Escape From RealitySometimes when I close my eyes,
I dream of a calmer time when I didn't cry.
To slumber alone in those sunshine days,
Where I was at peace: away from the craze,
Yet I fear I'm wondering lost in their urban plague.
Sometimes when I close my eyes,
I escape to a darker place where I can die.
To linger awhile in that luminous night,
Where I can be content: caught in the daze,
Yet I know I'm struggling now in this hopeless phase.
Sometimes when I close my eyes,
I think of a serene dawn while I sigh.
To vacate away in that voidless space,
Where I shall be alive: independent of that maze,
Yet I wake I'm choking air in that distant place.
But I'm just silently screaming!
From all this dismal dreaming,
When all my tears are sorrowfully streaming!
From my horrid heart that's bleeding,
Can't you see how hard I'm pleading!
UntitledI smile when it rains,Untitled2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It drives away the black passion and the scarlet pain,
Tearing up my white flesh again and again.
It's the only thing that keeps me sane,
When everything else is driving me insane.
I smile when it snows,
It covers up these ruby scars that will forever show,
Hiding silver marks on golden skin I know.
It's an antidote to this shade misery that flows,
When everyone tries to deduce my glow.
A Bad PersonAm I a bad person,A Bad Person2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just because you don't like me?
I can't help the way I am,
Nor do I need this grievance you see,
Though the friendship can never be born.
Am I a bad person,
Just because you hate my smile?
It's not a statement of self,
Honestly I find myself to be vile,
But you don't need to send me into oblivion.
Am I bad person,
Just because I act the way I like?
I'm sorry if I'm such a git,
I didn't mean to generate this psych,
Yet your judgement has passed and you've won.
MelancholiaHere on this vacant shore I sleep,Melancholia2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Under the waning glow I start to weep,
With calm eyes trickling woeful tears.
To pass by many aching years,
Of a miserable life so alone.
By those melancholic waves I walk,
Filled with cold depression I fail to talk,
As innocent words stale in morbid breath,
To wish for a majestic longing death,
Of a dire mortality on loan.
Yet all those nostalgic sights I see,
Blinding me with sour memories I try to flee,
In a mania of ritualistic pessimism,
To bleed in that ocean of dour optimism,
Of a disturbed future I know.
The Weeping AngelShe holds her head in her hands,The Weeping Angel2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Never breathing or blinking.
She is a morbid master of the sands,
Of time that terrorises your torment:
Gaze upon her vile visage and away you go.
She stands alone in such grace,
Never talking or thinking.
She has her elusive eyes on your face,
Of innocence that isolates your idiocy:
Look at her sinister snarl and you'll depart too.
She watches you with utter patience,
Never whistling or winking.
She'll turn lights low in her defence,
Of malevolence that murders your mind:
Stare out to her granite guise and forget all you know.
Elements Of NaturePeople can no longer cover their eyes,Elements Of Nature2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As the whips of lightning flash,
In the hemisphere of stormy skies.
But what is the reason for the rain,
To wash away the woe and the pain?
People can no longer turn their backs,
As the cries of thunder smash,
On the surface of torrential tracks.
But what is the reason for the wind,
That listens to lies and turns you blind?
People can no longer hide their graces,
As the howls of raindrops lash,
By the mirror of flooded faces.
But what is the reason for the hail,
It can only maim the voices that fail?
Eleusinian Mysteries: The Trickery Of HadesIn harmony the Fates did decry a destiny,Eleusinian Mysteries: The Trickery Of Hades2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That whomsoever ate or drank with heinous Hades,
Would spend their echoing days with him in eternity.
Anguished Demeter crumbled onto the marble floor,
As she cried out to Persephone through the void of a door.
Hermes in haste raced along to Hades,
With a missive to mediate Persephone's ransom,
Yet Hermes could not invite her out of an illusion of ladies.
Frustrated Hermes broke apart the perceptive tapestry,
To see poor Persephone dazed forlorn in direful travesty.
Hades knew of the Fates words of wisdom,
And so he handed Persephone a pick of pomegranates,
Erudite in his keen knowledge of his kingdom.
Poisoned Persephone would never be free of Hades grasp,
His curse of time would sting her like the wasp.
Persephone was then released in reluctance,
By Hades into the hands of hesitant Hermes,
Who suspected Hades of tricking Persephone into a trance.
Relinquished Persephone never knew she was to return,
Her burden in her heart to see Hades again
The Dividing LineSpend those waking days of doom,The Dividing Line2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Trying to walk that great divide,
In that path of life you'll never hide.
But unwrap the mist of morbid gloom,
And let free all your instincts to survive.
Forget those dying hours of hunger,
Continuing down that great divide,
To find that soul to which you can confide.
But close your eyes to eternal slumber,
And then you'll see the fate of your belief.
Desire those relaxing seconds of silence,
Halting on the edge of that great divide,
By embracing a fate you'll never ride.
But taste your breath of death's essence,
And you'll know this mortality you can deceive.
The Pain WithinLet go of your hate,The Pain Within2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your revenge can wait.
Whoever did you wrong,
Can never know the hurt,
That made you strong.
You know it's a part,
Of you're aching heart.
Whoever broke your smile,
Can never understand the pain,
That turned you vile.
Don't give up on love,
Though you'll feel rough.
Whoever killed your hope,
Can never believe the longing,
That more you cope.
Dancing DragonsDancing dragons in the air,Dancing Dragons2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Flying high with fluid flair.
Captured onto a celestial canvas,
Elegant eyes sketching with a beautiful brush,
As they dive down into a reckless rush.
Soaring serpents in the wind,
Twisting around with kinetic kind.
Imprisoned onto a pure photograph,
Graceful gazes painting with a sincere snap,
As they lie low to take a nuanced nap.
Wandering wyverns in the skies,
Swimming fast with cherubic cries.
Engraved onto a fantastical frame,
Dexterous digits carving with a seraphic skill,
As they swiftly swerve by their wondrous will.
Howling hydras in the zephyr,
Cruising free with winter weather.
Trapped onto a vivacious vase,
Talented tools etching with a glorious guile,
As they fly fierce in their triumphant trial.
In A Forest DarkGliding in sable forests I stalk,In A Forest Dark2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Upon cracking sticks and velvet soil,
I sail onwards under my fearless walk.
Never knowing how lost I have become,
Grasping arms entrap me in their horrendous home.
Wandering in dark woods I muse,
Along rushing streams and chaotic moss,
I'll be given a simple choice but I will refuse.
To continue onwards to the lair of death,
Weeping stares will consume my beastly breath.
Stumbling in black trees I trek,
Across waiting stones and fragile twigs,
I journey further until I reach a ghostly wreck.
In an oasis of green flourishing in a placid scene,
Studying acutely it's image of an object obscene.
I've never understood.I've never understood why it is the flowers bloomedI've never understood.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Or why the fish decided to live in the sea
And how is it you continued?
I've never understood why it is the moon shined so brightly
Or why the grass never grew green
And how is it you decided?
I've never understood why it is my voice never carried through the walls of pearl
Or why the stars flew across the never ending sky
And how is it you stayed?
I've never understood why it is I dreamed quixotic dreams
Or why my heart never stopped breaking
And how is it you continued to hope?
I've never understood why life has dealt me these hands
Or why I couldn't deal myself back in
I've never realized you were the sun
Or that I was the rays
How is it you haven't fallen?
Optimistic PessimistWhen you get a cut and bleedOptimistic Pessimist2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's just your skin crying
So that you don't have to
When you pass out
Think of it as a nap
You finally closed your eyes
When tears slide down your cheeks
It's a hollow relief
That emotion is leaving your body
When makeup runs down your face
For whatever reason
It's because you don't need it
When someone says your eyes are cold
Or your personality is distant
At least they took the time to notice
When you get a hug
A meaningless, time consuming hug
You're still happy to be held
When someone breaks your heart
And you feel it drop to your feet
You're just being reminded you have one
When someone lies to you
You just get closer
To only trusting yourself
When you have a meltdown
And your throwing everything in sight
At least you know it won't get worse
When you zone out at the worst time
And are oblivious to the world around you
You're still grateful for forgetting everything
When you put your head on your pillow
And turn off your phone is still darkness
After The AbuseEven though their shouts are goneAfter The Abuse2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and the bruises have faded away
I can still hear and feel it all
each and every day.
Month by month, year by year
I trudged through life
having to bear such a burden
weighed down by my miserable life.
There's nothing worse than what I feel
don't try to convince me
that things could get any worse
I blind, I cannot see.
Despite everything my parents did
and all the pain they put me through
I miss them with every cell
they're in everything that I do.
From birth to death, I will be this way
trapped in my own past.
And brief show of kindness
was not made to last.
PerfectI tried, yet, I failed again!Perfect2 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Are you gonna judge me now?
Perhaps, you are the saint?
Never done anything wrong?
Have you ever screwed up?
Have you ever lived... been strong?
Do you want me to be normal?
Um, what is that? Can you recall?
Is normal good or bad?
Just average, eh? And who wants that?
Is there something that's better or worse?
Our expectations create that!
So what do you expect?
Really, have you ever lived?
To me you are already perfectly dead!
So, judge me, just go ahead!
The Hardest WordTo say goodbye,The Hardest Word2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's not the hardest word.
My honesty is all but broken,
And I look away with eyes so blue,
I cannot say with these tears I cry.
To say sorry,
It's not the hardest word.
My ignorance only leaves you shattered,
And I know in my heart so black,
I should apologise but I'd rather fly.
To say no,
It's not the hardest word.
My addiction drives you insane,
And I feel that my ears bleed so red,
As I struggle to answer your one question: why?
To Gather DustThere sits a dusty doll of polite porcelain,To Gather Dust2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
On an emerald edge of a mahogany mantelpiece.
Staring out into a white void; weeping in vain,
To be cradled in comfort by a cherubic child,
But it's requiem will be to rest in the raging rain.
Above lies a mouldy mannequin of crumbling clay,
With that dreary doll; on the ledge of a walnut windowsill.
Tiring in that black abyss as objects on display,
To be watched by winter wolves in the wild,
But their destiny will be to dance in the dawning day.
Doctor DeathDoctor Death will see you now,Doctor Death2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
"What is it that pains you?" asks he,
"I have a burning in my breast," says I,
"Looks like a coronary in your chest," says he,
And his cure travels down into my veins of a tree.
Doctor Death will hear you soon,
"What are your ailments?" asks he,
"I suffer from an amorous affliction," says I,
"Seems to me your an addict of addiction," says he,
And his prescription cuts out all that could be free.
Doctor Death will meet you here,
"What is this illness of yours?" asks he,
"I'm dying from a disease," says I,
"This emancipation I'll tame with ease," says he,
And his remedy calmed my rage like the turning of a key.
The Innocence Of CharmIn an enchanting vision she gaily dances,The Innocence Of Charm2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Across that suburban starlit street,
Melting eyes of those she meets.
Never did I see so many forlorn glances,
Of fair faces who watched her twirl in a trance.
In a haunting perception she silently tires,
Down that luscious lullaby lane,
Relaxing sighs from her starts to wane,
Never did I see so many guilty sires,
Of serpentine souls who follow her like fire.
In a beautiful dream she merrily weeps,
Upon that gorgeous golden grass,
Loving smiles radiate around that lass,
Never did she see so many innocent creeps,
Of myopic minds who spy on her as she sleeps.
Second ChanceShow me a little faith,Second Chance2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Please don't give up just yet.
There's no need to plea for redemption,
Because with me you are safe,
Away from that darkest devastation.
Show me a little hope,
Please don't turn me away now.
There's no meaning to deny your mortality,
Because with me you will cope,
Even in that colourless city.
Show me a little love,
Please don't close your eyes,
There's no reason to continue this worry,
Because with me you are a dove,
And I'm here to say sorry.
AscensionHere I shall reside in spiritual ascension,Ascension2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Relieving my spirit of all my torment and tension.
Here I'll breathe whispering winds of relief,
Purging those days of dark deliverance,
While I blind all my mortal sins to a new belief.
To ascend above obsidian mountain summits,
In the mists of immortal mystery.
To gaze gracefully upon ladies of luminescence lit,
As hope clings to you in harrowing hysteria,
Where all macabre minutiae of life comes to sit.
To tentatively touch lavender sweet skies,
Upon that sea of eternal sorrow.
To listen lightly to sirens singing sanguine cries.
As time passes by into trials of tomorrow,
Where all avian angels of fury speak of lies.
LeechesLurid leeches sucking my red lava dry,Leeches2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Siphoning away my sanity and my soul,
To leave me like a husk destined to die.
Slithering across me with forms so foul,
I wretch with corrosive tears I cry.
Loathsome leeches drinking crimson magma,
Drowning in my despair and my depression,
To reduce me like a victim tormented in trauma.
Drooling over me with proboscises of putrefaction,
I squirm at the sight of this disgusting drama.
Free SpeechWhat does it mean to be free?Free Speech2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Can you explain it to me?
What's the point to a better life,
When I see greed feasting on my future,
So now I suffer under the yokes of strife.
What does it mean to be free?
Am I too blind to really see?
Is there any reason for my liberty,
Am I to be punished for the mistakes of my past,
Must I endure under this toil of poverty.
What does it mean to be free?
How can I escape this horror to flee?
Why am I intoxicated by luxury,
Playing loose the risks for my present,
Though I despair under the chains of worry.
A Secret On The LineIgnore this madness of mine,A Secret On The Line2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I'm still sane you shall find.
It's wonder I can make this even rhyme,
Is there really anything you can call time?
Walking around that anachronistic line.
Ignore this sadness as I sign,
This letter you will find.
I've no theory as to how I could write,
Such words of remorse to you this night?
Scribbling along so many a romantic line.
Ignore this darkness in which we dine,
My secret you won't find.
Is it really a matter to bring to light,
Can you forgive the sincerity of my crime?
Breathing away this traumatic line.