How Much?I thought I'd finally caught a breakHow Much?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Maybe after all this pain I've found solitude
But the whole time you were looking at me, you pictured her
Everytime you found your way back to me it meant nothing
That look when you see me, was only because I reminded you of her
But how can you deny that?
The glint in your eyes and the way you let me touch you
This connection I feel to you even now
Do I mean something to you? Or was I just naive?
I still love you.
But I hate myself.
Because I love you.
HeartbrokenI loved, I cared, I gave you all that I could,Heartbroken3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
My misfortune; I couldn't be all that you wanted.
I hoped, I wished, and I thought you understood,
My misfortune; my heart felt taunted.
I wondered, I asked, and I prayed for your own good.
My misfortune; I felt so unwanted,
I pleaded, I begged, all to share thoughts I could,
My misfortune; I neglected the hurt you had planted.
I was stupid, I was blind, I was unable to read your mind,
My misfortune; I still messaged you.
I learnt my lesson, I felt the world, I now think I know it,
Dont worry, you shall never feel so lacerated.
I promise, I swear, I shall never speak to you again,
For I deserved it all to have fallen for you.
I was silly, I was weird, and I was dumb to think --
How could I been the one you cherished?
But may you answer if you could -- how could someone be so indecisively cruel?
A cold-heart with its own blood, uncaring with bleeding hearts
I question if you care truly for my well being,
Or if it is just an illusion to fill
MelodyInside of us is a melody,Melody3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it's inside the hearts of you and me.
Although sometimes it's quiet and tender,
our melody is a soft, friendly reminder.
The sound inside of everyone,
will be a bind that can't be undone.
It's a note that connects with each other,
its a mark of acceptance towards one another.
We will all be heard eventually,
sometimes it's you, and sometimes it's me.
The melody inside of our body, our hearts,
is what keeps us from staying apart.
It is the sound of our sadness and fear,
but it's also the sound of the smiles you smile here.
It is the words that stay unspoken,
it is the reason some hearts are broken.
But if you listen, just listen closely,
I'm sure you can hear your melody.
Hear the thoughts that you think inside,
hear the feelings that you want to hide.
Understand yourself just a little be more,
open up that heavy closed door.
Our melody plays steady and neat,
it's a beauty that no one can beat.
Our melody is a song for ourselves,
it reminds us of our good healt
NostalgiaI'd say you have a flawless mind at its finest,Nostalgia3 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
But then I remember you don't have a heart in the slightest.
Those sleepless nights and morning excitement,
With them combined were our lovely messages sent.
You stole my heart and took my breath away,
Upon thinking of us together is when my mind would sway.
I gave you me, my soul, my heart, and my happiness; you had it all in your hands,
And then the tables turned, time changed; and it all became a gamble to have it all.
The messages stopped the way they were,
Within days, I found myself fragile, broken, upon the concrete floor.
I don't blame you, I don't blame you, I don't blame you,
Neither do I regret the moments spent together.
I wish you had told me the truth so that I knew,
But you hid it all; you played my heart ...
Without those intentions, and hurt my soul.
And now, I am stuck while the world is too busy in its own hole.
She Will Never Know...Its okShe Will Never Know...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I won't say anything
She doesn't have to know
We are alone in this classroom
I may never see you again-make this count
A small secret, between lips teeth and tongue
Breathless, you cool mouth touching mine
Promises don't know
That secrets mean nothing
If you kiss me, I promise she will never know
And when you pull away and still want her-I will completely understand
But when you take a breath and all you want is more
I will be here
Waiting in this empty classroom
Keeping our secret safe
Hold me close
And I promise
She will never know.
My Worst Enemy.She's staring me down.My Worst Enemy.3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
I can't look away.
Her eyes are cold, criticizing.
I shrink under her gaze.
My heart races faster by the second,
Yet she never notices.
Her eyes trail over every inch of my body,
Analyzing every little detail.
I shiver, seeing the look of disgust on her face.
She looks into my eyes again,
and I struggle to breathe.
"You're disgusting," she says, her voice like acid.
"You don't deserve to live."
I can't fight her."You look horrible. You're not even human anymore."
I nodded again, holding back tears.
She smirked, laughing humourlessly.
"Go ahead- cry. I don't care. I'm concerned about your appearance, not your mental and emotional state."
I choked back a sob, trying not to succumb to her words.
"...You're pathetic. A waste of space. An annoyance that no one wants to live with."
A single tear rolled down my cheek silently,
And then another,
Until I was crying my eyes out,
My body shaking with each loud sob th
HerI want to hate herHer3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
She took you from me
My only, the person who mattered most to me
Snatched out of my life
I want to rip her to shreds
Drain the life from her like you stole the life from me
Write our initials in her blood
Laugh when I watch your heart shatter, like you did to me
Cruel, sick son of a bitch
But I know that she makes you happy
That she'll always come first
And she paints a smile on your face
I'm a liar.
You've never seemed more in pain that you have since I found out.
Knowing you didn't take a risk on me, but not knowing why.
Loving me more and more, but bound to her
I want to hate her
I really, really do.
HurricaneI don't really knowHurricane3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
How all of this came to be
When I already know
She can do better than me
I feel like she's the desert
And whenever I hold her hand
I realize that makes me
Nothing more than a grain of sand
I can't help but ask myself
How is it that she's with me?
I'm just a mess when I'm alone
And I'm fucking up constantly
In every way, shape, and form
Like the calm of the night
Or like the eye of a storm
(And if that storm were to break...)
I always have the thought
That if people were rain
l would be just a drop
And she'd be the hurricane...
Do You Remember, Love?Do You Remember, Love?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you remember, love?
How you would tempt me,
So expertly, so slyly,
Blinding me with desperation,
Or was it loneliness?
Oh, how naive I was,
How young and gullible,
Yet you twisted me and toyed with me,
As if I was your puppet on a string.
Do you remember, love?
How I fell for it,
I fell for your promises of happiness,
And your lies about my "happy ever after" with my prince.
It was pure bliss,
I was flying above the clouds with love,
Yet the love was so short lived.
Do you remember, love?
When your devious plot truly succeeded,
How you kicked me to the curb
With nothing but a chipped heart
And a flickering soul....
Do you know of the countless nights of tears,
Of the days full of guilt, regret, reminescense,
The times I walked around in search of who I used to be,
Without you by my side?
But, of course you know,
You sat there, observing me, so intently,
Laughing at my pain, my confusion.
Do you remember, love?
More importantly than anything else?
Through the tortuou
SkyYour eyes are like a skySky3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The deepest, richest blue
Cloudless, perfect, a void of escape
Not a sea taht I could drown in
Resting my head on the crook of your neck
Breathing in clean air
Instead of a plague you are a cure
The sweetest antidote
This is a dream
Its unnatural-the way you make me feel
Is this a fantasy?
Or is it about to become my reality?
The Paths We WalkAfter all I've seen,The Paths We Walk3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't know who I am
or where I've been
Nor the distance in between,
All I know is today
and what tomorrow may bring.
For I am a wanderer,
For I am a broken soul,
A broken soul
Who walks down this path alone
Finding piece by piece
My own redemption.
NeverI remember whenNever3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I remember then
I remember them
I remember us
It seems only yesterday
You and me standing together
Making jokes, feeling free
Smiling more than ever
But it allm came to an end
My world fell apart
We seemed to have drifted
You won't answer me
When you do, It isn't what I want to hear
What hurts the most
Was beign so close
And then loosing something I never had
It will never truly be
Ever again between you and me
Over and OverI didn't cut todayOver and Over2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because when I was angry I thought of you
Of how when you dominated my thoughts
You appeared in front of me
The sudden light in your eyes
I haven't seen it for so long
And how it took my breath away
I try to remember the shaking of my hands
My swimming vision
So captivated by the motion of your mouth
Hypnotized by the warm crescendo of your voice
Drowning in the heat of your gaze
When I wonder about my self-control
Wondering why I didn't kiss you
And promise you that she could never love you
Not as much as me
I don't understand anything, really
Why I continue this
Over and over
Again and again
Why I continue to fall for you
Why I was shaking when you spoke to me
Because in that moment, I realized
I was falling in love again
LiquorKisses twinged with liquorLiquor3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My imagination? Or a reality
I'm drunk. Shit-faced. Plastered.
All I wanted was you. Was that so hard?
I just needed to lose myself for one night.
Spinning, going down. Throat burning. Eyes drowning.
Does this brokenness ever stop?
Am I ever going to find someone?
I know I'm young, but I've never needed someone more than I wanted him.
So keep them coming. Bottle after bottle.
Whiskey. Vodka. Rum.
I don't care, just make sure I can't feel anything.
Nothing. Especially him.
His kisses on my mouth, my neck and the back of my hands.
And my sobbing, scared to death.
What scared me was how hard I fell. Even when I knew nothing would work.
That I'm not loveable enough. Not good enough.
But I can't stop loving you, I know this is the end of me. The tail end. My last shot in the dark, my only hope.
It fell through the cracks and I can't get it back.
So lets get me as far gone as possible, so I can forget.
The Cherry BlossomsA petal floating softly,The Cherry Blossoms3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the sky of the cherry blossoms,
underneath is me,
I was waiting.
Every petal falls slowly,
landing on the ground,
quiet, with no sound.
A soft breeze in the air,
telling me that you were here,
so delicately you looked,
and so I stood up.
Finally the winds freeze,
no sound, no breeze,
I reached out and took a petal,
and gave you my heart.
No One's GirlNo one mournsNo One's Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The girl who could not mourn.
No one loves
The girl who could not love.
They can only watch her
Walk in her barren wasteland
Just like she watches herself.
An outside observer,
Watching in though a looking glass
On her own life.
Walk amoung the dead,
The ones who have sleep for three million years.
No one pities
The girl who could not pity.
No one can dream for
The girl who only dreams
frozen.frozen;frozen.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
entranced by that subtle gaze
livened by the world that I see there
living in a moment
that never existed.
living in a world
I deceive myself forevermore,
unable to escape
my own lie.