Something To Lose.Is this all I am to you?
Just something to lose?
Someone to hurt?
To hit and abuse?
For that would leave marks
Not even mentally
You go straight for the heart
Like a waterfall cascading
It won't ever stop
I'll be here still waiting
Or so I once thought
I can never fight this feeling
But I can't help that it's here
Maybe it'd be best
If I could just disappear...
Just Let Me DieLet me die with dignityJust Let Me Die3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's the least that you could do
I dug this grave for me
But you can lay here too
And, no, it's not your fault
You don't have to say goodbye
This blood is on my hands
So don't you even try
I can't get a fresh breath
Your words hanging in the air
As still as certain death
But they're getting us nowhere
And you'll cry your last tear
As we lie here in waiting
Just to be forgotten
Our memory fading
Our lips press together
In one final kiss
Our one final effort
To re-right our sins
And it's here we'll die together
Just broken memories
We don't have to wait forever
To hear the angels sing
But still I beg of you
Let me die with dignity
It's the least that you could do
Unless you want to die with me...
I'm Sorry, Darling...I'm sorry you're disappointedI'm Sorry, Darling...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But believe me I really try
To be your one and only
Please, darling, please don't cry
I'm sorry I can't be
One hundred percent perfect
But even if I was
Would I still even be worth it
I'm sorry there are things
That not even I can do
I can't get far on paper wings
But darling, we aren't through
I'm sorry I'm nothing more
Than a step above worthless
But even if I was
I still wouldn't have a purpose
I'm sorry there are times
When you feel like you're broken
I'll be there and you'll be fine
Darling, let's just be open
I'm sorry I didn't know
How much you were really hurting
I guess it goes to show
That I'm less than undeserving...
Broken FramesIn the morning when my eyes first openBroken Frames3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Will you be there or will I be alone
Cause I hate that you left me still broken
To fend for myself still all on my own
Reflections are marred with cracks and scratches
Nothing remains but remnants of our trust
And how nothing else ever attatches
You have to let go and this is a must
Even if we were to try to repair
Nothing could fix this not after that fall
I know you do when you say you don't care
Maybe it's best you say nothing at all
Get on your knees and stop playing these games
You'll see what I see behind broken frames
Optimistically PessimisticThere's brokenOptimistically Pessimistic3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Then there's shattered to the core
There's saying I don't care
Or I don't love you anymore
And theres frustratingly out of reach
There are lessons left to learn
But those lessons they'll never teach
There are promises
Then there are hollow and empty lies
There are moments that you treasure
And moments you want to die
And there's tired of going on
There is waiting for forever
But forever will never come...
Sharpen The KnifeI remember her eyesSharpen The Knife3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They were so very bright
But they could never disguise
All the pain kept inside
In this world that's so grey
All washed up in our pain
The pain of the heartbreak
And cuts on my wrist
Just one more mistake
I thought that you loved me
But just look at all this
It's fallen apart
The words never spoken
And just like my heart
This silence is broken
The dark crimson sky
Blocks out the sun
As everything good
It all comes undone
So all that's left
Is the thought of you
But that leaves me
With nothing to do
The love that I gave you
Was never enough
When the world is what I gave you
You simply just shrugged
I laugh to hide the pain away
Smile to fake I'm fine today
But at the end of everyday
I know I'm not okay
Yes, I had it all
And you were my life
But now you're gone
So I'll just sharpen this knife...
Resonating.Don't, make, me, hateResonating.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All the memories we have made
Don't, let, me, cry
Please don't leave me here tonight
Please, don't, fake
Cause I can see all the mistakes
Please, don't, try
To brush the truth off with your lies
I, swear, to, God
That I'm still here, I'm finally fading
With each breath that I'm still taking
Knees are weak, my hands still shaking
Feel my heart beat as it's breaking...
Tonight.I swear I'm trying to hold on,Tonight.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But I know I'm losing the fight,
I just want it all to be gone,
I want that tonight.
I can't keep this fake smile,
Any longer upon my face,
I'll let it slip for a while,
I'll hide out in this place.
Somewhere in-between death and life,
Feel the cold spreading through,
As for the final time I drop the knife.
This time the rumours will be true.
Of how she took her sorry life,
Cut it short and disappeared,
Escaped the trouble and the strife,
She was more fucked up than we first feared.
Now she is gone far away,
Another name upon the list,
The memories of her will soon stray,
The fuck up girl will no longer exist.
I'm Alive..?Don't try to see the good in meI'm Alive..?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cause it's hidden behind lock and key
I never let anyone inside
Won't let them wipe the tears I've cried
I don't think they'd really care
If they knew of all the scars I bear
They try to make me feel less worthless
But I know that I deserve this
For still having a beating heart
I'm trying not to fall apart
Just take me
Make me feel
Erase these lies
Tell me what's real
Hold me close
Hold me all night
Make me feel like
Why do I cutWhy do I cut?Why do I cut3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sometimes I don't know why
There are so many reasons to cut
And so many reasons not to
It began as a plea
A plea to those around me
A plea for help
I didn't know what to do with myself
I needed help
And I didn't know how to help myself
So I cut
Then it was a punishment
I made myself suffer for being me
I made myself hurt for being on the edge of society
I made myself bleed for my awkwardness
I was on the outside looking in
Jealous that life came so easily to others
So I cut
Next it was an art form
I couldn't comprehend what was going on
I didn't understand why I was dragged into darkness
I couldn't explain my pain to myself
I didn't know why it was happening
I couldn't fathom the pain
I only began to recognize what it was
When my limbs were covered in bleeding cuts
It wouldn't make sense without visualization
So I cut
Now it is a comforter
I am haunted every moment
By dark feelings
That can't seem to be explained
Even when I am fine
I can't help but look over my shoulder
Emotionless KissIt's not like I can even fight it so why do I still attempt..Emotionless Kiss3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
To drag myself out of my self created lament..?
I tried to make things right but I can't force out your repent...
You're standing right next to me so why do you feel so distant?!
I only wish
To take your hand
Pull you in close
And do everything that I can
To keep you
I wanted to make you mine
Though I waited and waited
You never gave me a sign
It's not like I try to hide it so why is it that you ignore me?
I've got no one to confide in and you won't even reassure me...
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally start missing me...
It's strange that when I'm dead how you'll finally start listening..
And I hope
That you're happy with this
We can try to save ourselves
With an emotionless kiss
But it's too late
You've missed your chance
Let your love die
And lost out on our romance
I really wish that you could hear me as I'm crying out in pain..
But in this blanketing darkness nothing ever will look the same...
Waking UpI wake up again in the middle of the nightWaking Up3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Cold sweat dripping I don't know if I'm alright
Cause it's the millionth time
That I've dreamt you were mine
But now I see
It's only me
With no one else
I'm by myself...
I can hear my heartbeat echo off these walls
As I wander aimlessly through these desolate halls
I keep thinking that I'm hearing your desperate call
But that's just me pretending trying so hard not to fall
I listen to the wind as it whispers by me
But the words that it speaks aren't registering
I listen to the rain as it pours to the ground
I'm looking for you but you're nowhere around
I really fucking hate being alone
Always looking like I've got somewhere to go
When the truth of it all is that I have no home
But I lie say I like being on my own
I'm stumbling down the side of an empty street
Struggling just to stand, to stay on my feet
I can't seem to forget you or this defeat
I can feel the world around me begin to sink
I'm looking at the horizon and a setting sun
The 'Me' I Really AmI'm staring into a mirrorThe 'Me' I Really Am3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Into the depths of my own eyes
It's never been any clearer
That I can't even recognize
This person in place of where my reflection should be!
You can't possibly tell me that this person is really me!
I look up to the sky
And I pray for some kind of guidance
I sit alone listening
But all that I hear is silence
Tell me where have you gone, or where you could even be!
Why aren't you here now, 'cause you're all that I really need!
I've looked inside of myself
I've tried to be someone else
I've tried just living a lie
But that still didn't help
I cannot stand who I am or the person that I've become!
I know that I'm not alone but I feel like the only one!
My heart and it's isolation
This darkness I try to hide
Weaved an elaborate fabrication
Of lies that I believed without so much as a second thought!
But I can't let them go 'cause they're what I know and all I've got!
One More Mistake.With every word that I sayOne More Mistake.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
With every smile I fake
Every moment I live
I'm making one more mistake...
All the tears that I've cried
Have fallen unnoticed
No matter how hard I try
Nobody will know this...
Every friend that I've made
Everything I create
With every door that I open
I'm making one more mistake...
I hate what I've done
And this person that I've become
I hate these scars on my wrist
Is there no ending to this...?
With every beat of my heart
With every breath that I take
Every day I wake up
Is just another mistake...
Savior.I have this darkness deep inside me,Savior.3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
It's what influenced this writing.
I can't control it, I can't fight it,
Barely know it, and can't hide it.
I'm just a mess with no ambition;
So much less than I envisioned.
How much more can I endure?
I don't know, I'm not too sure...
I'm not myself when I'm alone,
And yet I find I'm on my own.
I'm like a lock without a key,
There is no perfect fit for me!...
You're not alone.
Don't think like that.
Pick your head up.
I believe in you.
You can do it.
I love you...
Are you here to prove me wrong?
To make me see the brighter dawn?
With this darker side, this part of me,
How can you love someone like me?
I don't care, I'm glad you do...
Where would I be if it weren't for you?
You pulled me through the worst of times,
I never thought I'd call you mine...
Yes, I'm a mess, but this mess is forever yours.
Together we can unlock and open up these remaining doors.
And I'm not backing down as long as you're by my side...
Hold on to my hand and we'l
You AreYou are the rain...You Are3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That washes away...
All of my pain...
You are the sky...
On a cloudless black night...
So full of stars...
Makes me feel so alive...
You are the one...
The one I'll wait for...
Forever and always...
Of this, I am sure...
You are my life...
My one reason why...
I'll never give up...
I promise you this...
No matter what...
(And I can't thank you enough!)
Without YouOpen my eyes, to one more day of lifeWithout You3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
(I'm just slipping through)
But I don't try to do much more than survive
(It's pointless without you)
Just one more time, I'd like to say you're mine
(And let it be true)
I can't escape, this tormented fate, not without you
Now I'm searching
But my eyes are blind
There's nobody here
There's nothing to find
And I'm left standing
Broken in tears
My heart is gone
I'm losing my mind
I've always hated myself, and wished I didn't exist
(I know I'm imperfect)
Let myself be decieved, by the taste of your kiss
(Was this really worth it?)
On my wrist, another scar laid to rest on my skin
(Do they have a purpose?)
There's always been some kind of problem, embedded within
And I'm left standing
Fighting back to tears
Days go by
Still nobody here
Now I'm broken
I left them behind...
Scared To BlinkEvery time I close my eyesScared To Blink3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
All I see is this vision
It's you standing there
With your lips pressed to theirs
I try to believe that it's a lie
But it isn't
And then my whole world
Becomes shattered once more
I want to erase it
But it keeps coming back
I just want to forget it
But it remains still intact
The wounds are still fresh
And the blood is still pouring
Feel my heart in my chest
And all the pain I'm ignoring
I really want to tell you
But I can't bring it up
Cause that will reopen doors
That should remain tightly shut...
The Story of UsIt's just beneath the skinThe Story of Us3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Her heart so paper thin
It fell and broke again
It's all because of him
Left her for what she was
A broken shattered soul
She can't believe she can
Repair her heart to whole
She's tried so many things
To ease the pain inside
But she still feels its sting
In each tear she's cried
But then you came along
You took this broken girl
Made her believe she's strong
You have become her world
Look deep into her eyes
Let all the pain subside
Return the tears she's cried
Don't ever leave her side
She's fallen hard for you
Please don't betray her trust
You may have heard this too
This is the story of us...
The Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once Knew3 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
We used to talk everyday.
Laughing, talking and spending time together.
I never thought me and you would stray.
I assumed we would be this close forever.
Now your number is never in use.
You're just a photo in my frame of mind.
It went from mutual respect to absolute abuse.
A bond like ours is difficult to find.
I occasionally think of you and wonder how your doing.
Wonder what you look like and if you still talk the same.
Imagine what your doing with life and what dreams you are pursuing.
Despite everything that happened my memories of you will always remain.
I knew you for a while and you made an impact on my life.
Sometimes I wish things could go back to how they once were.
Dry my tears and remove the jagged bloody knife.
Envision what my life would be like if that incident never occurred.
Would we still be close and have that same connection.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be we were destined for different things.
I just wish I got the chance to apologise and compl
A Reason to LivePlease wipe your tearsA Reason to Live3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Next time you cry
Stand up strong, revitalize
Cause when you feel
You've lost it all
And you're just about
To take the fall
When you think
That no one cares
When you wonder
Why life's not fair
What's in my eyes
You're the reason
That I'm alive...
My Last BreathBreathe inMy Last Breath3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Taking my last breath
My last breath of air
Promise me someone
Just promise you care
Falling one last time
Collapse to the ground
I tried to hold on but
You're way to far now
Taking my last breath
My last breath of life
Please somebody promise
Just say I'm alright
Tried Everything..Another day left to waste awayTried Everything..3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Another night searching for you
Another memory that haunts me
Here comes the pain
It's almost like I can hear you
But you're so far away...
Another moment without you
Another minute passes by
Another part of my heart dies
Another tear I'm bound to cry
It's almost like I can feel you
I know I can't but I still try...
There are so many things
That I just want to shout
And there is so much more
I knew nothing about
Just having you here with me
Leaves me without a doubt
You're heavens trying everything
You're heaven trying everything
To keep me out
Crushed.I know how upsetCrushed.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That you've got to be
And I feel it too
Cause it's part of me
That I'd never hurt you
But as it would seem
That's all I can do
And I tried so hard
Just to make things be right
I guess not enough
We both still cried here last night
That I still love you
Even though things
Are so misconstrued
I know how much
That it must have crushed you
Believe me I know
Cause it wasn't just you...
Something More...You stole every one of my dreams and left me all on my own!Something More...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
But you can't take all this pain 'cause it's all that I've ever known!
If only I could've noticed that you were changing long before!
Maybe it's just me but I thought we were something more!
I thought you'd be the one that would actually fucking care!
And even though you said you'd be, you're still not even there!
I've always felt like I was living without a purpose!
Thanks for being the one to help confirm that I'm worthless!
Losing you is the worst pain that I could endure!
Please show some kind of mercy 'cause I can't take it anymore!
How many more times can you pick me up to let me fall?!
Do you feel no regret, can you feel nothing at all?!
Before you walk away for good and mark me off your list!
Let me give your story my own sick little twist!
Tell me if you can see the scars I bear upon my wrist!
I know that you don't care but we were something more than this!
What is the point now?
(I thought that I knew what