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FANFICTION - The Origins of RahzurioxTHE ORIGINS OF RAHZURIOXFANFICTION - The Origins of Rahzuriox6 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Story, Concept and Ideas by: Tony Salazar
A long time ago, a scientest named Leonardo Von Xavier discovers about mutations, aliens, and dinosaurs. He tests out the mutations of other animals to make it a success. A few months later, the aliens were coming to earth to find the dinosaurs. One of the aliens uses the dinosaurs to turn them into alien dinosaur-like creatures. Leonardo saw the alien dinosaurs and he was amazed when he thinks that the aliens mutated them. An alien dinosaur bite Leonardo's arm, causing him to mutate into an alien dinosaur. He then turns into alien dinosaur-like creature, making him look lik
thoughtsLately I have been finding myself askingthoughts10 months ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
'Will this depression stop me from succeeding my dreams?'
'Will having Depression and A.D.D. change anything?'
'how long will i have to take these pills?'
I have realized that recently they have become darker.
'Can i scratch my scars back open?'
'will anyone want me now that I am damaged?'
'What would happen if i took all these pills at once?'
Depression is a mental illness
I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Some days i don't want to eat.
some I just want to die.
A.D.D. stands for Attention Deficit Disorder
It makes it hard to focus one just one thing
and i usually lose sleep over it
they are happyThey're all happythey are happy10 months ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
No new cuts at all,
Only ugly little scars
Holding a million secrets.
They are all happy
But are you?
From the sleepless nights,
To the nightmares
So frightening
that you're scared to remember them,
To the bite marks and bruises
And the tears drying on your cheeks.
No one knows what happens at night,
When you're in your room in tears.
You scratch and scratch.
Just a little blood that's all you want,
Scars don't bleed though.
They are happy
But are you?
Welcome to My LifeJust for a moment, imagine yourself in my place. Try to feel as I feel, see as I see. I do not wish for you to feel pity for me. I wish only for you to realize how lucky you are to live the life you have. Never take happiness for granted.Welcome to My Life1 year ago in Stories & Vignettes More Like This
Imagine you wake up, without really waking up, you almost reach conciousness before you fall right back down into that sweet darkness of sleep. You never want to leave. It's so peaceful there, as Hemingway once said "I like sleep, my life tends to fall apart when I'm awake." Eventually you will have to get up, to face another day.
It's hard to get into a rythm that will carry you through most of the day, b
To all 'emos' who claim to have depression...Earlier today I had perhaps the most violent fit of depression so far.To all 'emos' who claim to have depression...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It was NOT fun. I DESPISED the attention it brought (though it was only that of my parents.) I HATED MYSELF afterwards for putting them all through this worry. I practically knew in my mind that there was no solution. I couldn't sleep, because I'm practically an insomniac during the day. I couldn't even kill myself, because it would take to long. I didn't want to die. I wanted to already be dead.
DON'T claim you have depression to be 'cool' or 'fashionable'. It is neither big nor clever. It's extremely, violently insulting to many of us who suffer from depression, includ
I'm back, Have you missed me?Dear, I'm back.I'm back, Have you missed me?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Have you missed me
as I have you?
Everyday I see
you, but have to leave
you there, far away.
I've missed this feeling,
Please say me you will not betray.
Of course not,
faithful friend.
You always welcome me back,
the feelings will never end.
I'm sorry
I've neglected you,
had promises to keep.
I could not break that too.
Shiny and perfect,
to return, I am free.
Steel, I'm back.
Have you missed me?
Don't Be SurprisedDon't be surprisedDon't Be Surprised1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I find this too hard
Don't be surprised
If my lips show no smile
Don't be surprised
If I forget how to laugh
Don't be surprised
If I break down and cry
As I hold you so tight
That I can't let you go.
Please tell me, how am I supposed to deal?
Please tell me, how am I supposed to stay strong?
When I know I can't see your face everyday
When I know you're going to be gone.
It's not just a change to be blown away
It's a loss I must face every minute
Every day
Don't tell me it's fine
Don't tell me it's time
Because in my heart
It feels like a crime.
So don't be surprised
When I tell you I'll miss you
Do
Behind My EyelidsI cannot keep my eyes openBehind My Eyelids1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
to see this world,
this agony,
this so-called life;
but when I close them,
all I see is red.
The scarlet of desire.
A splash of dark pleasure.
Drips of dying sadness.
Crimson soaking up
the pain
that wants to drown me.
My closed eyes see
shining metal,
a diamond in the rough.
Glistening of crystal hope.
Reflecting out
the hurt.
Only light I see,
glimmering off the metal;
sliding towards
the luscious point.
That beautiful,
caressing tip.
I can see inside,
that it's already too late;
steel has taken my heart
and twisted into it
a perfect knife,
flaming up demand
for the opening of flesh.
'Introductions' Extract“…Have I gone mad at last,” he asked slowly, “or did… you just… fall from the sky?”'Introductions' Extract3 months ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
“Neither,” said the tallest of the four people; a boy of 13 years, who stepped forward to greet him. His expression then became slightly more inquisitive as he asked, “are we in the Netherlands?”
“Yes, you are,” {SPOILERS} replied. It was his turn, once again, to be inquisitive; “how did you get here?”
“We… flew,” the boy replied in a very, very unconvincing attempt to lie.
“You flew?!” {SPOILERS} was beginning to wonder which of the tw
Crimes of the Compassionatethere is a bright sideCrimes of the Compassionate1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
but your eyes are clouded
with Cataracts of Pain
a wonderful memory
that leaves scars on your soul
but I know
the scratches
where the Betrayal seeps
through your heart
will Fade
Distance will Solve the Unsolvable
and we will emerge
hopefully,
with Friendship
With Sincere Regret.
I do admit
I have committed the crime
of the Fair and Compassionate.
Heartless TeaserMost stories begin with a damsel in distress and with prince charming swooping in to save the day.Where is reality? Where is the girl whose father left when she was eight, never to return? Where is the gay teenager who kills himself because of a homophobic retort? Where is the girl who thinks she is fat because of an ad she saw on television and then vomits up her guts into the crapper every night?Heartless Teaser1 year ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
They are stuck in reality. Like the rest of us. Reality is the place where princesses don't ever find their knight in shining armor, and where there is never a "happily ever after."
Reality is sadly, where I reside. Yep. Me. The "fat, emo, faggot
Your In To DeepSobbing with no controlYour In To Deep1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yammering at a God who's existence
Is non existant
Thinking about doing it
Drinking until my minds just fog
So I don't feel it
When I bite down with my blade
Split open my inked up skin
Then sleep forever, never feel pain again
Then when I was passing time I saw it
The five letters
My reason to keep living
Your name
Flashing your face in front of my eyes
Telling me I'm worth it
Now I'm crying more
Because this means I love you
And now, I just realized
How far deep I'm in
I will not give in"Just once" they whisperedI will not give in10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
I will not give in
I can't
The blade does not define me
You do not define me
Let me go, leave me alone
You only devour, whats left of me
"You can't handle it" they hoarsely shout
But even if I can't, I still won't give in
I can't
The knife does not define me
Just go away, you liar
You only decieve, whats left of me...
FollowedThe hurtFollowed10 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The burning
Whether the urges
Or
The memories
It's all eating away at me
Both broke a part of me
I don't really know
Which part is worse off
Maybe memories of you
Followed by tears of blood
Or
Maybe the urges
Followed by crimson puddles
It's getting too hard
I'm falling fast
Faster than I can fly
A Suicide SongI've had too muchA Suicide Song1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Today is done
Don't think about life that's just begun
Get home, get the rope
Don't have any more hope
I'm going to pull until I can choke
Tying the knot
Controlling the plot
Knowing how this story will end: I'll rot
Slipping the knot around my head
One thought: soon I'll be dead
Maybe after some more red?
Slip out of it slowly
Grab the blade off the trolley
Thinking about all that's holy
One more thin line
Oh, now that's fine
Now let's try this one more time
Stand on the chair
Kick my feet in the air
Won't have any more pain to bear
AddictionsIt lies in waitAddictions1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I smell the bait
I'd run away
But it's too late.
I feel the pain
I must refrain
Just stop, they say
There's too much to gain.
Hold me now
Come around
It follows me
I'm already found.
To love again
Would be the end
I'd clean up the mess
To come home, my friend.
To stay away
Just for a day
Kill me now
I'd waste away.
Too far to stop
Just hit the top
Come to me Death,
My heart's ready to stop.
You Play A Risky GameYou Play A Risky Game1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You play a risky game but there's a stake;
You will not know how much it hurts, until
You go farther than the body can take;
You cannot break the bond against your will.
You think it is fair game, but it is not.
You think it is alright, but you don't know.
It is not just a game, but we have fought.
So many times you've done it, that it shows.
I have seen many others do it too,
But we still stop in time to save your life.
You have to know what's pure and sweet and true.
You have to learn how to put down the knife.
All you need to do is pick up a pen,
We'll stop in time to save your life, again.
All We Are Not...All I am is numbersAll We Are Not...1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am not expected to breathe of feel
Only think, and work
To my parent's, I am nothing but a GPA
Head down, under the table clutching a pen
Fighting every instinct telling me to do it
Dig in as deep as I can
Struggle and try to end it
The only question they ask isn't about me
I don't even think they care
Don't believe me, because I'm too perfect to want to die
Too pretty
Too smart
But it doesn't matter
To them, its never enough.
Fall For YouI don't care about you.Fall For You1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I swear, I don't
I don't want to play games anymore
I don't need anyone; I've been fine on my own
But every time I see you I crumble
And I can't see anyone but you in this room
And when you look at me I stumble, hard
I fall even further down
Because your eyes trap me in
And I want to deny it, but it's impossible to
The more I try to convince myself I'm lying, the more I know I'm not
I am falling in love with you
I am drowning, and sinking lower into the bottom of the ocean
But I'm higher than I've ever been before
This is the most brilliant, and most perfect unfolding
And I can't begin to
addictionIt hurts. It hurts and I want it to stop. It hurts and I hope it lasts forever. It hurts too much to go on. It feels too good to stop. I'm stuck in this wonderful terrible hell. It's great. It's the worst thing in the world. It hurts. It feels good. It makes me happy. It makes me feel like shit. I cannot live with it. I cannot live without it. I love it. I hate it. I'm stuck and any way I go is going to hurt. I'm going to hurt Others. In the End I'm always the "bad guy". I'm always at fault. And I'm always sorry. But you never forgive me.addiction7 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
There was a time.There was a time.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
There was a time when you made me feel beauitful
There was a time when you said I was special
There was a time when you made me smile
But now I am ugly.
There was a time when you were my everything
There was a time when you said we'd be forever
There was a time when I only wished for your kiss
But now I am alone.
There was a time when you said you'd fight the world for me
There was a time when I lived for you, and you for me
There was a time when we were inseparable
But now I am worthless.
There was a time when only you could stop my tears
There was a time when only you were there for me
There was a time when only you said yo
Do you see me?When you see meDo you see me?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
What exactly do you see?
Do you see the hatred
And all the lies
Or the happy front I put up?
When you look in my eyes
Do you see all the times
I picked myself up off the floor
Soaked in dried blood,
Or just another happy girl?
When you hear me speak
Do you listen to the words?
Do you hear the cry for help?
Or just the fake laughter I give?
Do you look at me
And see the real me?
Or just the me I want you to believe?
Your Smiles InfluenceTriggers come in many forms, the result you would call wrong,Your Smiles Influence1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The line of free will is thin however very long,
A child holds his fathers hand,
I picture my youth, no strength to stand,
A teenager learning to drive,
I don't have my license, I don't feel alive,
A grandparent watches there family grow,
I look down at nothing, with nothing have I sown or will sow,
A business man straightens his tie,
I hold close all the assets to which I didn't buy,
A group of friends sharing a meal,
I sit with shadows, nothing to feel,
A priest standing with eyes wanting to learn.
I think of those I lost, yesterday does still burn,
A teacher holds
Sta.sh
