Let Me DieBroken heartedLet Me Die3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
here I lie
push me down
and watch me cry
break my wings
so I can't fly
I'm here alone
So watch me die
Re-BirthMy name is Riley.Re-Birth3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I try suicide.
The real me, the cutter,
she tries to hide.
My uncle raped me,
my cousin molested,
but I'd hate for people to think,
that I've been bested.
My mom is a drunk,
abusive and cruel.
I watch her passed out on the couch,
as she starts to drool.
My name is Riley,
I'm sick of this life.
My name is Riley,
I'm sick of the strife.
My name is Riley,
and I'm starting anew.
It'll get better now,
let me give you a clue.
My name is Riley,
I once was a cutter.
My name is Riley,
I don't have a mother.
The bad has been wiped out,
goodbye my past,
don't even try to shout,
you're finally gone at last.
My name is Riley,
I'm a cutter no more.
My name is Riley,
and living is no longer a chore.
Stereo HeartStereo Heart3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart beats only for you
it provides the bass
for my life,
If I could only find the right note
and sing to you
a lullaby, a fight song,
a song to keep you close.
I was meant for you
you were meant for me
we have two hands, two arms, two legs,
and our two hearts beat as one.
You play the treble
I'll supply the bass
and together we'll be in harmony
to the beat of our stereo hearts.
WindsTo make a wind churnWinds3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
more evident than skies
that then sun-struck clouds
would bend their will to this
the waking world's dreams
never would repeat thus.
Sanity?What?Sanity?What?Sanity?What?3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
They tell me i'm out of my mind,
It makes my mother cry,
But i wear my smiles,
For in my mind I Can see them all die,
Question my Sanity ,
But its a waste of your time,
My Sanity is the color black,
If you wish to change it back,
Then good luck with that.
Because to me,
I'll never need their Sanity
a kiss upon his cheek.he didn't have a smilea kiss upon his cheek.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
anywhere near his lips.
his expression was blank,
and his eyes were etched from glass;
'i don't care'
they said carefully,
like an unsure whisper.
i don't know why,
but this boy was like nicotine,
like a foggy dream.
he was my rescue,
with warning lights flashing
as he came to my escape.
he didn't have a smile on his lips,
but i wanted them anyway.
Someone's musicHave you ever really heard someone sing?Someone's music2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Not just sing some song they heard
But instead, while singing,
give up their heart and their memories to the music
There isn't anything in the world that can compare
To hearing someone's story,
With each note
Portraying something different, something new
With each phrase
Another memory is spilled
And with her voice,
the song is given a new type of life
Something that only she can bring
So I'll ask you one more time,
Have you ever really heard someone sing?
Innocence is IgnoranceInnocence is Ignorance3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I wrapped tape over your mouth
And wrote the word truth
You did the same for me
But wrote the word hurts
This was our message for others to see
The truth can hurt
And we know it as much as anyone
All the times we wondered why
Then we found out and regretted it
Because our innocence said goodbye
runawayi sometimes wish i could leave this place and never to return again.runaway3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i sometimes wish that someone could take me away from here.
i sometimes wish that i could had runaway a long time ago when i had the chance.
i sometimes wish that i have the stregth to do this.
i should have never loved you.in that one moment, i wanted to stand up and hit him: i wanted to make him hurt, make him bleed, make him feel what he did to me. make him feel his lies and deceit, push it into his skin like a knife and letting the scarlet lies pour out for everyone to see.i should have never loved you.3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
every little lie, every "mia bella" came back to haunt me. every word that idly dripped out of his mouth that caressed and cared for me turned black and shriveled like a dead flower.
because every time he kissed me, he lied.
i can't believe i just let him string me along like that. he just turned me into some sort of flesh-and-blood puppet, tossed me around and stepped on me like garbage put on the curb for tuesday night pickup. he put me in a plastic bag with old coffee grounds and used condoms from a night when i wasn't there.
i should have never loved him.
When the World Dissolves to NothingWhen the World Dissolves to Nothing2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The moment their eyes meet,
The sparks fly,
And the fireworks blaze around them.
Something words could never describe,
Yet people around them could see the love they shared
With every smile he threw her way,
Every word they said to each other,
Every kiss they shared...
She finally understood what love was.
The calm feeling that rises in her
When they touch,
Making the whole world around her
Dissolve into nothing.
A complicated struggle
That is oh-so-worth it
As long as he is by her side.
The only person she'd ever need,
His love for her was all she wanted,
And nothing could ever,
Ever replace his never- ending love for her.
10 Years of Sinking*** before we start, I did NOT write this myself, my friend Richard helped, and told me that I was aloud to add it on deviantART. That fact alone, however, does NOT change the fact that I feel like this ALL THE TIME, as does he.10 Years of Sinking3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel like i am sinking.
Sinking in to a hole i will never get out.
The trouble is this hole
that i have been sinking in
is about 10 years deep.
10 years deep of sadness.
10 years deep of regret.
I am only 16.
Sadness and regret,
They will never leave.
I am sinking. deeper.
I have no hope.
that is why i like people who don't care about my back ground. They wait for me to share what I want
And when I say no to there question they say ok.
That's why I don't hang out with the people who like to help.
I hang out with the people who need help.
Those people understand.
understand what 10 years of sinking is like
clocks and time pieces.tick.clocks and time pieces.3 years ago in Emotional More Like This
there's a pocketwatch where my heart should be, and it ticks with every beat. the chain's wound all the way up my spine, strung between vertebrae and hanging down against the white of my ribcage. it rattles every fiber of my being, down to the very last nerve and tendon, sending shivers through my skull and twitching my fingertips.
it's broken, skipping a beat. forcing adrenaline into my skeleton as time seems to slow, slow, and my mind rushes faster and faster like it's running a marathon. it's so blinding, i can't even feel where i was cut open. i come undone, my intestines twisting and knotting as they fall to the ground; then you come along with a needle and some thread and stitch me whole again, putting all of me back in the right place. everything except for my heart. it's gone, gone forever, just to have a little circular locket with some numbers and some gears to replace it.
cerebrum.if it's midnight already and i can't feel you anymore,cerebrum.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
it's because you're savoring the taste of someone else;
or maybe it's because you're just lost in all the shades of blue,
the word "farewell" comes in so many colors.
if you've climbed too high and still haven't found a signal,
it's because my thoughts are lost somewhere in jupiter's storm
or maybe it's because i'm asleep on a train
heading far, far away from you.
i took a metaphor literally once when i cut you out of my life
with a pair of rusty black-handled scissors and every picture that i had of us.
it never seemed to work, i could never chase you out of my head,
and that was when i realized that you lived there.
you're everything and nothing i've learned in history class,
about guillotines and revolutions,
and if i know one thing, it's that you're surely not a Saint
and no sir, i will not love you.
there's a fine linebetween memories and loneliness.there's a fine line3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
One Kiss Is Never EnoughThere's always that moment,One Kiss Is Never Enough3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
When you look him in the eye, and you know.
There's always that carelessness,
When you find that real passion.
You won't let go,
You don't let go,
You can't let go.
Until she begs you to let her push away.
Always with those eyes!
Always, with that want
Always, with the soft breath in my ear,
That makes me push away.
I won't let you make me lose myself.
I don't let you make me lose myself.
I can't let you make me lose myself.
I'm in control,
Until you beg me to not push away.
Then all I can do is stop.
remember the timewhen i felt sad and you weren't there.remember the time3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
HateI hate myself.Hate3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I hate how I act around you.
I hate what I do to myself.
I hate how I cry easily.
How I hide everything when you're around.
That's all you see.
You don't know how I really feel.
I hate myself.
If you could read my mind,
most of the time,
it would be depressing thoughts.
I hate myself so much.
I wish I wasn't like this.
I feel so ugly.
My heart is so ugly.
Do you hate me as much as I do?
Is that even possible?
I hate myself so much.
InsecurityI look in the mirrorInsecurity3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
My reflection frowns
Back at me
I hope it doesn't break
From the horrible deformed
I can't stand to look
At it anymore
It's too painful
How is it possibly me?
I just wanna keep a
Paper bag over my head
Cut holes so I can see
Every move they make
Words cut like razor blades
They might as well be
What's the difference?
It happens anyway
For every word they throw
at my face, at my back
I cut a deep reminder of
What I must be
To almost everyone
... a freak.
i would've been happy to.i don't think it wasi would've been happy to.3 years ago in Haiku & Eastern More Like This
fair that you tried to change me
without telling me.
hypochondria.hurry, before the fear sets in;hypochondria.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
tell me what's wrong.
it's eating me alive
rotting me from the inside out,
turning pink into gray and blood;
save me from this
i don't know what it is:
i'm all by myself,
the beauty of his dreamsher eyes are bluethe beauty of his dreams2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
her hands are soft as silk
her body is a dream
the her hair color
is black like darkness
I draw every curve
of forget no details
her pretty breasts
that i want to caress
and her luscious mouth
she is beautiful
just as the sun
She poses for me
i like this girl
we are friends
and me, I want to kiss her
i want her love
She is the inspiration
of my work
a precious stone
that shines everytime
that her face smiles
in this scene you're just an extra.i've compiled my thoughtsin this scene you're just an extra.3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
into a song
with tender mellowed notes
of caressing fingers and tongues
in every lyric;
sung for you by my wings -
each feather lifting me up
and dragging me down,
eating away before it falls off
like a cancer i could take with me
beneath my fingernails if i touched it.
and if i ever needed you
i could watch you walk away -
without sympathy for my aching lungs
letting loose note after note;
you would leave like a strange soldier
leaving for a new battle,
not once looking over your shoulder to see
if i followed the footsteps you left
in wet concrete.
i never did,
my feet turned into mirrors
and reflected your motions;
the father away i got from you,
the closer i was to water -
the clear solution of salvation
that could save me from your memory.
H3H3H3 JUST 4 L1TTL3 SOM3TH1NG▲: HEYH3H3H3 JUST 4 L1TTL3 SOM3TH1NG3 years ago in Profiles More Like This
▲: H3Y K4RKL3S
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▼: NOT A FUCKING THING. SHIT'S BORING TODAY.
▲: OOHHHH R34LLY
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▼: WHY DO YOU ASK?
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▼: DO YOU NEED TO KNOW?
▲: TO S4T1SFY MYS3LF
▲: K4RK4T >:[ WOULD YOU STOP DODG1NG MY QU3ST1ONS
▼: FINE. YES, THERE IS SOMEONE I HAVE FLUSHED FEELINGS FOR.
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