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Dear L,

This is the first time I am writing a letter to you, and forgive me if this letter is longer than the one's you get from others. My name is Dave and I have a problem...most likely a series of problems. This has been going on for some time now, almost a year until it just decided to end on a rather sour note. I am writing to you about it two days after it ended.

... Where to start...

Well first, it is about this girl Shannon. Her and I first met when she was hired in the same Music store as I was working in. We clicked almost instantly. We found it easy to communicate to one another without any problems. We exchanged secrets that we never told anyone before and help each other out whenever we felt down. I was happy when we both has the same shift on the same day at work. It made time fly by rather quickly. Because of our sudden connection and understanding with each other, I grew very fond of her to the point where I had this secret crush on her. I never told her how I felt about her, knowing that she left her homeland after breaking up with her Ex. She said that she wasn't looking for anyone right now and just wanted to stay focused on her new life now. I respected that, but I still couldn't get rid of that crush clinging onto my heart.

After a few months, she took a really hard dive when someone abused her trust and sent her to the hospital. She is a very emotional person and somewhat unstable, so that person who abused her trust really damaged her. I went to the Hospital whenever I could to see how she was doing. After a while, she was released and very slowly repairing herself from the event. I remained with her and kept in contact with her, just to make sure she was alright and to help heal any spiritual damaged she received from the incident.

Any free day we had from work, we almost always hung out and did things around the city. I would take her to malls and stores, showing her around the city ( at least spots that I know of ). Every time she had her eye set on something in the store, I would almost always buy it for her. I knew what I was doing. She was having hard money troubles after the hospital incident, so I wanted to make her happy. It didn't damage my account at all and it was somewhat a way of "flirtation" on my part; giving or buying her things she really wanted but couldn't afford ( almost like spoiling her now and then, but that is the kind of person I am. I was not trying to buy her love at all! ) . Some nights, we would have sleep-overs. She always slept over my place and shared my bed with me. We would watch movies and play video games together, but we never snuggled or spooned. Even though I had a deep crush on her and knowing she wasn't really looking for anyone, I reframed myself from touching her or showing any kinds of affections. It was very difficult, but worth it just to wake up to see someone you care about right next to you.

More months past and we continued to hang out, however we have been somewhat uneven with each other. She would always tell me her problems, what was on her mind and ask what direction she should go. I would always be there to comfort her and give her suggestions about a curtain path. She has become more confused on what she wanted to do in the future and where she wants to go. I gave her motivation to try to help her push through the boundaries she was facing. But whenever I had a problem and needed someone to talk to, I felt like she really wasn't "motivating" me enough with her advice, almost like she was in the dark with me as well. So, I kept a lot of problems to myself and hid them as much as I could from her so she wouldn't have to deal with my problems on top of her own. Its gotten to the point where we are somewhat fighting with each other more and more now, but we are still friends.

One day, she decided to call me to tell me something very important, something that she has been with holding from me for quite some time. She told me that she knew that I was flirting with her and that I had a large crush on her, but she told me that she just wasn't interested. She didn't feel comfortable leveling up the friendship to boyfriend and girlfriend. As she was explaining why, she told me that she didn’t find me "romanticly attractive" at all. I was just blown away by that, but I continued to let her talk. ( Believe me, she is not really the "ideal" woman, but I was still attracted to her from spiritually to mentally to physically ) I knew what she meant by that: She didn't feel a sexual/romantic connection between us to move up the friendship, but it was the WAY she said it really drove a spike through my heart. She even told me that she felt the same way with her Ex, but back then, she just needed someone to be near her in that manner. After she was done explaining herself to me, I calmly thanked her for sharing what was on her mind and told her that I fully understand, but I did not really say what was on my mind. Again, I kept it from her and refused to start a verbal fight with her.

She is not a manipulative person at all. She is as open and honest as me. It is like seeing a mirror version of myself. That is why I was so connected and romantically in love with her. We have the same Chinese Zodiac sign, but the OPPOSITE Western Zodiac sign. ( Kind of funny when you look at it in that way ). We are both into the arts, we love cute things, video games, reading, etc. etc. etc. But having her as a friend is all I can get from her. I should be happy about that, but I still suffered harsh heartbreak.

So now, I am writing to you, wanting to tell you about this relationship that lasted ( and is still going ) for a year now...That is almost as long as I kept my feelings from her. We still talk and hang out, but it is not the same. I have to change my way of thinking about her now since I cant think of her in that way anymore.


Dear L, I am just very confused and hurt. I cant tell her how I feel because I don’t want to get into an argument with her, plus what was done is done and nothing can be changed about it. But do you think I should still talk to her about what she said and how I feel? Would it change anything? Would it make things much worse on both ends? Being friends is fine, but when you are an emotional person, you want to have someone there to take care of and get treated the same. It takes two to make a relationship... I want to find that second half. What should I do L? I really need some helpful advice.

Thank you very much for your time.

- Dave G.

Dear L © 2008 Alex Cockburn.
Images © 2008 Alex Cockburn
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More stash cleaning! Remember a long time ago I said I was going to post this and didn't? And remember an even longer time ago I said I was going to post this and didn't?

It's Aureus's cousin I mentioned that one time : D fav.me/d68xy66 I originally just came up with him when I was trying to figure out what other individuals of whatever Aureus's species is might look like. I think I drew this about the time of round three. He was never really relevant to the OCT story so it never came up. But he and his family were farmers who lived in the country, and Aureus's family would sometimes visit them. Aureus thought they were awesome because of all the agricultural equipment they had. I pictured them with a steam tractor originally but then I realized this would have been around the 1850s/1860s, so too early for those. He's maybe 17 in the first picture? I don't know. There's an age difference of probably about five years between them, with Aureus being the younger. Robert was bored with farm life, and eventually left to go west. I tried to figure out what he would look like in the time that Aureus got taken from (around 1895), because if Aureus had gotten returned to his own timeline he'd have tried to track him down and contact him. I may have gotten him too pinkish in fur color and I think I drew his ears too long. But they really are enormous, look at them. And he's apparently gotten one of them shot through. No telling how. He is/was a very good-natured but also rowdy and mischievous individual.

The anatomy in the second one looks off now D: It was drawn many moons ago. I just realized he doesn't have the two-toned irises in the first picture too. He should. I think I decided it was common for their species/breed/whatever to have two tones of some kind, usually of more or less the same color like Robert's (as opposed to Aureus having green-gray and brown, though that's not exactly rare either, just less common).

also at least one of his teeth is gold and he's probably really proud of that
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I took a break from being stressed out about things to draw this. I'd say it's time well spent :>
Some random scene that could have occurred maybe somewhere between 15 to 20 years ago? Fact, it's really hard to find a lighter shade for Rook's teeth and a darker shade for his fur that doesn't make the two colors look too much like the same thing.
Mira should probably have a gun or something but I was too busy being clueless about guns and watching Rugrats instead of doing research on the subject.
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Sometime in the last week I drew a quick sketch in paint when photoshop was acting up, then I realized the anatomy was awful. I still liked the pose so I drew a rough skeleton over in when PS was usable again, then I just sort of remembered skeletons are really fun. I'm maybe not the best at them but they're neat to mess with. Right now some known issues include head is too big, "feet" are too long, legs are probably too thin, I feel like the spine is probably too curved, I'm still not friends with drawing arm and hand positions. So this is pretty rough haha. It's all pretty loose and quickly done at this point. I kind of really want to do a more refined version now though. It'd be interesting to do a skeleton for the kind of wolf-thing Ava and Shadowfire and several of the others are too, because their anatomy should be a little different. And then maybe skeletons for other things. Skeletons are spooky fun.

I'll have to figure out what the formerly broken bones look like too. There's just a slightly more scribbly spot on the ribs for now (lower left side), but the spot on his leg is probably more accurate. It's weird because a piece actually got blown off whereas the other were just broken. I wouldn't be surprised if he's had a few other fractures and things in the past, but these obviously had the most lingering effects. Also I tried to figure out where the bullet is. Because he's had a bullet somewhere in his back for the past 34 years or so. Good going, Rook. So that's what that scribbly dot is.

I don't know why I drew this in pixel brush and at such an odd size. It was too late when I actually thought about what I was doing. I'm so sorry.
[I'm only moderately sorry.]



Also, this. www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDKKKp… Obligatory, really.
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Work commissioned by Stripetail as a gift for Sawolf, who wanted me to draw Sawolf's character running off with a pile of arts from Further Confusion! :D
It was a pleasure to be the part of this sweet gift! :)

You can see the lineart and sketch on my tumblr: the-tundra-ghost.tumblr.com/po…
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Commission

A wolf anthro character as a soldier in ww2, fighting on the beaches at Normandy.

This one took me a bit too long to finish. But i'm happy with the result :D
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Had character design class, it was really fun and gave me time to redefine Vlad and some other characters.
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I did this a year back in Sai for an art show.
She is a sea snake mermaid, a beautiful but dangerous part of someones menagerie.
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wohoo werewolf fun! (:
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