Mad Doll MakerAfraid to Close my eyesMad Doll Maker4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
for when I do
I relive my existence with you.
When I close my eyes
I see your once mesmerizingly beautiful eyes.
I see the eyes of my jailer
and my lover of once upon a time.
You kept me locked away so you have your way
so no one would see your "lovely" crime.
Your workshop was my home
as you made me your pretty toy.
You cut and slashed away my flesh bit by tiny bit
slowly chipping my "imperfections" away.
You bashed away until my will to rebel was finally split
so I would play your twisted games.
You made me into your doll.
You made me believe this torture was love.
My eyes pleaded and screamed my agony
for if I spoke out of turn you would come upon me again.
I was such a pretty doll when i played by your rules.
you ravished me and slashed at me until I screamed and cried,
swearing to obey.
You always painted me so well so no one would realize
and finally see that I was living in hell!
Empty PersonI didn't know my heart could break anymore,Empty Person5 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
to shatter a heart down to the core.
To break someones heart before it even has a chance to love again.
Will i ever love again?
Do i even have a heart anymore,
is there anything beating in my chest,
will this hollow feeling ever go away.
All i try to do is do my best,
to stop my lethal thought.
Trying not to cry,
trying to save whats left of my twisted soul.
Still heal from the knife in my back,
i wonder whose going to twist it next.
The Silver DaggerStab my back & twist the knife,The Silver Dagger5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
put me out of my misery.
The pain you caused me may haunt me for life.
Agony swirls in this hollow husk of the girl i used to be.
How could you not see what your lies were doing to me,
or did u just not care?
The only mistake was not seeing past your lies,
you broke my heart for no reason other than your own greed.
Now the world is full of regret shown by never ending sighs.
Where is the love & care you once decreed?
The other one, what does she have that i don't?
Now she has one more thing i have to live without.
Every time you said "i promise i won't" only fed me doubt.
You used to be the reason for the sun to shine,
but now you bring the darkness.
You used to be my very own drug,
the one who would cloud my awareness.
You used to into my head & i would smile,
now every time you come around all i can do is cry.
Now please just...
Stab my back & twist the knife,
please bring my agony to an end.
New Feelings, New FearsI love to talk to him,New Feelings, New Fears4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I love to hear his voice,
I love that he understands,
And he listens,
And he won't run away, but
he'll fight if I start to put
my walls back up.
And he'll stay up for almost 4
Talking to me 'til 1:30 over
And 4:30 over there...
and he doesn't mind the lack of
He calls me beautiful,
Says I'm caring and helpful,
And I just... I don't know what to say.
I don't know how to say what I want,
without having it written down.
I wish I did, I hate being the only one
getting all these amazing things said to
But I just... I don't know.
And... I'm scared.
I know he says, "Don't be,"
but I am.
I have this background on my phone,
and it sums it up pretty well:
"I'm scared because... I don't want
anyone else to have you heart, I don't
want anyone else to kiss your lips, I
don't want anyone else to be in your
arms, I don't want anyone else to be the
one you love... I'm scared because I
don't want anyone else to take my place."
SpiritsIn this room the dead still gatherSpirits4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Obtrusive in a reflection I can only see
They mock my seclusion every hour
Forever haunting each gray dream
When the clock strikes witching hour
Awaken I am by disdainful laughter
Cursing them back to Hell's black fire
Yet they stay, forever faithful to their master
Again the sun ascends, vigilant at its post
The darkest hour sneaks inside the day
Sitting, always staring, is an ill begotten ghost
Sipping from a bottle of my finely aged shame
Running, always fleeing, I am hunted like a prize
Craving still the essence of a tainted, tattered soul
Feeding off my spirit even right before my eyes
Hear me puzzle master; I am one piece short of whole
Digging Up The PastWhat is the past to you, I'm askedDigging Up The Past4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why, the past is a corpse, my friend
It cannot live, it cannot breathe
And you cannot be there again
Unearth it, dissect it
Prop it up in a chair
Learn from it what you can
For you cannot live there
I.should you wish for me to dieI.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I will bury myself in Craft, with
libraries immortal and pages that birth dust
like roses erupting in their awakening
like nebulas emerging from slumber
I will consume phoenix ash and nightshade
the bodies of gods and priests will crumble
beneath my pagan hands, blasphemer's teeth
white as chalk, from which I draw my
stars with points like baphomet's smile
in the depths of winter should you wish me dead
like the foam on Venus's form, snow
that has gathered on the arches of your feet
will melt as I warm myself with the vehemence
of my loathing and loving
should you wish for me to die
I will be rendered immortal from spite
in my own immovable pride
should love choose to escape me
it will be that the chance was lost to have it
No Heaven, For I am a DemonJust wanting you to knowNo Heaven, For I am a Demon5 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
That I want you to go
Far away from me
So you can leave me to grieve
You standing there, holding out your hand
I'm not worth it, you don't understand
I'm not good for you
If you trust me I will rip you in two.
I am your enemy this time
I'm the one who did this crime
I'm not your friend that you can trust
Every emotion coming off of you is a rush
Love, Faith, Trust and Caring
I don't have any of those emotions your sharing
I'm not capable of loving
I always hurt the ones close to me, so I cover
My eyes and hide away from everyone.
I push everyone away
Even the ones who want to stay
I don't belong here
I don't deserve to have happiness here
I belong down below, not here nor up there.
So I close my eyes and wish I was there
Leaving everyone, so no one has to care
Can't say goodbye, for those I can not bare
I do not deserve to live this precious life.
No one should have to see,
A demon like me.
I feel unrealI feel outdatedI feel unreal4 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
Like a memory now faded
I feel lost and alone
No soul just skin and bone
I feel invisible
Singular, not divisible
I feel disregarded
A puzzle set, barely started
I feel surrounded
I feel abandoned
I feel shut out
Like I've been locked out
I feel unloved
A math problem waiting to be solved
I feel unwanted
My feelings are daunted
I feel withdrawn
Brokenhearted when you're gone
I feel unreal.
Burn.Burn.Burn.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Burn out the memories that is forever encased in gold
Forever weighing hard onto my black decaying soul.
Burn out the pages of the memories that is now permenant onto my heart
Something that was long lost forgotten no long regaining it's start.
Burn my heart so it no longer can beat
No longer running and no longer bleak.
So my feelings are no longer there to be seen.
My Heart On PaperYesterday she loved me, today she's goneMy Heart On Paper4 years ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
thought I found the one, guess I was wrong.
I don't know what I mean to her,
she doesn't know what she means to me.
I always want more to occur
but at the same time doubt it's meant to be.
I made a move out of not knowing what to do
but even long before that I think I lost you.
This is my heart on paper
these words staring back at you.
Lose a piece of us with every letter,
holding back tears while pouring forth truth.
My word is all I've got, all you can see
my hope is you, my fear is me.
What stands in our way isn't as great as we could be
I'm not always right so am I wrong when I think you want me?
I don't get the anwers I want, don't know what to ask
so when do we get started, and this time will it last?
I swear you don't know what you mean to me, what I'd do,
I'd give you my all, along with a bleeding heart
and my fleeting soul, my eyes to see and lungs to breathe.
This is my heart on paper
these words staring back at you.
Lose a piece of us