Guide You HomeYou study the stars on my arms,
blended constellations set in negative,
as though they could guide you
from your grinding teeth and furrowed brows,
to the final release and the following calm.
You have not asked a question of me.
I, therefore, have no answers for you.
The wheeling sky is paused, silent, skin.
I cannot lead you home,
though you searched my astrology and I, as we
hovered over your body. I am not, I never was
truly set with sky, infinite, omniscient.
I cannot divine the questions caught
behind your open mouth, closed throat.
I am human, and fickle, and finite.
There are no answers in me.
BipolarI.Bipolar4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
A dove into a mirror;
A crow into a tree.
There is a word missing.
EnvyMaiden.Envy4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
The space between us is slant rhyme,
Burning-in, saturation, and exposure time,
Ink curves he drew from a lead line,
The way his fingers fit in yours,
Instead of mine.
You are difficult to hone, granite.
I am prone to severing.
You are a vestige made of stone
That I could never be.
Are you what is happening to me?
Rain and gravity have
Weathered the weaker parts
They leave you standing
Strong, a pyramid, a mountain.
I am haunted: a cliff, daunted
By the sea.
Even ThoughThere will be no caged fingers,Even Though3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
no tendons finely tuned to A from tension.
There will be no clenched teeth, gritting rosin,
to make the final singing note growl.
There will be unwinding bed-sheets,
hands slowly releasing the tuning pegs.
There will be slowly sliding scales
as the four limbs loosen past playing.
There will be a simple, quiet exit,
not to ovation, but to a hushed audience
who anticipate an encore,
even though it is uncertain.
MinutesI cannot speak to what liesMinutes3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
beyond the wall of knowledge.
Whether there waits a god
to commend or to condemn us.
Whether there waits a god at all.
I have faith only
that our minutes together
are atoms, elementing us.
I have faith only
that, though moments
may be forgotten, overlooked, or lost,
like matter, they cannot be destroyed.
These minutes are molecules
in our solar storm.
We may dance with them
out past knowing and into god,
or we may dissipate,
throwing them into time.
Yet, I have faith
that these minutes will remain.
BesiegedIf, while thinking of me,Besieged5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you are overcome with noise -
Noise that causes
in your synapses,
disrupts the signals
Noise that hums
with electrical impulses;
Noise that stiffens your bones
by arresting your nerves
with interfering frequencies;
Noise that swallows your serotonin -
I release you.
If, while thinking of me,
you are overwhelmed with honey -
Honey that sickens your stomach
with sweetness and hardens there;
Honey that covers your hands
and works its way through your hair;
Honey that fills your mouth
the way you taste,
the way you smile,
the way you breathe;
Honey that leaks gold
out of the grey folds
of your brain -
I release you.
If, while thinking of me,
you have one memory
that incites you to movement,
that reminds you to breathe -
I was a Lover Once, and YoungI will not go through lifeI was a Lover Once, and Young4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Wondering what our daughter
Would have looked like
She would have had
Dark brown hair,
Wild curls, green eyes,
A mischievous grin,
And Cupid's bow lips.
She would have been
Tall, fair, and thin
I will not go through life
Wondering how we
Would have aged.
We would have aged slowly
With laughing lines,
White hair, grimaces and smiles,
Reluctantly sliding into years.
We would have aged with
My bones knitting over
And over again,
With scars that never left our skin
I will not go through life
Wondering if I had missed something
Loving the child bled out of me,
Tied to the man bleeding for me,
Bleeding for the man tied to me,
Will knot me up
Unable to live again
Unable to love another man
Love and MarriageQuincy was an awful letch,Love and Marriage3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
untamed and yet himself a tamer.
He broke those mild-hearted girls
like horses trained without a bridle.
He sold them off to other boys,
consignment, yet hardly handled gentle,
until the day he found a woman
who was difficult for him to handle.
And though you might believe
that the punch-line is simply that he wed,
ladies, I must confess, I know
an even sweeter ending yet:
Quincy wed a feminist.
FlyThe sky bruises as easily as I do-Fly3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
darkening hues that give way
to bright yellow and white that
give way to black again.
I always had my eye on horizons,
and rebel cumulonimbus.
I rise and set, and rise again;
I boil, release, and then, emptied,
The sky is kin; this skin is constricting.
I'd rather be breath than be breathing.
Body of the RevolutionTo depict you, I studied a pictureBody of the Revolution4 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Of Venus, the woman of women
Considered to be flawless of form
Like you. Yet, in her, I did not find you.
You do not resemble her nature
Though you are a woman.
Will you start a revolution, woman?
Would you commission a picture
Parting from the golden mean of nature
Perfection redefined, woman of women
Recast, a new excellence: you
A precision of countenance and form.
You are no ripe-ribbed Aphrodite in form,
No well-rounded Renaissance woman.
You are no twig. More than bone, you
Are no catwalk girl, no advertisement picture
You are not made like those women
Now the definition of feminine nature
Are you similar to them in nature?
You share a goddess-curved form
Like the marbles of antiquity; women
On catwalks strive for your strength. Woman
Of women, commission a picture.
Recast a new excellence: you.
What do I study to define you?
Should I try to describe your nature?
Would you commission a picture
That I might write, I might cast your form
Had I the MeansI hover, standingHad I the Means4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
in the threshold.
I smoke and salt your silhouette,
tracing your shapes,
your shadowed features,
and your outline.
I wrap your monochromatic palette
in layer over layer
of photographs from
I compromise the tactile,
liken your sideways smile
to a bracket, a backslash,
or a tilde.
I resign myself
to losing your three dimensions.
I have not the means
to confine your way of speech,
your baritone croon,
your dialect, to my art.
I have not the means
of the complete capture,
whole and real.
Had I the means,
LucyAnd in your bed, alone,Lucy5 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I lifted my head,
met the lopsided grin
and the kaleidoscope eyes
of Lucy in the mirror, met
the bruised neck
of your former lover.
I joined those lines
of women perched
on your edge or hung
from your wall, and all cinched
tight with measuring tape.
And, jumping from your precipice
immolatethe first stepimmolate3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
to sadness is to
punctuates the bruised
shorelines with broken hearts and
shore creeps up, kisses
my feet. sometimes he rips through
the distance between
the air here
vibrates to a fire,
sparrow's heart humming in c
major. it does scare
how i might love you
more than ibuprofen, or
the way the light might
through an ether storm.
the person i am now is
with who i
was before you. but
how do i scrape myself out
from under my own
we caught the
moon between our feet,
heads falling behind us.
things i will
you: how you can't stop wearing
lemongrass and how
the smell hides
away under your
collarbone; the way you wear
saturn on your ring
keep neptune's rings as
keepsakes when you come back from
the sky [to remind
my favorite colour
the love affairlife slides under the door andthe love affair5 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I think about you not knowing how to love
and touching a person's sleeping eyelids
to change a dream, to lie here with you
under a silent oak tree, the sunlight
has begun to breathe and I am digging you a grave
for your past and your future, I am
holding you here, the trunk of my car open to let the sweet
sound of a song rise into the
air, it is rushing by
and I have premonitions or
I just got lucky or everything
nothing vanishes without a trace
I hold despair in the palm of my hand and cannot dance
without spilling it onto the floor, it
seeps into the carpet
but you are holding out a towel and the sound
of your laughter is like paper birds settling on the branches of
the tree growing from my ribs
ffeminyddiaethEn road: Il y a du frost outside sur les fields ou el moëbius sobre la historia de la humanidad ou 'ffeminyddiaeth'ffeminyddiaeth4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
(I was feeling very lost
very utterly defeated
until this yesterday with the
travel and the Southern Cross
now know this: i can tell all there is)
When all was god, drugs or new eyes there were also the ma
A Letter To Lillith Kellogg.Yes, of course you can borrow my white dressA Letter To Lillith Kellogg.4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
with the rope straps, and my swirly silver
peace sign necklace. In fact, you can have
them both, because what else can I do? After
all the glorious gifts you have given me, how
could I ever repay you? And of course I will send
your ex-boyfriend Kjel's graffiti guitar, so
perhaps the neon pink and green flower, and
the Milkman Dan comic stained faintly purple
and blue will be the last thing your eyes ever
see. I will give you two hundred dollars for that
beautiful thing, that girl with the blue face covered
in bubbles and stars, such a peaceful expression, such
color, such dimension. I will give you anything you want
for it. When you are sad, don't worry, I will send you a
few grams of pot in the mail, from all the sunshine states,
delivered directly to your cold dark basement. When you
are living in an attic in Louisiana with no money and no
food, I will send you art sup
Silence is a MirrorV.Silence is a Mirror4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I paint the air with
harmony and glance away.
Looking across the room,
I see wood and mirrors,
theatre seats and heavy curtains
marking tape- stage right.
Move down, stage left, bow.
The audience applauds.
Everything that falls
to the floor
shatters and receives
a standing ovation.
The curtains sweep across the stage
scattering little pieces like
jacks, and marbles.
The container is broken and empty
and I cannot take my medicine
I look up and into the
abysmal quiet and
I am not alone.
House on my HeadI grew a house on my head.House on my Head3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I populated it with animals:
a mouse for a housekeeper,
a lizard in the kitchen cooking eggs,
a butler wolf whistling and saying 'sir',
a chinchilla to sweep rooms' corners,
a giraffe wiping windows,
a black Labrador pup to clear the chimneys.
The house is old fashioned but it runs to time.
A sloth winds the clocks;
a badger delves the vegetable patch.
Everyone gets on fabulously
and will eat eggs together at breakfast,
gossiping about the awful state of my head:
how the tubes in my brain need scrubbing out,
you can tell because the plumbing gurgles
and the lights in the attic flicker at unexpected hours.
The landlord, a snub-nosed monkey, is convinced
that nuggets of knowledge are lodged
in the mulch of my swampy mind.
He sends search parties of ants scurrying
down my ear holes, dredging the depths.
He thinks I'm a goldmine to be gutted.
I'm with the mouse. She says my taste isn't bad,
though for the carpets she wouldn't have gone with green;
and the journey
Whales Made Us I paid and got on. A throatful of fumes followed me into my car, stapled with a tsunami of passengers. We sank in our seats and waited for the snack attendant. He came around with bags of emotion; 10 cents for Suspense, 20 cents for Laughter, 50 for Profound Melancholy. I took six packs of Nostalgia and sipped one when the train crawled forward.Whales Made Us3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
The pace leaped into a frantic chase while the lights cut out and our bodies knocked around. The train rushed, our hearts rushed, we remained at ease. Eventually the tracks straightened so that we pressed forward hard like a tongue. At last, the moment.
Outside our windows, light spit images to the tunnel walls. The film was starting. Movie previews were substituted with commercials about suicide prevention. No actors, real masochists with real problems, gagging, injecting, and slashing themselves before our night's scheduled
you've been gone findingyou come back hailing smokeyou've been gone finding4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
and raining moss, hair unwilling
and a little crazed -
you are rifling through all the impossible questions
making philosophy professors chairs creak -
i can almost hear the pages
you've been gone finding
telling us This is how the world works
are laying thick
and clock sure -
you swipe at this wildly
you are saying
with the life in your eyes,
study with me:
the raining copper tongues
and frogs croaking bulbous
the furl of bark when it is stripped
you are asking
with your heavy wet sleeves
stitched in water-rust
The Opus Of The Everythingthe ocean floor, the twisted sea andThe Opus Of The Everything4 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
all the flying jacket bees, and all
the flying birds and he, the one who
caught the glint of spring, who laid
it on the downy dew, the crispy green
of May fescue, who saw the plans of built
up lights that burn to light a thousand
pools of dripping rain and puddles lay
on any given night or day, the brick by
brick, the mortar spread, the snap of sugar
sweetly felt, the brine that made it
through the cloud, the opus of the
everything, the great and wide, the heat
of flame, the sun in cold but sunny sky,
the sound of when a child laughs,
the opus of the everything
For AnasI would lay grass bladeFor Anas3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
end to grass blade, end over
end to the water,
if it would help me comprehend
just how much of a single thing
it takes to reach from here
to the maritime between us.
On reaching there, I would
lay driftwood to driftwood,
step across turtle shells
and walk the length of the Atlantic,
if it could make me understand
that the wheeling Earth under the sun
is just one world despite its size.
I would count the footsteps
left on the shore of the sea
at the middle of the Earth
until the beach of Tel Aviv,
and crawl through olive groves
to meet you.
But when I reach
the graffiti-covered wall
and its soldiers,
after my skin was tanned
and stretched taut
against my weary bones
by my repeated steps to you,
will I be able
to understand what it is
to be caged in?
On Women: My Grandmother IIThe day the world broke openOn Women: My Grandmother II6 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
was the day her husband said he had enough love to cover
her and the other men she loved a thousand times more.
That was the day the world was plucked off a cosmic branch and
smashed open like fruit on a rock.
Molten lava spilling over eternity like the day every babe learned to cry.
This- it seems, is the nature of love.