My Murderous FriendsDraw your swords you murderous men.
Draw nigh with your arrows dipped in poison.
Let your lying lips come close to my ear.
Let your deceitful eyes meet mine.
The time has come once again.
The time to reveal your true nature.
You live to shed blood, my "friends".
You live to watch me suffer.
Come now, and pierce my heart once again,
with words that slaughter my very soul;
that cause my life to bleed out inside of me,
with rivers of tears that seem to have no end.
Come. Stare at my suffering,
with pitiless eyes that know no empathy;
with lips shaped in joyous smiles.
With laughter and joy, dance around my pain.
Your venomous words penetrate my being.
I stumble from all the pain of your poison.
Light and life is slowly drained.
Shrouding me in darkness
Have I pleased you now my "friends"?
In the midst of my pain, I see you laughing.
Surely my suffering was not in vain,
For you are happy.
The earth is made drunk by my blood.
Blood shed to satisfy your evil thirst.
You wield weapons t
lonlinesslonliness is like a gaping hole in one's heartlonliness3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
out which all hope and joy is drained.
if the solitude persists,
beyond mortal limits,
we shall lose ourselves
and become the living dead,
mere bodies filled with saddness and pain.
Innocence DefiledInnocence DefiledInnocence Defiled6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
in hails of gunfire
Innocence and youth
from fragile hearts
caught in the crossfire.
If alive, displaced
if not physically.
hands of the young
the scarred future.
seeds of hatred and anger sown.
they rise on the corpses
of those they loved
those they deem martyrs.
Forced to set aside childish things.
Forced to surrender their childhood.
Dolls and toys,
replaced with guns.
Education and books,
replaced with knowledge of war
and images of blood and violence.
The sound of laughter
the sound of gunfire
The seeds are being sown in these broken hearts.
Seeds of war still to come
as hatred begets revenge
in lives tossed into wars
that they did not start,
but will continue to avenge those they've lost.
Innocence has been drenched in blood.
It has been defiled,
Hearts and mi
The Things I Am in Love WithThe sound of the rain as it pours downThe Things I Am in Love With5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
from thunder clouds and
hits my window pane as thunder
and lightning flash
in the background.
The feel of a hardback book
that is full of
thick paper and
written down for my eyes
as it's cradled in the palm of my
The smell from a closing
door of the
down the street, the one that
I am not
to walk to alone.
The sight of a sunrise reflected
off someone, a sight better than
the actual sunrise,
for not only do you get the
you see them
with their own sunrise.
The taste of something
that will forever burn my mouth and
scorch my throat, but I
the fire in my stomach
the lava in my veins
for the feeling is
and whenever I hurry
to soothe my throat, there will
always be one part of me
that wishes for it to
I am in love with these things,
for I will always stop
until the suns comes out,
I finish my story,
I walk back home,
the day begi
A Voice to the CosmosI sang the song with youA Voice to the Cosmos6 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Faces to the sky
Voices spiraling to stars
Our story, lifted off the world
Breathed gently into the heavens
Enchanting those glowing suns
Not a happy tale, nor a sad one
A tapestry of truth
Not of love, not of tears
But one of life
And oh, how they shone!
Drinking in the light
And passing it on
The immortality began here
And will only end far, far away
With the rest of the shining blackness
A channel of golden threads
Pouring into eternal night
One voice grew weak
One voice faltered
Trying to live on
Yet was swept away and claimed
Even though you fell
I kept on singing
The story will not end
The stars will not dim
But now I'll sing twice as loud
The Ghost in the MirrorI saw a ghost of a girl in the mirrorThe Ghost in the Mirror3 months ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I almost screamed until I realized I knew her
Her tired eyes held secrets that only I knew
Her cold lips spoke stories I knew weren’t true.
I knew those fingertips, stained red with the blood
That she used to paint smiles on flowering buds
Her heart beats blue, cold and toxic to the touch
But it wasn’t like she ever let anyone grow close enough
To even catch a glimpse of what hid behind her shell
A red and burning heart whose fires rivaled hell
And she always wore a mask as if she lived a masquerade
Which was true of course, her whole life was a charade
Her mask was of those that actors wore in theater
And her whole life was just a one night feature
The one that the critics hated and clenched their teeth tightly
The one where the audience just smiled and clapped politely
Of course there were some that thought it was great
But with admirers so few, she was overwhelmed with hate
And this girl in the mirror, oh, she had such a twisted mind
The FeelingIts burning in my chestThe Feeling7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
The fire is raging
So warm and friendly
Once felt before long ago
Radiating throughout the room
I think I remember this feeling
Anger ManagementPurpleAnger Management3 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
That’s the colour of my anger
Not a boiling red that flushes my fist and passes by my eyes as a mist
Nor a curdled green that sits proudly in a pool of envious spite
But a churning, gripping purple
Like lips starved of oxygen
Tightening my windpipe, masking my pallor with bruises
Crushing my urge to breathe
To breathe fresh air and reawaken who I should be
I want to drown
A poison that lingers and festers
A gift from the cuts opened by the shards of shattered trust you left me with
Boiling and seething
Its steam only making my urge for vengeance
My hunger to satisfy this bitter hollow in my stomach
Grow ever more ravenous
Placid smiles hide the plotting schemes I harbour
To take you down with me
I could cope with a violent burst of red
Blood splattering the floor, knocked free by a wayward fist
Or the bitter tang of rolling green waves
Tides of jealousy swamping who I am, pulling me ever further
Bring me any colour from a spectrum of intolerable anger
Don't Let The Failures Control You!The painful failuresDon't Let The Failures Control You!5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Which I've experienced
Makes me afraid of
The next failures
Which might come
When I'll do something.
But for how long
Will I be afraid of
These next failures?
How long will I be
And doing nothing
I'm afraid of these
Life is too short
To worry about
Have to do
I like to do
Even if it means
That I have to
Fight for it
Is not a
Garden of roses!
To Save A GhostStanding in the moonlight,To Save A Ghost7 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
As the dance begins,
Graceful in your movement,
Tonight you meet your end,
The bones of a loved one,
As the fires are lit,
And you have made the choice,
No turning back,
As your movements take shape,
An elegant dance,
To save a life,
That has already been lost,
A price you will pay,
At the end,
For in order to rescue the dead,
You have to give a life,
To replace the one they had,
As your dance stops,
You are surrounded by light,
And right before your eyes,
Stands the one,
Who had met their demise,
A moment of love,
As you hug them tight,
Is gone in an instant,
As you replace their life,
Alone but alive,
Where your dance took place,
You have taken their spot,
In the land of death,
For that is the price,
Of Rescuing A Ghost.
hallelujahhallelujah as i singhallelujah3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to the envy of the larks
gracing the winds,
or the sirens
crooning in lullabies
my heart is singing
louder than silver bells
hinged on the backs of my ankles
like infantile wings
i am lost
like i am found,
secret and stoic
and birthing the beauty
of the night
into freckled constellations
over my back
hallelujah i sing
there is no greater joy,
as a woman's heart
full of the sea
in the sea
as she sings, "hallelujah,
in even the darkest of nights,
cigarette smoke and forever,
you'd be waiting for me."
an hour i can never get backthe light overheadan hour i can never get back3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
fluorescent like that
in a train station-
millions of miles
held in the same breath
beneath the same roof-
flutter in rolling hills
sometimes like the moon
and sometimes like the sun.
it is like the day and night
of you that i see-
the day, so many more miles
like that train station,
than the complete lack of space
and utter abeyance of distance
we would find at night.
i fear that,
your absent heart
will become ugly to me;
simply your fear
will turn my hurt to flame.
it is already too much
to flicker from rose to dessication
in the matter of times
the secondhand twitches.
all i ask is for
honesty, as exposed as
tree roots to the desert sandstorms.
i promise peace, ease,
and the everlong relief
that i will be quiet
for you once more.
this is less of a love poem and more of athere is something to be saidthis is less of a love poem and more of a3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
about resisting the temptation
to start out with a bang.
the hallway of your neck
has never lost its scent
and it's something, i swear,
i swear, i can never forget
because it's something surreal
to wake up while you're asleep
and feel you pull me closer
til our faces almost meet-
hold onto that almost,
hold onto it like stardust.
you need to touch me in a whisper
because it's been too long
since i've felt the hand of someone
who actually meant it,
someone who actually meant something
and i'm so glad, my god,
i'm on my knees
i am praying to(o,) my god
that we won't burn out so quick this time,
i'm too tired to bear new scars
i just want you to love me
but that's not something i could ever ask.
just some time maybe,
i know that no august moon can watch us forever
and keep us warm,
and no constellation can teach me everything
i've ever needed to know.
but everything ugly i ever saw about you
and everything unflattering?
it's gone like the magic we
sleep and dreamevery ebb and flowsleep and dream3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
swims like a memory,
floundering or aching
the way they do
when sleep deems itself
king of impossibility.
(these are the times
i wish you could
love me long enough
when the eastern sun sinksi wonder if you wouldwhen the eastern sun sinks3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
change your mind
find it in your
to feel a little something
if you saw the words
you've pulled from
uncovered by your lips,
i find poems under my hands.
i write strophes and lines
imprinted on your skin
when i move my fingers away.
i have so much to
i could give you so much
but you slink like a
nightcrawler from light
to a comfortable recession,
we will talk again
and no stammered heart
will beat like birds
if our hands touch;
you will realise
that sooner than you have,
you could have
shared your self
with someone else
and been safe-
you would have been
presumptionsi know i'm a very common-,presumptions3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
i look like i floss my teeth
at least once a week
and have never worn
like i devour books like candy
and never talked during class.
it's funny when people are nothing like how they look.
so let me tell you something,
let me set you straight:
i'd have you believe
i'm not some heavily medicated girl
with snakes up and down her body
in bright red rows, all raw and scabbed and
constant, ceaseless, neverending reminders of fucked-up and failure...
but it never took much for you to talk me into bed.
letting you think i'm some perfect porcelain figurine
without cracks all up my spine is about as ok as forging your mom's signature;
meaning it's alright as long as it's nothing serious.
and maybe that's the problem.
playing hopscotch cross-continent all summer and
making a patchwork quilt out of our travels when the cold sets in
is a pretty serious stab at giving us another go.
i can deal with touch, i just might shudder
lovedrunkshe looks at me, all big doe eyes and cupid-bow lips, tells me, now i'm not trying to say i'm about to kill myself, but i'm about to kill myself.lovedrunk2 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
the traffic light is glass. not that it's reflective, not that it's bright, but that it's so slow, a liquid, moving like a year. it's also what my blood has become with these words.
we're in my car but i'm scared. i know i'm the one behind the wheel, but i don't know what she's got in her purse. i don't know her name but i do know she's drunk. so am i. i know we shouldn't be driving but i couldn't leave such sad eyes at a bar. i guess, if i'm being entirely honest, i also couldn't leave such a beautiful body at a bar, either. especially if some guy with worse intentions than i couldn't pass her up.
talk to me, i say. i don't glance up from the road because i'm scared of what i'll see, and what i won't.
you're not my fucking therapist, she tells me. i know she's wearing red lipstick and i imagine it turns to venom with those words.
the first two monthsi'm silent becausethe first two months3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i'd be talking
a mile a minute
(closing this distance)
and imagining you
we spent the afternoon
lying on my floor
and i love how
our hands can never
keep to themselves
my stomach bears my name
in a terrible yellowed lime lacquer
in your terrible scrawl
and i'm happy to have it
my knee smiles with its red mouth
a scrape from the boulders
we piloted ourselves like airplanes
deep across seas
before the rain set in too heavily
my thigh is a volcano
erupting soon with bruises
shaped like your fingers
and my elbow blossoms
like a hot flower
from my bedframe
sometime we will spend a day
in the sun on my roof
soft touches welcome
like the big star's beams
and sometime we will
hidden in the hollows
behind your home
and sometime we will
understand that not everything
has to be perfect or make sense
to be perfect or make sense.
Dear PsychopathI'm gonna write you a letterDear Psychopath5 months ago in Free Verse More Like This
Something that'll remain in your mind forever
I wonder if your heart shivered
From all the lies you delivered
Does this brain of yours even recognize empathy ?
Or are you a psychopath that finds joy in others agony ?
That's quite a show you performed
Broke in into people's lives and left it stormed
Stole the hearts of the innocent souls
Treated them as if they're just a bunch of tools
Don't be fooled if you thought you made your getaway
I wont lay a finger at you but in your head ill make sure youll pay
If only you did the right thing and confessed for your crime
I would have forgiven you and gave you my time
But that's too late now a liar is who you are
You think I'm crawling in darkness ?
Look up I'm a star
listen honey, here comes your mani hear your gaslight anthemlisten honey, here comes your man2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
playing in my head
for the first time in months.
my stomach is knitting itself
a raw sweater,
pink and greying flesh
from the sickness of worry.
i made the mistake
of playing it back to you.
you tell me you miss me,
you love me,
these songs in your vernacular
writing your thoughts,
but the thoughts are not yours.
it was well intentioned
but too far gone,
the thought has trailed
its way along lines
of train tracks-
i cannot think of you
unless you come back
the best way to remember somethingi crythe best way to remember something2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
every time you write me a letter-
in all my damaged glory,
still loved across miles of river and fields.
you are unyielding and unforgetting,
finding the words we never had
there are many moonlit stories
to recount and to expound upon in
i've got a burn on the toe of my shoe
from getting too near the fire with you-
the bruises on your skin
lasted for days;
the headband your sister gave me
and the way i cried
when it broke;
climbing up stairs, skewed like piano keys
in the winter air,
and entering your house, where you told me
to tug on my sleeve
because my battle wounds were exposed;
your dog curling up on your bed
to keep me company,
the way i was welcomed in your house,
getting drunk on vodka on new year's,
the first time you made me cum,
finding ourselves at a party
on the porch where we met-
i am amazed, astounded, awed.
you can love me even though my ear piercings are crooked,
a broken smile on my teeth
for every time you ran away, afraid;
upon knowing the answeryou are punctuating.upon knowing the answer3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
i find myself asleep beside you
not dreading the most singular transition
between sleeping and sleeping alone
until i am wrapped
in my own bed
with too much space
i like thinking
of how this is not a memory
this is a moment
that is repeating itself
every time we find
the gaps between minutes
and fill them with ourselves,
like photographs i can't wait to take
and imagine so many times
of the lens reflecting us,
and how that feels
my feet are still unsteady
on a ground too nascent for tectonics
but i am feeling promise
in the way the camera catches you
looking at me
in ways i don't see myself
i like to think of how
you touch me
between mountain ranges
it is so jubilant
full like the clouds
forming castles in the heavens
and it is so soft
so lock and key
that i find myself
burning an obsession with heat
under my skin
where your fingers and lips
I'm (not) okay!Everyone sometime in their life is asked, "Are you okay?" And of course, we always give the standard answer of, "Yeah, I'm fine!"I'm (not) okay!7 months ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
Because it is what we were taught to do. No one wants to hear "No, I'm not." because then what are we to do? We expect that same answer, so when it does not come, we fidget, we get awkward, we stutter, we don't know what to say.
And truthfully, we really don't.
How can we fix a problem we've never been met before? When everyone says they're "Just fine.", how do others expect us to react when the answer is the opposite? That's why we always say we're "Just fine." because we don't know. We're afraid. We're afraid of opening up to others and comforting others. It's not that we can't, but really, what can we do? Give a hug, get some chocolate, be there? That's a little hard to do nowadays.
Most of today's generation is stuck in front of a computer screen, with most of their friends half way around the world. How do you expect us to comfort you
something i should've written a year agoare you happy?something i should've written a year ago3 years ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
you hear that, but you don't actually ask yourself if you're happy.
you assume you are,
you expect yourself to be, you should be,
it's not important enough to think about-
because what if you aren't?
it's last summer again.
you've locked yourself out of your car
and we're sitting with our knees crossed
on the pavement in front of kate's house.
somewhere, you can hear fireworks,
but you know they're illegal because the town is too broke
to put on a show this year.
you know no one minded.
look at me now-
what if you're miserable?
july cruises in like a convertible or some equally hot shit.
standing by the sealit water,
i watch you roll down your window
to let the heat fall in.
that was the night we were under the stars
and in the sand, despite the poor blanket's best efforts.
we drank italian sodas and blew straw wrappers at each other.
we ate too much and i didn't cry.
crying came later. maybe a couple weeks.
crying came in your car when you told me
you swore to yourself