Happy Birthday Dad
Our table of four
feels especially lonely tonight
as we all sneak a glance at the empty chair
that has not been used in two years.
Dust has gathered upon the chair
and books have been piled on top of it.
No one sits in the chair.
It just does not feel right.
I try very hard not to cry.
My mother has already sobbed during dinner
and my sister and I looked at the ground with a pained look
at hearing our mother's cries.
After dinner I walk out into the dark night.
The air is cold, but I don't mind.
My hands are in my pockets
and my hood covers my saddened face.
I walk to my old elementary school park
and sit on the old creaky swing.
Tears fill my eyes and I try to hold them back.
My hands begin to turn red from my tight grip on the chains.
The tears finally spill out of my eyes
and I look up to the clear black sky.
The stars are shining brightly
and I almost feel a bit of relief looking up at the sky.
I smile slightly and begin to sing
the "Happy Birthday" song to my dad.
The stars of the
Running Away from YouRunning Away from You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A bright light wakes me from a deep sleep.
I cover my eyes with my hand
and slowly sit up.
I finally open my eyes to an empty white room.
My bed has disappeared and I now lay on a cold floor.
I slowly rise and look around the room and
All I see is white.
Suddenly, I hear a very distinct laugh.
I quickly turned around to see if anyone is there,
but I see no one.
The laugh echos through the room once again.
I start to circle around the room
to find the person who I knew the laugh belonged too.
"Dad?" I said in a shakey voice.
After circling around the room several times
I see a figure in the distance.
It seems like it is coming closer and closer to me
and all I can do is stare at it as it comes.
I finally can make out the features of the figure:
A little over six feet tall.
Short brown hair.
Light green eyes.
My heart stops when I realize who the figure is.
The man stops right in front of me
He extends a hand towards me,
not saying a word.
My mouth is wide open.
Too lateToo late4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The sky is dyed black.
The clouds conceal any stars that would be overhead.
The road goes as far as the eye can see.
Only a few tail lights are seen on the long, straight path.
My eyes are focused on the dark road ahead of me.
My speedometer reads at about 75 miles per hour.
The radio can be faintly heard
as I continue to speed down the interstate.
Suddenly, I feel a light touch on my arm.
I turned my head quickly to the right
and my heart skipped a beat.
No words could come to my mouth except for one:
My dad was sitting in the passenger's seat
Smiling at me.
I could see the light in his green eyes
as we passed a car on the interstate.
He lifted his arm and pointed back towards the road
and said in an eerily calm voice:
I swiftly turned my head back towards the road
and saw I was about to collide right into a truck.
I slammed on the brakes,
but I knew it was going to be no use.
I turned back towards my dad
and tried to say good bye to him.
The words were in my throa
Haunting QuestionsHaunting Questions4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I saw your life slowly drain from your body.
And what did I do?
You hid it from all of us:
I didn't know.
My sister didn't know.
Even my mom didn't know,
How awful you felt.
You couldn't even fake a smile anymore.
Sleep was the only way you knew how to escape
From the torturous thoughts inside of you.
Now I stay awake,
Wondering if there was anyway I could of helped you.
I barely sleep at night anymore because
The torturous thoughts inside keep me wide awake.
Could I have made a difference?
One more hug.
One more I love you.
One more question.
Could I have saved you from your torment?
I am told there is nothing I could of done:
No way I could of saved him.
No way to bring back the man I once knew.
No way to change what has happened.
No way to save my father from himself.
Could he really not be saved?
I will never know.
As I stare into the pitch black room with tired eyes,
I just have to wonder:
Will this question haunt me for the rest of my days?
AloneAlone4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wake up in a dark room
with a flickering candle in the corner of the room.
I rub my eyes and slowly rise up,
seeing that you are standing on the otherside of the room.
Your back is facing towards me.
I call out your name and you turn around
to give me one of your famous smiles.
Then, you start walking away from me.
I see the smile on your face fading
and I begin to run after you.
I ran as fast as I can,
but I could never seem to catch up to you.
Both of us were heading towards the darkness.
The candle's light grows dim,
but I don't care.
All I want is to find you
and head back towards the light.
I extend my hand towards you
and scream your name as loud as I can.
You glance back at me,
trying to give me another smile,
but it is obvious that the smile is forced.
You turn away and keep walking away from me.
I stop running and watch you walk away,
not realizing that my arm is still extended.
I scream your name one last time,
but to no avail.
You disappear into the darkness
and I am left
DadDad5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Your laugh was contagious.
Your smile made me feel so warm,
Your hug made all my problems simply go away,
Your advice still helps me to this day.
Now that you are gone,
What should I do?
I really need your words.
I really need your warmth.
You left so suddenly.
The flashing lights around your body.
The tears streaming down my face,
as I saw your lifeless body taken away.
Life has been so different without you.
I miss hearing your laugh.
I miss your kindness.
I miss you.
I will always treasure the memories I had with you.
Even if it was cut so short.
Thank you for always being there.
I love you dearly Dad.
ForgottenThis crushing painForgotten4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This endless loss
This hope is vein
Your heart is frost
I love you so
Can't let you go
Can't breathe a word
Tears freely flow
Have you forgotten already
the love we shared?
Have you forgotten already
us, the perfect pair?
Do you even hear me
I'm bleeding inside,
bleeding myself out.
What's lost is lost
But I can't give up.
What's gone is gone
But I still love.
You won't remember
come a few years time
that you broke my heart
and that I tried to die
You won't remember
when all is done
those days of life,
when we still danced
in the sun.
Do itDo it4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My mind keeps urging me
and pushing me to fix
everything with one simple solution.
These two simple words
become twisted and consumed
into the confused mess that is my mind.
"Your friends don't understand,
you are just a burden to them.
Do it and give them peace.
Do it so they don't have to see you sad anymore."
I stare into the darkness
each and every night.
The darkness consumes me
and doesn't dare let me go.
"You see the way you make your mother cry?
She would be better off without you.
All the bills you keep rolling in for her to pay,
Do it and give your mother some relief."
Tears form in my dark brown eyes.
I restlessly move around on the bed,
desperate for sleep,
but consumed in my own thoughts instead.
"Your father was very important to you.
Do it and you two will be together again.
Do it and you two will be able to talk once more.
Do it and all of your sadness will be gone."
"You know you want to do it.
You know you want to see him again.
I'm A Mess..I push on through this life still wandering blindlyI'm A Mess..4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hoping that somehow somebody is gonna find me
But I'm lost
And my body is freezing
My breaths are growing ragged
And my heart beat is ceasing
I can't remember
A time when we weren't together
And I'm really starting to miss
What we were
And I miss our forever
I had to try
I had lie
Just to put forth the effort
I'm following in tracks that you left behind
But as I press on they're getting harder to find
Why did you leave me stranded
Lonely and empty handed
My blood is running cold
And I don't even understand it
You don't know what you have done
Shut me off from the world
Can't feel the warmth of the sun
That I've told my fair share of lies
And there have been plenty of times
I've wished I wasn't alive
What should I feel now that my body's grown numb
Absent of hope I can't be warmed by the sun
And yes, I confess
That I got myself in this mess
My blood is running cold
Goodbye DadGoodbye Dad5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You tried to talk to me.
You tried to hug me.
You tried to make me feel special.
And what did I do?
I ignored you.
I did not hug back.
I ignored your kindness.
I always expected you to be there.
To be there when I came home.
To be there when I woke up.
And what happens?
in the blink of an eye,
I begin to learn the truth,
the truth of the pain you went through,
the truth you tried to hide from me,
so I would not feel the same pain as you.
You tried to protect me.
You tried to keep my life painless.
You tried to love me.
And what did I do?
I ignored you....
Everyday I wake up feeling guilty,
I want to say sorry so badly,
I want to hug you one more time,
I want to say I love you one more time.
But it's too late....
In the blink of an eye,
I wish I could tell you how sorry I am.
I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me.
I wish I could tell you how much I love you....
You were always so kind,
even when the stress was eating you a
Hello, My Name is OrphanHello, my name is Orphan,Hello, My Name is Orphan4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I've never seen my face,
Some thing's are better left unknown,
Nor do they have a time or place,
Some words are better left unsaid,
And so they say,
Others are better left for dead.
His hands grew big around my neck,
I bled and cried,
And bled some more until his death.
After that I was alone,
Broken bones without a home.
The scars I kept as I grew up,
Solemn memories I just couldn't forget,
But still I was laughed at and abused,
Altogether it was nothing new.
Tear stained cheeks above wobbly knees,
Not once did she hear me scream,
Farther away than one should be
[He] smiled in his toothless way,
[Took] me for granted every day,
[Everything] I thought was solely mine was taken
[Away] forever; gone faster than time,
[From] the day I breathed sweet pungent air,
[Me], myself and I were never cared for.
He took everything away from me.
Hello, my name is Orphan,
I came from my mother's grave,
They said I had no place to go,
And now I have no place to stay.
A Beatles song mixYesterday I read the news today while my guitar gently weeps because Her Magesty is a pretty nice girl who doesn't have much to say.A Beatles song mix6 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I should have known better because Martha my dear is watching Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band in a yellow submarine as he lets us in to his octopus' garden in the shade as the Sun King will write home everyday as the walrus in a boat on a river.
A day in the life Mother Mary comes to me speaking the ballad of John and Yoko from me to you asking do you promise not to tell that you've got to hide you're love away as they sing Hare Krishna and kicking Edgar Allen Poe.
Hey jude let me take you down 'cause I'm going to Penny Lane to see Mr. K challenge the world as mean Mr. Mustard sleeps in a park across the universe and its been a hard day's night when you tell me why you look and see if there's a letter in your bag for me as polythene Pam came through the bathroom window to see Henry the Horse let it be as he blew his mind out in a car because the gir
For a Dead Girl Dear Kira,For a Dead Girl4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I love you. I know that sounds really weird, or like some desperate attempt to get laid before I die, but it's true. I love you. I've loved since 8th grade (which seems like yesterday instead of 4 years ago).
I just remember one day seeing you at your locker and thinking, 'Damn, my best friend is beautiful.' and then I realized everything about you was (and still is) absolutely breath taking.
I love your laugh, especially when it's over something I said. I love the way you light up the whole room with just one smile. One beautiful, gentle smile. I love the way you don't seem to fit into any mold. You're original, and I find that so incredible. I also appreciate the way you look so good when you're in sweatpants and a baggy shirt. I mean, come on, most girls look like hobos when they're in sweats, but you? No, you look so beautiful. You look great in everything you wear and you're wonderful at everything you do.
I saw how other guys started looking at you and got really m
No se perdonar y no quiero aprenderTe dedico el sentimiento más puro,No se perdonar y no quiero aprender4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
que de mi alma nace;
gracias, me hiciste duro
y no quiero que se me pase.
Toma, mi corazón,
te lo entrego,
y dentro, podrido,
va todo el odio y rencor que te has ganado.
Vamos cosecha lo que has sembrado,
¡Tómalo todo!, para ti está reservado;
Mi alma fue el campo que ennegreció,
con el trabajo de tu mano.
¿Respeto?, ¿Para qué?
Cariño no tienes, ni tendrás,
pues perdí esa habilidad,
pero no os preocupeis,
ya he aprendido a odiar.
Tengo deslavadas las emociones.
No me reconozco,
no comprendo estas facciones.
Mi palabra: Lastimar,
con miles de lanzas.
El tono: saborear,
el dolor en las brasas.
Pues bien, agradezco,
te juro que pagaras,
y lo reconozco
en mis manos sufrirás
Un beso, CUIDATE,
Y recuérdame siempre
18 2 2012
The Suicide DreamThere's blood on the floor,The Suicide Dream4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A cold hand still leaning on the closed door,
The echo of a painful shout still overcome,
Imprinted in the empty sight,
The image of a purpose that was too soon gone.
Tangled bloody hair,
Of a person that decided no more can bear,
Tears like crystals still resting on the dead face,
The soundtrack of a film,
The scream of lost innocence,
On a black and white screen.
Suppressed words that cleaved a heart,
Broken promises and lies,
One more soul tore apart,
A person drown in useless cries,
Bloody, bruised wrist,
The result of the decision - no more can go on like this.
A peaceful grin,
Of a person that in the ocean of despair couldn't anymore swim,
Is frozen and distorted,
A blade, a stain of blood,
Life away has faded.
Like in a dream,
I see the bruised, dead face,
I hear a scream,
On the floor I see a bloody trace,
Snippets of a jumble film.
Another person broke down,
Took away by the whirling waves of the suicide dream,
Another person decided this world is m
story tellerIf scars can tell storiesstory teller4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Then call me a story teller
I have a million
And theyre almost all the same
They all speak of worlds of pain
If you looked me in the eyes could you see
Im crying inside
You don't know how many times
I crossed my heart and hoped to die
I need someone to care before its too late
I need you to see my pain
These scars are more than skin deep
These cuts run deep inside of me
Open up and show some sympathy
Help me stop the bleeding
Show me my life has meaning
My MindMy Mind4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My mind is a scary place.
I lay in bed at night,
my eyes wide open.
I stare into the darkness,
feeling it wrap around me each night.
My body tells me to sleep,
but my mind tells me different.
My mind usually wins the war
and I begin to be consumed within it.
An emotion I know very well,
this chronic feeling never seems to leave.
The nightmares of my Dad's death,
The bullies hurtful words,
The questioning if my mom ever loved me.
The tears streaming down my already puffy eyes.
Sadness, will you ever leave?
An emotion I am unfamiliar with,
and I cannot control too well.
The bullies laughing at my face,
My Dad's family pretending everything is okay,
My Dad suffering under the abuse of his work,
The friends who are not true.
Is this really anger, or is this hatred?
The only person I felt who ever believed in me,
will never return.
The nightmares of that day,
The feeling of being alone,
Friends not understanding how you feel,
The longing for him to return.
SINCERIDADSinceridadSINCERIDAD4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Aunque sé que no saldrá bien la jugada
Y perderé otra vez lo que más quiero,
No puedo mantener la boca cerrada
Sabiendo que me duele lo que siento.
He sufrido desgarrando sentimientos
Para luego no obtener nada a cambio.
Y siguiendo pese a tantos contratiempos
Mientras tu canción sigue sonando
El amor se me transforma en veneno
Cada vez que recuerdo tus ojos.
El teléfono en una esquina,
En silencio y cogiendo polvo.
Cuando creo poder entenderte
Te escabulles con la niebla,
Cuando creo que te he perdido
Regresas de nuevo a mi vera.
Y yo voy muriendo mientras vivo
Atrapada en tu trozo de locura.
No está bien, no es sano, es un vicio.
Soñarte despierta, pensarte soñando,
Divina comedia ensartada en llantos.
Creo que acabé loca del todo
Al estrellarme en tu mundo.
Una Alicia en un país extraño
Que perdió la cabeza y se quedó sin futuro.
Se que apuesto toda mi cordura
Al decirte que eres mi
Dearest Reader,You're holding a grenadeDearest Reader,4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
made of words and paper.
Do with it what you will.
No one will ever know
if you decide to pull the pin
for if you do, these words
will explode upon impact.
Seeing YouSeeing You4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Seeing you makes my heart go numb.
Seeing you makes my chest tighten.
Seeing you makes the anger in my heart grow.
Seeing you makes the sadness in my soul grow more.
Seeing you makes me have to fight off my tears.
Seeing you makes my mind spin in circles.
Seeing you makes many questions pop up in my head.
Seeing you makes too many painful emotions resurface.
...is just so hard to do.
ImaginacionEsta niña sinceraImaginacion4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
desde el fondo del corazón
busca deslumbrar su vida
con dulces llenos de sabor
Su imaginación vuela
siempre al parecer
la toman por loca
pero no saben lo que imaginar es
el diario la ha llamado
a escribir un día mas
un poema con su historia
otra vez a relatar
esta niña perdida
en su mundo de imaginación
no intenta dañar a alguien
pero siempre tiene que llamar la atención
intenta sentirse alegre
cuando hay momentos de desesperación
intenta ir a su mundo
Pequeña no lo olvides
tu infancia acabo
aunque todavía te queda vida
sigue siendo como eres hoy
Duramente te acompaño
me vuelvo vieja tal vez
pero recuerdo que jugabamos
todos los días a crear un pastel
ya sabes a quien acudir
cuando te sientas sola
y triste tu confidente
siempre estará aquí
sin alguna razón
eres toda una
NightmareDarkness approachesNightmare4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Nighttime goes in
Creatures are hidden
Nighttime goes in
Bad monsters appear
How can you win?
Try to run and try to hide
Try to fight and try to die
It doesn't matter in the end
'Cuz I'll wake up and have pie