AttentionYou say that you're in pain?
Funny, I don't see a wound
You say you want to die?
I doubt you'd even try
The scars on my arms are hidden
Yours are on display
I drown in my own agony
While you float above
Yet they still come to rescue you
And leave me there to die
Because I'll never shout for help
You have it all
Yet act like you have nothing
I have little
Yet I'm still glad I have it
You speak of the pain
But I'm the one who feels it
I need the help
Yet you're the one who gets it
I don't pity you, not anymore
Go cry for attention
I'm not giving you any
NeedI am nothingNeed4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
an empty shell
a hollow carcass of brittle bones and rotting teeth
She is beautiful
bright patterns and rainboots
Her smile is true
and she love the world she lives in
He is a rebel
Never still and never truthful
He loves running across the street just as a car comes
it gives him such a high
She is quiet
a book worm
She spends her time in dimly lit corners in rundown bookstores
hiding away from the world
She is imposive and violent
loves to fight
Her emotions are stronger than the rest
taking her over in a matter of seconds
They are all me
but I am none of them
and I haven't seen them in many years
though I hear from them everyday
Their voices haunt me
their hands touch me in the dark
clawing to be freed
for they are why I am empty
they fill me and push away the person I truly long to be
The person that I need to be
in order to stay alive
You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...You'll Never Understand...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I'm glad you don't.
Because that would mean
You'd have to go through my pain.
And I'd never wish that
Am I Good Enough...?Legs crossed on a cold basement floor,Am I Good Enough...?2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Blood stains painting my flesh,
The wounds deeper than ever before,
A white gown now a short black dress.
Long tangled hair clinging to my tears
Wind howling through the trees,
Moonlight painting a sky so clear,
And darling, I'm going to be set free.
My fingers scratch at the blood on my skin,
A delightful pain at the thought of a touch,
And hey, everyone who said I wasn't worth it,
Now am I good enough?
This Valentine's DayPlastic roses and shattered dreamsThis Valentine's Day4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
All of these from Valentine's past
My heart is bursting at the seams
Just how long will this pain last?
For two long years I've felt this way
Yet I keep my feelings locked inside
And now I'm alone on Valentine's Day
Because of this love I try to hide
Heart shaped boxes full of lies
An "I love you" not meant for me
Last night I killed my butterfly
Because you and I will never be
I love you, I will now say
For I may not be here
This Valentine's Day
No Longer a Little GirlDear imagination, can't you be the thing you wereNo Longer a Little Girl3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Butterflies and daffodils and happiness so pure
Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
Hidden worlds and wonderlands of things they couldn't see
Shining gowns and silver crowns for dancing with the prince
Twirling with excitement, though the others weren't convinced
Dear intimidation, did you find it to be true
All I ever needed was an overdose of you
Silly stares and laughter slowly flood a child's mind
Making me abandon every daydream I could find
Lost beneath the shadows of the sky so dark and dead
Far too weak to turn around, yet scared of things ahead
Dear destructive tendencies, I feel it's time to hear
You were all I had when nothing else seemed to be near
Everything so out of reach, too far for me to see
I decided I would choose the needle next to me
Slicing through my very skin to feel something once more
Weeping through the satisfaction I could not ignore
Dear imagination, can't you be the thing you were?
I am a labelI slid the blade across my wristI am a label3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Again and again.
Maybe I’m an emotional freak.
I cause fights and arguments
Maybe I’m a troublemaker.
I use make up to make myself seem
Maybe I’m girly.
I complain about things
Even when sometimes
Maybe I’m an attention seeker.
I fall under so many
So maybe I am a label.
I’m just me.
Mommy, He's LyingMommy, he said it, he said it was true.Mommy, He's Lying3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Mommy, he said it, he said "I love you."
Mommy, he said it, he said it was real
Mommy, please know how to think, how i feel
Mommy, this love is the truth, it's the way
Mommy, he said it, he said it today.
Mommy, he's lying, he's lying to me
Mommy, he's telling a lie, can't you see?
Mommy, he never did mean what he said
Mommy, his voice is pounding in my head.
Mommy, he's lying, his love isn't pure
Love's a disease and he's finding the cure.
Mommy, he's lying, what else can I say...
Mommy, he hit me, he killed me today.
Mommy, he lied to me, why did he lie?
Mommy, he lied through his tears, through his cries
Mommy, his lies I just couldn't see through
Mommy, he lied to me.
What'd I ever do?
Are You?I'm sorry,Are You?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that I'm not
I'm not a supermodel.
that I'm not
I'm not a comedian.
that I'm not
that I'm not
that I'm not
I'm not perfect.
Sick of societyI may live inside my own, twisted universeSick of society3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I may change, sometimes for the worst.
What's normal to me is not normal for you.
Sometimes I just do what I need to do.
Behind a brick wall, I hoped someone would break it
I threw out my heart hoping someone would take it.
But I got tired of hiding and tired of hating
And instead of throwing myself at every guy, I'm waiting.
I'm sick of the person I tried to be
So basically, here I am, I will be me
I'm sick of the hatred, would you not agree?
.. Basically I'm sick of society.
Attention Seeker"Attention seeker."Attention Seeker3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As I slide the knife across my tongue
The poison resting in my lungs
Fighting till the war's been won
But you're right, this is all done for fun.
The rope around my neck as I pull it tight
The struggles I face as I die to fight
And slowly, I fade off into a dark night...
Goodbye, smiles, goodbye, light...
Dying, breaking, losing sight
Of all that's proper, all that's bright
With all my strength and all my might..
I mean, I do this for attention.. right?
Victim to DesireI see where it all went wrong now.Victim to Desire4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I looked back at what I was too afraid to see before.
I see what made my heart stop beating;
veins stop bleeding.
I see now why it hurt so badly.
I see now why it tore me apart.
I see now why I took the risk;
jumped the c
Cutter's RulesI thought the words I wrote down,Cutter's Rules4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Had me on the mend,
But like all good things,
This too must end.
It's time this suicidal poet,
Swapped her pen for her blade,
After all the cutter's rules,
Must always be obeyed.
So now I'll say a fond farewell,
A sad so-long and sweet goodbye,
And know that as I leave you all,
It's crimson tears I cry.
What can I say my friends?
Thanks so much - it's been a blast!
As I lift this cold dead metal,
And take this sorry life at last.
Help Me..?I thought I hitHelp Me..?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I thought I could
Only go up now
I though it was
Hard then . . .
Letting go of the wall
I fall faster
It wasnt the bottom
Just a shelf
I cant see anymore
Nothing but black
A bit farther everyday
Not getting better
I hope for light
But I learn
The black only gets darker
One special personEveryone leaves you.One special person3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everyone gives up.
Everyone stops loving you, and stops believing in you, and stops caring about you.
Everyone will say something to hurt you.
Everyone will eventually agree with you when you say “I feel worthless”.
And everyone will eventually say something about you.
And everyone will hurt you intentionally.
Everyone leaves you.
And everyone gives up.
But one person, one special person
Will never leave you.
Will never give up on you.
Will never stop loving you, and never stop believing in you, and never stop caring about you.
Never say anything to hurt you.
Never let you say “I feel worthless”, because with them, you won’t.
Never say or listen to anything bad about you.
And never hurt you.
Never leave you.
Gun Within The MirrorIt feels as if my reflectionGun Within The Mirror2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Points a gun at its own head,
As my bullet shoots the mirror
And paints the floor with red,
And it feels as if my gun
Just isn't steady in my hand,
Because darling, when I jump off cliffs,
Do you think I always land?
It feels as if the razor blade
Might be my only friend,
And it feels as if the broken glass
Might soon begin to bend,
Because my reflection is distorted, love.
Can't you see that, love, can't you see?
I'm pointing a gun at the mirror,
And the mirror points back at me.
If you are a victim...If you have ever faked a smileIf you are a victim...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Slit your wrist
Cried yourself to sleep
Wished yourself gone
Chased a dream (and lost it)
Ended up in a nightmare…
Turned away from your “friends”
Tortured yourself over an error
If you are a victim…
Remember to stay strong.
Because you’re only a survivor
And Daddy always lied.My legs are covered in bruisesAnd Daddy always lied.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And I have a scar by my left eye.
I’m not allowed to smile, though
And I’m not allowed to cry.
I think my right arm’s broken
But shh, don’t tell my dad.
He doesn’t like to worry bout me
When he’s already mad.
I have a burn on my left wrist
From when he pushed my arm
Against the stove, the hot, hot stove
And did a bit of harm.
I have a bear, a teddy bear.
He doesn’t have a name.
He makes me better every time
I’m feeling hurt and shame.
Today, my dad came home kind of late
A beer still in his hand.
I closed my eyes and waited.
He screamed, he shouted, and…
Well, my name is Mary Starr
And this is how I died.
But daddy always loved me.
And daddy always lied.
What Happened?I used to think make upWhat Happened?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Made people ugly.
Now I think I'm ugly without it.
I used to think people
Always loved me.
Now I think everyone hates me.
I used to think everybody
Was my best friend.
Now I think no one truly is.
I used to think
Boys were icky!
Now I wish I had one.
What happened to being
I cried for you.Last night I cried about you.I cried for you.5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I cried for you.
Wishing I was next to you.
This love we share is different then most.
We survive on true connection.
While we yet have to feel each other's touch.
But I can't stand this pain of not having you near me.
I promise not to leave you & I know you won't leave me.
I just can't stand being alone & I know if you were here you would help come save me.
After each call.
After each text.
You'll be there beside me.
Now all I can do is imagine.
But now I'm afraid.
I'm starting to lose faith & hope.
I won't give up I promise you that, but right now I just don't know.
I love....you?I hate you for making me feel this way.I love....you?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate you for making me act this way.
I hate you for saying we'll be together...some day.
I hate you because there's no price I wouldn't pay.
I hate you for making me feel again.
I hate you for leaving again.
I hate you for bringing the rain.
I hate you because now there's nothing but pain.
I hate you for making me hurt him.
I hate you for making me betray him.
I hate you for filling my heart to the brim.
I hate you because being without you is like missing a limb.
I love you for being there.
I love you for taking me there.
I love you for being the one to care.
I love you because life just isn't fair.
you THEN - NOWI loved you because...you THEN - NOW5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
...you were natural.
...you saw through me.
...you made me feel safe.
...you knew everything & yet you still excepted me.
...you were yourself.
...you change so that you can be "more" likable.
...you can't or won't see through me,not even if i feel hurt.
...you make me feel like i have to be careful for my own sake.
...you still know my past but now you don't know about my present.
...your someone else.
I don't even know if you really mean it anymore when you say you love me.
your changing so much,I'm not even sure your the person I loved so dearly.
could it be it's time to end everything?
Hold MeI just want you toHold Me5 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I want to be touched
To be loved
I just want to
Feel your arms
Wrap around my body
And then please please tell me
What I most need to know
Everything will be alright
Missing YouMissing youMissing You5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It hurts me beyond belief
I cry at night,sleep my only relief
And the worst part is that overshadowing my grief
You loved me unquestioningly
There whenever I needed you
Where was I when you needed me?
I was slamming the door in your face
Saying I don't want you
And now you're gone and I NEED you
I can never make it up to you but if I could
Do anything to bring you back
Realization of what I had
Comes too late