rununaware of whats going on.
sitting awake until the break of dawn.
feeling tired but unable to sleep.
having the desire to always weep.
no longer caring who i hurt.
feeling the need to constantly make it work.
wondering when the days mixed to night.
watching the birds take their flight.
seeing their wings shimmer in the sun.
than having the sudden urge to run.
run from the things i cannot stand.
and run fron the things that were not planned.
Kill me now for i have sinned.Kill me now for i have sinned, its became my latest trend.Kill me now for i have sinned.1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Don't think twice, its naughty not nice.
Im not who i thought i was, for i am a shadow of what i once was.
I heard your cry, yet let it slide by.
I took from you what was never mine
That blood flowed off your arm like strawberry wine.
your cuts are deep but not as deep as my own
What once was is now totally blown.
So kill me now for i have sinned, I never deserved to be your friend.
ShameA tear rolls down her cheek, her entire existence feels so bleak.Shame1 year ago in Personal More Like This
One of many mistakes runs through her mind, how on earth could she be so blind? She's filled with hatred, scars and shame gone through hell through the fire and flame. Cuts are healed yet still remain, it's only a memory of the pain.
my soul to keepI've traveled down the broken paths, I've endured your nasty wrath.my soul to keep2 years ago in Personal More Like This
Theres nothing left for me to say, How long are you willing to make me pay?
I'm alone, Fallen deep. I've given you my soul to keep.
You tore it up and threw it out, You wanted to hurt me without a doubt.
You made me old, You made me weak but still your love i shall seek.
Its been 4 years and im still here, You thought i would never get this near.
but like i said i've fallen deep, and i've given you my soul to keep
I wanted to be freeI was shoutingI wanted to be free1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
to whomever would listen
what I was wishing for :
I wanted to be free.
I was crying
when the ties cut my skin.
I was suffering,
I wanted to be free.
I was lamenting
on the torture I was living through,
limiting the things I could do,
I wanted to be free.
Free of worries,
free of boundaries.
Able to do what I wanted,
when I wanted.
Then it came,
the day when the laws ended,
people did what they wanted,
where and when they wanted.
We had to face chaos, we still have to.
The ties that were cut
wouldn't be put on again,
because people loved their freedom.
Freedom payed with a dear price,
lost peace and lack of security.
Living in anarchy,
having to abide to the law of the strongest.
So I surprised myself to wish
for laws to bind us again
so that we could sleep at night,
so that we won't be afraid for our lives.
I wanted to be free to speak my mind,
I wanted to be free of these fears,
I didn't want to see blood spilled any
Poor Little GirlSweet Little GirlPoor Little Girl1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Don't say a word
Be careful what you say
And run away
There's a monster on your tail
Waiting for his kill
His stomach rumbles in the night
He's waiting for a bite
Scared Little Girl
It's time to hide
There's a labyrinth in the garden
Get out of his sight
He's following your scent
And tracking your trail
In no time at all
He has you in his sight
Poor Little Girl
You never had a chance
With a shrill little scream
You exhaled your last breath
Done with his meal
The monster stalked away
Lapping up blood
Still dripping from his fangs
My Little BirdLittle Bird why do you not love me?My Little Bird2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your friends love me, or so I think they do.
Not all of them are very nice
But they still say nice things every now and then.
But you Little Bird, you never speak a kind word.
Your words peck deep into my heart
Planting a seed off which you can later eat
Why must you hate me so?
I know I haven't treated you very well sometimes,
But I thought it was your job to help me
Not hurt me.
Little Bird why do I love you so?
I cannot live without you
And yet all I want to do is destroy you.
Little Bird Help Me.
11. Hands1 - Desperately,11. Hands1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
2 - My hand
3 - Clings onto yours.
4 - But what you don't
5 - Understand is that the touch
6 - Of your cold fingers are like
7 - Blades, digging deep into my tender flesh.
8 - The pain, of course, is comforting; blood draws
9 - A thin thread between us, connecting us. Unable to
10 - Let go, also unable to hold on. It forgets to
11 - Fall, even though gravity pulls it into the depths of the
10 - Ocean. Then I realized you were the one tugging on
9 - The line, unwilling to throw me away. I followed.
8 - Am I this easy to fish out? Am
7 - I as blind as to believe that
6 - What my hand met was real?
5 - I got ahead of myself,
4 - Believing in a sweet
3 - Illusion, filled with
2 - A faint
1 - Light.
Who am I?Why, I am me.Who am I?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just me. Not you or we.
Myself and me. Do you not see?
Who else would I ever be?
I could be you.
Yes, you. With quite a view.
Me and you. With one lie or two.
But then I would not be true.
Not true like me.
Yes, me. Now do you see?
You plus me. That makes us we.
No one should we rather be.
Because if I'm not me
and you're not you
what would we be
when they ask us "who?".
The lick of the FlameMost people fear the wild flame.The lick of the Flame1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I long for the flame to lick my skin.
To warm my ever cold heart
and to give back the passion I once owned.
I long for the smoke to suffocate my misery
I long for the smoke to fill my lungs
For it is thicker and sweeter than what air ever could be to me.
I long for the smoke to intoxicate my mind.
For the crackle of the flame to whisper sweetness to me.
As the flame takes over my heart.
I long for the burning lick of the flame.
To give back feeling.
To give back life.
In this hallow state,
To feel the bliss of the fervently flame.
To feel the pulsing of my heart once more.
I am alive.
Once more in this hallow state
I crave for the wild flame to lick my heart and burn my soul
to give me life and passion once more
Make my heart pulse again.
Help MeI'm lost in this hollow placeHelp Me1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
This frame I live in can only hold me up for so long
I'm breaking inside and I'm falling apart
Is no one here to hear my silent cries?
I want to escape from this place
And the only way out isn't a choice
The doors are locked the key is lost
I can't see
The darkness is overwhelming
My only sanctuary is when I have lost myself
Far away on a dirt path leading to nowhere
Where the trees change colors and talk to me
And there is nothing I can do
This road is going downhill
And I can't seem to run fast enough
I'm falling to fast
And there is no one to catch me
I'm losing myself
This time I can only go so far.
Post-ApocalypticOur waters are taintedPost-Apocalyptic1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And our crops are blighted
Our population is cut
And our births are few
We wanted to live
We wanted to kill
And now we’re dying
And so are you.
Our land grew tired
And oceans stagnant
Our terrestrials grew ill
And our aquatic vile
We harnessed the elements
We harnessed the forces
And now we’re worse
Than when we began.
Our tech rendered useless
And leadership crushed
Our sun sent storms
And our moon abandoned us
Our stomachs are bloated
And our bodies hunger
The air is poison
And our flesh burns
We thought us great
And now we’re less
Our homes are dust
And our hope is gone.
Perhaps life will return
In a million or two
But we know it’s too late for us
And you too.
Your LightI feel the warmth of the lightYour Light1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Living in my heart
Only you could give off such heat.
Vowing to do all I can do
Every second of every day
Your happiness is what I desire.
On this night I ask one thing of you
Understand, my dear, I love you
Tears of HappinessThis day only happens once a yearTears of Happiness1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Please don't cry, wipe away all the tears
Because you have every right to be happy
And I'm trying to not make this sappy
Enjoy this day while it lasts
And maybe cry the tears of happiness
Instead of being miserably sad
Enjoy this day, enjoy the cake
And let's celebrate
Because today's your birthday
Because today's your day
And no one can ruin it
Now this is my say of goodbye
Glad to see that you've cried those tears of happiness
Happy birthday, Serena
I'm glad I got to know you
Reasons to Give Out LlamasIt's a fellow deviant's birthdayReasons to Give Out Llamas1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
You don't have points or PMs
But you want to make this special
So give a llama!
There's this beautiful thing in dA
When a deviant gives a llama,
And the receiver gives a llama.
Two words. Llama trade!
That deviation is nice.
That gallery is nice.
That llama is nice...
Show appreciation to your favorite deviants with llamas!
Whoa, that's a beautiful contest piece
Whoa, it's first place, too
However do I congratulate this deviant?
I know! Congratulate contest winners with llamas!
Oh, I'm really glad that someone liked my work.
Oh, he/she left a fav too?
AND A WATCH?
Return the favor with a llama!
I can't believe that my work is that nice
That someone said it's fit for a DD!
Someone suggested your work as a daily deviation?
Send all your watchers to send out llamas!
Oh my gosh!
Someone featured your work as a daily deviation?
Send all your watchers to practically
Flood his/her computer with llama badges!
Wow, that DD was fab.
Better check my messages.
Lore of Death~I have been known by many namesLore of Death~1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Over the course of history
In ancient Greece I was known as Thanatos
Twin brother to Hypnos
Charged with escorting the deceased
To the realm of the underworld
In Ireland I was called the dullahan
A creature with large eyes and ear to ear smile
With my head under my arm I ride to the homes
And call out those whose time had come
The Scottish believed me to be a canine
A black or dark green dog named Cù Sìth
Whose purpose was to take the souls of the dead
And deliver them to the afterlife
Hindu scripture name me Yamaraj
Riding a black buffalo and carrying a rope
I'd lasso souls to take back to Yamalok
Where they will face judgement
Common culture know me as the reaper
Cloaked in black and scythe in hand
But I only need to touch you once
For my purpose to be fulfilled
I have had many names
Many forms and appearances
But one thing has always been certain
I am inevitable and a certainty
Many have tried to bribe me
To trick me or evade me
They may have succeede
missing youMissing you is something I do well, I only wanted a friend but slowly in love I fell. We had so much in common you knew just what to say. Believe it or not I think about you even till this very day. You left i cried, Something inside me surely died.missing you1 year ago in Personal More Like This
Fallen (Like This?)Being frozen, the breath you once released is now held between your lipsFallen (Like This?)1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
time stops, the only thing that moves is my beating heart
drowning, puffed out cheeks and stretched out arms
Mountain tops tall as the sun, I fall.
continuously as time and flow slows around me
I get a glimpse of the things I once ignored
Was I now what we called reborn
feels like it?
Like This I feel happy
Like this fallen, just fallen
the edge of the world seems so easy to get to
time speeds back
normal wind whips through my face
my cheeks glossy red from the cold air
I close my eyes
falling at a speed
only God can know
like a bird at flight
when it learns how to fly I spread my arms
just in seconds
I breath again
light like a feather I drop into the arms of a Diamond
strong but beautiful he had it all.
Pluck my feathers till they are all gone
one by one they release a new girl
new to th
What I thought I'd never haveWas I ever one of those people;What I thought I'd never have1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
those people who sit and mope,
bemoaning their lack of love?
Yes. I'll speak true.
I hated the life of the lonely.
Sitting there, watching them...
My friends who'd found love of their own.
Jealousy, thy name was heartbreak.
Okay, so I was bitter.
I truly thought, really believed,
that there was a good chance I'd be
But...funny story...I was so wrong.
What a funny place to meet that bond;
I found my correction in a game, of all places...
An MMO brought me the love I would never have had.
What joy, what unbridled rapture!
Not knowing, but feeling it.
I. Was. Wrong.
I know true love. I hold it in all of me.
I met him there, in such an unlikely place,
and from there, we grew together,
intertwined like vines in eternal embrace.
Love like I dreamed, this is forever.
I Am a FoolToo often I tend to forget.I Am a Fool1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Too long I've stayed in my chest.
Rare is to be out and loud
but it's the thing that makes them proud.
I hate seeing myself like that,
laughing loud like a stupid brat.
It's my mask that can't be ripped off.
It is stronger than me, it is tough.
I have to live with that no matter what.
I know it's only getting harder, this is just a start.
I can't show my face or they tear it off
So I'm keep playing fool until they laugh.
goodbyewhat did i dogoodbye1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
i miss you
i love you
i should have tried harder
reponsibilty was mine
and mine alone
i should have been stronger
i dont place blame
i only place it on myself
i desire forgivness
but i dont deserve it
i miss your voice
i miss your laugh
finding myself will be hard
without you near
if we meet again
know that i will always miss you
even through harsh words bandaged in pain
i wont forgive myself
WeaknessI lay my head down to sleep,Weakness1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Always hoping I never wake.
I walk blindly across the street,
Praying drivers make a mistake.
I am naked in a blizzard,
Shards of ice pierce my heart.
I am numb to joys I never knew
My insides have been torn apart.
I am lost under the sea,
Lungs screaming, miles from air.
I fake a smile and pretend to hear
But I am deaf, a mask I wear.
I stand on lifeless stony ledge,
Below I sense the water's hunger.
I cannot force myself to jump
And yet can't stand pain any longer.
KindredFalling into madness,Kindred1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
we are hand in hand.
I don't know if I know you
I don't know where I stand.
Am I clinging to someone I never knew
my heart lying exposed
with the hope that you might pierce me through
and teach me to not let go?
Is it possible that we're the same?
You'd change your world, your face, your name
change listlessly, and with a bow,
let go of then, keep hold of now
all to keep your soul alive?
A common thing for which we strive?
I don't if I know you,
or even if I care,
but I know you know me too
and that you exist somewhere,
I wonder why, so too shall I
exist beside you there.
From You I LearnedVast.From You I Learned1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cold in this void
today is the same
As the tomorrow I avoid
and the yesterday that came.
People look in but don't quite see
through the murk and haze surrounding me
and there are far too many faces,
that I try to hold too close
from bled empty, tired places
that were different at most.
But through this haze
a light comes in
I awaken from a daze
and in lifting up my chin,
I found I could begin.
From you I learned that I can dance
paint and fly and with a glance
find you at my side
Always there, and matched in stride
from you I learned to be myself
by being someone with you
And side by side we'll ride this ride
until the very last light has died.