Fallen Into Darkness
Fallen Into Darkness
I'm a dark void, my shadow casts its own shadow
And I'm too much of a coward to even try and turn back
I'm so bleak, because I've managed to create a new breed of sorrow
And I'd be a fool to even attempt to move out and into the blinding black
My mere gaze can darken the brightest tomorrow
That must be why I am destined to remain here forever
My life is unaware that death is what I yearn to give into
That's another reason to sever every bond for the better
I vowed to myself that I wouldn't take you down with me
Your kind strength and light is what I can no longer borrow
I am nothing but a doubled-edged sword, it is what I will always be
I'm regretfully swaying away from the promised path that I used to follow
But I assure you that I will be alright
So please remember you did everything you could
But I've already made up my mind
And you said every hopeful word
The Road Of YesterdayThe Road Of Yesterday2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Road Of Yesterday
These closed eyes have wept
Over the pain that I've kept
Realizing I'll always be far from perfect
I'm tired- just too tired
A moment of peace is all that I desire
Too long have I tried; too long have I suffered
I just want to collapse
And let these be my last footsteps
Allow me to give up this life that I want to forget
I've always been out of breath
But I still continued to tread
And I feared to look in the eyes of death
I'm sore- just so sore
A final sunset is what I selfishly yearn
Too long have I endured; too long have I resided within the eye of the storm
I refuse to ultimately break
I don't want to believe in the flaws of my faith
I won't be swallowed by this void that I have made
As I reach the end of my despair
I realized that life's fissures can be repaired
And when I shed that last tear I let go of my fear
There is still strength within weakness
It's the promise of seeing the brighter future that lies ahead
Out from the ashes; out from the darkne
Kiss Your ScarsSharp blades to the skinKiss Your Scars2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sharp darts to the heart
Drink water to make you thin
He tore your world apart
Reflections of a former self
Indelibly etched on your memory
Take those thoughts and emotions
and share each one of them with me
I will put them with my own
My lies, my deceit, my sin
Kiss your scars, heal the wounds
of your perfect skin
Kiss your scars, heal your heart
Taste your blood on my lips
My heart now beats as one with yours
For each other we now choose to exist
A Loveless DayA Loveless Day1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)
This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray
As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay
In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the liquid-silver droplets of rain
You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done
You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you
You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you had fed
For you I had damaged myself
For you I put myself through hell
But I swear it was worth it
Because now I know how hard life can get
I want you to realize that you aren't a loss
For you will always be known as my first love
This same old reality that I can't let go
A nightmare of a person who is so far away
As I try to run from the world
Remains Of A FlowerRemains Of A Flower2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Remains Of A Flower
One by one
I love you so
Petal by petal
I want you to know
Second by second
I would never let you go
My sick heart clutched the surroundings on the inside
Filled with unseen love that can't make it's way to the outside
Unseen tears bide, along with these strong feelings that I try and hide
My whole body wants to just curl up every time I see you
Concealing the secrets within, I guess there's nothing else I can do
So like a human flower, the emotions I have for you just grew and grew
Never ceasing, never sleeping, never thinking of anything else
I hate this daydreaming, because I always self-consciously doubt myself
Dwelling over the fact that I never stood a chance at expressing what I really felt
One by one
I couldn't take it anymore
Petal by petal
I had to confess what I could no longer ignore
Second by second
I needed to say everything that I should've said before
But you stopped me, and didn't even give me a chance
You were like a frostbit
A Dying RainbowA Dying Rainbow1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
A Dying Rainbow
I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened
My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break
I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
Surrounded by fear is where I don't belong
I just want this lucid nightmare to be over and done
Society these days
Teaching children the old prejudice ways
And that's why certain individuals grow up so afraid
In the end, a premature death is the price loved ones pay
I'm one of those
Dwelling in fear at the end of my rope
Trying to conceal agony tha
I Believe In YouI Believe In You:I Believe In You2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You feel like things have gone into the ground
When everything is gone and crashing down.
You took your pain and tried to make it end
But give me one more chance to hold your hand...
See I will believe it...
I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it
You will believe that-
You will be alright,
And we are all here by your side
We'll take you through those painful days
We soar like birds and fly away hey!
You will know that we're here,
Cause when you open those eyes my dear;
We will all be here
We will all be here
We will all be here...
See once it was so hard to carry on,
But take my hand, my shoulder; we'll be strong.
Don't think about the things that are all behind,
Just look ahead and hearts will heal with time.
Yeah live and believe it
Cause I know you're strong inside
Just try once to see it;
You will believe that
You will be alright
And we are right here by your side
Throw away those painful days
Take a breath and step away hey!
UndeceasedUndeceased2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind
I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else
I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire
I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt
This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun
I could be so more much than this
I do have a purpose but yet I still resist
I yearn to have it all but I don't even wish to exist
So let the day of the rapture come
But leave me be, the lone soul who is numb
I contain my own apocalypse in my palms
But I will never release it, I will do no one any harm
For I deserve to let it riot inside
Aura: The ResparkAura: The Respark2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Aura: The Respark
I, the sheltered child who started to tragically fall from your grace
Into the void of this sudden loneliness
Realizing I followed every single one of your steps
But yet, I failed to hold onto those uplifting moments
Now I feel as if maybe I had forced you to make every one of those promises
That which you still kept
So I don't want to sound dishonest, but out of us, you are the strongest
You make sure to protect
To you, everyone, and everything is dearest
None left to neglect
But with all of that, you take on those heavy burdens
And try your best
Calling out your name into the nothingness
Forgetting about the peace you bestowed upon me
I guess it's just too hard to be away from
Love at First SightLove at First Sight2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The smallest look in your direction,
And I knew you were the one.
The way my heart stopped when my eyes met yours,
How I speechlessly gazed at you,
When I couldn't even blink an eye,
In fear of you disappearing
In that one second,
Becoming a figment of my imagination.
The sparks between us flew instantly,
And I knew it all pointed to love.
I was a victim of Cupid and his toxic arrows.
You were the one,
My angel sent from above,
My prince coming to save me on his steed,
My sould mate who would stand by me everyday,
My other half who would love everything that I am,
The keeper of my chipped heart,
Who would make it whole once again.
Filled with every shade of green,
Like a beautiful, peaceful forest,
And flecks of gold,
Oh- so- gorgeous,
They mesmerized me.
The color of the darkest night sky,
Mysteriously covering your face,
As if attempting to hide in the shadows,
Tempting me to uncover what secrets were hidden deep inside.
It was like not
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)
Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking
Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental
My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me
Far too long have I been on my life's edge
Looking down, and backing out of my own hollow threats
But I swear that one of these days I won't wait to die from old age
I will skip to the last chapter, and write the ending in blood, soaking the page
All it takes is this lowl
Maybe, Just MaybeMaybe, Just Maybe2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why can't I be sad about this?
Not a single tear has flown
Am I emotionless?
Am I a monster?
Why can't I be sad about this
My mood seems to be the same
Am I heartless?
Am I empty?
Why can't I be sad about this
The others have their masks on
Why do I not need mine?
What have I become?
Or maybe, just maybe
I have grown used to the pain
Of losing someone who's close to me
Maybe, just maybe
Place In My HeartPlace In My Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It cuts through me,
Making its way to my heart.
Don't know that kind of pain,
I only know what I once had.
Then it leaves me,
Stronger than I ever was.
Nothing else is left behind,
But shutters of memories and feelings lost.
Everyday I try,
With every little piece of me,
To create a place in my heart for you,
But what you did comes back for me to see.
One more time you lie,
One more day you're absent.
One more something that had me wishing,
Wishing that this would be the end.
Bye bye, I wave,
Only then, and none too soon,
Do I realise, the place in my heart,
Had always been there for you.
Becoming The DarknessBecoming The Darkness2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Becoming The Darkness
Hope is slowly falling away
The shadows are consuming me
Please, relieve me of my guilty conscience
Because these memories haunt me to no end
Please, make me another one of the departed
Allow me to ascend from this lament
My sorrowful heart has been forever weighing me down
But I still tried my very best to carry on
My lonesome soul kept corrupting me even more
So I was never really brave or strong
The birth to a new side of me has risen
One that harnessed the tragedies
The gift of a curse is what I have been given
I'm in control of my own insanity
A tranquil calmness on the outside
A black storm rages on the inside
My eyes attempt to remain closed
While this inner chaos tries to take over
And these twisted thoughts grab hold
I am no longer my own oppressor
I've transformed into my best nightmare
And also my very own worst enemy
Because the light
My Selfish RebellionMy Selfish Rebellion1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
My Selfish Rebellion
My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds
We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you
Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven
I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen
So try to tear me down
I dare you to smite me now
I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found
I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this false grace to be devoured
Let me fall for my desires
While I set my own wings on fire
This bestowed belief is so, so controlling, I've seen it with my own eyes
Following some footprints while not making your own, staying within the lines
This is why I need to go my own way, and you all will see the footprints are mine
I've only ever seen the ligh
A World of BloodA World of Blood:A World of Blood2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The spirits whisper on a chilling wind
As the blood continues to flow.
I can hear the demons screaming within
As the darkness continues to grow...
Humankind will always be foolish;
Rash decisions are an instinctive need.
But how could they have forgotten our ways;
Tradition is lost to greed...
The zealous will kill the innocent again
As the greedy play out a game of chess.
A book of gods becomes a creed;
It is a ragged shell at best...
My sisters die in the tens of hundreds
And innocent girls are slaughtered like swine.
I'm afraid that in this dying world;
The God of Blood shall dine...
The blind shall follow in his burning steps;
They will see within him a flame and fire.
And he knows that the hearts of passionate men
Are easily laced with glorious desire...
In dreams he calls and grants them strength
He sends his 'angels' to enchant the night.
He turns the blind into seeing creatures
And robs them of the light...
But it is h
DreamtakerDreamtaker2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
SLIPPING Slipping slipping
I almost had it right in my palms
AWAY Away away
My eyes open wide like my lungs
GASPING Gasping gasping
Accumulated back into this world as I awake
PAIN Pain pain
Gathering the moments of the dream before it fades
REAPING Reaping reaping
My desired world is always taken from me
FAITH Faith faith
I never wanted it to be make belief
FEELING Feeling feeling
That unaware sensation is being ripped
BLAME Blame blame
But it's as if I am the one that is torn to shreds
The Words I Didn't MeanThe Words I Didn't Mean2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The Words I Didn't Mean
Your last steps seemed to echo
While I watched you walk away
You're leaving me in our love's shadow
And all I can feel is a piece of me break away
The shock starts to sink in
Every pore is conquered
A fissure begins within
I'm torn asunder
Liquid memories drip from my face
My heart will always remember this kind of pain
The love that was shown on this day will remain in vain
I didn't know how much passion could weigh
Or the damage it could do when it betrays
Fused with the words that I never even wanted to say
Compassionless by nature / A lonesome torture
Unloved by liars / Sought by manipulators
Breathing in shards / Tearing out hearts
Caught off-guard / Soul is scarred
The regrets won't let me breathe
The thick tears protect me from what I don't want to see
This fresh wound over my chest is where your place used to be
Pathetically rooted by my knees
I reach for you through the debris
Even though there's no one who can salvage me
Rain Of DarknessRain Of Darkness1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Rain Of Darkness
Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked and everything faded to black
When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable
The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew wasted
As the remorse relapsed
I was consumed by hatred
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction
My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction
You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation
Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted
Reverse and amplify the blame
The faith in others becomes my bane
Ridding myself of everything but despair
You forced me to let in what I've always feared
Something inside me crumbled
As the center of my heart stung
I made even the shadows tremble
When they saw what I have become
Believe me, I tried, I really did
But this is what happens what all trust is lost
The Unread LetterThe Unread Letter1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
If I could go back in time
I would, and say what I really wanted to say
Then maybe, just maybe you would still be mine
And I never would have had to go through all of this pain
I yearn to take it all back
To cast away every word that was said
I want you to know I didn't mean any of that
Because I knew you were the one when we first met
You're the one that let go
I was the one to get left behind
You're the one that took my soul
I was the one that had a break down that night
You said nothing
And left me waiting
I needed you to say something
I silently pleaded for you to say anything
Maybe I thought it was a hollow threat
But I knew it was a damaging move you meant
If I only had one wish
I would ask to see you once again
And then I would beg for forgiveness
Just to try and undo all of my unjustified destruction
Every mistake made
All of the tears that were shed
Disconnect Yourself [Remix]Disconnect Yourself [REMIX]:Disconnect Yourself [Remix]2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Is it so easy to pull your wire
Out from the inside?
(The kiss of Cyanide)
You drank the poison
And lived a lie
(That you could not deny)
Your mind was like stone
But then it started to break...
Now drifting helplessly
You shattered like glass
Knowing that you're fake...
The empty shell, that you grew
Has started to come undone...
Piece by piece
You're breaking apart; and it weighs a ton!
The wire inside me
The blood in my veins
(A memory of an ancient pain)
Knowing that I
Am nothing but a fake
(The self you cast away)
Dreaming of times
When the world was simple
Not simply made of masks...
You lost yourself
When you took a sip
From the horrid poison glass...
So face yourself in the mirror
And look the person in the eye
Can you disconnect yourself from this vision
Or will you be the first to die?
"I dare you, to pull the wire..."
-Chen Yuan Wen ft. Rue (Relic-Angel), 14th March 2012
Wings of DespairWings of Despair:Wings of Despair2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A momentary glance toward the birds in the sky;
Makes me feel like I am soaring; with a hope to fly.
But the chilling winds that wrap me, reflect the cold of this day
And the icy frost that batters me, chips me away...
It drains the very breath from me, as though the ice is locked within
I feel my hope is fading again; like a jar of captured wind...
Where once my will was strong and boundless; now it sits on broken wastes
I must admit this crushing despair, it feels as bad as it tastes....
From the moment that I acquired them, these were ugly tattered wings
They were made from my despair, and bound in bitter strings....
Like permanent fixtures, of sorrows and tears;
They are laced with poison, and embedded fears....
On the edge of my sanity, I hear the voices keening;
These are lives that are lost while the creature is breathing...
It's a snippet of darkness, a shard of me!
A hidden part that you will never se
Martyr:It's Never Too LateMartyr:It's Never Too Late1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Martyr:It's Never Too Late
You don't have to believe me, but I know
All the different kinds of pain, and processes of sorrow
What it feels like not wanting to wake up to see another tomorrow
I had every attempt planned out
I slammed the tear-stained pen down
I screamed in my head it's either never or now
And I slowly walked out onto the road
Trying to not turn back, because there's no more hope
I left it behind mixed on the paper, the last goodbye letter that I wrote
Give me your hate / Hand me your pain
Toss me your blame / Force out your bane
I've broken all of my blood oaths
Stacked on top of all the unread notes
The words written down always dragged me into the undertow
I secretly despised my own existence, I'm nothing but a coward
Every second I spent alone I always backed myself into another corner
I want to leave nothing to be remembered by, I don't want my death to matter
All I can say is don't make the same mistakes I have, don't die on the i
The Secret GardenThe Secret Garden:The Secret Garden2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To those who are waiting in the silent shadows;
To the sisters I've been trying so hard to find.
It is time we came together as one
For here we shall leave the past behind...
In this secret garden, my voice is clear
Soft and gentle like the flowing wind.
Yet here I am; a dirty spirit
A simple soul that sinned...
Gathered in silence, bearing cowls of night
You've come like moths, to a burning light.
These lovely witchlings, so tender and lush
Soon I will give you, a blessed blush...
Take my marking into your flesh
And bear the stigma of our ancient creed...
Tonight you feast in my humble honour
For in your bellies I have planted seed.
Soon it will grow and begin to mature
You will feel it breathing inside your heart.
The gift to change this wretched world;
But first it must be torn apart...
"I am Chaos and I am sin..."
-Chen Yuan Wen, 26th April 2012
Wings Of DarknessWings Of Darkness1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wings Of Darkness
I seek your help to become the unseen
Guide all of this pain back into my lies
Please, never let me experience this again
I need you to blind me from the light
Cease the false hope from shining in vain
Push back the blood and tears so I won't cry
Sheath me between your hollow feathers
Keep me in your tight embrace forever
Turn every sad day into calm night
Burn the radiating sun out
Darken the dreaming sky
Let the fading clouds melt
Lock away this cruel gift of sight
I no longer want it
Shut out the world from you and I
I yearn for this
Take away this self-hatred
Bring back my innocence
Obliterate this life I've wasted
Color my world obsidian
You're the only one now
So here I am, on my knees and broken
I'm pleading for you, I want to be found
These weeping words of mine have spoken
All you need to do now is finally come down