SentinelsI noticed todaySentinels6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The evenings stretching further.
And as I felt the evergreens sway,
I began to remember,
Fire twitching in the dark.
I felt the sentinel streetlights stare,
Though perhaps they were only missing,
Their terribly absent frosted blaze
And feeling this spring-
Alone and bare.
cordiform dent in the pavementthe only h e a r tcordiform dent in the pavement6 years ago in Typographical More Like This
i've ever broken
was my own
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥it fell from my hands and onto the sidewalk
it even cracked the concrete
Forever -revisedA boy, a girl, hand in hand on the swing set. She turns to him and smiles, he meets her eyes, merely five years old and they feel the warmth of another soul. Their parents' smile, cute, they agree. To them, those kids on the swings, it was more. An unknown matter consuming their insides.Forever -revised6 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Forever?" The girl asked, hoping for a yes, begging for one.
The boy shook his head, as her heart sunk he held up a hand, to prevent the spill of tears. 'You misunderstood' his tiny hand said. He stared into her soul, and smiled.
They lay, intertwined on the full sized mattress. The summer heat beat down on them from the window; she smiles as she traces his bare chest. It wasn't the same smile, innocence washed away by sins committed by youthful teens. She smiles a bittersweet smile, remembering the good times, wondering how they ever fell down so far. He stared up at the ceiling; she glanced up at him, wishing he would just speak. But words flowed into arguments; she missed
I did not save her from the sea.The pond was small, the cattails fair;I did not save her from the sea.4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
The algae drew a shining veil
Across the waters waiting there
For her to come while wandering
And stare beyond the dreary pale
Expanse of fog and starry glare
Upon the pond within the dale
Where she had ventured, pondering
The many dreams she'd had of late
Of sandy-shores and broken shells
Upon a beach along a strait
And of the ocean shimmering
She heard the wave's cathedral bells
Come crashing with a dreadful weight
'Till she, afraid of violent swells,
Could no more see the glimmering
Of pearly foam, nor shining seas
But only turbid tempest-doom;
No more the fragrant, salt-laced breeze
That over all was mingling.
Such were her dreamsnow through the gloom
She still heard gulls with throatful ease
Sing of the ocean, and the tune
Around her thoughts kept lingering.
I met her then, when stormy waves
Were breaking on her weary mind
And I was unafraid and brave
And as a child foolishly
Believed that if we left behind
The little pondth
Betrayal of Morphine She was sitting beside the small boy's bed when he opened his shadowy eyes. The first thing he noticed was her hair: it was golden and glowing faintly. He couldn't remember if hair normally did that or not, but it hurt him to look at her; she, like sunlight, burned his eyes in the darkness. In the dim room, in his numb thoughts, the girl's hair looked like a halo, and he imagined he saw her unfold wings and fly away, but then he blinked and she was still there.Betrayal of Morphine6 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The first things the girl noticed were his eyes. They were dark and clouded with pain, flashing like a stormy sky or an emergency light on a sinking ship. They flickered like incandescents losing power; his pupils dilated as he blinked, struggling to focus on her. She looked at the IV meter indicating the level of failing platelets and morphine, and the machine hummed as she watched the blood swirl unfaithfully.
Never forget foreverI told you something that night when we were so cold our bones shookNever forget forever6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Trembling in your wore down high tops I told you something and the next day you didn't remember
You didn't remember when I said "Love me forever?" you said "Of course"
If you didn't take those pills you would have told me again the next night and again and again
Empty ribcages and cracked hipbones I left you alone with a bottle of pills and a loaded gun
I figured you knew what to do instead you wrote a letter in italics and then you walked away
I remembered everything but I'm scared of love that four letter word terrifies me
Love you forever and ever
Frozen tears shattered on the piece of paper smearing every word together spilling black water
I cried for exactly two seconds and then ran out the door to your house there was a gun on the mattress
And another note next to it
I use words not bullets, kill me again and again I'll still never forget forever and ever
Insert Name HereWe are what they tell us;Insert Name Here4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
No matter how strong,
No matter how wrong.
We are moulded by our distrust,
And when needs must,
We just want to be what they can see,
And so let them tell us what we must be,
Even when it hurts.
Tell me who I am;
Who you want me to be,
I'll change if you don't want me.
I just want to be labelled and to belong,
To be known in what life must prolong.
I just want to be what they can see,
And so let them tell me what I must be,
Especially when it hurts.
Tell me who they are;
The suicide kids of now,
Forever wondering how,
They ever got to be who they aren't,
As if they've been told they can't,
Be them and be what the world can see,
And so let themselves be told what they must be,
Then just lie about how it hurts.
Tell me who you could become;
If you followed your dreams,
They've been torn at the seams,
By a bunch of worthless liars,
And drowned out by criers,
Making you a victim of you,
And what you put yourself through.
Because you just want to be what they can s
sunday fallscold in me lingers,sunday falls4 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
the boy's breath frozen with his
soles on the sidewalk.
Did you ever wonderThey were sitting in an empty fieldDid you ever wonder6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Just listening to the wind blow by
He would watch every time a
Leaf rolled passed them
Because he thought it was a sign
He thought that every leaf that went by them
Was like her getting further and further away
He's was truly terrified
Terrified that she would actually leave him one day
She lied back watching the clouds roll in
"Do you ever wonder what it would be like up there?"
He looked over at her
"All the time."
She was surprised by his answer
Since he was really never an unrealistic type
That night she fell asleep in his arms
They never left the field
He awoke to a leaf going by his head
And he held her tight
Hoping that it would never come true
She was dreaming of being high up in the sky
Just floating with the clouds
He was still awake holding her
As close as possible
He didn't want to fall back to sleep
In fear of waking up alone
So he got up slowly trying not
To wake her up
And he started to put all of the leaves in
A big pile
White RosesI remember when I used to live above, on the surface. On top of all of my worries and problems, dealing with them when they came and always moving forward. If I fell down, I would get back up, put a Band-Aid on my scrapes and bruises, and then move on.White Roses6 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Never had I been higher than after I met you. You lifted me up, up where no worries or problems could reach me. You filled me with so much joy, oh, so much that my heart was bursting full of it. Whenever I fell you fell with me and cushioned my fall. You were the one that put on my Band-Aids and took my hand so we could move on side by side. You told me you loved me.
Told. That is what you did. You told me you loved me, not just said it, you told me. I held on to that word that you repeated every moment we had together, and each time you told me my heart felt a little bit lighter; a little bit higher.&
I want reality"Dead rose petals are the prettiest things to me."I want reality6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Live ones are to cliché and I'm far from that
"I don't want to be called darling, gorgeous, or dear those aren't original anymore."
Drop dead gorgeous would be better of course
"I don't want a ring, I want a key instead."
A key to your heart don't you know
"I don't want someone who can tell the truth before even thinking about lying."
Truthful is always better I want to know reality more than anyone else
"I want everything no one else would; I want the bad and the good."
With a twist of non fiction instead of fairytales
Alphabet strangersAnd we'll never learn.Alphabet strangers6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Be okay, alive, amazing.
Can someone be honest all the time?
Ditch the fake personality for five minutes.
Everyone has a purpose, find yours.
Fake a smile maybe it will turn real.
Go some place inspiring.
Help just help.
In to the darkness you never know what's hiding in the shadows.
Just live your life.
Kaleidoscope eyes watching traffic.
Late night lights and blurred vision.
Maybe that random person was right.
No one believes me ever.
Optimists, who looks at the good side first?
Psychotic phrases speaking slowly never helps.
Quiet houses loud thoughts.
Resist the urge.
Silence, what is that?
Tell me a story about a boy and a girl.
Undo everything if only it was possible.
Vast landscapes picture perfect.
Wish upon a shooting star it will never come true.
X rayed to show
ObsessionMonday morning bright and shiningObsession6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
we awake in perfect timing
you drink coffee I hold tea
you can't bear to look at me.
Monday's dress is ripped and torn
I clutch a shirt I've never worn
he said that I can't clean today
you spill my tea and walk away
You think that it's all one big game
that I don't need to dress the same
or plan the minutes, or count the time
or scrub at non-existant grime
or touch each door and turn each key
you think there's nothing wrong with me
and you'd be right, my cure was care
he rescued me from my nightmare
yet still your words stalk my reflection
highlighting each imperfection
Telling me that I'm so strange
yet hating how he made me change
I hide my face but you still see
the cheating, lying, witch in me.
You found the scrapbook's secret place
you ripped across his gentle face
and in his Kleenex, I had kept
you stole his touch and scent, and wept.
you sat in ignorance, fear and shame
you looked for someone else to blame
for the first time
Would you say trueSay the words that come to mindWould you say true6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But don't tell me what you're thinking
Give me awhile, leave me standing in awe
Shock me with your thoughts
Without a word coming out of your mouth
Blinding lights bright nights dark as day
Believe me when I say
Locked in a room with an open door
Ace to ace turns to a heart
Dusty windows clear as wind
Would you believe me if I said that
My life is dead
Just an empty body
Wrap your self in words
Strangled to the point of breath
Plant trees in the clouds
Rain in the ground
So nothing grows alive
Would you live to jump in sky puddles?
And walking on inside out umbrella's
Or would you say this is false
To the point of possible?
the artist.01.the artist.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
the sky was earl grey
and the clouds were steamy sips
and i wanted to drink it all.
the leaves were star yellow
and the bark smelled of coffee
and the bakery was selling a moon made out of cheese.
there was an old man on a bench
he threw his wedding band in the sewer
i cried for him.
the birds were dreams
and the mountains, my obstacles,
tally ho young adventurer tally ho
i ran into an artist today
he drew signs on corner post buildings
but he also gave his lunch to a homeless boy.
my mom holds black holes beneath her eyes
and for the first time in days, she spoke to me,
"i'm worried about you. try to make some friends?"
dear mom, i am trying
i played chess with a man in the park
i helped a girl find her parents
i am content with who i am, mom,
now i am just trying to help others achieve the same.
i ran into the artist again today
and he taught me how to paint
and then he smiled at me and said, "you're different than the rest."
we made plans, me and
ResurrectionResurrection4 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
i see the world with new eyes
now it all begins
Leaving everyone confused"I watched your body slowly go down the drain broken bones and all. It was beautiful completely silent and unforgettable. I watched in awe as you didn't even struggle, you knew what was happening and you knew you couldn't stop it."Leaving everyone confused6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
For everything that you loved
You never once cared about
The people you hurt
Hand wrote about
Every little thing in your life
"Yes, I'll miss you, for a little while. But we all have to move on sometime. I could have told you that I loved you as you looked into my eyes searching for something to say even though you couldn't speak; instead I held your hand and wrote it on your wrist. We all move on."
Lies spew from my mouth
Voices scream for help (in my head)
Even if I ignore them
Frantically searching for an answer
Or maybe just something to shut them up
Radio waves just like radio waves
Dear boy i still love youDear boy,Dear boy i still love you6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You must know I love you. When you come back from that war zone I hope to marry you one day. Its fine back home everyone misses you so much, your smile, your ocean like eyes and you rusty hair that's parted to the left. I miss all of you in one. Come home soon
VerdigrisThe sun was red the day Slicker died. She watched him fall a hundred levels, to shatter against a fat, reinforced gas pipe, shards of him breaking across archways and supports and cables, plummeting into the foggy void below. His blud drenched a cluster of backup valves. It dripped from the nozzles, thick and syrupy.Verdigris6 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Slicker was unsticking the gears on the Bigtime, with such focus that he paid no attention to the approach of the Quickhand, making its minute-long journey around the Bigtime's face. He had clamped safety cables to the supports, but was careless. The Quickhand caught a support line, and dragged him off the gears, sending him plummeting. The Bigtime was in such poor repair that the other clamps had torn free, sending scraps of rusted steel along with Slicker to his death.
Shine had tried to shout a warning, but Slicker couldn't hear. Or wouldn't. Slicker loved his work, loved the way things ran smoothly when he was finished. Mostly, he loved it when things worked, as
I Have NeverI Have Never4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have never quite forgiven myself
I have never felt like I deserve better
I have never felt so depressed
And I guess I have never felt love
I have never had a smaller hope
I have never had so much faith
I have never cried so many times
And I guess I have never felt so lost
I have never ever been so thoughtful
I have never in my dreams grinded so wide
I have never lost my faith in you
But I guess, that's why it hurts
Covered up by pretty words"Looking into you're eyes is like starring into a galaxy."Covered up by pretty words6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What he doesn't know is that his almost perfect words don't work anymore
What he does know is that there is something wrong
In a confused state he walks away not knowing is always better
But you know, you know everything; everything is scary
Left alone wondering
Left alone scared to death
Left alone flee the scene
Left alone to be suspect
Perfect boys, they aren't possible
This one left to be un-perfect
Given the chances I should have known
Let him leave, left to be forgotten
Give him a week he'll take an eternity
Play by the rules not to get hurt by unsuspected changes
Just say what you need to say
Actually don't speak
Don't tell me a single thing
I'm done with all of the pretty things
Let's be real for once
Life is ugly
Covered up by pretty words
What if i'm deadAn airplane dropped out of the sky yesterday afternoon, I was one of the passengersWhat if i'm dead6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wasn't scared but I didn't die I'm still alive somehow I was the only one
Last night a train slid off the tracks (don't ask me how) I was one of the people in it
I wasn't horrified or anything you know it happens every day, I lived
In the morning hours someone road their bike through traffic I didn't wear a helmet
I wanted to see why all of this was happening I still do not know but I lived
I'm scared that I might live forever
And sometimes my hands shake so much that the solar system quivers
My lungs feel like when someone lets go of a balloon before they tie it
My heart beats so fast that it just might pry itself right out of my chest
But other times I can't feel anything it's like I'm Dead
growing up.five a.m and we were strolling down the sidewalks, like mice or streelights dancing. we pretended to be special and when you looked at the sky and said, all of my dreams are of thisgrowing up.6 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
i tried to understand. when we were eight years old you pushed me, too hard, and i fell and my knees bled and i was a baby begging for someone to hold me. but you just looked at me and said, you know, you have to hurt sometimes.
you'll never grow up otherwise.
and i didn't understand and i didn't want to try to.
five years later and here we are, you in whoknowswhere chasing the sky with some guy that's going to abandon you for someone better someday, maybe today and you'll turn to me, a baby begging again, and i'll say, he's not worth it, but i won't mean it.
because you'd do the same to him if you had the chance and you've done the same to me. and the truth is we're all hypocrites, we're all liars and thieves and we're always the person we never wanted to be.
and i guess, in retrospect, i would have loved
easteri'm in the back of the car, sucking my chlorine hair and watching with sleepy eyes out the window. brown dirt is soon ochre and we are nowhere in particular yet. we are going to the atheton tablelands for easter. i fall into a broken sleep on my sister's warm shoulder and when i wake up we are there.easter6 years ago in Biography & Memoir More Like This
it is nighttime and my cousin is only still a baby and she cries from inside the house (which is really only a very large shed). out of the car the air is like freezer air but fresh and crisp like cold water. my eyes become wide at the rolling of the hills around us, the living green they are, the horse paddocks, the shapely trees. there is a loud, insistent buzzing of myriad thumbnail sized insects slamming themselves against us, and walls, towards the light. they scare me and i go inside, under blankets. i am still tired and softly i ease back into sleep on a mattress on the floor.
when i wake up i am the only one awake, even the sun is still sleeping. when i'm the only one awake i like