My LifeTrying to fit in to a life that's too broken.My Life1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The pieces of this puzzle are too damaged to try.
The tears in my eyes are too heavy a burden.
The weight of this world just won't let me cry.
The scars on my arm are sullen reminders.
Of the past that hold on and won't let me free.
Memories are wounds that close way too slowly.
They bleed for a lifetime and won't let me be.
Perfection.A look of hatredPerfection.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
reflects in the mirror,
looking over yourself.
Your hands move
across your ribcage,
tracing skeletal bones
thinly veiled by pale skin.
Down to your stomach,
pushing the sunken pit
even further down.
Down your sides,
to your thighs.
You can lock your
hands around them, but still
they're much too thick.
You drop, then crawl
to the porcelain bowl
a few feet away.
Emptying your stomach of
its contents -your dinner-
you flush them down,
and gasp for breath.
Back to the mirror.
Wiping the bile
from dry, cracked lips.
You have to be thin.
Skinny. Beautiful. Perfect.
The words repeat like
a mantra in your head.
You. Must. Be. Perfect.
Who'd love you otherwise?
Withdrawl.I quiver, I shake,Withdrawl.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am ice cold, fire hot.
I want to scream,
but my voice is gone.
My insides are melting,
slowly turning to mush.
It hurts, please, make it stop.
Just one more hit,
to ease the pain.
I writhe on the floor,
tremors wracking my body.
One more hit and I'm done.
Sight SeeingSight-SeeingSight Seeing2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I'm staring at the ground
As the cities rushing by
Some say the sights so beautiful
That it could make you cry
But I'm not here for sightseeing
That hobby's for the strong
It's funny how those far below
Don't know what's going on
The memories are flashing
Like a slideshow set too fast
Some too close to yesterday
Some far in the past
When sorry doesn't cut ita scribbled noteWhen sorry doesn't cut it2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
a broken heart
the act is over
she's played her part
no more fake smile
no more real tears
gone are the mistakes
she remembered for years
#003 GhostName: Ghost Age: 15#003 Ghost2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Birthplace: Brooklyn, NY
Current Location: Warehouse Nine Seventy Two Brooklyn, NY
Eye color: Blackish-brown
Hair Color: Brown
Black tank tops (usually wears a black hoodie around waist)
Black Hobo gloves
Tan cargo shorts/black jeans
Black combat boots/converse
Dog tags and a ring on a chain
(The following is a list of items Ghost has in her room or on her person)
First aid kit
Small hand Gun
Extra Clips and Rounds
No one would understand what happened the night that Ghosts house caught fire when she was six. It was a secret she would take to her grave with her. It was shadow that would follow her for the rest of her life, haunting her dreams. She didn't know that the blaze she had started would cause her parents to die. She was only trying to protect herself from the things that were hiding in the shadow
It started out with a kiss chapter twoChapter 2; Did We Really...?It started out with a kiss chapter two2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I heard my phone vibrate.
...Fuck that. Im not getting up. I groaned and rolled over, Starting to fall back asleep until I suddenly felt someone's breathe brushing against my face.
Uh, That's not normal.
My eyes Opened, To see Brandons face, Eyes closed, hair falling over it, soundly asleep. In my Bed. "...Brandon?" I whispered his name, His eye's twitched, but he didn't open them.
"Brandon." I said abit Louder. He still didn't Budge.
"Brandon!" I Yelled , Finally He Jolted awake. He sat up quickly and groaned. "What the fuck do you want." Brandon said while rubbing his hands on his face.
"Well, some one's not a morning person."
"No, im not." He said then laid back on the bed and Rolled over.
"Dont go back to sleep!" I Sat up, the covers falling from my chest. "Dickmunch." He Turned His head around to look at me, only to smirk and say, "Nice Tits." Then turned back around. I Pulled the covers back over me. Poutily, ripping the blanket off of him
TwinkleTwinkle Twinkle lights belowTwinkle2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Watch them come and watch them go
So high up on this thin ledge
My body's tense up on this edge
The fall from here would be quite great
It sure would be a messy fate
So twinkle twinkle lights below
Watch out world cuz here i go
On the Outside of the GlassIm still on the outsideOn the Outside of the Glass2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
of this glass looking through
you never see me
but i always see you
your friends are all laughing
at a joke that you told
that will never be me
im out here in the cold
Equation for SuicideA gun, a planEquation for Suicide3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
a broken heart
no place to start
A heart that's numb,
emotions not felt
its cant understand
the pain its been dealt
Dating ViolenceDating violence isn't rightDating Violence3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Awful feelings hold me tight
Telling me to keep it quiet
I'm so scared, that I buy it
Nothing changes, bruises heal
Gone is the evidence to prove its real
Victims cower, so unsure
Inside we search to find a cure
Only concerned about their gain
Lovers never see the pain
Excuses used will grow too thin
No one in this game will win
Courage to fight will stop the strife
End the violence and save your life
In the DarknessI was deep in the darknessIn the Darkness1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
Until you came and shined a light
You came up right beside me
And told me everything will be alright
You took my hand and led me
Into a new world, so bright
YouYou're everywhere I goYou1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
You're everything I see
And I'll never be free
Of this grip you have on me
You pull me close
And hold me tight
Nothing's ever felt so right
SuicideShut the doorsSuicide3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Close the blinds
No one will know
No one will see
No one will care,
For a girl like me.
End it now,
It'll be okay,
Those ones who care,
Will get over it, someday.
No one would know
Until they walked in
To see me there,
Oh there, I will lay.
Why the sidewalk and I are friendsWhen I walk down the side walk I stare at the cracks.Why the sidewalk and I are friends1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Not because i'm anti-social.
I just know that those cracks have a purpose.
Like I know i have on too. Its just buried in all the things i do.
At 11 I found myself smoking cigarettes my friends had stolen.
Did i want to look cool back then?
The answer no matter how hard it is will always be yes.
Now a days its all about addiction and not about who gives a crap.
At 16 I discovered sex.
That first rush will always be a memorie i try so hard to forget because that rush was just that.
It was never love or bonding.
It was just sex.
This year i fell into a path much worse.
Just to name a few.
I have known from the beginning that this path was never right.
But the demons in my mind keep showing me how easy it is to live this way.
And sometimes i think they are right.
But then i see the devistaion it causes those around me and it hurts.
I want to be a happy normal teen, but i guess thats not an
Writing on the Wall(Ghost)Writing on the Wall2 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
It was a simple task. The words flowing from her fingers as the chalk made no more than a whisper on the wall.
I was trying to help you.
But you turned me away.
You love me. But at what distance?
It doesn't matter. I'm always watching.
There. She was done. The white chalk on the deep blue wall seemed to glow despite the fact that the lights were off and it was past midnight. Perfect she thought. Retrieving her pack from the floor she took one final glance around. Everything was calm and in order (except for the writing she had done of course). She then headed to the window and climbed on to the sill. Just as she started to slide out she heard the click of a key in the lock. It didn't matter though. With the flick of the curtains she was gone. Just another shadow in the night.
It started out with a kiss IntroIntro;It started out with a kiss Intro2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Jake Leaned down to kiss the petite blonde infront of him,
The kiss was long, and romantic.
He was going to score, Well, it seemed like it, considering The girl was now opening the door behind them and starting to pull him in.
Too bad Jake had a girlfriend.
And This is where I come in.
His Now Furious, Raging, Ex. Walking towards him at an increasing speed.
"Hey, jake!" I smiled,
His face was priceless, as they both stopped and turned to me. They looked like deer caught in headlights, well, mostly Jake. She Gave me the more, Sucks-to-be-you-can-you-just-break-up-so-we-can-bang type thing. Yea, There's a look for that.
"So, Is there something you need to tell me, jake?" I kept smiling, acting as if i didn't see some blonde tramp clinging to my, Now ex-boyfriends, Neck.
His mouth opened, but no words.
Then he slowly started to Say Something; his words came out jumbled as if they were tripping over each other, stumbling out nervously.
"I..Um, Aaron, Its...Uh."
it started out with a kiss chapter oneChapter One; Something.it started out with a kiss chapter one2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I Slammed the Door to my Dorm Shut. Alerting my Three Male Roomates That I Just walked in.
To put it simply, The Principal thought i was a Boy, because of my name. And Roomed me with three boys, Before Meeting me. When he did finally meet me he shrugged it off and Told me all the rooms were full and already set. So, i was stuck there. But i didn't Mind. Its Way Easier to Live around Them, Then Bitchy Girls.
Kyle and Hudson Looked at me From the couch.
They knew something was wrong Immediately, i don't usually storm in slamming doors.
"Aaron...?" Kyle asked. I just walked by him, Walking into Our Room. I Closed the door softly and Locked it. I slid onto the Floor. Still facing the door I didn't Realize that Brandon, The third Roomate, Just walked out of the bathroom, and was now standing behind me.
A few tears Rolled down my cheeks until i finally realized that he was behind me. I Wiped them away and stood up, still faceing the door.
"Aaron, is something wrong?"