard for you.
in between backing me up against my desk
and pressing his lips against my throat,
"Damn, that sucked."
I close my eyes briefly.
That's one way to put it.
It's been a long day.
A shitty day.
the worst day I've had in a long, long while.
Shepard ran another suicide mission.
Or something close to it.
Clambering into a giant metal mech suit,
inventing this crazy plan.
Locking his eyes onto my own.
His voice quiet:
I'll be fine, Kaidan,
like saying it out loud made it true.
Vanishing over the edge.
Leaving behind nothing but a splash
and those empty words:
I'll be fine, Kaidan,
knowing that it's not a promise.
Just an attempt at small comfort.
Wondering if that's all I'll have of him to remember.
I'll be fine, Kaidan,
as his good-bye.
"You're an idiot,"
It Falls Apart ShepardxAlenkoIt Falls Apart ShepardxAlenko3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Things were never easy whenever Shepard was involved. Kaidan would have liked to say he was surprised when Anderson had told him that Shepard had surrendered to the Alliance after venturing into the unmapped Omega 4 relay, destroying the Collectors ship as well as the base then blowing up a mass relay in the Bahak system, destroying the entire thing in the process. The news itself certainly rocked him to his core. Shepard had destroyed an entire system. The way it sounded it was without a single flinch or care, all in the name of stopping the Reapers. Shepard's resolve was never going to break whenever the Reapers were involved. Despite death, disaster and destruction following her around like a second shadow, she still persevered trying to be the biggest hero in the galaxy. But then she went and destroyed an entire system, Kaidan was having trouble wrapping his head around that. He barely could accept the fact that Shepard was alive again, he had watched the original Normandy explode,
In the end: Part II“Careful with that,”In the end: Part II3 years ago in Romance More Like This
and sets the glass down,
too far for Kaidan to get at it again.
His hand is still on Kaidan’s shoulder
and Kaidan is deathly white
and about to faint.
His lips part,
“I must be really drunk,”
and Shepard’s amusement morphs into something close to guilt.
“Sorry about that.
I probably could’ve handled this better.
Garrus told me where he thought you’d be, and…
I just thought I’d stop in.
Kaidan’s still trying to breathe.
He wants to reach out and touch him.
To assure himself that he’s real,
that he’s here.
But he can’t be.
It’s just not possible,
because he’d heard the news,
straight from Anderson’s lips,
the Normandy’s gone
so is the Commander.
Shepard’s fingers are firm and steady on his arm,
his eyes are the gray that Kaidan remembers so well,
Heal My Wounds--Chapter 4Kaidan found himself wiping sweat from his brow as the sun bored into the dark fabric of his back, causing him to perspire more than he normally would. With the combination of both biotic and physical strength, he stood beside Liara and a few other biotics, removing masses of random matter out of the streets and into either giant piles or into the backs of giant vehicles to be re-purposed and made into new concrete. He looked at the asari to his right. Her face was focused and, although she was sweating at a ridiculous level, her breathing was even. Her biotics were definitely skilled and powerful. There was a familiar voice coming from behind them, harshly calling out orders, occasionally swearing at one of the people she was instructing.Heal My Wounds--Chapter 43 years ago in Romance More Like This
"I hear that Jack's tongue hasn't ebbed any," Liara chortled, her words breathy as she threw the last of the large blocks of rubble into a truck. Kaidan smirked and brushed a hand through his hair. The tattooed biotic's ears pric
Flashes - Part IFlashes - Part I3 years ago in Drama More Like This
Warning, it's a M/M (Kaidan Alenko/M!Shep) FanFic, turn around if you don't like such pairings.
This is the fourth part of my ME fanfic series, the first can be found in the description. Enjoy!
They say your life flashes in front of your eyes before you die.
I always wondered if that was true. And what would I see, what scenes would Kaidan Alenko The Highlights be made of? I don't know if there would be much personal stuff, like spending evenings with my parents in Vancouver, looking at the sun setting and painting the sky in all possible shades of red, a cool Canadian lager in one hand. Maybe I would live through my first kiss again, my first time having sex although these two might not be considered highlights.
Or maybe there would be my time in the Brain Camp. Rahna and the other kids. Making out hidden in secret spots to avoid the teachers, throwing each
Hope and a Fighting Chance, Chap. 1Hope and a Fighting Chance, Chap. 13 years ago in Drama More Like This
Let him go!
Hold on, Kaidan...
Don't give up... saved my life, and I can't... Oh Goddess... Please pull through, Kaidan... We all need you, but Shepard... I'll go see how he's doing... be right back... better not go anywhere...
Hey Kaidan... Don't know if you can hear me... take my chances... Don't die, Kaidan... You've got to fight... need you in this... I could use you... Come on Kaidan, fight... that's an order...
Back when... fought Saren... glimpse of Shepard's mind... just the way he looks at you... seen you look back... Shepard... his main reason to fight... lost so much already... Please live, Kaidan, for his sake as much as yours... You're a good friend... care for yo
FallingThere's this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach,Falling3 years ago in Romance More Like This
watching Kaidan dance.
A light-headed feeling.
When he dances.
When he laughs.
When he looks at me.
it's making me feel like-
like I've been shoved out of the airlock.
That sort of thing.
Makes me feel strange, and-
Isn't that what people say?
God dammit, that sounds so fucking
It's been one of those odd days:
the ones where we sudddenly find that we have time on our hands.
Unsure of what exactly normal people do with time,
and I are spending it at the Purgatory.
Just us guys.
The music is good
the drinks are good
and Kaidan is...
A great dancer.
Which is just weird,
because before I could never picture him dancing.
It's been years since I've danced.
Garrus forced me out on the floor.
Laughed as I flailed around.
I've given up.
I'm standing here,
DinnerDinner2 years ago in Romance More Like This
Commander Shepard looked out the window of the apartment at the Armax Arsenal Combat Arena just across the strip, although not really seeing it. While his eyes scoped the holographic lettering of the building, his mind was combing the bulge of the right pocket of his favorite jacket: an N7-themed black cotton hooded jacket that harkened back to 20th and 21st century fashion. Reaching his callused hand into the pocket, he pulled out what it so contained: a black velvet case that contained one of the most special purchases he hoped he would ever make.
As his fingers unconsciously stroked the soft velvet, Shepard thought about the man the contained was intended for. He had known the man for a few years now, but only recently did he realize he had deep feelings for him. A few weeks ago, Shepard got to sit down with him at Apollo Café on the Presidium so they could relax and talk over lunch and drinks. Before they gave themselves the chance to order, his love said something that made
Even nowShepard is beautiful in the snow.Even now3 years ago in Romance More Like This
It sounded better in my head-
most things do-
but I say it anyway and blush afterwards.
We're back in Canada for the holidays,
Shepard and I.
London is our home;
Shepard wanted to live there,
and after his near death on the Citadel,
I wasn't arguing.
It's noisy, yes.
all the same.
It's different here-
a nice break from the business of the city.
The silence is gratifying;
it comes in a rush of relief.
We step onto the bridge,
hands twined around one another,
Shepard squeezing my fingers gently every so often,
and the snow gusts around us, dancing in a cloud of white and gray.
The flakes leap up over the railing,
throwing themselves towards the sidewalk,
twisting up again before they hit.
And so is Shepard.
The streetlamp beside us throws his face into a sharp contrast,
illuminating the tip of his nose,
the curve of his cheek,
the small scars still tracing his forehead.
The flap of his jacket curves up to br
Wouldn't it be perfect?There's a kind of game I used to play,Wouldn't it be perfect?3 years ago in Romance More Like This
back when you were gone.
Wouldn't it be perfect.
The name that I gave it,
Walking fast around the corner of a building,
wouldn't it be perfect
if I ran into you?
We'd slam into one another,
fall in a tangle of arms and legs.
We'd shake our heads a little,
attempting to get our bearings.
And then our eyes would meet.
We'd recognize each other,
because I could never forget you,
because you could never forget me.
Wouldn't it have been perfect?
Checking the messages on my omni-tool, and
wouldn't it be perfect
if I found one from you?
Wanted you to know
that I'm alive.
Wondering how you were doing.
that maybe if you had some free time
and I had some free time...
Wouldn't it have been perfect,
if you had sent me a message like that?
I would've read it.
Over and over again.
I would've sent a message back.
I'm doing fine,
now that you're in the world.
And I have free
I'll be waitingShepard.I'll be waiting3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Come on, Shepard.
Open your eyes.
I know you can hear me.
It's time to get up.
Open your eyes.
He's dead, Kaidan.
I don't think so.
That's not possible.
He's just sleeping.
Come on, Shepard.
Look at him, Kaidan.
He's just tired.
There's blood all over him.
That's not blood. That can't be blood.
Shut up, why don't you?
Open your eyes.
He's just sleeping-
Why won't you wake up?
Don't do this to me,
not after all this time,
not after what you promised me-
you said we'd be together,
you said you would be waiting-
And I wake up.
Covered in icy cold sweat,
Shepard's arm is draped over me.
He mumbles something as I pull myself up;
his hand slides off of my chest and falls
Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 1Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 13 years ago in Romance More Like This
Avert your eyes.
Avert your eyes.
Look away now; before he catches you staring!
You're such an idiot Markus. Such an... damn it.
"I, uh..." Want you. I want you to press me up against the wall, kiss me violently, confess to me that you've always known how I felt, that you've always felt the same way, confess that you've always wanted me the way I want you, as much as I want you. I want to marry you, settle down somewhere and adopt a bunch of kids and love happily ever after. I want- "Could you go up to the bridge and ask Joker how we're doing? I'll get up there in a minute."
Kaidan looked confused at him for a moment before nodding, "Yeah, sure."
It took all of Markus' willpower not to grab the lieutenant and pull him against himself as he left to take to elevator up from the cargo bay.
Eventually you'll have to get over him, Markus. He's not gay. It'll never happen, no matter how much you wish for it.
Even though he'd known thi
In the end: Part IKaidan isn't sure how many drinks he's had.In the end: Part I3 years ago in Romance More Like This
The bartender is looking wary
and his tongue feels heavy in his mouth,
so he assumes he can down a few more before he's completely wasted.
He's been drinking heavily all week.
It always happens this time of year.
a quick-witted turian-
has become something of a sympathetic voice in his life,
nodding to him when he comes through the door
and mixing up the shard wine before Kaidan even asks.
The drink is batarian in nature and origin.
He hates it.
the eye-watering repercussions
when he finally chokes it all down.
He remembers going out to the Citadel,
looking for something good for poker night,
because Joker decided that he'd want to try his hand at cards, for once,
and Liara said she might play,
And he'd look through the menu and there it would be,
and white-hot in your throat,
and he'd whip out his credits and buy the whole damned cask,
because it was all wor
Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 8Someday You Will Be Loved Ch. 82 years ago in Romance More Like This
How many months had it been since Horizon? How many months had it been since he sent that voice mail, when he desperately had tried to find some way to apologize to his former commander for what he said? And he had never gotten a reply.
Shepard must hate him now.
Kaidan knew about the mission through the Omega-4 relay, the whole galaxy did by now. The first ship to ever pass through the relay and then come back. They’d destroyed the Collectors. And if he was going to believe the rumors spreading through Alliance soldiers, Markus was no longer with Cerberus.
He left them as soon as his mission to defeat the Collectors was over, just like he said he would on Horizon.
Kaidan hadn’t believed him back then, and now he was paying the price. His friendship with Shepard was ruined because he wouldn’t listen to him. Because he had been stubborn and refused to believe that Markus wasn’t with Cerberus, not really.
He rubbed his forehead, trying to get rid of the migraine h
It Takes Time: Part IShepard is signing books when the assassin hits.It Takes Time: Part I2 years ago in Romance More Like This
He sees it out of the corner of his eye-
the flash of a gun,
the curl of fingers.
He's out of practice.
Slower than usual.
But he's been Alliance for longer than he's been retired,
and his reflexes kick in anyway,
turning over the table,
pushing the woman in front of him down,
dropping to the floor himself.
He hears the gun fire.
He rolls, using the table for cover.
Rattled thoughts ram through his brain.
What the fuck-
Who the hell-
Are you kidding me?
He wishes he had his gun,
and as he glances around for something useful,
his thoughts become more orderly.
There's only one exit.
If I can find a way to move the civilians out-
no, not enough time.
Gotta take him down.
Fuck, I need backup!
As if in answer to a prayer-
not that Shepard believes in those,
he hears a familiar voice.
His hand snaps
It Takes Time: Part IIIThey tell him that his name is Spectre Major Kaidan Alenko.It Takes Time: Part III2 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
That he served the Alliance for a good portion of his life.
That he teaches biotics down at the Alliance headquarters in Canada.
That he's been shot in the head.
A few days ago.
Maybe a week.
"At least I'm up and kicking, yeah?"
He always was positive.
They tell him that, too.
He hasn't forgotten everything.
He remembers the Normandy.
It's not those things that he's confused over.
It's the people.
for the most part-
and the aliens.
she introduces herself.
"Dr. Liara T'soni.
You were a part of the team that rescued me-"
He breaks in eagerly.
"-on Therum, right?
You were on Therum."
She looks surprised,
"You remember me?"
remember saving you.
He doesn't know how to explain it.
He remembers saving her.
He remembers the assets she brought to the team.
But he can't,
for the life of
Shore LeaveShore leave.Shore Leave3 years ago in Romance More Like This
or just a drink.
We'd talked about it before.
I'd like that,
But that had been years ago,
when I'd been mindlessly flirting
and not quite serious.
there is nothing I am more serious about.
on shore leave.
With no Joker to interrupt
and no Garrus to tease
and no Liara to eavesdrop.
Just the two of us.
On shore leave.
It's not, though.
It's not really shore leave.
Because we've bought an apartment.
We've settled down.
(Or we're trying to, at least.)
We call it shore leave
as a joke.
Shepard still thinks it's hilarious.
Speaking of Shepard...
He looks slightly queasy
and I wonder how long it's been since he's been back like this.
Back for good:
I know his story.
He was born here on Earth,
But his life was so,
with no recollection of his parents.
His first memories as a child
were of being beaten
Flitting through streets and alleys,
trying to sta
Meet the Parents: Part IIIKAIDANMeet the Parents: Part III3 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I wake up to a soft warmth
and the pleasant feel of hands over my back.
I mumble into the pillow beneath my head.
There's a soft laugh.
His fingers move gently over my bare skin,
working out the knots in my shoulders,
rubbing the stiff muscles in my neck,
moving slowly down my spine.
I open my eyes,
and turn my head.
I smile at him,
His hands pause over my back.
He leans in and kisses me,
quick but soft,
then moves back,
swings his legs over the bed.
I look over at the clock blearily.
It's five AM.
"Where are you going?"
I ask him,
but in my morning stupor,
it sounds more like
He pulls on a pair of jeans over his boxers
and then wriggles into a sweatshirt.
and looks over his shoulder,
grinning at my grumpy expression
and rolling his eyes.
"I'll be here, Kaidan.
I'm not leaving.
Don't worry about that:
your mom's cooking
Amalgamation - Chapter 1, SeparationAmalgamation - Chapter 1, Separation3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Game: Mass Effect 3, Dragon Age
Characters: Kaidan Alenko, Alistair, Female Shepard
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Bioware.
You probably gave up on me finishing this story. Truth is...my husband and I had a baby! And that took up some time. I never forgot about this story, however, and after the extended cut and release of Dragon Age: Inquisition, I have to finish what I started. I'm sorry for not doing this sooner.
I have edited and added to existing chapters to clean up some lore issues, especially after the Mass Effect extended cut. I endeavor to post a chapter a week from here on out. I'm so excited to bring you once again on this journey with Commander Shepard. Please message me with your thoughts. I love to hear them.
Chapter One - Separation
"Come on, Shepard. Just take five minutes. A quick drink. Then I'll go."
I've heard this line before, I tho