::+Away From The World+::_written poem
Lying here in anguish and pain with no relief
Holding on to memories of love
That no longer exist but my own defeat
I cry black tears and
They stain my cheeks
The only thing that
Is keeping me alive
Is the air I breathe inside
But I remember love and
The joy it gave me
I remember laughter and happiness...
But it all disappeared along
With all those I loved long ago
My memory of "my friends" is vague
But it doesn't matter they never truly liked me
For who I was anyways
I thought I would find love
In a best friend of my own,
But that just added more grief
Because in the end that person left me
To face my sorrow alone
I don't remember being this way,
I just remember waking up like this
And not being able to think for myself
I sit in this dark place
Wallowing on memories
That were full of love,
But they can't save me,
No one can. I'm better off deserted,
Away from the world....
.::+Alone+::._written story.::+Alone+::._written story4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
There once was a girl
Who was all alone
She used to be happy
Until taken out of
Her comfort zone
She built up walls
They were so tall,
They could reach the sky
She didn't want
To hear the world
And all of its lies
Every day was the same
Tears in the morning and
Tears at night
What was there for her
Besides unhappiness and spite?
She hated the world
She hated herself
She hated everything alive
She just wanted the
Pain to stop, she
Just wanted to die
What future did she have
Nothing but tears and sorrow
Every day would be the same
Because every day was tomorrow
But in her heart
There is still a little
Drop of hope
She wants to be rescued one day
She doesn't want to be alone....
Bullied1, 2, bullied at school.Bullied4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
3, 4, cut some more.
5, 6, punched and kicked.
7, 8, suicidal state.
9, 10, now I'm dead.
Where were you?Murky eyes can't smile at meWhere were you?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As your mouth twists up its lies;
Strain to think but you wont see
how these lies hurt me inside.
I shouldn't care, i paste my grin on;
This selfishness i hide.
Never want to be a burden
So Flaws control my Life.
Sit and watch my fantasies
Before they all burn down.
I talk at you, you try to see
But you'll never understand.
It may be true to say the least,
You're not an honest man;
So when your Faux love finally ceased
Not a tear was found.
Your Former AngelWatch these broken wings,Your Former Angel4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
As they fall dawn to the floor.
I'm sorry, it's just that,
I'm not your Angel anymore.
See the blackened scars,
That stain this battered frame,
The marks of pure self hatred,
Oh, Isn't it a shame?!
See the rope burn round the throat,
That you once so gently kissed,
But you don't really care do you?
This Angel won't be missed.
Don't you see you caused this,
By feeding me your lies,
Now you can stand and watch,
As your former Angel dies.
Love Can Not LastLove Can Not Last4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
Love can not last
The feeling leaves fast
You will find
That it is a waiste of your time
If you try
You will fry
Into the greases of depression
Hate and misery will rise
Now that you have opened your eyes
Now you can see through her lies
It is time
You will find
That you need to grow up
And see that she is one big slut
Come on and see
And look through your misery.
AloneI dim the lights,Alone3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And turn on the TV,
Even though I'm not watching I leave it on,
It's the news, seems like another fight,
Why's the world so violent?
I take my time going to sleep,
I close my eyes,
I see someone's face,
I think I recognize her,
But I can't remember her name,
Who is she?
With eyes like that it must be a sign,
But I brush it aside,
Even in my fantasies,
I'm afraid of showing my feelings inside.
What's wrong with me?
My life isn't that bad
What's wrong with me?
I won't accept that I'm sad
I'm not, am I?
Am I? I don't know
The next day, I go to school,
I hear laughter,
Is someone talking to me?
I hear voices after all,
Though I can't make out any of them
Is there something wrong with my hearing?
There must be.
Even thought people are laughing,
I wonder how many are faking it,
How many are wearing masks behind their depression?
I look around and find my group of friends,
Is that the right word to describe them?
Sometimes I wonder
SmileSmile and forget your worriesSmile4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Smile; let them see you're happy
Smile and hide behind this mask
Smile; submit to the façade
Smile and think that you're happy
Smile; think that you're safe
Smile and start dying inside
Smile; become emotionless
Smile and become nothing
A Rape Story (What You Didn't Know)That very day that changed it allA Rape Story (What You Didn't Know)3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My innocence slowly taken away
My breaking point, my time to fall
Because a man needed to have his way.
Held down, beaten and bruised
Never to be the same again
No one believes a word I say
"She's just crazy, he's such a good man".
He made me believe that it was my fault
Picking up that first blade
The cold, the pain, everything
Made those feelings go away.
"She's crazy, have you seen her wrists?"
Acting like I can't hear you
I hear every damn whisper
Do you even know what I've gone through?
I've stopped, I'm fine
No more cuts on my wrist
And they'll believe that stupid lie
Like my depression doesn't exist.
And I'm fine with them not knowing
To hide from their judgmental stares
I'll wear long sleeves, say I'm just cold
And hide my razors in teddy bears.
So You Pray For Me?You say you pray for meSo You Pray For Me?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You pray for my well-being
Then why do you tear me to shreds with unspoken words
With actions that could make souls falter and crumble to dust
I'm sick of your holier than thou life
I'm sick of you retracting your words, your promises
I'm sick of you saying you wish me well
When you're handing me death
I hope one day you get what you have given to me
I hope one day you feel this heartache
I hope one day you feel these emotions I've become to know so well
The emotions that tear through my chest and put a death grip on my heart
The emotions that make life an overrated thought
I hope one day you find what you left behind
I hope you see the beauty in what you thought was nothing useful
I hope you want it, and long for it,
And realize its no longer yours
I hope you contemplate the act of breathing
Because you realize you made a mistake
And we will see if you can learn
these death defying maneuvers as you go
The ones I have mastered so beautifully, so perfectly
Victim to DesireI see where it all went wrong now.Victim to Desire4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I looked back at what I was too afraid to see before.
I see what made my heart stop beating;
veins stop bleeding.
I see now why it hurt so badly.
I see now why it tore me apart.
I see now why I took the risk;
jumped the c
Help Me..?I thought I hitHelp Me..?4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I thought I could
Only go up now
I though it was
Hard then . . .
Letting go of the wall
I fall faster
It wasnt the bottom
Just a shelf
I cant see anymore
Nothing but black
A bit farther everyday
Not getting better
I hope for light
But I learn
The black only gets darker