cutI drag the blade across my skincut9 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Like many times before I dont even cringe
The blood runs down acting as tears
Closing my eyes shutting out all my fears
The blade is my new found friend
Going across my skin ageain and ageain
No one sees no one knows
I act as if im in a show
Inside I feel so numb
I just wish that my time would come
GravesIf everybody died, I don't think I'd careGraves1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
You can't miss somebody who never was even there
They say I need help, they can fuck themselves
Heaven isn't worth it, I'mma rock it in hell
Your blood, it spills, It makes me laugh
Your love, it kills, now your head is cracked in half
These voices i hear, they scream in my head
And I'm starting to think, I like everybody better when they're dead!
I don't wanna sleep, turning the safety of the gun off and on.
I can't help it anymore, I just wanna fucking kill everyone
I'm tired as fuck but I don't wanna sleep
because they're waiting for me, deep in my dreams
covered in blood, created by screams
and tears that stream under the moon's gleam
Played out with a wicked theme.
Oh my fucking god, what the fuck is wrong with me?
I even tore out my own eyes
but the image is still burned in my fucking memory!
whenever somebody talks, I think they're trying to drill me
I'm paranoid as fuck, and I keep thinking every body wants to kill me
The doctor said it
Im all aloneIm all aloneIm all alone1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
nothing around me
just me and my tears
why did everyone go
am i that ugly
am i that horrible
i guess ill always be alone
im sorry im so terrible
im sorry i make you all disgusted
maybe if i leave you'll be happy
and when your happy im happy
so i guess this i goodbye
i wish you eternal luck
so please let me rest in peace
forever and always
Daggers In My Backthey all want to seeDaggers In My Back1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
the death of me
the breath all leave
and the last heart beat
I smile at them
as they pretend
They're so innocent
like liars tend
I stand my ground, stare my eyes
They've all gathered around to watch my demise
already dead inside with a back full of knives'
pull them out one by one and end their lives!
All these voices wanna talk about is killing
and the choices I could make so willing
trying to rip open the wounds I'm healing
To cover up whatever the fuck I'm feeling
I know I may be a bit insane
just a bit fucked up in the brain
I feel pain but its all the same
I deserve it, I'm drowning in shame
And I guess I can't blame anyone else
I just wish they'd fucking leave me alone
i don't need help
To be perfectly honest
I hate it all
Every single thing
Thats why I build such a wall
Because if you get close
I know I'll hurt you too
because I'm honestly just a ghost
and I really don't love you
I'm a monster in my own ways
probably because of the demons that bother
The ragged poemthe silence of my mindThe ragged poem1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's there all the time
It doesn't stop
It doesn't go away
It never gives in
gives in to the sway
Just a noise I pray
that says you will stay
a part of my life
to keep you away
away from the world
and all that it swirls
down to the void
that I try so hard
but I fail.
My heart shatters when I try
try to talk to you
because there are so few
that do what you do
I try and fail and fail again
Maybe it's cause I'm so full of sin.
I'm always looking for a place
A place to begin.
Like a ragged thread
the voices pound
inside my head
telling me things like
I should have been dead.
but here I am
writing poetry instead.
Give Me A ReasonHow do you really know me, when I don't know myself?Give Me A Reason1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
How do you fix me, when I can't fix myself?
How do you step forward? Can you teach me how?
Can you teach me how to want to step forward?
Can you give me a reason, a good enough reason
Give me a reason to want to step forward
Give me a floor to walk on
Into a room full of light
Not harsh light
But sweet, dim light
That won't hurt my eyes
Give me nice decorations in the room
Give me something pretty to look forward to as I take the new steps
Then turn and lock the doors of the room
Tell me the only way I can get out is if I go forward
Then take my hand
Take it and intertwine our fingers
Squeeze my hand
Not too tightly
But not too weak either
Just enough to promise that we'll be together until our forever runs out
Give me a reason that has foundation
Hold my hand until forever runs out
And then we'll walk in the good light forever
Because there will be a forever even if I can't really believe it
Truly believe it
Whats Inside Of MeShow me what you think you see insideWhats Inside Of Me1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
deep in my mind where the demons hide
What do you see when you look in my eyes
do you see that I'm planing a demise?
What do you see when you look at me
a fucking monster, a seriously fucked up young lady
I don't have much class, infact I'm tasteless as fuck
I'm kind of a ass and i bring bad luck
I'm like a alien, way up in the sky
I don't relate to anyone because I want them all to die
But I sit in my bed, try to get high
try to tell myself everything I see isn't just a lie.
When I look around, all I see is hate
I wanna burn it all down, just to escape
then maybe I'd find a way
to make it through the day
Just lock me away.
I can't look anybody in the face
cause they'll see in my eyes all the things I try to erase
The bloodstains and mistakes that lie in my way.
I'm weird, angry and dead
feared, I hear these voices in my head
they echo and scream until my head hurts like fuck
I try to make them go away, but screaming isn't enough.
I'm rough around
BreakingI try and try to make things rightBreaking1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I still cry every night
Battling nightmares, losing the fight
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find the light.
I want to die, its just too much
I can't fight anymore, I'm not strong enough
Its too tough and I can't even hold my head up.
Whats the point in trying
when all I feel like doing is dying.
I'm a bad person, with a bad heart
a bad friend, I just rip everything apart
a bad sister, bad daughter, bad to the bone
I'm crazy, I deserve to be alone.
Nightmares and voices in my head
paranoid, I keep thinking everyone wants me dead
and no matter what I do, I fall back to the same place
its just becoming too much to take
I just can't do it, life is shit
burn my skin, cut my wrist
Its all too much, I can't deal with it
I quit, I quit.
Every thing I do is a mistake
every breath i take is just a waste
I can't help myself anymore, its too late
I guess this is just my fate.