But in absence of the heartBut in absence of the heart8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I don't want elongated days
or shadows that curve & stalk round corners
or even segmented hours,
the next one unattainable.
I never look too far forward
in fear of
the second after eternity
and then nothing will go to plan.
Atop a hill that whispers to the clouds
there lies valleys only seen from here,
valleys usually pathways trodden
to see this monstrous mound
(and not so deep at all).
And gloomy seas set in feathered cliffs,
the rocks are sharp to touch
but from the shore
are statuesque and sculpted
by indecisive tides
that tease my toes
in knowledge they have seen the hidden seabed
& I have not.
I wonder if the deeper sand
is swished around like the sand upon the shore
never here or there
or sometimes taken away
& never seen again.
There are no stories to be told
with each survivor engulfed
and persuaded (only by distance)
to ensure they are secrets kept.
Or if the grains of sand between my toes
have seen it all
but dare not speak
The Battle with the MilitiaIt was a dark and dreary dayThe Battle with the Militia7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With the forces of evil in that forest barely held at bay
Six of us began that trip
By the end two had been given the slip
There was Kyle Bronze,
Looking quite like the fonz
There was Hampton Ice,
You never looked twice
There was Nurse Joy,
Just a little boy
And myself, ray tumbler
The one great humbler
These were my companions three,
Quite a fellowship you must agree
None of us knew what the day had in store,
Only one of us had been here once before
That was the courageous Kyle,
Who would serve as our guide for a while
We traveled for many hours,
Trusting in this guide of ours
We crossed rivers and ravines,
But at heart, we were just a couple teens
At last we reached our destination
A hidden and secret location
This was when the day started to get strange
It was, however, a subtle change
When we arrived to our fateful bridge
Poised upon a high ridge
Painted upon our concrete abode
Was a cryptic code
"The Militia" was all that it read
Spray painted thick in
New DayA new day, one so hopelessly lostNew Day11 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lost to the rejoicing of friendship
Forever friends? Is that your wish?
Mine, mine is different, one filled with many adventures
Adventures that cannot be fulfilled alone
Alone, I am, and Alone I shall be.
Why are you pushing away?
You say that you care, but really you hurt.
Hurt, You hurt me inside, meant or not, it happened.
Why? Did you have to hurt me like that?
I gave you my life, my soul,
You took it without giving back, that should never be forgiven,
But, alas I cannot stay filled with anger, and I forgive you
As I always have, and always will.
~Andrew Redden February 17th, 2003
.Love.I love that word,.Love.8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the sound it makes
as it rolls of the tip
of my tongue.
I love the feeling I get
when it is uttered
in an area of total silence
and this sound
is the only
one to be heard.
I can see the small little hearts
as that word is said.
And following that,
of pixie dust,
coloured a rainbow hue
in the sunlight.
If it were a food,
it would taste
like freshly baked muffins,
coming right out of the oven,
as the water vapour
slowly cascades into the air:
but leaving behind a feeling.
of freshly picked roses,
the faint wafting of a perfume
as it mingles with the cologne.
that I love
so much as one might love a child
is exactly that:
I Just Couldn'tI couldn't recall the times that I would forget.I Just Couldn't6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I couldn't seem to remember, where this was suppose to be.
Stuck in the notions of still being lost, I think I'll cry alone tonight.
Forgoing something as the confusion still sways in.
I'll be giving my life to this.
Mere remembrances of a time..
Sparked to shoot through this all.
I couldn't recall the times that I would forget.
I couldn't recall when to let it go.
Pushing through a wall, left untouched by all.
You've broken through more than what I could ever ask for.
Building up the courage to understand, yet I feel I never will.
Broken by the thoughts, they twist and turn like raging fires in my mind.
You're suppose to be the guiding light for me.
I couldn't bring myself to tell you.
I couldn't seem to understand why.
I just couldn't.
Perhaps than you will see.
After the build of this all... Finally hits.
For I just couldn't, rip my heart out once more.
There are no words, just the silence
filling around me in this darke
Crying For YouCrying For You6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Didn't remember to look the other.
Yielding to become just apart of them.
Couldn't get the thoughts straight in my head.
Misleading and rejecting.
Won't someone cry for me?
Your all that they need.
The strength locked away inside.
Purposely filling your head,
with ideas you don't need.
For this moment stop and look around.
Someone has always
been crying for you.
My prison, my world, my Hell.
Just the s
Through This LifeJust couldn't get enough of the feelings inside.Through This Life7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Overwhelming and yet calming to their own needs.
Drawing through this picture perfect background.
Life spring forth and back again.
Times lots and some comfort can never be found.
Yet the sense of this time, the sense of you, and our life within me.
Retracing the path, the steps I chose...
Just to make it here.
Wondering where the days started to change,
Where things moved from there to here.
Keeping this all wrapped so closely.
And yet, I never can get enough.
Days that come, the days to follow..
Mysteries unfolding before our eyes.
Heartbeats beating softly throughout the night.
Whispering softly the words that always seem to mean the most.
In my dreams your the heave
one-----sometimes it is quite lonelyone7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to be just one
---------------in a fever
----------on the floor
-----sometimes it is only
to be alone
why do i
----------and feel her coming
--------------back for more
theres something in
-----the way my mind speaks
-------------(make no sound)
-----sometimes i don't believe me
and all i feel
--------------whos to care
sometimes these walls are far away
too far for me
-----sometimes i am too far away
for me to be
second thoughtsi nearly killed a woman todaysecond thoughts7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
caught in a green light moment
one meter more and her life would be mine
thank god i dropped the phone
is she blind?
her mind going in circles,
her legs keeping to straight lines
for just one moment
she is her and i am me
she looks right through me
Something From YouSomething From You7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Lying lost in the melodies, escaping every breath
know to only you.
Watching the misty moonlight skies drift through.
Been wondering for sometime, which way I was suppose to go.
You're the dearest to my soul.
Laughing when this rain pours down.
Learning to walk through my fears.
Just bent on never giving in,
You've helped me open so many doors.
Just between the sight and never short of being amazing,
in anything you do.
Watching these escaping horizons, knowing time will find us,
Perfection way beyond your years, the grace of your smile.
The feel of your touch upon my skin.
Smiles lasting longer, keeping memories safely locked inside.
Your an angel, living in a world of cruelty..
My shining star in my darkness..
Somewhere Down This RoadFeelings swelling inside, it's taking everything I've got.Somewhere Down This Road7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just to hold these tears back.
I can't explain what's going on.
For this moment, I can see the picture.
Can see where I would be.
For the moment I dreamt, saw everything the way it could be..
If you were no where near here.
I've got to say, this isn't where I could be.
Hands trembling on the drive there.
Wouldn't know I still get exicted as ever,
just knowing I'm going to see you.
The miles just seem to stretch on.
Wishing I could be so much closer.
Things have a way of working,
themselves into the pieces.
Wouldn't know I can't wait,
can't wait until....
Until there are days,
days spent with only you.
One following the other.
Days where I wouldn't have to drive home,
for my home would be w
Shining DreamsTurning times of changes,Shining Dreams7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
lost melodies fading throughout here and there.
Making one last stretch through this darkness.
The light of your eyes, the smile,
[I've always been dreaming about.]
Can't escape these feelings,
Can't make the sense of where to place the beginning.
Spinning in circles,
[I've been seeing you everywhere.]
Connections so deep, my body trembles despite my
Looking through these mirrors,
trying to find the summary, of each given fact.
Just the thoughts, overwhelming inside.
Secretly knowing my own,
Would never dream of being anywhere else.
Seasons will change, still dreading the snow.
Yet in the wake of all the confusion..
You're the one..
The one smile I see..
The one shining star I go to bed dreaming about.
Dancing through the fields, purplish skies gleaming at night.
Tomorrow can never hold any certainty.
Yet I know..
I'll always love you.
"Matinee""Matinee"8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i can see them in the hotel
with the light on in the bathroom
an open window revokes the smell of sex
and simulated loyalty
cancel out their previous arrangements
seeing double on the tv
reflections of re-discovered flesh
and every sip of water that she takes
clock says happy new year
there's liquor on the floor
the bedsheets speak their final words, rumours of tomorrow...
We'llWe'll8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The compromising passion of friends,
the innocent touch of a new love.
Inspiring motions of the arts.
All have formed the truth beyond our means.
The yielding life force behind our hearts.
We'll dance, we'll sing,
we all will give it a try.
Our life's proving worth of happiness.
We'll make our stand here and now.
Raining pouring down, through these
every trying times.
Lean on me, and I'll lean on you.
Trust is a key into everyone's soul.
Would you give up the hurt just to feel some happiness?
Choices, chances, trying to make the difference.
The darkness will creep, hold a place in some for a lifetime.
Though even with them, there is light.
A chance for a smile beyond the measure of words.
We'll dance and sing
We will all give it a try
Our life is worth striving for happiness.
We'll make our stand here and now.
FunnyFunny8 years ago in Typographical More Like This
Stretched and far fetched
Bruised to thee amused,
But damned to be a fan
Trust was always a must
To flee with thee
I would dream to always be
Etched in this etchy sketchy
I've come to go
Though in reverse to be the worse
Of this grand stand can
Saw the mall
That could call a fall
Fought the broad
That could fight with a might
Such words for you
to try and follow
Have been cursed
And surfed to find a nurf
Asking to mask
A question of
Where are you're shoes?
Flute Legend - part twoFlute Legend - part two8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Now let me tell you an other side of the story.
A far away country,
the call of a Flute
A young man hungers for love
Finally founded the woman of his heart,
leaving with an other man
heart ripped out of his body
A long journey, following his beloved woman. His heart cries harder everytime he comes closer. Because he saw her eyes.
Eyes for a fantasy world
Eyes without reality.
He can feel the love she gives the other man.
giving love only to him.
This tale doesn't end without the blood of this poor farmer boy. Who was about to become father without knowing.
I Want To DreamI Want To Dream8 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Here comes the sunrise once more
Thoughts flying out with the breeze
I've come to tell you not to wait for me
Been lonely too long I've been dying
I feel the happiness cascade around me
Like many of my dreams, I've watched them all parish
From any existence
I keep looking for you, and now I'm seeing you in my dreams
Rolling around in the laughter
Smiling at each other as the night unfolds
Couldn't tell you I don't want this
That would only be a lie
Their StoryTheir Story8 years ago in Typographical More Like This
Disturbing are the thoughts
Yet, the feelings of loneliness staggered through these doors
Did you not listen? Could you not leave me?
Tell them the truth
Tell me why you needed this.
Blood has spilt this night
Reigning in your name
They've been screaming for you
Go on now
You know you want them
They wouldn't give me you
Sheltering out these feelings
This silence in the end kills us all
Come with me
Stepping through this madness of a life
Such promises were broken long before this time
What could ever be wonderful for you?
What could I ever do?
You're wanting something more from me
No peace today
You've left me shattered with this chaos
Chained EmotionChained Emotion9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Alone in the darkness, I sit, I pray...
For someone to hear me just once.
This has gone on for many a day..
It seems years...now another month.
I have these images kept from dreams,
Ones I never have during the night.
They are of a feeling it would seem...
But it's never there, away from sight..
Being alone is all I seem to have,
For me to know and even believe.
I know nothing of that special laugh,
Or the pleasure that it could leave.
There are no hands for me to hold,
No eyes which I can lose myself in...
There's only the lifeless, empty cold,
Like the chest of the man made of Tin.
There's nothing of my heart to remain,
Seems that my feelings helped do this.
Because it is true, they're simply a pain,
Hurting what as they want and wish.
I wonder about the silence of my curse,
That left my soul in a lifeless wake...
The Fates just seem to make it worse,
Giving me chains that will not break.
I allowed myself to wrap that silver bind,
I SwearI Swear9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I swear I feel you here
Standing next to me, watching over me
Through pictures I see you
Though we've never met
I swear people would think I'm crazy
My dreams are haunted by visions of you
Too scared to admit to the truth
Too scared to realize my feelings
We just talked for the first time
First found out, how much there is to have
Crawling along the walls, the pieces were forming
You're so far away
I want you near, to be here
Or I be there
My arms cling around my pillow
I swear I've lost it
Walking along the street I feel it
Something growing within
Can't ignore the thoughts
Can't see where the road is going
I work all day long
Coming home to this
I swear I've lost it
I swear I'm there
Or you're here
By the way something's here
I swear to trust you
Only if you swear to trust me
Breakdown CycleBreakdown Cycle9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Crystal eyes, gleaming light
Thoughts drifting to you
[under the surface the bleed]
Every drowning tear
Moments alone seem endless
[bleeding for the memories]
Shifting patterns of the wind
Where are you now?
[memories folding, I'm breaking]
The clouds form in the sky
Love, I hope your resting peaceful
[breaking down, holding on]
Crippling desires bend me out
The weeks are endless
[on to more, fear in my eyes]
Droplets of pleasure
Self Hatred LiesSelf Hatred Lies9 years ago in Typographical More Like This
Battered and torn do you see my existence?
Chimed in with passion brining me forth
Lying so desperately to so few
Like a rolling effort of judgement
Let go, come with me
Presented with so much, wanting so little
I hear these songs, the tearing of the cries flood my eyes
You're so distant dear, bring forth your hand
I scream, the visions fleeting from my mind
How blessed am I?
Your hidden strengthen is showing, let go
Broken into pieces, biting the wounded flesh
Sing with me now
Your self hatred lies elude you
These stars of passion are yours
Betraying of the rawest emotions
Strike with me now, don't let me let go
Follow down the stairs, past the shadows
There is no light
No broken home heeding my comfort
Have I lost you?
My self hatred lies
I've always been lost to you
Down and down you fallDown and down you fall9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Down and down you fall
Lifelessly to the end you search the corners
Fallen from the grace broken by its bounds
Your shattering embers beam out
Your mistaken lies bring forth the emptiness resting in your soul
Cruel to the intent of dying
Mercy to the faith of torment
What shadows lay within these tormented parts of Hell?
What casting scenes must you see now?
Drowning in your own faith, bestowing upon me
Regret the life in which you lived, suriving only for a time
Down and down you fall
Mistaken lies be there to catch you when you fall
Memories are just another fleeting promise of Hell
Watch this enemy take flight
In all in which was to be, never for going anything beyond the stakes of the blades
Simply but to the truth in forgiving the blood rushes over me
Yelling, screaming, kicking
Down and down you fall
My Hellish WorldMy Hellish World9 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Hellish world
The thoughts to close to tame
The bleeding wounds to broken too comsume
The drifting parts of the body seperate in the crash
Shadows lay within the broken ashes of oceans
Love and lust were all apart of my gain
Your torment and pain were all apart of yours
Feeding off the dying emotions
Creating the havoc of selfish flaws
My Hellish world
The torment holding me together
The tears fall
No angel in my sights
Crimson visions throughout the night
Promise me my death
No longer wanting this
No longer wanting the pain
Simple pleasure bring forth memories of pain
The pain is too deep to place
Trust in me, my fallen soul
My Hellish world as the reigns of destruction draw near
My death never meant too be, never meant to come
In My Hellish world.