No more being bulliedDon’t you get it, this is your war
I have no beef with you I’m not counting the score
I just want to be me without playing this fight
But you can’t let it rest you have to be right
I just want to live without this time consuming game
But you turn this to shit again and again
Can’t you leave me be to live my own life
Without being a asshole and giving me strife
I have no quarrel with you or your group
Please take me out of this self-played loop
For fuck can’t you leave me to grow on my own?
Disown me then try to make me your own
To many games you play to make yourself real
How many hearts and minds will you steel?
It’s all for your games the people no care
Dear man when will you ever try to play this game fair?
That NightYou took away my passionThat Night3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You kicked me to the ground
Like I had just gone out of fashion
You didn't want me around
I watched you while you were sleeping
And gave you all you desired
The greed just took you over
And the gesture got so tired
I fed you when you were hungry
I gave you a family and a home
But your patience just grew weary
So I spent my nights alone
You pushed me to the limit
When you had affairs so much
I should have really seen it
That I would shiver at your touch
The useless fool you made me
Messing with my life
I couldn't take the last affair
It drove me to the knife
I was going to make you pay
And the girls you had seduced
Pick you off one by one
This anger you produced
I crept into your bedroom
And stole your secret book
I had to find the number
I had to have a look
I found the girl you had last
The one from down the street
I crept in through her window
Now her makers she will meet
Sleeping like a princess
With a teddy on her bed
I pulled out a plastic bin bag
HAHAHAThe pain I took for to many yearsHAHAHA3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The mental violence throughout the beginning years
Suppression that no one could possibly bare
But did you know or did you care
I struggle to make my life worth living
I constantly try and am so so giving
But you take from me all I have to give
And take some more to see if I live
But life like this has got way too much
You had better look out as I have the clutch
On your mind your souls and who you are now
Is nothing to me as I see you're just foul
You try to be different not let them see
But inside I see you with the demon in me
I can relate to your anger and see through your lie
Its only you that retreats to the bedroom and cry
I know people like you who think this game is so fun
But seriously people I've already won
I let you think you're getting the highest score
But really lol you're just my stupid fat whore
You save the trouble of making myself heard
And you always say you're a person of your word
That is crap and you know that you foolish twit
I am not youWhen you look at me, what do you see?I am not you3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My long dark hair or my deep brown eyes
Can you really tell it's me?
Between the bleach and their lies,
Am I real or what you want me to be
How do you know what you really see is me?
Never knowing just clicking on a fav or a like
The war I go through just to see your spike,
The spike that gets me noticed to you and beyond
The artists that love me and so on so on
I'm fond of pleasing this will not last
See I have this time but not forgetting the past.
You weren't there when i needed you, you have no clue,
If I am meant to me or mirroring you
But I don't care for the people that let me slide
Just sitting on the fence, that I cannot abide
You give to me now, then on to the next
You have no life a bad wound left to be bled
I hate the one who says I'm not me
Because if you were me then you would truly see
I am not you and never would want to try
The thought of being you would make me cry
But one thing I know and this much is true
See in this life I am
Our Gooey Heart Together ApartHolds hands on heart cuffed romantically.Our Gooey Heart Together Apart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Fingers entwined with the pureness of love
Entranced skipping over every fingernail
Caught on every thought that comes to mind,
From the deepest sea to the heavens above
We swim in the vastest oceans and
Deepest skies and heaven's plains of love
Like a fairy’s breath settling
All around the whitest wings of the purest dove
Flying down to touch hands swallowed with one breath,
and I must say your love fits my heart like a glove.
Love StoryThe love we have is like a storyLove Story3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Of majestic dance on glittered seas
stars in the skies are shooting with passion
The song of our spirit heard in the wings of bees
The glimmer in the rain sweet drops
The colors in the sky
The smallest flower opening her petals
And the first sound of a baby's cry.
Gentle winds will carry our heart beats
With the whitest snow to decorate our souls
As together we are eternity
Together to half's bound to make a whole.
Vampire NightsLaying in the dark cold of nightVampire Nights3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Waiting for my kind to join me here
Waiting for my time to take flight
And drink the sweet red blood laced with fear
My vampire nights are filled with horror
The kind that sends shivers through your body
Ripping flesh drinking blood, making love
Reaching out through your fears so strong so boldly
Wanting to embrace every sense every feeling
Seducing you with my beauty of the night
Pale white skin and eyes of fire
Breasts against your body as I'm holding you tight
I draw your minds so easy with desire
The human mind is such a fool for lust
Wanting all that sets your groin on fire
With my beauty unclothed you give such trust
Then is my time to play to extinguish your light
To hold your twisting body oh how you can't fight
Sending sensations of glory from my mouth to my brain
For a mere mortal this feeling would send you insane
When you're cold on the ground I look down with empty thought
Of that waste of that beauty you once held high
But you couldn't ref
The Real MeTo write like an angel with a dark sexy styleThe Real Me3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Touching your feelings with my mind all the while
Being gentle and pure to the ones that i love
Treating the broken and fragile with sensual silk gloves
A mind full of horror from all of the bad
Stories you hear so tragic so sad
Stories full of demons and anger and rage
Of innocent victims in their own life made cage
But the other side of me no one See's so much
So sexy and sensual makes your hands want to touch
Touch the place that's forbidden for women like me
Women controlled by religion; not meant to be free
Desire from my spirit lies out on a page
Through depression, to lust lovers at a young early age
If I could be me I would be this girl
In a dark sexy fairy tale my mind would unfurl
To be what I want and feel such passion
To have my mind set free, never going out of fashion
To live like a dark angel, sharing feelings within
Being free to be me without feeling the sin.
Typical DayStaring at the window or at the wallTypical Day3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not knowing what I’m becoming, just waiting to fall
Silence for hours talking in my mind
The fear of the answers I might just find
Laying here still not moving a bit
Seeing myself screaming, trashing not flinching a bit
My soul has wavered not sure if I am me
But rage and anger all I see inside of me
Destruction of all I have including me
I even question the reason why I should be
Crazy, screaming wanting to die so bad
But the fear of death now that I never have had
Makes me protect what I have to live for and what is left
Even though I just want to give in to that’s all I have left
Take me now and make me die
Otherwise leave me now because death is a lie
Living for others just exist to provide
What’s the reason I have come to this, I lost my pride
So see me here wasting my life
As many before I want no more strife
But I can’t go on thinking this way
I am tired to much to live this way every day
I like to think that I might
Orgasm Finding YourselfPearls of love slide down my legOrgasm Finding Yourself3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Blood pumping hard and fast through my head
The euphoric feeling takes full control
The heat from this pleasure touches my soul
Eyes dilate and hands start to shake
Out of breath and body vibrates
Muscles tense so tight
Like I've gone in to shock
This second feels so right
I never want to stop
Then words can't explain the feeling that comes
Spirit and body finally becomes one
Focus comes back and pulse rate slows down
Then the pearls become rivers that soak my night gown.
meTrapped in my room going insaneme3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Living with physical and mental pain
Wanting to leave this damn world behind
Fighting the fear but doing it blind
My eyes have seen nothing
But my minds seen too much
Scared of my feelings
And the thought of your touch
Will it be like this always in my own mental prison?
Till the day I choose to let my blood run crimson
I know there is help for me i just need to find out where
To see if they can help me or even do care.
I am afraid of myselfthe loneliness is a bleeding woundI am afraid of myself2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
mutilated my body
tortured my mind
with dark ideas has become a habit
I am afraid of myself
I do not like reality
I hide in my nightmares
order to escape from life
Morphine WithdrawalsThe decision of living without this desireMorphine Withdrawals3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Addiction of the worst just to survive
Just to be normal and live everyday
To destroy the stress and the tension in the most simple way
Life was so easy and nothing came close
If you felt it was slipping you just up the dose
But everything that goes up must one day fall hard
Feelings take your mind that you once did disregard
You have to make a choice to live as you’re meant
To take back your mind and body at all costs
But to do this you know the suffering must be spent
For days and your sanity will temporary be lost
Then the pain starts to take you
Your mind goes to mush
Your insides are screaming
For the love of a push
To be out of your misery, just to fall from this life
No more bloody agony, no more screaming inside
To kill all the frustration and numb all the strife
But to be back to normal this pain you abide
So first you start breathing at an unhealthy rate
Your eyes don’t stop steaming and skins is on fire
You think it
Walk with me.Who wants to walk with me down this long road?Walk with me.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Who wants to make this journey that's so very cold?
Where hearts are dark with no room for love
Blackened their soul, twisted the raven to look like a dove.
Inner demons flooding my dreams
making the most normal thing not as it seems
Wildly dark demons penetrating my mind
searching for secrets, never for me to find.
The deepest trust given to ones I care for
turn to deceit and lies, friends no more.
The cruelest ways and words left me in sorrow
ripped out my heart like there's no tomorrow.
Feeling foolish and feeling so hurt...
as my heart no more important than a piece of dirt,
As I said, "Who wants this walk down this road with me?
Feel this pain, despair and my sorrow see?"
Reverend Death - Page 1The sound of blood dripping as it hit the floor was the only noise you could hear.Reverend Death - Page 13 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
My first test subject was almost dead by this time, I stood there holding his jelly like eye ball in the palm of my hand. It was still warm from being in the socket, but it didn't look like an eye now all alone swimming in the red pool that had formed in my hand.
I wondered if all detached parts of the body would look so strange, not fitting right in its new reality of loneliness.
I laid the eye down on the table next to my scalpel and thought what I would create with it.
The table was almost clinical looking with the bright white glare of the over hung light reflecting on the stainless steel, giving the room a feeling of no emotion unlike most rooms tend to create.
I turned back to stand over the subject looking down with my mind full of unanswered questions, mostly thinking how UN real he looked on the bench.
Lying perfectly still he almost looked like a albino so white from the soak in the
We are Onea connection forged through the elements of life and time,We are One3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that was meant to be before our existence
but eternal and peaceful
in grace we are one.
Neither rising above the surface
nor sunk underneath it,
but met somewhere right in the middle,
between those particles still floating
in the air so small we cannot see,
bouncing up and down and all around,
jumping in front of our eyes in front of our face,
waving ripply and wafting, creating this connection,bigger than eternity.
Me and MyselfBeing crazy keeps me saneMe and Myself2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Being strong numbs the pain
Being a leader stops me relying
Telling the truth stops me lying
Having the guts makes me strong
Having the choice between right and wrong
Standing my ground makes me a winner
All proud talk makes me a sinner
How do you see me?
Darkly seduced.Darkly seduced with the pleasure of painDarkly seduced.1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
Sinful acts, my good side now slain
Tempting evil wonders with a burning desire
Willing to be consumed by this dark erotic fire
The light has now left me so empty and alone
Dark rises to power and takes its wanted throne
Blood mixed with drops of a sexual love
Fits my soul like nothing from above
Hot wild passion from deep within
Take control and I want it to win
Nothing needed now but to just embrace
This truly evil feeling as I hide my face
When the deed is done my power holds your soul
To do as I want no matter how foul
Opening up your darkest fears
Turning them to blood soaked tears.
ImmortalsWe all are Immortals,Immortals3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Yet we fear to die.
There are things worse than death,
That would make us cry.
Our body may decay in ashes or graves,
But our souls would never die.
We think we are mortals,
Yet souls never die.
I Am A...I am a survivorI Am A...3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because I wish to survive.
I am a dreamer
Because dreams are my break from reality.
I am a lover
Because I yearn to love.
I am a seeker
Because I will seek for my joy.
I am an observer
Because I can observe my enemies,
and know the score.
I am a killer
Because I kill to save others.
I am a hunter
Because I will hunt for truth and lies.
I am a decider
Because I can decide if I can trust you.
I am a teacher
Because I teach the future.
I am a student
Because I still learn.
I am a fighter
Because I do not believe in surrender.
I am a hater
Because the world dispises my spirit
and wants to bring me down.
I am a rebel
Because when the world spits in my face,
I will spit back.
I am a leader
Because I refuse to break down.
I am a wise one
Because wise one's understand lies.
I am a child
Because I can still laugh at other's stupidity.
I am an adult
Because I can put up with you.
I am innocent
Because my heart throbs with ignorance.
I am robbed
Because I still feel the pain.
Destruction.I shan't have another dream, hope, or desire;Destruction.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everything was lost and killed in the fire.
The past has consumed the life of today,
And there aren't any tears for the things that I say.
I don't care much if I live or die,
For death would be better than living a lie.
The fire still rages way out of control;
Burning my heart, my mind, and my soul.
Myself is something I should reconstruct,
Yet all I want is to self-destruct.
I Couldn't Stand ByA smile on your face, a cut on your cheek,I Couldn't Stand By3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
You acted so precious, so mild and meek.
I knew what was wrong, I couldn't protest,
He was a devil, who you loved best.
I clenched my fist, anger in my eyes,
The usual blue now turned to stormy skies.
You sat in your desk and turned to me,
"What's wrong, Jason? You look ill at ease."
With a shake of my head and a stone in my heart,
I knew this wasn't the place it should start.
"Nothing," I said as I lied to your face,
I knew it just wasn't the time or the place.
The next day you came, still smiling and bright,
A black eye and more cuts shined in the light.
You winced when you sat, you mumbled a hi,
I couldn't watch you suffer and internally die.
That night was a party and you were to attend,
I tagged along with you and your jackass boyfriend.
He began to drink, he was filled with hate,
He started to forget that you were his date.
With a hand raised to your pallid cheek he struck,
However, tonight he was completely out of luck.
Liar.How I hate to play this game with you.Liar.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Why do you refuse to be true?
Just give me an answer;
Something to believe;
And I will gladly take my heart off your sleeve.
Lie after lie,
Tear after tear,
Love is the only thing that you fear.
Do I miss you?There are times when I think I miss you.Do I miss you?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
There are times when I want you with me.
There are times when I wish we were more than friends.
There are times when I want to cry for you.
But what about the other times?
The times when I laugh and cry, and it's not about you.
The times when I look into the eyes of the ones I love, and they love me unconditionally back.
The times when I go a whole day without thinking of you.
The times when I actually live my life, and you're not in it.
The times when I am actually happy.
Sometimes I wonder if it's you that I actually miss.
Or, if what I really miss is being in a relationship.
Not the person I was in one with.