So, I lied.I am a poet.So, I lied.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
that's what my
skin tells me when
I'm slowly melting into
bed sheets not worth
lying in twice.
Half sick of shadows,
I think I've lost my mind.
My thoughts are s p i n n i n g
and my bones are shaking.
But I keep repeating re-peating
repeating your name like a mantra.
All I want to do is sleep.
But you see,
I bleed more than red
and there is this ink pen
digging through my skin.
The Stage 1 His arm is around my back as we make it back stage and somehow end up alone in a corridor though we should be surrounded by staff and crews but there is only him and me there allowing me to speak freely. I know he knows what is going through my head even if he doesn't know what happened tonight and when he squeezes my hip I know he is trying to be there for me regardless. If I didn't have these great guys around me I would have fallen so long ago but as it is now I can keep fighting without the public knowing about it because the band catches me every time I fail, like now. CC clears his throat as we reach the door where he is supposed to be getting ready and I know he is expecting me to say something though he won't mind if I don't so I have to. Closing my eyes I rest my forehead against the cold wall while trying to come up with something to say but everything is blank until the girl from earlier pops into my mind and I sob helplessly. I desperately wish I knew why some gThe Stage 13 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
You LeftThere is a hole nowYou Left2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Where my heart used to be
You tore it out of my chest
When you left
You left our family
I understand your reason
But still I cry
I cry because it hurts
It hurts so damn much
I can barely breath
You were the air in my lungs
My blood falling on the floor
Our bed empty now
As are my eyes
As is my chest
But I will wait for you
I will wait for your return
I know you will
When you're ready
I will be waiting
But untill then...
I will be crying
From the outside and inside
Because it hurts so much
I can barely breath
Broken but I will wait
For your return
We are bound forever
We are meant to be forever together
But for now
I wish you all the strenght you need
In your journey to your soul
To dieIt's not that something made me want to die,To die2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
It's that nothing made me want to live.
It's not the thing I couldn't take,
It's the thing I couldn't give.
I didn't really want to die,
I just couldn't stand to be alive.
AshiteruWhen I stopped breathing my heart went numbAshiteru2 years ago in Traditional Fixed Forms More Like This
And the waves of my heart began to drum
You would smile at me and I would slowly break down
It was only you and me and no one else around
My once fragile life burst into dust
Having you with me was always a must
Looking back at it now you took my breath from me
The first time you kissed me was a guarantee
It sent shivers down my body and rattled my spine
You branded me and owned me with your spark of design
And when you would sleep I'd still be awake
My nerves still shook and they continued to quake
You looked like an angel sent from above
No matter how cliché; it's what we call love
Admittingly I'll say that I soon became attached
I was quick to love you, our hearts matched
It scared me to think I was starting to let go
But it had to happen now, I had to foreshow
Now, don't get me wrong and don't think I'm insane
But my life wasn't perfect even with you in my brain
I still cried a lot and kept to my habits
But with you by my side we con
Broken Promises.I nailed my heart back into my chest-Broken Promises.2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
And wiped my tears when you disappeared.
I see no hope for us.
I think we're over and done,
Death is calling my name-
You have left me in vain.
I hope your life is fucking swell,
That your love finds its match somewhere in hell.
I wish you almost the best-
And offer another apology to the list.
I couldn't be whom you wanted,
Couldn't rise up to your expectations.
I'm sorry I couldn't change.
Sorry I couldn't be,
Your perfect little baby.
It's time for me to go-
Maybe I'll come back as a pretty ghost.
All I know is,
I'll always love you.
Midnight Ravings of Love and LossI feel nothing.Midnight Ravings of Love and Loss2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
I have no reason to go to sleep in the evening,
I have no reason to get up in the morning.
He did this.
He changed me.
He was at the center of the best moment of my young life
and when everything I knew came crashing down, with him to blame
he helped me rebuild.
His soft voice and vulgar humor sustained me.
His eyes, his hair, his body seduced me.
His laugh, his mere existence brought me happiness
I owe him everything.
He changed me.
He was my reason to go to sleep in the evening,
He was the reason to get up in the morning.
He was my world.
He forced me to feel
He made me feel love
Even if it was all one sided,
he made me feel.
I'm sure I'll miss those feelings
I know I'll miss him.
But, right now, I can't tell.
I feel nothing.
Hold meHold my hand,Hold me2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Help me through,
I don't want to do this
I can't see ahead,
Tears blind my eyes.
Please hold my hand,
Don't leave me hypnotised.
Take my hand,
Don't let it go,
Or I'll drift out to sea
for all I know.
I am so scared,
These times are rough.
Please hold me close,
I need someone tough.
Please hold my hand,
Don't let it go.
That I can't do this without you,
Is all that I know.
You're My PoisonI'm dyingYou're My Poison1 year ago in Urban & Spoken Word More Like This
The pain seeps through
Clutching at my heart
Ripping it to shreds,
You merely watch
Pretending you're not the cuase
Seeing me die slowly
Every time you leave me,
But you return
As you always do
Slowly sucking the poison out
That you yourself placed
And i begin to forget,
Just for a moment,
And fall back into love with you again.
And with every kiss
Every time we fuck
Every second i spend loving you,
I feel the poison
Seeping back into my heart
And with everytime you leave me
i begin to die again
While you pretend not to see.
You're the poison and the antitode
My killer and saviour
The reason i want to live
While i slit my wrists,
You're my poison
And my addiction
As i continue to drink you in
And choke you down
By the White WolfBy the White Wolf2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
By the White Wolf
She's come to me now
It's finally over
I pass into the gray
Her visage terrible and wonderful to behold
Her fur stark white
The spirit of death is she
She comes to guide my soul
What remains of me
I still my heartbeat
I quench my breath
She has marked me with the scent of death
Close your eyes and expose your neck
Let her sink her fangs into you throat
Let her bleed you of your spirit
Let her bleed you of your soul
Let her guide you into the gray
There is no family now
No pack to depend on
In the end we start our road alone
We will see the ones we love when she visits them
Stare into her eyes now
It's time to follow her
Time for the finial journey
Time for you to rest
By the White Wolf
PleaPlea2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Не оставь меня в покое
Ты весь мой мир,
Я не хочу быть без тебя
За то, что я сделал не так
Если бы я мог
Я хотел бы начать все сначала
Regurgitationprofessors and teachers and poetsRegurgitation3 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
artists and authors and media whores
they feed me ideas
tidbits of information and i
and sometimes i choke
some are sweet
some make me sick
and some i let tumble around in my belly like a dryer
warm and soft and a little bit acidic
and after all of the eating
eight hours of effort
chewing and sitting and sketching and notes
i'm afraid that all i'll ever do
Foxx and Owl - Part 1Foxx and Owl - Part 12 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Shit," she stammered through chattering teeth. "Where the hell is Owl?"
Foxx waited. Wringing her fingers together tightly and hunching her shoulders, she turned her back to the lower city winds. The stone bench she had made her perch for the past 45 minutes wasn't the warmest place to kill time, but she had suffered worse. She tapped the nose of her mask, bored, all the time wondering what was taking Owl so long.
Foxx always wore her mask in public; a red fox mask with vacant yellow eyes. She pulled her lightweight jacket tighter around her body, shivering all the while, waiting. The wind existed to be unforgiving today.
A jingle caught Foxx's attention and she jerked her head in the direction of the noise. "Damnit," she cursed. It was just the door to the old Chinese noodle shop opening. One of the waiters swept th
LesbianGod loved the two girls at the end of my street.Lesbian2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Everywhere they went, they went together,
hand-in-hand so they didn't get lost,
laughing at everything and nothing
all at once.
He was so proud of them.
They never stole, they never swore,
they brushed their teeth twice a day
and always said their prayers.
It was a gift, said the townspeople,
that two girls as perfect as they were
were born in the same place.
an even greater gift, said they,
that those two were the best of friends.
Long nights spent giggling in rooms with closed doors
was a good thing, back then.
halfway between their houses
and in the middle of the street,
they realized that they loved each other.
A gaze lingered a moment too long,
a heart beat a little too fast...
They kissed for the first time on a park bench,
hidden from the rest of the world.
God doesn't love them anymore.
Rose tinted memoriesI’ve felt this way since we first metRose tinted memories1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
My heart pounded fast and I couldn’t behave
My hands were always shaking and my words wouldn’t come out the same
I removed all that’s dreaded to change my old ways
But time has passed now, and everything has changed
The love I once felt might no longer be awake
But I know deep inside that things remain unchanged
Because I might forget your face but the good moments will never go away
You'd think twiceYou'd think twice,You'd think twice1 year ago in Free Verse More Like This
I know you would.
If you knew the truth
of what I've done.
I've hurt myself,
and I can't promise
I won't do it again.
I'm broken down,
and not very pretty
in the first place
so if you knew everything else
you would think twice
I know almost certainly.
For why have someone that is
broken and insecure
when you can have
someone with less problems?
why go after me,
when there's someone better?
who has no scars,
who has not hurt their family.
someone that is not damaged.
yes I'm pretty sure
you would think twice
about liking me
if you knew the whole truth.
because why have me
when there's someone
that isn't broken
Exotic Awakening - Tabby pt 3Exotic Awakening - Tabby pt 37 years ago in Erotic More Like This
Exotic Awakening 'part 3' (Soul Mate)
Disclaimer (same in part 1. Though placed in the "Erotic" section, this part contains only one scene of innocent love. Enjoy the final chapter)
Everything was happening fast now; I barely could control my feline side. I leapt back onto the bed and began to sharpen my claws on the mattress, the cotton and fabric sticking to my pawlike hands. I rolled around my back, pawing at the air like a playful kitten, laughing at how wonderful this felt.
My curiosity for my looks returned to me, rolling back onto all fours and leaping off the bed again near the same distance as before, astounded at how far I could jump and how elegant I could land.
I finally stood in front of the mirror, smiling at the changes that had overcome me. My face was now partly devoid of h
Maypole DancingA Labyrinth one-shot...Maypole Dancing3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
Sarah stood anxiously awaiting the dance to begin. The grassy field was full of smiling people who stood in one of two circles. The outer circle was the larger one, full of spectators who joyously cheered and called out for those in the inner circle. The inner circle was comprised of the dancers. Each held a long twenty-foot strand of ribbon in their hands, prepared to start the dance at the call of the Master of Ceremonies. Sarah herself, stood in the inner circle, dressed in one of her mother's old costumes and a flower circlet in her dark hair let loose to blow in the slight breeze.
She smiled widely and her hands gripped the green ribbon in her hands tighter. The other nineteen dancers swayed, ready for the dance to begin. The Master of Ceremonies, a tall man dressed in traditional Irish garb, walked to the center near the maypole. He held up his hands and the crowd fell silent. "Welcome to the thirteenth annual May Day festival!" he greeted th
SingTender voice sing to me,Sing2 years ago in Free Verse More Like This
Hold me close and told me so,
That I know I'm close to home.
Tell me now that I'm safe,
Even if this life is fake.
Sing to me and tell me now,
How far this life has come,
That I can say for now,
"I know that I am alive and well."
The voice tells me truth,
When you say how false it is,
Cause I can see how true it is,
That you are not who you are.
The truth is before me,
I know that it will set me free.
DOSZAPDOSZAP3 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
I still remember the day I got my first ever Pokémon game. I was around 8-10 years old at the time.
My mum and dad had just came back from a shopping trip and I was in my room busying myself with my only Pokémon related game at the time: Pokémon Stadium. I mashed the buttons on the control wildly as the oncoming attack from the opponent Dragonair sent my Jolteon's health quickly down to zero, I was just about to send out the next Pokémon in my teams line-up when my mum called me from downstairs. The console's remote fell to the floor with a loud clunk (something I would regret in later life as I now only have one working remote) as I raced out my bedroom door, I knew what was coming, something I'd been waiting for, for a long time.
My mum was in our sitting room. She held a plain plastic bag in her hands and had a welcoming smile on her face. "I got you something while I was in town. Come see." She chimed as she handed me the bag. By this point, my heart was poundin
The Mire One gloomy evening, when the sunlight would still paint the sky blue and the birds mark the death of the light with their sweet tunes, I was walking down a path to a village that lay through a dark yet beautiful forest. As I turned around a corner, the woods, which were full of life, grew silent. I didn't notice that however for I was admiring the beauty of the village cathedral which could already be seen far away. But after a few paces an obscure noise reached my ears and made me draw my attention from the building. On hearing the sound I stopped for a moment and looked around with curiosity. It came again and louder so I looked towards the place the noise seemed to be coming from and took a few uncertain steps towards the trees. There was a strange disturbance in that dull sound. It came once more and clear enough for me to identify it as a scream, coming from the depths of woods. I stood there confused, anxiously gazing into the depths of the forest. I was nailed in my place, notThe Mire2 years ago in Short Stories More Like This
SS: Like No One Ever WasSS: Like No One Ever Was3 years ago in Flash Fiction & Vignettes More Like This
A/N: First of all, I don't want to hear any complaints about the "four moves" rule of Pokemon. The whole point of this piece is to explore the concept outside of its normal parameters in a more organic way. How many Pokemon attacks can you catch on to? ;D
This piece is a tribute to Pokemon, a big part of my formative years, as well an homage to the many (likely now pathetic) chapters I once wrote of Pokemon fiction as a child, and an expression of the idea of regret and loss in this land of Adulthood - reflection on who we become as we age, and how we cope with it.
Same Skies: Like No One Ever Was
I flex my toes, digging my nails into the dry dirt. I suck in a deep breath and slowly exhale, the steam pouring out through my nostrils. I am ready. I am a dragon in a can.
I survey my opponent on this quiet morning. He reeks of some old acquaintance whom I've met before, I'm sure. Hunched on all fours, he appears to be just as determined and prepared as I am. We exchang
AshenI'd just finished cleaning the silt out of the last generator and dropped it back into the water when Pit found me.Ashen2 months ago in Short Stories More Like This
"Up and running?" he asked.
"Spinning away. Lot of minerals in these rivers down here. Lot more than up on the surface. Fucks up the works."
Pit nodded. "Least there's no snow down here."
I didn't get into it with him. Last time we went topside, Pit left a hand in that snow. If I closed my eyes, I could still smell the skin melting. "You need something?"
Pit looked past me, toward my boy. Jacob. He was scrubbing away at a filthy generator part, or at least pretending to be.
I gritted my teeth, then looked at Jacob. He looked back, with huge eyes that didn't miss much. So much of his mother there.
"Head out, kid," I said. "Take these last couple generators with you. Take 'em up to Zeb for cleaning, we can't do nothing for 'em down here."
After my kid was gone, Pit came down to business.
"There's a nooge up top," he said. "Crazy fucker walked right up to the picket line. Sa
Everything Under the Stars 19Everything Under the Stars 192 years ago in Introductions & Chapters More Like This
Chapter 19: Afterglow
© Lady Owl
Neelix glanced over at Heather from across the room.
She sat on the edge of the bed, legs crossed and head tilted downward. Her fingers fumbled nervously at her ipod and he could see that she was lost, deep in thought.
The walk back home had been long and silent. After the initial shock of what had happened at the club, had passed, everything was just.. a blur.
He wanted to say something to her, anything, but her silence indicated to him that she needed to be alone, so he had let her be... hopeful that, when she was ready, she would speak to him.
But she hadn't...
The anticipation had built within him to the point that it had become unbearable, and Neelix finally stood from the kitchen table. He noticed Heather turn her head slightly to glance at him... only to then lower her gaze back down at her hands and grip her ipod tightly as he approached.
He didn't say a word as he slowly sat himself down beside her, but when he saw her ey