My Thoughts Are A StormThe scars you bear I wish I could
Die for, only the best do I want
For you, to be happy, the fault is
Mine own which tore us apart
Some days I was screaming inside
Yet I found complete happiness
With you, when you told me my
Apology was not accepted, it was
Like hearing news of an intimate
Suicide, your hate filled mind
Killed me inside, my thoughts
Are a storm, raging memories
Of every fight, every flaw fighting
For attention, yet the savage longing
To fall once more into you comforting
Arms, but who would I be if I
Allowed myself to go back?
MesmerizingDo you find that weird?Mesmerizing4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I want to feel the pain
I want to see the blood
I want the scars
To remind me of my weakness
The time when I couldn't hold
I don't see
Why other look down on me
Just because I'm not
I feel no shame
In what I do
The tiny razor marks
Do you find that weird?
In My ReflectionMesmerized by the silvery shine,In My Reflection4 years ago in Concrete Poetry More Like This
I stare into the mirror of mine.
A twisted reflection back at me,
Are all the people I'll never be.
Teasing me with their perfect faces,
Gnarled into each others embraces.
To them it must be so routine,
I reach out to touch the puzzling scene.
On the wall,
Will I ever be as good as them all?
Inhuman, Inadequate, Defective, Imperfect.
Never as good, I had to disconnect.
So isolated in this dark room,
Content, yet trapped, in my self-built tomb.
As I twist into a distressing shape,
I cry and I try to find an escape.
Haunted by people who click so naturally,
I realize this world will never acknowledge me.
ApocalypseThe eagles fall from the sky as the clouds open up,Apocalypse4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The mountains roar as they fall in piles of dust,
With my eyes wide shut, I see,
That I could be the strongest man alive,
But even I will fall,
Leaves fall from the tree,
The water runs dry,
My tongue tastes nothing,
Because I refused to see,
Evil has a heart, and a heart has evil,
They still say we can't change,
That I can't change,
We are all going to die someday,
So let's share a drink as the world burns to ashes,
Let the people eat the heart,
Drink the blood of glory,
Because these are our last days,
One last moment,
One last hell yeah,
One last kiss,
One last kill,
The spirits will rise as the bodies fall,
Swipe in and take it all away,
As the buildings burn,
As the fingers run over the keys,
We will still remain the same,
We will always be the same,
Like the last chance,
This is our day,
Face your demons, because we're all dead,
We won't get any better,
But I remember this,
In the fac
ForgottenThis crushing painForgotten4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
This endless loss
This hope is vein
Your heart is frost
I love you so
Can't let you go
Can't breathe a word
Tears freely flow
Have you forgotten already
the love we shared?
Have you forgotten already
us, the perfect pair?
Do you even hear me
I'm bleeding inside,
bleeding myself out.
What's lost is lost
But I can't give up.
What's gone is gone
But I still love.
You won't remember
come a few years time
that you broke my heart
and that I tried to die
You won't remember
when all is done
those days of life,
when we still danced
in the sun.
UsedIUsed3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I gave you my smile because yours was
broken and I would do anything to see you happy.
I gave you my body because you had forgotten
the feeling of having someone lay with.
I gave you my tears because you didn't know
how to let yours f
l curving around your perfect lips.
A Daughter's PleaMommy says she loves herA Daughter's Plea4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Daddy says he cares
But somehow everything they do
Reminds her they're not there
Sometimes she looks up for them
From her place, crying, on the floor
And she finds she's not surprised
When they're not waiting anymore
For baby girl to grow up
And dry her big blue eyes
'Cause they've seemed to have decided
That they can't see it when she cries.
It's easier for them to pretend
She knows how hard they've tried
To believe that she's just peachy
When, in fact, she's dying inside
And now they say she's older
She doesn't need them anymore
When she really needs them now
Even more than she did before
Mommy's been on drugs
Daddy's gone a far
And now this teen age girl
Wants to know just who they are
She needs to know what's up
She just wants to understand
Now that things are settled
Someone should take her hand
And guide her to the table
Where the new family sits
And explain to her slowly
Why she still doesn't seem to fit
She watches them grow weary
With her headstrong, s
Our Little Chalk DrawingsWhen you left you took everythingOur Little Chalk Drawings4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The pictures of you on my phone-deleted
Your thoughts in my head-erased
Like a child's chalk drawings on cement
Wiped away in a spray of water
Brand new tear stained canvas
But what happens when that's all that you knew?
When everything on the sidewalk was all you had?
When Our initials drawn
Sketching your eyes and writing the words to our favorite songs was the only thing we had?
Now that it's gone what do I have?
A hazy place in my head
All those beautiful memories lost
Flushed away on the storm...
Maybe we can redraw
Perfect our masterpiece
LoveI'm only a child you will sayLove4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
What is love? Lust? To boast?
'Oh look, I have the perfect partner.'
But no, I know the meaning of
Love. My heart knows it too.
We weren't about sex or anything,
We only wanted the others happiness.
I remember our first, and our last,
But will it remain the last? Last
Until you come crawling back.
Begging. Begging for more.
You're the devil, you're my
Angel. You hurt, you heal.
Your hands on my skin, addicted.
Your lips at my neck, perfection.
Death do us PartKnow the friend within;Death do us Part4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Your bond goes far deeper than skin.
Friends from the start, childhood spent together,
They fought and shared and dreamed as one.
Some say this friendship can last forever,
Kept alive by the warmth of the sun.
Soon enough, they are no longer young fools,
Off in the world, making memories.
Only with good time, do they learn the rules,
Learning from spilt milk and tear-stained diaries.
The joyous couple, then due to be married,
Far cries from the hooligans they once were.
Past thoughts and regrets were then buried;
It's as though their past was only a blur.
But at times, the fates can be cruel,
And chose that their love was not meant to be.
Heartbreak, one thing they do not teach in school,
Plunged that woman into a despaired sea.
Tears in her eyes, she grasped at her veil,
Watching as they took him away.
Unable to watch, she began to wail,
For she knew on this earth, she couldn't stay.
The wedding gown hung, limp and unworn,
Along with the ca
Drafting a dreamDraft of a broken dreamDrafting a dream4 years ago in Visual & Found Poetry More Like This
she sat by the stained glass window, gazing at the pouring rain
The cold wind upon her skin, as it fogs up the window pane
she then recalls a promise from a time not so long ago
when winter began its passing and the sun melted away the snow
a promise between 2 children, tis but a childish scheme
involving a red roofed house that sat by a flowing stream
a dream to be together when they reach that "certain" age
and to live happilly ever after, yet still turn the story's page
she then smiles as the tears began to pour forth
if one were to ask why she just could not retort
a childs drawing with a joy that held no cost
and dreams of long ago that will forever be lost
"it was a childish wish" she whimpers wiping away the tears
a wish that would surely be gone after all the passing years...
True happiness.Everything.True happiness.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And then nothing.
And then realization.
I don't need everything.
Because some people have less,
and some people have more,
and I'm in between,
so I'm happy.
Back to DecemberBack to December4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Back to December
Snow falls heavily, from the ashen grey sky
Guilt fill my soul...forcing my heart to lie
The feelings deep within me, you will never know
someone come and save me, from the pain of letting you go....
The days that seemed so warm..all lost in the blizzard's wail
how you stopped calling me at night, or sending me some-mail
you hurt me countless times....
never felt sorry for your crimes...
So tonight, lets end this
seal it off with one last kiss
The tears flow down...without...consent...
I HAVE LOVED YOU TO THIS VERY EXTENT!!!
For now as I watch you walk away
let me think of our most joyful days...
you caused me pain...
so I did the same...
The SuicideSlit my wrist,The Suicide4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I lay to die.
Out of my mind.
Yet the body stays stiff like cement.
Please,I beg you dear,
leave your sins at the door.
Where 'O' where is your God ?
After life, after no life at all.
Now, or, then.
Came the funeral.
Beautiful when dead.
He kissed my lips
So pale, dark eyes, red lips,
I lay in the box.
Under the BladeI couldn't help itUnder the Blade4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It seems everyone is complete, content with someone else
I'm all alone out here
I don't have you
I'm starving and aching for you...
I could barely help it
Laying there on my bed, my arms shaking with grief
Legs convulsing and lungs struggling
Not to slip back under the blade again
I gripped the pillow
Tried to imagine what you looked like when I last saw you
Your voice deeper
Enough to make me flinch
I knew you were there
Looking for me
Smiling like you always would when I'd say something sweet to make you blush
I tried to wrap my hands in my blanket and
Breath in and out
It's lucky for you I'm so strong
Because yesterday I managed
And I didn't slip under the blade
Just a Poem About a BoyJust a Poem About a Boy4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I saw you once-
-I thought you were cute
I saw you twice-
-I wanted to talk to you
I had class with you-
-I pretended I didn't care
-You became a friend
I got lost walking home-
-You offered to walk with me for now on
We walked home together-
-We laughed and talked
You came to me for help-
-I gave my best advice
You said I really did help you-
-I started to "like" you
I needed help now-
-You were there for me
We talked for hours-
-I fell in love
I told you I liked you-
-You told me you liked me too
I broke up with my boyfriend-
-You held me while I cried
I wondered if I should wait to ask you out-
-You asked me out
I was scared to kiss you-
-So I ducked
You meant to kiss me-
-But I ducked
You said you felt dumb-
-I did too
You kissed me on the corner-
-I wasn't scared anymore
You held my hand-
-I smiled and blushed
I made out with you for Jellybeans-
-We kissed many times after
I told you I loved you-
-You said you loved me too
You made me happy-
-You said I made you happy t
The Dinner PartyI feel like i'll sleep better tonight knowing he was hereThe Dinner Party4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Because for once i felt so whole, having him so near
But there is something inside of me just gnawing at my heart
Because that boy was never mine- not even from the start
I hope she knows how lucky she is- the gorgeous girl he talks so much about
Because she has the beautiful boy who was just lying in my bed
And she has access to the kindest words ever said
The words that take a permanent residence in my head
I love his family more than anything,and the way he fits into mine
I love the way he shakes my father's hand and the way he always hugs me goodbye
He does all of these things like they're the simplest things in the world
God i would give anything to be that gorgeous girl
Coruscated EyesI am the sibilant whisperCoruscated Eyes4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that brings darkness;
the one that causes night to fall
as you close your
softly shining eyes
to see the last embers
of day fade
n o t h i n g n e s s .
Surrender to my gossamer touch,
like the besotted butterfly that
knows no better, and
say not a word.
Hear the muffled aubade
with the copper-washed gold of dawn,
and flourish in the night so filled with
I am the sibilant whisper that brings darkness.
I have the gossamer touch to
lull you into
the cradle of night.
And I sing that muffled aubade
which grows clearer with
every passing hour. . .
I am the sibilant whisper that brin
gold dust.his lips were soft,gold dust.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
so lovely and irresistible-
his kiss woke the day
and shattered the night,
tracing letters on my skin
and entwining his fingertips
in the auburn cascades
of my hair.
as he pressed himself
closer to me,
i couldn't help but
close my eyes and
blind myself to everything
but his gentle touch
and the feeling of
his body against mine.
gold dust fell where
our lips met,
marking the path behind us
and carrying us beyond-
turning our wounds to
the faint pink lines
of scar tissue:
memories we won't
Fairytales are realFairytales are real4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Remember the fairytales?
Where there would always be a prince charming.
And the forests were filled with talking animals.
Clouds were made of cotton and the sky, bright and blue.
Don't stop believing, the adventure has only just begun.
Come take my hand and we will fly off together,
Into the wild tendrils, sunk deep beneath reality.
Never give up.
Not on me.
Not on yourself
Not on the world.
Stay with me.
We will create our own fairytale.
Society, What Have You Done?I am not the prettiestSociety, What Have You Done?4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Nor skinniest am I
I am not the giggly girl
With the sparkle in her eye
No, for I am me
The girl of autumn wind
The girl with whom society
Has mangled, burned and skinned
The angry world is twisted
It beams it's deceiving eye
It laughs as we all cringe
Wither, rot, and cry
It takes away our power
It strips us to the bone
It laughs and laughs and laughs
Its evil mind has shone
For we are never perfect
In such an ugly place
But please, Im beg of you- Just once...
Your lies may I erase....?
there's no right way anymorei do not know why we do these things to each other.there's no right way anymore4 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
our sentences lack all the proper meaning. we only say what we're feeling when we're feeling nothing at all and keep all the most important things we could ever think to say safe beneath guarded tongues. we are clever in all the wrong ways.
it's about how we do all the things we're expected to because to actually do what we want the mostthe things that scare uswould mean having to take a risk. we might need to deal with the possibility that we have something to lose by doing nothing at all.
there is a complete certainty that we've gotten content in our lonelinessin our misery. we're stuck standing still, not at all responsible for the way we function, because even our hearts just keep beating because it's committed to memorynot because we make them. not because we want them to. we are incomplete in exactly the way we want to be.
if the fact that tomorrow never arrives because it's always today means that nothin
seek and givefor those who seekseek and give3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I shall give you
for those who seek
I shall give you
for those who seek
I shall give you
for those who seek
I shall give you
I hate it.I hate how...I hate it.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I blame it on me
When it's not my fault...
I hate how...
I fall down real low
And hurt myself...
I hate how...
I give up on life
And cry myself to sleep...
I hate how...
I fall into a trance
And believe all these lies...
Even In InsanityEven In InsanityEven In Insanity4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
You know I used to think
Insanity was neat
I waited week by week
To be touched by that strange star
But now here we are
And I've been crawling in so far
Toppling off the bar
With just one drink
And I thank you for your strength
But it's been too long a length
Eventually we'll break
So you should know:
I want to be with you when you go
I hate the way the madness shows
I hate the way I bring you low
You need to leave...
And even though I'll grieve
My world out under me
Maybe I'll be reprieved
When I'm only all insane
Crazed, I'll forget your name
Hurt, you'll do the same;
Just know that before it came
You meant everything to me
Though I won't know, we still will be:
I believe our love is free
I'll keep your shadow near to me
I'll love you just as complete
Even in insanity