Fiction and RealitySpiraling into my own little Hell,
Nightmares coming true,
fears alive and hunting me,
Death will not come,
Tortured within my own mind,
being psychologically broken down,
There is no escape,
Hope has long since retreated,
Faith broken long ago,
My mind shattered a long time past.
This darkness never ends,
The screams echo in my head,
the pain unbearable,
I won't make it out alive,
I won't make it out at all,
It has me in its grasp,
never loosening its grip,
I am the prize
Forever here ill dwell,
Fiction has become reality.
MisunderstandingsI wish people would understand,Misunderstandings2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
That I don't understand either,
So how can sanity still be intact?
It's not. Don't doubt. But I do.
So the insanity continues.
Second PlaceFriends, a best friendSecond Place2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A's, and A+
Am I always destined for second place?
Making others happy;
as opposed to my own happiness
Tell me where the talent lies,
If there is any at all.
FearFear.Fear1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
It controls us.
Stops us from chasing our dreams.
Causes us to live in solitude, away from potential pain and also happiness.
A fear of heights is illogical; it's the fear of falling that scares us.
A fear of water is irrational; it's the fear of drowning that consumes us.
A fear of a dangerous animal is unfounded, it's the fear of pain if we're attacked that frightens us.
Our main fear is of fear itself. This is true.
But what causes fear itself?
The unexpected, the unidentified, the unfamiliar, the mysterious, the unexplained.
This is genuine fear, for how can we not be frightened of things we do not know?
StoriesWaking,Stories1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
The story of each day.
The story of our lives.
The story of this world.
The story of death.
DeathDeath's not sleeping,Death1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Death is moving,
Death's not freezing,
Death is burning,
Death's not lying,
Death is walking,
Death's not dying,
Death is hoping,
Death's not staring,
Death is seeing,
Death's not falling,
Death is rising,
Death's not black,
Death is color,
Death's not the end,
Death is the beginning.
Just another love poemThis is quite informal,Just another love poem1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
But let me say it here.
This poem is about
What I hold most dear.
A few simple words from him
Can make me feel so glad.
And when he insults me,
I don't even feel that mad.
I'm the girl who made the vow -
To never fall for someone.
My heart once woven tightly,
Has suddenly become undone.
Letting GoTo "let go" does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.Letting Go1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
To "let go" is not to cut myself off, it is the realization that I can't control another.
To "let go" is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To "let go" is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hand.
To "let go" is not to change or blame another, it is to make the most of myself.
To "let go" is not to care for, but to care about.
To "let go" is not to be in the middle of arranging all the outcomes but to allow others to affect their own destinies.
To "let go" is not to deny but to accept.
To "let go" is
RejectionRejectionRejection1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
All my blood I feel rising to my face, flushing me completely out.
I want this! No one split second of doubt.
It's now or never I repeat to myself.
I hear nothing but the voices inside of my mind, begging for me to at least try today.
Look at you, you don't notice, and slowly scoot away.
It's done now! I'm a goner! Sharp pain laces through my chest.
The loud bell hums, cheering drowns every other sound.
This is it! I think to myself, your leg is what mine has found.
I press against you willingly, coaxing a reaction. You pull backwards.
trappedTRAPPEDtrapped1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
I'm trapped with in a world in between,
Fighting the darkness that surrounds me,
Trying to find the light of the path,
And then i feel my minds wrath,
While memories cause me pain,
Because in memories it always rains,
You'll never find a way out,
Because in memories the light never comes about,
I'm trapped with in a world in between,
Trapped, trapped inside my mind me and only me
Alone In This CrowdI can pretend that I am so complex,Alone In This Crowd1 year ago in Songs & Lyrics More Like This
The sad reality is that I'm a mess,
A mess that's been cleaned up so many times,
My shattered mind is bleeding through these lines,
Must be true that this blessing is truly a curse,
Because the only thing I know things are just worse,
These things showed me nothing but opposition,
And never did a thing to help my disposition,
I'm all alone in this crowd,
Only sad when I'm allowed,
I'm a jester for the masses
Invisible between classes,
And now you can look through my eyes,
Don't waste time staring at the skies,
Because if you're gonna waste this point of view,
I won't fool myself wasting my ti
Just Wanna ScreamI feel like screamingJust Wanna Scream1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I can't stop crying
Why am I trying??
It's just not working
Can I scream until I die!?
I'm so fucking pissed
I wish you were here
I love you so
I hate it
I hate how your family treats you
Like a piece of shit
I know you're not!
I'm pretty sure they hate me
Why can't they accept me!?
I just wanna help
I just wanna make it stop
Take all the pain away
Kiss you all better...
Fuck, fuck, fuck
I just wanna scream!
SubmissionI could be deadSubmission1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I could be asleep
The world, it passes me by
and in the solace of silence I reside
The world is full of noise
The world is full of things
The world is full of ideas
There is no rest to be found in the world
There is no peace to be found in the living
There is only the struggle to exist
The dead that lives
The living dead
Do you... Do I?Do you listen to meDo you... Do I?1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
when I begin talking
when I say a word
when I say an another
when I finish the sentence?
Do you hear me
when I speak in tongues
when I speak right next to you
when I speak loud
when I speak even louder?
Why don't you understand me?
...I look right into your eyes
...I look at the mirror
...I see the guilty
...I see what you mean
but you never understand...
because I never asked how you feel.
I want to beI want to be...I want to be1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to be your towel, to fall softly on your wet skin
I want to be the pencil you hold softly
And the answer to your questions, so you look for me
I want to be your pillow, to smell your hair every night
I want to be your clothes
And everything you hold in your hands
I want to be your favorite book, so you hold me and enjoy me any time you want
I want to be your favorite drawing, so you watch me and feel proud of me
I want to be your lips
And I want to be your mind, and fill you with lovely thoughts
I want to be your jacket, and make you feel warm every day
And I want to be your mirror, so we look at each other
Singin this ol Songwhen life isnt treating you right... when its being a downright ho.... heres what i wantSingin this ol Song1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
you all to do.
when life is being mean, and its downright ubseen
i want to sing a song talking about all these things
i want to spread the word not that itll be ok
but to never give and never loose your way
oh oh i want to make a song that can help the weak
give wisdom to the strong and courage to the meak
this song is a way not for a god to hear us pray
but to take our lives and lead the way
this song is for the sad, the afraid and alone
this song is for the happy, the laughing so that they
Dear ForgottenDear Forgotten Souls,Dear Forgotten1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
How have you been?
It seems to be
we have spoken.
How is your life?
Have you found that
or that gorgeous wife?
How strange it is
how so intertwined
the strands of life
once were, now cleft
Have I been left behind?
Am I the forgotten one?
I think I am.
I think on all of you, every day.
How many of you can say
You aren't forgotten, not like this.
So-called forgotten in a world of bliss.
I seem to have lost my path, my route,
I need someone to help me figure out
Just who was forgotten:
Was it me? Or was it you?
Repetitionwake up. eat. talk. sleep.Repetition1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
wake up. eat. talk. sleep.
wake up. eat. talk. sleep.
but... what if i dont wanna?
wat if i realize this repetion, and stop?
wat if i choose to be like madonna?
wat if i choose to pop lock and drop?
every thought ive thought before, every poet knows it too
all we are is really just another repetition or two
everything i say, and everything i feel
is it just another repetition or perhaps is it real?
i think right now of writing poems, like i always do
but then i realize its just another repetition, repeating what i do?
it may be hard to explain, this i truly know
but when it comes down to it and we get
dreaming nonetheless.where image and emotion entwine effortlessly,dreaming nonetheless.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
blurring the line between existence and fabrication,
the indulgence of striking lucidity,
or the frusteration of tedious shallowness,
mares running fiercely into and through the night,
validating the questionable nature of the very thing,
what we lust for,what we avoid,mangled into one figure,
or the mysterious combination of the strangest nothingness,
Opposite WorldsExposedOpposite Worlds2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
One hoping for a better life
One not able to dream
One waiting to live
One ready to die
One making her own world
One hiding from a world
One holds a crayon to a wall
One holds a knife to her throat
One mind open to possiblities
One pushed to the brink of death
Dead at HeartThe pain is numbingDead at Heart2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Though i can't help feeling everything
My fear, my hate
It steals my sanity
I don't think I can handle this anymore
I feel like running
I feel defeated
I wanna cry
I'm gonna die
I need to know
I have to know
I have to leave
I need to choose
Should I leave this all behind?
I must and I will,
For I have nothing left to loose,
And so I try
The pain is absent
My fear is gone
My sanity returned
Everything that was a dark flame
And a new feeling is found
I feel Alive
Finding myselfPain was your gameFinding myself1 year ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
My heart was your aim
Shall I say you played fair?
Or should I not even care
The game of love is dangerous
Causing the victim to become delirious
I was drunk off of you
Intoxication settling in my heart like glue
My mistake was not giving you my heart
But trusting you with everything from the start
It wasn't the words that were said that hurt
It was the way you tossed my feelings into the dirt
You have no idea what love is
"But I do" he says
And I'm lost in the words
Trapped in a cage like birds
But life moves on, and so must I
The cage is opened; the birds soar through the sky
I am a piece in this gam
Why?Why do we sing?Why?1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why do we rhyme?
Why do we while away our time?
Why the truths,
but why the lies?
Why do we try to disguise?
Why the clouds?
Why the trees?
Why the open, ever boundless seas?
Why the stars?
Why the wind?
Why the horizon always past the end?
Why the questions?
Why not answers?
Why the music, and its dancers?
Why the heavens?
and why Hell?
Why the ringing of the bell?
Perhaps we have the questions,
so the answers we won't know?
I am not sure.
But I want to find the answers
So I think I will go.
Will you come seek with me?
IndulgenceJust let me have a momentIndulgence1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Put on my music
Turn on the light
-I hate having it off-
And run towards the edge
Just let me have this moment
Where my music is my last song
When I'm waiting until the stars light up the sky
-Because I hate being in the dark-
And sprint towards the edge of this cliff
Can't you let me see?
Yes, can't you
Because you're blocking my eyes
Memories of you and me
Make patches of black spots
Take over my eyesight
And I need this dash
I need to see my end
Before I fly off
Into the big of night
I want to be like Alice
And walk on card castles in the sky
At the edge of the queen of hearts