ForeverI feel so worthless, without any purpose,
You don't really need me, that's plain to see.
You want me to smile? I will for a while...
But deep inside, I will continue to hide,
This feeling of worthlessness that I just can't address.
When will I feel, really begin to heal?
My fear is never, I'll be like this forever.
SomethingSomething11 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Every moment, every thought, an echo in your mind
Every treasured lullaby you're forced to leave behind
Every broken moment, every twisted fantasy
Every empty shadow, every lonely melody
Holding knives against your skin with tears inside your eyes
Fighting back the happiness, yet fighting back the cries
How could one be joyous at a moment such as this?
Something could be stopping you, but nothing truly is
Make Me ForgetJust make it stop...Make Me Forget1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
make it all go away!
I need to forget...
forget it all...
If I don't soon,
I'm going to break...
Please just make all the pain go away...
please...help me...I can't handle this anymore...
I miss it too much...
I miss him too much...
I miss the love I felt for him...the happiness I felt with him...
Stop it...stop this pain and make me forget my treasured
memories with him...
I'm becoming too unstable...
I can't handle this pain, it's not good for me...
I try so hard to forget him, to ignore my broken heart...but it's
just not working!
I just can't forget him...
i used to think you were realwhen i look at youi used to think you were real1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
passing by me with
those filled-hatred eyes,
i just think;
yeah if it comes
to blame someone
you'll always blame me
for the pain
and your self-pity
for when you
look at you in the
mirror and your veins cry,
but you still
don't seem to accept
you actually did
so why the self-hatred, honey?
if you were right and
i let your back bleed,
if i didn't care seeing
your fist-bones break, when
you kept on hitting the walls
as i twisted the knife on you
why the constant
repugnance of yourself,
if it's me, the one with
the mortal weapon of
betrayal in my hand?
(it might be true,
Learning To TrustTell me a story about your lifeLearning To Trust1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
And I'll tell you mine
Give me a reason not to lie
So I'll tell you the truth, next time
Whisper a secret in my ear
And I'll tell you a tale
Forgive me but this is my fear
I despise talking in detail
Give me a reason not to scream
And I'll tell you why it hurts
It's like acid in my bloodstream
This terror of being attached
Sorry if I ask for too much
For I am still learning
How to Trust
Just Let Me DieLet me die with dignityJust Let Me Die1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's the least that you could do
I dug this grave for me
But you can lay here too
And, no, it's not your fault
You don't have to say goodbye
This blood is on my hands
So don't you even try
I can't get a fresh breath
Your words hanging in the air
As still as certain death
But they're getting us nowhere
And you'll cry your last tear
As we lie here in waiting
Just to be forgotten
Our memory fading
Our lips press together
In one final kiss
Our one final effort
To re-right our sins
And it's here we'll die together
Just broken memories
We don't have to wait forever
To hear the angels sing
But still I
UndeceasedUndeceased1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind
I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else
I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire
I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt
This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun
I could be so more much than t
your mind is made.his hands, your skin,your mind is made.1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
my love, forgotten.
his mouth, your mouth,
my eyes, shut close.
his body, your body,
my agony, sweet memories.
his hands, your hands,
my tears, no control.
his words, your lies,
my truth, ignored.
don't mind me,
i just loved you once.
Mother vs FatherYou gave birth to meMother vs Father2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Dried my tears when I would cry
You would make an effort to understand me, you really did try
You were given a child who loved you
Depended on you and you loved
But yet, here you stand unnerved
Because of an old stranger
You treat me like I'm an in danger
This is someone who gave you the best gift of your life
Or am I your mistake, something that's caused you strife
Is that why you hate him, for leaving you with this curse
You've said horrible things to me but this is by far the worse
You say I act like him, and I know you can see it everyday
The more I grow, you see me moving farther aw
AcheAche, ache, acheAche1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The seams of my heart unravel
Unwinding themselves wistfully
Battered and beaten to powder
To a damaged, eternal void
I am only one half of my former self
I am but a shell full of dust
Rotting, decaying, dissolving
Calm.I am calm.Calm.9 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Not calm like a yoga instructor
Not calm like a lonely coroner in the morgue.
Not calm like a doctor telling someone they have an STD
Calm like the ocean on a cool summer night
Calm like a pilot flying his flight
Calm like a sociopath disposing of the remains.
Calm like an actor, acting this way.
Calm enough to burst into tears.
Quiet enough so no one will hear.
Weary enough, but I still never fear.
Never fear anything, ever, at all.
Never show emotion, so I'll never fall.
Calm like the air right after a storm.
Calm like the sound of an empty dorm.
Calm like a person, not alive anymore.
So very c
StrengthPen to paper.Strength1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Brush to canvas.
Razor to wrist.
We all need strength from somewhere.
Does it really matter how?
If one person cuts,
Yet it saves a life.
Why bother writing,
If it is a letter of goodbye?
I've mastered perfectionI think the time has come to zone out the worldI've mastered perfection1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sit in front of my laptop
And waste these years away
I've mastered perfection
I spent all these years miserable,
But smiling on the outside
You know, I think I've found the cure to teenage sorrow
I've taken this smile
And flipped it around to my inside
Now I can even fake my smile to myself
My organs are frothing in disgust
They can no longer take this
Focused Around YouPlanted the seeds of my infatuation in dead soilFocused Around You1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
These feelings taking root and beginning to coil
Around my heart choking with its thorny hold
Leaving me hollow my blood turning cold
What a foolish and selfish wish that I truly desire
For you to mend my broken heart and lift my spirit higher
Maybe I thought you'd be the one to save me from myself
What a silly thought right, it's my fault I make my own hell
What was it about you that I fell for anyway?
Was it a physical lust or your personality so fey?
Honestly you seemed to care the most whether I was alive or dead
But in reality I mistook your kindness; it was all in my head
Untitled EmotionUntitled EmotionUntitled Emotion1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A shock wave rolls over my skin,
Lightning arcs through my veins,
I feel a flame in my eye,
Turning everything into a haze,
To end someone else's beat,
Fight to contain,
What I should let free,
Feel the cringing muscles,
The quick spasms,
Brain quickly shutting it down,
Fighting to maintain control,
Trying to keep them down,
When all I wish is that I could unleash them instead
Nose to ear.I love how he lies with his arms around me,Nose to ear.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The tip of his nose against my ear,
Jaw rested on my neck
Perfectly placed to reach up and whisper
What I love to hear,
Those words I cherish more than life:
"I love you and I always will."
I Love YouI am proud to sayI Love You1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I scoff at those
Who are happy to play
With the fair, rose.
They've got their graces
But it's them I'd chide
For while they fall for faces
I love you for what's inside.
RipplesI cast a stone out into a stilled lake,Ripples1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sitting by the shore,
And watching the ripple's wake;
They branch out further, further, more and more,
Do they reach the other side?
I thought I was alone,
A single being lost in thought,
As I cast that stone.
I was still observing what the throw had wrought,
When an eagle dived down from the sky,
And in its talons a fish is caught,
Its victim writhed and struggled in futility, doomed to die,
But, a tree explodes, a swarm of black,
A murder rampaging out in wrath,
Taking their territory back,
The crows attack!
The eagle, fearful for its life,
Drops the fish, who struggles still;
Come TrueWhy won't it come true?Come True1 year ago in Short Stories More Like This
My only wish, straight from my soul,
To no one else but her.
I think about her when I'm awake,
I hear her when I'm asleep.
What else can I do,
When she is not here?
My soul begins to break,
And at times I simply weep,
Wondering what could have been,
If she were at my side.
But she's been gone far too long,
And I think my heart has died.
My knees to the floor,
My hands to my face,
My end is near.
She walks in the door,
With unmatched grace,
And it is her saving voice I hear.
I stare into the blue,
The sensual oceans in her eyes,
And she hugs me.
I hug back, and whisper, "I love you."
I'm aloneI'm aloneI'm alone1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have feared
for a long time
has crushed and
all I had left
and has left me
as I try to
reach for their
that descend into
the misty black fog
If only I was strong enough
to fight this evil
And guess what
The Reason I Can Say 'I'm Okay'People don't want to face up to the facts and their fears,The Reason I Can Say 'I'm Okay'1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just keep your smile and pretend not to hear,
If you think it long enough then it might come true,
And in the end they'll never abandon you,
So listen to my cry for sanity!
Why are riches the only thing you want to see?
I'll pretend to be what you want me to be!
But once I'm older I'm leaving you alone,
And I won't be picking up my phone,
When I see the caller is you.
You say a leopard never changes its spots,
But I am not a leopard,
I can see through all of your self-centred plots,
That leave my stomach in knots,
If I have a scratch on my wrist does it mean that I'm de
I dreamed a dreamI dreamed a dream1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
People say you never forget your first
Even if it's the worst
You never forget who shoved you off solid ground
Who opened your eyes to all the dishonesty around
That's when you can see the status quo scream
And your oh so happy childhood becomes a distant dream
Welcome to reality!
Your label is ready.
Are you black or white?
Do you side with the red or blue?
Do you believe some don't get equal rights?
Does it truly matter who you decide to screw?
Hurry up, you have so little time
The world won't wait as you make up your mind.
And it's far too late to close your eyes.
When the light comes in, you'll truly realize
Life has a te
Bandaid BoxBandaid Box1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wish I could be a band aid box
Covering your scars and cuts
Heal your wounds and make it alright
I wish I could be a band aid box
For then I could fix the pain I have caused
Help them heal and spread some love
I wish I could be a band aid box
A tiny little band aid box
So I could fix the pain I have caused
Does a Angel need Wings?Do you need to be a demon in order to take a life?Does a Angel need Wings?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Do you need to have a halo and wings to be considered an angel?
Does life need to be called a monster if it takes lives,
But we take lives just the same?
Does a beast need a name to be known?
Does a lover need a friend to understand?
Does real darkness lurk in the corner of my dreams,
Or does it watch me amongst the light?
Do you need love to survive?
Do you need a soul to truly see?
Does a heart really need a beat or a thump,
If all it does is bleed and bleed?
Does a true human need to know pain?
Does a true human need to give it away?
Does a true human need to love and hate,
previouslypreviously in time i used to bend till i breakpreviously1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
now i only read the worn our promises
and hear the hollow silence between you and i
i'm standing on the top of this hill
previously in time we used to be happier
now i can't find a reason for you to stand still
and let your young heart to rest
i know the sun sets on me and rises on you
previously in time we used to believe
now i am not sure should i stay or go
and let you wander on your own
i could apologize about all this
previously in time i would have done so
now i feel like nothing really matters
and we should both just give up
in love, nothing works
without love, nothing work