I Had to LeaveI'm trying to apologize for the damage I've done.I Had to Leave2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
I'm trying to apologize for the man I've become.
Because I stand with my feet in a bloody mess,
I'm undeserving of your sweet forgiveness.
You wonder if I take pleasure in this savage game,
Or if I play for any possible gain.
But I promise, all I wanted was for you to be happy.
Some of my sweetest memories are of you laughing.
You wanted to find out why I was leaving.
You wanted to find out if my promises ever had meaning.
I always said what you wanted to hear,
Just to make you want to stay near.
Whether I felt that way or not is a mystery to ponder,
That is, if you care now that "we" are no longer.
Now there is only one thing left for me to say,
And that's that I hope you find a man that'll stay.
I hope that he will actually earn your love.
It was loveI looked up 'protection' in the dictionary.It was love3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
It said, "a person or thing that prevents someone or something from harm or injury".
I read a story that same day.
'A guy and his girlfriend were speeding down a highway on his motorcycle. The girl was getting scared and asked him to slow down. He said he would, but only if she put his helmet on her head, hugged him tightly and told him that she loved him. She did. It was in the paper that day that they had gotten into a crash because his brakes weren't working.' His actions saved her life. He protected her.
'But why?' was all I could think. I didn't get it.
Just a bit latter, my step dad came home.
He's abusive to my mother, but we have no other way to live.
He was very drunk and they started fighting. I heard them in the kitchen. I heard her scream and ran to try and help, but she just pushed me away and told me to run. Just run as fast and hard as I could.
She was crying and blood was running down her face. He grabbed a knife. I turned wit
Promise Made of MoonlightLet me put you to bed tonightPromise Made of Moonlight6 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
and enfold you in these arms of mine.
Together we can while away the moonlight
as long as I stay by your side.
Listen to me and close your eyes,
sweet dreams are my promise;
this is your lullaby.
WheelWheel3 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
Life is the wheel ever turning
Making the hours go by fast
Though some days drag with yearning,
Life is the wheel.
This wheel is neither slow nor fast
It moves on with change it brings
Always changes in futures cast.
Mundane routines help our learning
Though even these must change at last
For new events that are occurring
Life is the wheel.
Kathy J Anderson, All Rights Reserved
how to dis-a-pare completelyhow to dis-a-pare completely12 years ago in Philosophy & Perspectives More Like This
And she was anonymous but I knew her quite well. It was raining that day, and I gave up. If it isn\'t love then I rather not feel at all but that itself is a sin. I heard this familiar voice in the background; his voice was dull, frail, and very unnoticeable if you weren\'t paying attention. He reminded me what love was and how keeping away from it was the best option, he reminded me that I was wrong and pathetic for even thinking the way I did--but he forgave me. He told me suicide was an easy way out but only pussies take the easy way out. He wasn\'t anonymous but I didn\'t know him at all. He told me to wake up and I did.
My apartment was smaller then others, a lot smaller, bedroom size to be exact. I didn\'t have any need for space. I lived alone. No one came in or out of my apartment except me, I hardly ever went out anyways. I slept on the floor, I didn\'t have any hot water, my fridge was empty, and my room overall was empty. I had no job, all I had was myself--that wa
All Her PrettyAll Her Pretty12 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
She opens the door to let me in and asks me to excuse the mess. I've already forgotten about it, I've known her for years. Her hands are black with charcoal and her hair is lank against her face, having been unwashed for days. I know her aquatic eyes, as if she had been a mermaid in a past life and still longed to return to the water. She dumps her daughter into my arms and heads for the paint hidden in the corner, moving like a rat that's just found a way out of its cage. I attempt to console Emily, trying to heal her damaged heart. It's useless though, all she wants is her mother and a little security. There are piles of clothes everywhere, stacks of old books, filled ashtrays, broken glass scattered over the kitchen floor. I ask her what happened and she tells me that she just got angry at this Tele-marketer and decided to throw some plates around to ease her anger.
"On days like these," she used to say, "it's too cold to swim and everything feels like the weather."
I don't know why
The Night My Daddy Murdered MeMy name is Misty,The Night My Daddy Murdered Me12 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen,
I cannot see.
I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all,
I can't do a wrong,
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.
When I awake
I'm all alone,
The house is dark,
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come,
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get
Just one whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car,
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse,
My name he calls,
I press myself
Against the wall.
I try and hide
From his evil eyes,
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping,
He shouts ugly words,
He says it's my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me,
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it,
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
Getting to Anime North by TTCFrom Union Station:Getting to Anime North by TTC5 years ago in General Non-Fiction More Like This
-Hop on the subway train going Northbound to Downsview(Very important because both sides are northbound. Don't board the one going to Finch)
-Get off at Lawrence West Station
-Make your way to the bus platform
-Get on the Malton 58 bus
-Get off in front of the Toronto Congress Centre
If you can't find the TTC from Union Station, don't be afraid to ask somebody. It's better than wandering around lost for who knows how long.
From Finch Station:
-Hop on the subway train, it only goes in one direction which is southbound
-Get off at Lawrence Station
-Make your way to the bus platform
-Get on the Lawrence bus headed toward Lawrence West Station
-Get on the Malton 58 bus
-Get off in front of the Toronto Congress Centre
From Kennedy Station:
-Hop on the subway train, it only goes in one direction which is westbound
-Get off at St.George Station
-Switch to the Northbound Yonge subway line (you have to head up)
-Get off at Lawrence West station
-Make your way to the b
In My 15th Year: wed. 3:00 pm :In My 15th Year12 years ago in General Fiction More Like This
I'm lying in bed where I've been for over a week only getting out of it to eat a bit and use the bathroom.
Into My room comes my best friend and her teammate from the vollyball team.
They ask me why I haven't been in school, how I am...
I say I'm sick and maybe I'll be back soon.
: wed. 3:30 pm :
I decide I really can't hide in my room forever no solitude.
: wed. 5:00 pm :
Waiting for my stepfather to leave.
: wed. 7:30 pm :
He leaves and I am alone in the house and I will be until after midnight.
I leave my bedroom, head to the bathroom with the broken up daisy razor (pink).
I'm wearing a long pink shirt and pajama bottoms I'm 15 years old.
: wed. 7:47ish pm :
I start the water running lukewarm and sit in the tub fully clothed.
The razor is long in width but short in hight.
I make the first cut going up and down not across ( I want to die )
I do it the " right way " the way of split veins most times beyond repair.
: wed. 8:10ish pm :
The Saint of Impurities 'Is it hard,' the girl started, 'Doing what you do?'The Saint of Impurities3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
She had been expecting a serious answer, but the Saint just laughed, 'No! Why would it be?'
Frowning, she asked, 'Well... Don't you ever get into trouble? For being so... Being so....'
'Being so bad?' He shrugged nonchalantly, but then his blue eyes flashed with silently living laughter, 'Trust me, dear, being bad is absolutely delicious. It's as soft as the night sky on the eyes, with bright sparks of life, like stars. I couldn't live without being bad, to me, being terrible is like breathing. It fills my lungs with the sweet airs of adventure, it lifts my lips into an innocent smile which I can then use to fool those who don't know better. I've kissed the lips of sin, and slapped purity in the face. I've caressed the devil's red hot skin, and let the coals of hell burn the soles of my feet '
'But stop!' The girl interrupted him, 'Doesn't all that get tiring? Don't you ever just
Future Destiny - ZutaraFuture Destiny - ZutaraFuture Destiny - Zutara4 years ago in Romance More Like This
He was always in my dreams. Every night without fail he'd be there.
I sat up in bed, breathing heavily, a cold sweat clinging to my skin. Putting a hand to my head, I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to calm myself. Why was this happening? So much time had passed since I'd last seen him, so why did I still think about him when I had no reason to?
I jumped at the sound of a soft knocking at my door. "Katara? You up yet?" Came the familiar voice of Aang, my best friend and boyfriend for a year.
"Y-yeah. What is it Aang?"
"We got a letter from the Fire lord! Hurry up and join us in the kitchen so we can open it!" He always sounded so enthusiastic. I smiled to myself and pushed away the bed covers, hesitating as my blue eyes caught the paleness of my skin. My hands trembled as I held them up, a flash of memory coming back to me.
The lighting, the pain. 'Help him Katara! You have to help him,' was all I could think.
"Zuko!" I yelled and rushed forward, holding my hand
Scary Stories and PranksScary Stories and Pranks5 years ago in Romance More Like This
So this is a Zutara one-shot, set up right after "The Ember Island Players".
Scary Stories and Pranks
The night was silent as darkness crept in, casting eerie shadows in every corner, in every room, and in every crevice of the large isolated royal beach house on Ember Island. A cold wind swept by, creating a howling sound like that of an injured animal, causing a chill to run down the spine of any who heard its call. Large clouds slithered in the dark sky and would occasionally conceal the full moon that hung in the heavens, cutting off any light and rendering the night pitch black.
The gang huddled together around the warmth of the bonfire in the middle of the courtyard of the quiet beach house as the day drew to an end and the night crawled in. The light cast by the fire drew shadows on the faces of the young teens, enhancing their terrified
Humming Bird SexHumming Bird Sex10 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I feel your pulse on mine
Your breath heavy, making me
You caress my love and I
Tip-toe closer to
Taking all of you in me
I take a deep breath and smell
The wings of a humming bird
escape through your
and into my
niping at my heart
your just another
your more than that
your my secret love
but your shouldn't know
when you call
my heart leaps
a lovers song
and when you leave
Zutara-babyZuko paced back and forth outside the infirmary. He knew he could trust suki and the maids but he was still paranoid. Toph tapped her fingers impatiently on the table. Zukos racing heart and jittery footsteps were getting irritating. Sparky will you just chill out already? Shell be fine Toph sighed. I know I know but I cant help It. he sighed. She rolled her eyes. hes right Toph, I mean I was paranoid beyond wat he was when suki gave birth to sukka, of course Im still more paranoid then him cause thats my sister in there, you just had to be all jittery and stupid sokka squeezed his shoulder hard. Zuko cringed but smiled at his brother in-law. Luckily for all of them the walls and the door were really thick so they couldnt hear Kataras screams. I wish I knew how she was zuko sighed slumping into the couch. Zuko shes barley even got the kid out by now so, just chill Toph sighZutara-baby5 years ago in Fantasy More Like This
Feedback--ZW11~Zutara Week 2011Social Networking~Feedback--ZW113 years ago in Romance More Like This
Sometimes, when she's bored, Katara will sit and write about the way things could have gone if she had changed a few select words or actions. She calls them alternative chapters, deleted scenes of her life that never actually happened.
They always end with kissing Zuko.
She wrote about the time Zuko had tied her to that tree by the lake.
The bark biting into her back, his guttural voice seething into her ear, her precious necklace dangling from pale fingers. He tucks the pendant into a pocket somewhere and leaves a line of rough kisses along her jaw. He feels more than hears her whimper, and his body absorbs the shudder she tries so hard to repress.
"If I let you go, peasant, will you run?"
The waterbender shakes her head as the prince slowly releases her tight constraints. She thinks of running, thinks of all the different ways she could beat him at his own game and leave with both her necklace and her dig
For Lack of a Better WordKatara stood on the beach of Ember Island, arms folded and eyes fixed out on the water. She stared out at the full moon hanging low over the horizon. They had returned from the play a few hours ago and everyone had gone to bed. The play had exhausted most everyone; Toph was really the only one in remotely good spirits when they returned. She had quoted her stage self, punched Aang in the arm and announced she was going to bed. Sokka and Suki had gone for a walk, Aang had remained silent and simply disappeared into the house. Zuko had done the same and Katara had followed suit.For Lack of a Better Word5 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
After lying on her mat, staring out the window for nearly an hour, the Waterbender had gotten up and snuck out of the room. She meandered around the grounds for some time before ending up down at the beach. She took off her shoes and, after a moment of personal deliberation, ditched her trousers as well. She had waded into the water, the hem of her skirt dipping in the waves
Katara's thoughts drifted as the warm
This Much is Okay--PreludeHow was it that her brother could stand getting married? She was worrying over every detail, checking and rechecking she didn't forget anything, and it wasn't even her wedding! Then, she mentally snorted at herself. He was her brother! He didn't care. He just left the "womanly stuff" to the women, and left with his friends to get drunk before his wedding! Suki must have been crazy to accept her brother as friend, let alone as a husband. Katara got stuck with him as a brother, and she couldn't handle him for her whole life, and she was forced to be with him. Yet, Suki chose to stay with him.This Much is Okay--Prelude3 years ago in Romance More Like This
She halted in her tracks. Tui and La, if she was fussing this much over Suki's wedding, how was she going to deal with her own wedding?
A small sound, reminiscent of a baby koala-otter's mewl, emanated from the room beside her. Stunned, Katara first thought was how anyone would have gotten a koala-otter up to the Fire Nation without Katara even knowing of its existence. She always checked every W
A Thousand Words And Then Some~A Zutara Fic~A Thousand Words And Then Some4 years ago in Fan Fiction More Like This
"Your room, Princess Katara," a servant murmured, gesturing vaguely to an almost painfully orate door. The servant's voice wavered as she said princess; clearly, Azula had led her to believe that all royal women were demanding and cruel.
With scrutinizing eyes, Katara looked over the skinny girl. "What is your name?"
A look of fear swept over the face of the questioned servant: whenever Azula had asked for the names of palace staff, she was either going to use them for target practice or have them banished for not accomplishing one of her outrageous, mundane tasks to perfection. "Kai La, p-princess," she managed to stammer.
"Then thank you, Kai La," offered Katara, giving her a hint of a bow to show her gratitude. Again, Kai La's features were consumed with surprise before a delicate smile crept over her thin lips. The princess of the Southern Water Tribe, bowing to a palace maid!
"Of course! I mean, uh, you are very welcome, princess." Red faced and dazed,
winningLife is a game,winning7 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
you play to win.
if you think like me,
then raise your chin.
Ignore the others
except your love
for if you succede,
you will rise above.
Try to be careful,
high in the sky.
It's a long way down,
so your wit must be sly.
Zutara Week Day Seven: Lick*grumble*Zutara Week Day Seven: Lick5 years ago in Teen More Like This
Oh, come on, Zuko! Dont be such a killjoy! Katara scolded him lightly.
That was easy for her to say. She sat there, eating ice cream, while he was paying for every damn thing! And this place was EXPENSIVE.
At least order yourself some, she said, enjoying her chocolate ice cream.
I. HAVE. NO MONEY. THANKS. TO. YOU!
She put feigned hurt. Zuzu
DONT CALL ME THAT! he yelled, turning a few heads. Katara smiled around apologetically, before turning around to glare at Zuko. You dont have to yell! she whispered furiously.
He just growled, crossed his arms, and pouted. He looked so much like a little kid throwing a tantrum, Katara had to bite down on her tongue to keep herself from laughing. She couldnt mask the goofy smile spreading on her face, and Zukos scowl deepene
Zutara Week Day FourGuess what I got? Sokka sang annoyingly, prancing around carrying a large pitcher. Everyone was sitting in the same room as they had a few days ago (see Jealousy) looking at Sokka oddly.Zutara Week Day Four5 years ago in Teen More Like This
Gee, I wonder Katara said sarcastically. Sokka ignored her and hoisting the jar higher, announced, Cactus juice!
Katara and Toph groaned.
Sokka Katara began, but stopped, just shaking her head. Toph just snorted.
You are as dumb as you sound, Snoozles.
Aang, Suki, and Zuko looked at the girls and Sokka in confusion.
Whats wrong with cactus juice? Aang asked.
Sokka and cactus juice equals disaster. Katara then proceeded to try and take the juice away from Sokka.
Aw, Katara! Come on! Sokka whined, but Katara ignored him and took the pitcher and threw it outside.
Sulking, Sokka headed to
Igloo"You live here, aren't you supposed to know when storms are coming?" Zuko asked breathing fire on to his fingers.Igloo3 years ago in Humor More Like This
"I'm sorry, your majesty, but sometimes the weather can change in the blink of an eye. It was sunny and warm when we set out. How was I supposed to know that a blizzard would blow in?" She wasn't particularly happy about his tone. She wasn't particularly happy about anything right now but that was beside the point. "Would you mind sharing some of the heat please?"
They were sitting in the ice and show shelter that Katara had waterbent once it became clear that trying to get back to her village in the storm was impossible. They had been going to see the old Fire Nation ship that was stuck in the ice. Zuko claimed he wanted to see if there was anything salvageable about the wreck and maybe he would try to take it back with him. Katara personally thought it was an act of penance on h
Never Quite DiscoveredThere was a general feeling of weight on those around the fire that night. They'd all gone to see a ridiculous play in town that made them all look like cartoon characters, and everyone had come away with different feelings about it. Being the newest member of the gang, Zuko liked to observe rather than speak most of the time. It was a new role for him, more submissive than he'd been before, but he was slowly learning that thinking before speaking, letting others have their say first gave him less opportunity to get himself in trouble.Never Quite Discovered3 years ago in Romance More Like This
Toph was the only one who'd been truly happy with her portrayal; a big muscular man who could squash anyone under his foot. She talked animatedly with Sokka and Suki as they'd all made their way back to their camp. Aang and Katara were the quietest he'd ever seen them, and Zuko didn't quite know what to make of it.
Now, as the fire was turning to embers and the embers turning to coals, everyone began drifting off to their own tents. Katara and Aang still
Silent Kiss Of Good Night I slowly reached for his face, "Sokka, doesn't bother you that I'm blind" I felt his muscles tense under my touch. "Why you asking Toph, that's stupid, of course I don't" he laughed. I took my hand away and turned, "you're lying to me" I started walking, I heard him screaming but ignored it. I went in my room and locked it. I knew he wouldn't be able to take it, I just knew it. Who wants to be with a blind girl for the rest of his life? NOBODY.Silent Kiss Of Good Night4 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I hit the wall. Got in bed and cried my sightless eyes to silence. I heard the echo of my heart beat raising every time I heard his voice calling me. Then a knock on the door. "Go away you meat head" "Toph let me in or I'll break the door open" he said. "Good luck with that" I answered him. I counted inside my head, 1, 2, 3, PUM.
"You gonna hear me out, you like it or not Toph Bei Fong""Go AWAY!!!!!!!!" I screeched. He jumped on bed on top of me and took the quilts off my face. "Sokka Ookami,