Finding tragic loveRealisation has hit me,
I have loved you all along.
Denying it will not help
my feelings so very strong.
You either like me or
Dislike me to the core.
Telling me you do both?
Perhaps that's all I can ask for.
My heart breaks 'cause of the truth -
That you look for another.
You will never think of me.
Watching you makes me suffer.
What I WantDid I ask for your help?What I Want3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
No, don't think I did,
Apparently, though, I'm just a kid.
I don't want your disease,
I'm already dead,
At least now you can't play with my head.
Don't force-feed me your lies,
I want to keep me,
And not be wrecked by society.
I know you're not perfect,
Well, neither am I,
I am sick of living in a lie.
Do you see all these scars?
The inside ones too,
No, because you think it's all taboo.
Help me to disappear,
It's what we both need,
I just can't cope with life's harsh stampede.
Please don't try to save me,
As I yearn for death,
But will you feel bad at my last breath?
Don't you dare act sad,
When we say goodbye,
And don't you dare to look me in the eye.
I know you're not sorry,
But please don't worry,
Because I'm not either.
I know I need your help,
I just don't want it,
What I want is a nice cosy casket.
Figure It OutI've figured it outFigure It Out3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why when I think of you I break down
Because everyday I plunge deeper into this blackness
And I can't see the truth
As horrible as that sounds
But I don't know
If your just what you seem
A liar and deciever
Or if the way you look at me means something
But the reason I'm sobbing is simple
I think I'm falling in love with you
Slowly, but steadily
And I can't make it stop
No matter how bad I want to
It would be better for everyone if I was gone
And I didn't stumble over my own feet around you
I'm crying because I know I'll get hurt
But I'm powerless to stop myself from wanting you
the breakupI took your heart and tore it in two.the breakup3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
You said ," I love you!" I said,"yeah, me too!"
I left you behind without a care
while I went out and partied else where,
And then, one night, I did you wrong,
I met someone and stayed out too long
When I got home, the house was bare
I looked around and could find you nowhere
Thats when the reality of things set in,
I realized what a fool I was cause
Baby, you are a blessing !!!
So, here I am in the pouring rain,
Trying to win your love again,
You looked at me with a tear in your eye,
You turned you back and said,"goodbye!!"
Now, Im left here, cold and alone,
Empty inside because you are gone......
Disappearing MemoriesThe floorboards creak under my weight - holding only because ofDisappearing Memories3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the caked-on dust, making its home there
centuries ago. The windows let in dull light as the sun
sets outside of this night-dweller of a house.
Dust mites float around, twinkling in the light and
violently spinning in my wake. Creaks and shutters meet
at my feet as the house settles further into its foundation.
It's almost impossible to believe anyone had ever found happiness here.
Her lies whisper through the rotten wood, dancing through
the room and laughing with the wind. She -the last resident
of this shrinking palace - disappears with a final goodbye.
I stand in her shadow, she, the house, and I contributing to a
AngelOpened my locker, saw a note entitled 'To C~'Angel3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
With my curiosity burning, I proceeded to read...
I know while you're reading this
You must be quite mad at me.
You might want to tear this up
All I ask is hear me out, please.
I know you need an explanation
I have some things to say.
I'm a mess, filled with guilt
But I'm writing to you anyway.
If only you could see me now
See the pain clouding my eyes.
Angel, now that you're not here
The summer sun no longer shines.
Every where I look I see your face
You haunt my dreams every night.
To see you smiling without me
Is such a heart-breaking sight.
I know what I did to you was wrong
Letting you go was a dumb mistake...
If I could turn back the time
It would be a mistake I wouldn't make.
I know that I hurt you, hurt you bad
And Angel, I am sincerely sorry.
If you could find it in your heart
Could you ever forgive me?
Do you know how hard it was
Watching my dream girl walk away.
"You were the one who told me to go"
I know this is what you
I watch them watch youPeople look at you and have no ideaI watch them watch you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The things you have seen, the hell
It's because you smile through it all
And they want the smile to be for them
I laugh as they try to get your attention
Stumbling over the lie they just invented
Hounding you from your car to the door
You politely smile, and offer warm thanks
They don't see it though how it hurts so
Never knowing their words destroy you
Words meant to flatter, defeat instead
It's not their fault, they don't know you
They don't know your heart is his alone
They don't know how he saved your life
They adore you from where they stand
But the you inside, hates to be adored
I can see it in your sad eyes, the disdain
These are not the men you want to see
And every second he is not here with you
You crumble, you stumble, you lose it
Better Than the OriginalYou make me feel differentBetter Than the Original3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You take my breath away
And stare at me
You're the one thing I despretely need
Stepping close enough to me I feel your hair brushing my forehead
Angling your head down
Like you want me
Just as much as I need you
Making my skin feel warm
Plugging my wounds
Making me whole again
I Just AmI am not bullied in school nor am I popular.I Just Am4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am just there. Keeping my head as low as I can.
I am not beaten at home nor am I loved.
I am just there. Failing unspoken expectations.
I am not a femme nor am I butch.
I am just female. Wearing practical clothes.
I am not a lesbian nor am I straight.
I just happen to have fallen in love with a girl.
I am not stupid nor am I a genius.
I just think. Sometimes a little too deeply.
I am not ambitious nor am I a slacker.
I just work. In case someday I find a dream.
I am not fat nor am I skinny.
I just eat. Then work out for a few hours.
I am not over the edge nor am I content.
I just exist. For no apparent reason.
I was not born this way nor did I choose it.
I just am. With no explanations.
I am not pure evil nor am I perfect.
I just am.
Fix Your HeadUnderstand himFix Your Head3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Don't over think things
Just remember all the good things he's done
Be kind to him
If you trust him, he won't hurt you
But this isn't only about you
Its about him too
Slip under the radar
Take him with you
Escape from the insanity
no more evilI see no evilno more evil3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I hear no evil
I speak no evil
Now I live with no evil
Because I live no more
BlindnessFinger pads kiss the window as myBlindness3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
bare feet hug the ground.
Everything is cold, like hearts that forget to
However, warmth escapes my lips
in a whisper, clouding the mirror
and my vision.
So this is love.
did you know?you know it hurtsdid you know?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
whether from lack
or too much of what you said
the little flirts and silence dead
do you know the pain you cause
the pain that makes me see
oh every single flaw
the pain that sits and gnaws
why did you go and do that
make me feel loved
all because you didn't see-
every time we spoke
how i felt elated
I'll Leave You HangingPurpled hollows and aching hands,I'll Leave You Hanging3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Hair hanging in limp strands,
Lips open yet without breath,
A stunning caricature of death.
Rope burning red on porcelain skin,
Eerie glow and eerily thin,
Dancing in the stale air,
Face grey, no longer fair.
Flying but no wings,
As the crow sings,
Swinging like a pendant,
A losing defendant.
"Get a life" you said,
But I was already dead,
"Don't die" you'll cry,
As the rope helps me fly.
Alone for far too long,
We both know I'm not that strong,
Remembered or forgotten, it's up to you,
But know that this is because of all you do.
Discarded DiscardedDiscarded3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everything you've been working toward, broken.
Every well reasoned arguement you made, outspoken.
Every time you reach out for help, scarred.
Every bridge you've ever walked across, charred.
Each word was spun from nothing but the best,
But every single one was thrown out like the rest.
Nothing you say can change how she feels,
So just go back to staring at her heels.
Her back is turned, a perfected art,
As I pick up the pieces of my shattered heart,
It's times like this when there's nothing left,
When you lose your soul, mere petty theft.
mirror/daughterwhy is itmirror/daughter3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that my mother can't stand the quiet
as we drive down the same
road as usual?
she talks and i nod, turn on
the radio to escape her endless banter.
always finds a reason to say
things that hurt me
but not her.
i try not to listen, try not to yell
and cry and
(i paralyze time, inhale/exhale
this is just a 15 minute drive, and maybe
maybe she will understand.)
but she never realizes
i'm not a younger version of her,
a copy, with the same data installed.
A Heart Of GoldA heart of goldA Heart Of Gold3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Can't fully heal
A heart as black as darkness
But it can give it some light
And help it recover
I Want To Find HerI believe, somewhere on this enormous planet, she exists.I Want To Find Her3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am desperately hoping that one day my heart will lead me to her.
My one love. My only love. My everything.
I hold on to the hope that I will meet her, I will get to know her,
and when she and I least expect it, best friends will become soul-mates.
I want to find her and I want to give her the world. My world.
Somewhere, she is waiting. She believes in me, she knows I exist.
She will know me when I look into her eyes.
When she feels my lips against hers for the very first time,
all that I am, all that I have, and all I will ever be will belong to her.
AchingI'm achingAching3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Deep down I'm still dying
I need secrurity
A promise your not like him
A sign that the hallucinations are just that-
Not real. Fake.
Just make it stop.
Please end all the questions
I'm too confusd to bother unscrambling
Save me 12
Drown me 13
There's only one winner
And now the gloves are off
Narcissus is a Teenage GirlI don't careNarcissus is a Teenage Girl3 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
if people stare,
I only wish to be seen,
I don't always try make a scene.
Narcissus is my name,
and being noticed is my game.
They say "there's no such thing as bad publicity"
but all of their words are 100 percent toxicity.
Would you rather be stabbed in the back
or be graced with a full-frontal attack?
If blood is thicker than water
expect a Texas Massacre sized manslaughter.
Could you listen rather than hear?
When all my drones are run on fear.
What else is new for me to see,
when everyone is looking at me.
And did I ever mention,
I can't not be the center of attention.
Alright...You make me feel beautifulAlright...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Like all my flaws perfect me
Just looking at you makes me smile
Meeting your eyes turns me to nothing
But I'm something
You care about
And even though this affair will be short
I don't care
Because you make everything seem worth it again
You pinch the sun between your forefingers
And pull it back to the sky
You make him turn and run
When you smile I know
What I didn't think was possible
Is with you
The perfection of your eyes makes me
That I'm going to be alright.
Define: LoveLove is a beautiful thingDefine: Love5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It is a painful thing
A happy thing
A sad thing
With the wrong person
It could even be a
Love is what keeps us together
Or what tears us apart
Or simply is just there
Part of our lives
What we think about
Before we go to bed
What we dream about
When we are asleep
What consumes us
When we are alone
Or when we are together
Good or bad
Happy or sad
Dreams or reality
It is part of our lives
It is love
I Want Something I Should Not WantI want something I should not want.I Want Something I Should Not Want3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am so young, still a child in the eyes of some.
I'd be called, a whore, a slut, maybe worse.
I want something I should not want.
They'd tell me I'm a sinner, and look at me with disgust.
I'd have to keep it a secret if I gave into my desires.
Keeping secrets creates distress.
No one would be able to know the thing that I did.
No one could find out about that dark deed I want to do.
It would bring disaster to those in my life.
But it would bring joy to my own, I'd feel I have a purpose once again.
I want something I should not want.
It's something I have wanted for a while.
It'd be a blessing, and a burden.
They say to be careful what you wish for.
So I do not wish for the thing that I want...
But I cannot ignore the infatuation, the idea, the overwhelming need for this thing.
I want something that I should not want.