MeAll she wanted was to be heard.
But, fuck, apparently that wasn't a feasible request, because the second she said what was on her mind, she offended someone, was shut down, and went on like that, in an unbreakable cycle, until she had not a clue what to do with herself.
She didn't have it hardshe had the greatest pair of parents in the world, a sister who drove her nuts but she loved anyway, a great group of friends.
She tried her hardest to keep her mouth shut, not to upset everyone around her, to keep things the same. She'd deny it, but she feared change. She feared that everyone who was important to her today would somehow disappear, maybe just not be important anymore, and then what?
Where would she be?
She has a best friend, a girl she cares about more than almost anything. She'd do anything for this girl, and this girl is the only one that knows just about everything.
She always has something on her minda lot of times, she's not even i
Kiss It Better?Sora's cried could be heard from a mile awaynot literally, but in the sense that they were loud, high pitched, blood curdling screams that indicated the small child was in pain. All the while, words were uttered, not loud, simply existent, soft and harsh, the kind that ripped at hearts.Kiss It Better?3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"You're a nuisance, a waste of space. Why do you exist?" Mumble, kick, and screech. "That's stupid, why do you cry? Are you some kind of stupid girl? What's wrong with you? Why were you even born? You're a waste of air, you know?"
Another kick, one right to the poor kid's face; another cry, tears coursing down his cheeks mingling with blood, dripping on the ground in a morbid pattern that satisfied the boySephiroth had to have been at least five years older than Sora. Why did he find such pleasure in beating the seven year old to a bloody pulp?
"Shut up!" Sora shouted, hands twisted into tiny f
Unexpected-Part 17-RxSUnexpected-Part 17-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
I'll be completely honest when I say that I was ready to drop out of school. I was so sick of everything, so tired of the situations we kept being thrown into, and maybe, just maybe, we could run away.
It was the typical school thing, if you know what I meanthey spray painted fag on his locker, and other uncreative insults on mine. They dumped milk on ussour milk at that, and it was really gross. They talked whenever we walked by.
Occasionally, Riku would make this face, usually while washing milk out of his hair, although he was never looking at me, I knew he was directing it at me.
Are you happy now?
And honestly, no, I was miserable. I had the aura of Roxas all the time, because I was just basking in my hate for the world.
No, I was basking in my hate for them, because they were making Riku miserable.
Honestly, I did consider dropping out. I really did.
It was somewhere between skipping
Unexpected-RikuxSoraUnexpected-RikuxSora4 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
It was funny because it was unexpected. You know what I mean? I was surewhen we were littleour parent's had kind of assumed that Riku would've been the third wheel. That out of all of us, he was the most to himself, and he would've separated himself from us, while Kairi and I became an example of everlasting love. Everyone had known itparents, friends, family. Everyone had known.
We never would have expected this.
I, never in a million years, would have expected this.
When we got back to the Island nearly a year ago, we were all close, an inseparable threesome foreverbest friends forever, right? We'd been saying that since we were young.
And, out of all the predictions our parents made for us, only one was accurate in any way. Riku pulled away from us, he pulled away from Kairi and I, and all the efforts I made were deemed useless by the silver haired boy. But, Kairi's effort
Unexpected-Part 16-RxSUnexpected-Part 16-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Sixteen-Not Like Him
Riku was never one to show much emotionat least in comparison to Kairi, or me, or even a fourteen year old PMSing girl. In comparison to most people, actually. And it was normal for him.
Riku just wasn't over emotional like me.
So, to have him wake me up in the middle of the night with tears flaring in the corners of his eyes was kind of panicking for me. But, I let him pull me out the door without shoes on in just my pj pants without a second thought.
This just wasn't normal.
And it definitely wasn't Riku-like, at all.
He just towed me along, until we hit the abandoned end of Twilight Townbecause, you know, there were so many people out at two in the morningwhere there was this one park.
It was rather pathetic in sight, and the situation itself kind of cliché, but I was simply dragged along, until we were both seated atop the monkey bars, and he was hiding behind a curtain of shiny silver hair t
Unexpected-Part 7-RxSUnexpected-Part 7-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Seven: Mine, Mine, Mine.
The secret place was cold, damp, and in my mind, depressingjust like the situation. And sitting there, so close to spilling our guts, was exactly the same.
It seemed we all were waiting for someone else to speak up first. I can only speak for myself though.
We were supposed to be best friends. Things shouldn't be awkward like this.
But, we cheated. We shattered every piece of perfection we ever had handed to us. And, when you come down to the tiny, barely existent details, it was my fault.
"Listen, Kairi," I said softly, only to be quickly cut off.
"I know," she said, just as quietly. I was hyperaware of where Riku was in relation to me, and I hated that. I was so possessive over things I wasn't even allowed to be possessive over.
Because Riku wasn't mine.
"No, you need to let us talk," Riku spoke up.
"There's nothing for you to say, though," Kairi murmured, hands t
Unexpected-Part 2-RxSUnexpected-Part 2-RxS4 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
Unexpected~PART TWO: Friendship Is A Two Way Street.
His words made me wonder, oh and I despised that. You could say I got better after that, but it was a liean absolute falsehood and a shameless one at that.
Oh, but Riku and Kairi lived on, so did it matter, really? Words could have travelled around the island, the entire town was a gossip, and I never would have known. They could have said something totally ridiculous about me, and I wouldn't know, because I had no life, and no motivation to leave my cave of self pity.
I felt like a loser. And more than that, I missed them.
But, I wasn't ready to be the third wheel. I wasn't sure I ever would be, and that's why I spent nearly another two weeks in my roomtwo extra weeks before they felt the need to intervene.
And, you know, I realized I was feeling so worthless because I was waiting for them to do something, instead of doing something myself.
No Worries"Look Riku," his eyes sparkled brightly as he pressed his face against the window, fogging over when he breathed. He pulled back just a little, drawing a smiley face in the mist, before grinning at me. "It's raining!"No Worries3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Yeah, so?" I smirked, sarcasm rolling off my tongue. It was so effortless to upset him, that doofus.
"Riku," he pouted, peering up at me through black lashes.
"Sora," I mocked, drawing out his name. He pouted some more, jumping from the top of the couch onto the floor, gripping my wrist for support as he did so.
"Riku, come play in the rain with me," he whined, tugging on my arm.
"Don't you have to ask first?" I wondered, smirking a bit. Really, I was trying to think of a way out of itI was wearing new clothes, and I knew my mom would get mad if I got them dirty. Really, I wanted to play in the rain with Sora, so bad.
"If I ask, they'll say no," he continued to jut out his lip
Unexpected-Part 8-RxSUnexpected-Part 8-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Eight: Our Inner Darkness
Art always came naturally for menot digital art, as the Photoshop incident proved, but real pencil on paper art. And those were words coming from other people, not me.
I thought my work was crap, but occasionally, inspiration pounded on my head until I couldn't ignore it anymore, and my entire world faded to that one piece of paper.
Riku was in the shower, so it kind of made sense, in a way.
"Whatcha drawing?" Riku hummed, a devilish grin spreading over his lips.
Well, Riku was in the shower
"Nothing," I grinned innocently, tugging the paper to my chest.
"Let me see it," he ordered, although it was half hearted, as always.
"No," I drawled, tugging my feet under me so I could sit Indian style.
"Give it," he murmured, a little more forcefully.
"No, mine," I wanted to laugh, but didn't have the chance. Arms wound tight around my waist, he locked our lips together and slid his tongue into my mouth, making me gasp, as
Unexpected-Part 10-RxSUnexpected-Part 10-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Ten-You Won't Bring Me Down
"I know you're awake, dork," Riku hummed, lips soft against my forehead.
"Meh," I grinned, keeping my eyes closed. "Hey Kairi."
I peeled my eyes open, pulling out of Riku's arms. It was early in the morning. Why had he let me sleep there?
"Dumbass," I muttered affectionately. "You should've woken me up."
"There was no way. He was just kind of staring at you," Kairi giggled.
"Oh yeah, now that's attractive," I chuckled, sarcasm rolling off my tone.
"Thanks Kairi," Riku muttered.
"No problem," she grinned perkily. "I'm off to find my love. See you two later?"
"I'm happy for you Kairi," I smiled.
"Thanks Sora," she skippedyes, she seriously skippedoff down the beach, a large smile on her face.
"She's even happier now than when she was with you, Riku," I stated, running my fingers through his hair.
"Yeah," he whispered. "But I'm a tho
KH: RikuxSora yaoiKAIRIKH: RikuxSora yaoi4 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
One day on an island named for its unusual fortune: Destiny Island, there was an irregular phenomenon. Two boys were playing- fighting actually- with there wooden toy swords. They were just kids: the younger one about seven and the older one eight. They had been best friends forever; almost like brothers. They spent all of there time together as one, the oldest developed a protective and possessive nature, the other a soft child like wonder.
"Hey Riku!" The younger of the two shouted as he ran over to the older taller white haired boy. "Wait UP!" He huffed as he pushed himself onward.
The older boy-Riku-smiled in a superior way as he slowed his pace for the young wide eyed brown hair boy. As the small boy reached his side he doubled over with heavy pants. "You wanted something .Sora?" Riku asked in a faux politeness. He thought the little boy was very cute and loved to tease him.
Sora's cheeks flushed in anger. "You know-I have been calling to you for five minuets, trying to
Unexpected-Part 9-RxSUnexpected-Part 9-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Nine-Burnt Bridges
Leaning against that stupid paopu tree, he held my hand, and we sat in silence, just for a little while.
Because really, when Riku said the beach, he really meant that little non-island with one tree that grew star shaped fruits that had the ability to twine destinies.
Riku and I had shared many of those stupid fruits, when we were little.
Never with a meaning behind them, but if the legend was true, Riku was stuck with my sorry ass forever.
He pressed a kiss to the outer edge of my right ear, and I could feel his gloomy smile, his breaths making me shiver.
"Let's talkwe can't exist on a relationship based on secrets, Sora."
"Isn't that hypocritical of you?" I spat out. I felt him barely cringe, that smile from just a few seconds ago disappearing.
"Yes," he stated dryly. "I suppose it is."
"Sorry," I whispered.
"No, you're right," he murmured, just as quiet. No one was really around, which was weird.
HideawayI didn't think that it was that hard to figure out. It wasn't like there were so many exceedingly complicated hiding places on the island. It wasn't like we worked at all to hide it, either. It was kind of an idea that if we had to get away from even Kairi, there had to be some place for us to go, without hiding behind a closed and locked door, or curling up in the shack. Everyone knew where we hung out, so, by default, we had to find somewhere else.Hideaway3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Kairi's phone call was frantic, followed closely by Sora's mother's equally panicked call. I just sat there smirking as they squealed at me in half hysteria, before murmuring assuranceSora's fine, and I know exactly where he is. I just won't tell you.
There was no one around, which wasn't all that oddit was nearing midnight, and the moonlight was relatively dim for a summer night.
I took my time on the path, and was extra careful climbing the last twenty or so fe
The Nerdiest WayRiku sighed softly, placing the Nintendo DS back onto the glass coffee table. There was no way this was going to work. He was going to get himself rejected, and most likely slapped. His frown was deep, creases forming on his face, and he couldn't help the thought that he'd be getting premature wrinkles. Sora kept saying he was prematurely gray"It's silver Sora!!"so why not wrinkles too? He could be mistaken as an elderly person when he was only a college freshman.The Nerdiest Way3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Sora was still back on the islands, a senior, and his text messages were blowing up Riku's phonenot to mention his billsince summer started on his end of the world. Riku still had coursework to be completed, not to mention sleep to catch up on as he'd gotten so little in the last week or so, but he'd neglected all of that for one special project.
With Sora's birthday fast approaching, he knew the best thingand the onl
Unexpected-Part 15-RxSUnexpected-Part 15-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
"I don't know what you did, Sora, but Roxas was crying like a baby when I found him," the new weight on my legs was relatively painful, but I couldn't do much about it as I stared up at Axel with bleary eyes.
"I don't know what you're talking about," I muttered, digging my face back into the couch. "Where's Riku?"
"Out," Axel replied, and that was it. "Seriously, what happened between you two last night? Rox won't tell me."
"If your boyfriend won't tell you, why should I?"
"Someone's in a mood," he mumbled.
"I can't feel my legs," I spat back. I'm sure Axel just grinned at that.
"Just tell me Sora," he growled.
"We came to terms with all of his hatred for me, and life."
"And?" Axel prodded me in the side.
"He reminds me of those gay boys in the closet who beat up other gay boys, hypocritical."
"Huh?" he prodded me again.
"Stop poking me," I growled. "He hates how he is. Said you walked by,
Unexpected-Part 14-RxSUnexpected-Part 14-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Fourteen-Always Just Know
"Would you hit me if I said I didn't even know what to say?" he mumbled, biting his lip and looking at me sadly.
"When was the last time I hit you, Rox?" I mumbled, crossing my arms atop the counter where I lounged, and resting my cheek atop them, eyeing him slowly.
I was trying, trying so hard to be open minded.
But, I was scared shitless.
"Every time you push me away," he whispered, frowning.
"Did you ever consider," I growled rather harshly, "that I was trying to make you feel maybe even an ounce of the pain I've dealt with over the past year?"
"Sora, I don't know what to do," and his voice was quiet, and calm, two things that were very uncommonly associated with situations involving Roxas.
"Then why the fuck are you still trying?" I spat. I just kept silently wishing for Riku to save me, because I hated this situation, every situation involving Roxas.
"I want my brother back," he stated, so quiet, so close to inaudible, but
HeartbeatWhen you're a baby, the most comforting sound is the heartbeat of your mother. It continues to comfort you in the worst of times, because it's something consistent, something you've known since before you could know anything else.Heartbeat3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Sora lost that when he was really youngonly about a year old. So, as any young child would do, he attached himself to the closest consistent heartbeat he could find. That just happened to be Riku, who not only would grow to be Sora's best friend, but also Sora's lifeline.
Sora was twelve when he realized how clingy he actually was where Riku was involvedyes, he'd heard people say so before, but that didn't mean he listened. He'd never wanted to hear it. He lost something so incredibly drastic in his lifehis moms, both of themhe didn't want anyone ripping Riku away. He tried, really hard, to stop sticking to Riku for everything, but in the end, his efforts onl
BoundHe watched the younger as he sleptit was creepy, in fact, it was almost common. Riku got so little sleep, because he spent so much time watching the brunette. He had a delicate smile painted gently on his face, looking peaceful, at ease. It was impossible to tell he was a sobbing mess just an hour beforethe only slight hint was the slight pink tint on his face, washed out by the fading sunlight that slipped through the cracks in the window.Bound3 years ago in Romance More Like This
His breaths were soft, even, and Riku paced his breathing to that of his lover, a small smile spread over his face. He couldn't help ithe never could. There was something very beautiful about the boy, very compelling, something very, very important. There was something there that played his heart like an acoustic; he just didn't know how to explain that to Sora in words. He tried desperately to convey his every feeling and thought through his actions
Unexpected-Part 6-RxSUnexpected-Part 6-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Six-Painful Realization
He stared for a long time, forced to look me in the eye. I felt his eyes burning into my soul, painfully, screaming at me.
Stop forcing me into things, Sora.
"Just tell me where was I, Riku?" In reality, the question was stupid. But, it was cover up for a real question, and I was sure he knew that.
If he had known where I was, if the situation differed, would he have come to me instead of Kairi?
Could this entire thing have been avoided, had I just been around a little more?
Could I really be any more of an ass than I already was?
He raised an eyebrow at me, like, do I really have to answer that?
I had so many questions running through my head, all screaming at me, begging for answers, but I couldn't speak them through my closed up throat. So they just kept pounding away, thousands of voices in my head, thousands of unspoken thoughts.
Because really, what right did I have to make him talk?
Unexpected-Part 3-RxSUnexpected-Part 3-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Three-Jealous Much?
"You're not making any sense," he decided, after ten idle minutes of staring incomprehensively out the window.
"Oh contraire," I tried to smile reassuringly, and continued to hold his hand.
"Please elaborate," Riku said wearily, looking up at me. It was then that I realized how much of a wreck he really was inside. Under his eyes, smeared ever so slightly, was the stuff he'd put under my eyes as well, to hide the black marks. His eyes were bloodshotprobably from a mixture of no sleep and contact lenseshis hair was disheveled. No wonder he'd had it pulled back.
"You have to cheat on her, and get caught."
Was I a horrible person for saying so? I thought so, yes. Was I selfish? Oh yes. It wasn't my fault though; Riku walked around like a Ken doll. Kairi was the perfect Barbie, with the perfect hair and the perfect eyes and the pe
Behind Closed Doors-SoraxRiku-Behind Closed Doors-SoraxRiku-4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Behind closed doors, there was always something more.
It was early Wednesday, and, had the circumstances been different, they would've been in school. Senior year, one week in counting, and they were missing finals.
But, considering the exact situation, they couldn't care less.
If it was movie, the scene would have been in black and white, and time would've slowed down, just for them.
Life wasn't a movie, it never had been.
The room was full color, there was a moth fluttering absently on the window, and the room smelled of rubbing alcohol and too much hand sanitizer. To a bystander, it was absolutely normal, but to them, things were just different.
Everyone likes to think their life was outside of the social norm thoughit isn't as self satisfying if you think that everyone goes through what you do.
Riku's hair, eloquent and naturally silver, was messily tied back with a black ribbon of sorts, thick enough to serve as a blindfold if the situation
Kissing is for Bestfriends"Do you like my picture Kairi?" Sora said with a huge goofy grin on his face. The redhead smiled and nodded. The small seven year old had drawn a picture of three stick figures all holding hands.Kissing is for Bestfriends3 years ago in Romance More Like This
"Can I see?" a silverette asked as he walked over to Kairi and Sora on the playground.
Sora lifted up the picture and pointed to the first figure, "This is you, this is Kairi, and this is me in the middle!" the small brunette shouted.
The eight year-old smiled at his best friend and giggled, "I love it Sora."
Kairi frowned and tapped Sora on the shoulder. "I love it too Sora. Even more than Riku. In fact I love it so much I am going to give you a kiss!" the redhead shouted with excitement.
Sora stared at her confused. "But Kairi, I thought mommies and daddies are suppose to kiss. We aren't mommies and daddies."
"Nuh-uh!" Riku argued. "My brother Zexion isn't a mommy or daddy and he kisses. He said he kisses Demyx because Demyx is his best friend."
Kairi nodded in agreement. "So we should kiss.
Not Enough-Riku x Sora-Not Enough-Riku x Sora-4 years ago in Romance More Like This
What are you really supposed to do when they tell you you're not good enough? If you argue you are, you look like an arrogant bastard. If you don't say anything, you seem like you have no backbone, or no self worth.
If you run and tell the one you're not good enough for, those words stab you like knives in the heart. And then, when you cry, you look weak again.
Really, the world was full of judgments. Most of the time, it wasn't you personally, it was the way you acted.
So, when Riku called me up that night, I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say and how to say it. And when I ignored it, it follow by a slew of texts and voicemails, begging me to answer, wondering in desperation what he'd done wrong, and asking why I was mad at him.
And I felt like a horrible person by not answering, but I felt even worse when I considered facing the facts.
Because, you know, no matter how much you try to let the words roll o
Unexpected-Part 12-RxSUnexpected-Part 12-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Twelve-Not This Time
"Hey Sora," my thoughts went haywire. I'd honestly forgotten that she was supposed to be my friend too. It seemed that Riku was her only priority.
"Kairi," I decided to acknowledge her. It was almost hard to believe that we wouldn't be seeing her around anymore, that she wouldn't be a problem.
"He has more stuff than me," I looked her in the eyes for the first time in so long. It was amazing, this girl was one of our best friends, and she just got obnoxious, a nuisance of sorts out to get rid of me.
"What do you mean?"
She was wearing another big t-shirt, tied back with a hair tie. She was kind of wringing her hands, worrying her lip and frowning.
She knew. That much was obvious.
"We're getting out of here, me and Riku," I breathed.
"And you didn't tell me?" she just sounded mad now, her hands balled into tiny, un-menacing fists.
"Wasn't my place to unfortunate
Unexpected-Part 5-RxSUnexpected-Part 5-RxS4 years ago in Romance More Like This
Part Five: All The Time In The World
Spit it out Sora, seriously, you look stupid.
"What?" Riku asked softly. My hands were still on his face, and I think I just kind of froze.
Who knew? It was like a blank spot in my memory even though it happened just a few seconds earlier.
"N-nothing," I breathed, dropping his face, falling back so that I was sitting on my feet. He watched me curiously, almost smiling, but not quite, one eyebrow quirked up.
"You know you can talk to me, right?"
His hand was warm against my neck. And he was trying so hard to convey everything to me through his wide eyed gaze, I felt like my head would explode.
But, yes, I got it.
"I know," I whispered.
And the kisses he pressed to my lips made me feel weightless. It was a multitude of kisses, all lasting like half of a second, pulling back before I could respond and pressing forward before I could register the fact. I felt like I was in heaven.